sometimes she get these feelings

it's like nostalgia only it's futuristic

that sounds cool so she sticks with it

it's the feeling she gets when she thinks of growing old

it's this funny feeling that's sad and happy at the time

she thinks of wanting to move away and she thinks of leaving everything

her family and friends

but they won't care or at least she thinks so

who would miss her

sometimes she thinks of how she'll become nothing

she'll be working at a gas station and she'll never be happy

she's not happy now

and it hurts

sometimes shes happy

sometimes

most of the times she not sad but she feels like it

like somethings tearing her part from inside out

she wants to do something that will make her life feel meaningful but she can't think of anything

sometimes she wishes she wasn't here

but it makes her cry

she doesn't want to die but she doesn't want to be here

sometimes she wants to leave

but it's not possible

because she's young and stupid

at least she thinks so

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