_Axel Blake_

I am being saved. I am happy. It's a weird feeling, maybe cause I have never felt this much filled or felt this much loved by someone.

Is it the warmth of this place or the fragrance of the flowers?

A soothing fragnance

I don't know.

Oh ya, it's because of this girl, this girl smiling brightly defeating the sun but same time as cool as moon. But that is not the only thing I love, I like it because she is smiling at me, for me.

But the thing beating beneath my chest knows this will not last, it never will.
"Ok now you're making me worry." Mia brings me back from my thoughts. She's eating the brownie I made for her this afternoon and I am eating the Chocó chip cookie she made.

"Oh" I dint realize I stared too much at her "if there is anyone that should be worried about this situation then that must be me! My dear queen, I suppose u don't remember attacking me TWICE" I smirked.

"Oh then there is more for u to be worried because it seems I am going to eat u anytime" she smiled coyly.

I never gonna get used to her sassiness.
"Will you forgive if a person betrays you?" I ask purely based on my guilt. Even though I knew the answer, guess I am being selfish for wanting to hear the answer which will never please me.

She was silent for a brief minute before she spoke "I won't"

Even though I knew it, it doesn't hurt less. She frowned her brows worried. I shrugged it off smiling. The best fakest smile I could come up with.
She remained silence for the rest of our dinner whereas I stared at her taking in all of her, I don't want to blink my eyes, I want to see her , feel her, as far I am allowed to, as far as I can, as far as I have time.

"I am happy axel" she smiled but I could see tears shining from her eye. She must have guessed what is going to happen. She is always the cleverest one.

"Me too but more than you, I feel alive for the first time in all 10 years." I replied from my heart.

"So what is gonna happen? Am I going to die?" She inquired laughing but I could see pain in her eyes "if so I want it to be less painful"

"You're not gonna die, idiot" I confess "but you will feel pain not physically, I wish I could change that but there is something you need to know" I finish.

Till now she has managed to remain composed but I know she is trying her best not to cry not to be weak that too in front of someone who will betray her. She doesn't need to say this I could understand that from her as she presses her hands together tightly and trying hard not to burst into tears. She is the same Mia I encountered few years ago. Nothing has changed between us except for me. I am not the same old axel; I have become weak, a coward, not able to protect the person I love, not able to make the right choice.

I felt her tiny fingers on my cheeks, cold and fragile. That's when I realized I am crying, tears flowing without my concern. I hold her hands that were on my cheeks "I am sorry, I have to do this" I say in stern voice, gathering myself again. I have to be strong I have to do this for her.

"Don't be" she smiled for me. "What is it? I can take any bad news, nothing is going to be as bad as being a blood sucker" she joked.

Damn her jokes.

"I am not the one who must say"

"ok now you're freaking me out" she puts her hand in air to defense .she waited for my response but I dint give one. "Hey...don't tell me you..... Dint bath today? That is why I am getting stronger scent from you, eueee" she cringed her nose.

"Will u stop that" I giggle. Man, this girl.

I am sure she just wants this to be less painful for me too, why is she this nice to me after all of this? But I don't think she will be fond of me anymore after she hears the TRUTH.

"Stop what?"

"Mia, I am trying to be serious here"

"I know, it's just am fed up with all the crying and dramas so am trying my best not to"

This is the last, the last time you cry, I hope I could make this easy for you but I don't have the right to do it. I am sorry.
"Mia, I am-"

"Don't. Sorry is the least I want to hear now" she exploded. "It is not even your fault"

"It's jus-". I was cut off by heavy knocking of the door.

They are here.

Mia stood from the Dinning chair perplexed.

"Wait here ok? I will be back "I told her.

I walked to the door bringing them inside. I lead them to the dining hall.

Seeing them, Mia's face lost its colours.

Here it goes.

Hey guys,
I am terribly sorry for disappearing for really long time. I had to go through some college stuff so kindly forgive me. And do vote and comment. And have a lots of fun , enjoy ur day .

Aren't they just so cute. Shipping Peter Kavinsky and Lara Jean . Loved the film so so much.

With love
Kristy