Hey! Enjoy...remember he has really high anxiety eight now. I know only a little about anxiety so dont judge me !

She looks bored. She looks annoyed. Why does she hate me so much? Am I really that annoying for people to hate me?

"Okay...the bus is here. We have to go. We have about an hour of relaxing intill the day basically starts" john tells us after andrew texted him.

I nod. I dont want do to this. Its too much.

"Shawn?"I hear ian say. I look up and see john, him and Alyssa starring at me. Them being shortly in front of me with their bags in their hands.

"Oh right" I chuckle playing it off. I grab my bag and catch up with them.

I look over at john who looks tired. Why is he tired?

I look over at ian who looks happy. Why is he happy? Is he really happy?

I look over at alyssa and she looks the same.

i look around and see all the people in the room stare at me. why are they staring?

i hurry up my paste and go to john. i look at him and he looks at me. i cant focus at his expression. i could only hear my heart beating like it wont stop only if i calm down. i start to feel a bit sweaty and hot so i take off my hoodie. My breathing gets harder and it feels like im chocking. i keep walking with ian by my side and alyssa on the other side of john. we make it outside in the fresh air.

thank god.

i look up and see our or my tour bus, parking right in front of the hotle. i sigh.

"okay, go and unpack your stuff in the bus. i will be back in a few.", John tells us. why is he leaving? what if something bad happens when he leaves.

"were are you going? can i go"i ask fast. i turn my head to face john. He looks at me and nods.

i sigh in relief. i look to see ian looking at me and alyssa now looking a bit confused as well. what?

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As i walk in the hotel lobby i automatically feel the nice warm air hitting me. "shawn? are you okay? you have been off since this morning.'', he asks me looking worried.

i decide to tell him because he is basically like a second dad to me.

"uh-uh i my anxiety has been working up. its bad.l-like really. really bad right now. i ca-cant breath. whe-were -where are you going?"i ask getting sweaty and nervous. what if he leaves? who is going to be my body guard then?

"shawn...breath in and out. come on lets take a seat",john tells me. i nod and find a seat near by. i take a seat and breath in and out.

"where are you going? when are you leaving? are you lea-leaving?", i ask not knowing why he needed to come back inside.i feel my breathing getting harder and harder to use and my chest tightens. I also feel a bit nausea and my head is spinning.

"shawn ,buddy,listen your having a panic attack"

"w-hat why?"i ask being afraid of having a panic attack. Am i fine? Am i going to be fine?

"no.no. shawn just breath in and out. look im right here. im not going any where. im not leaving.in and out"he tells me.

in

out

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out

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out

i do as told in till my breathing is back to normal. i see my vision getting back together and see john, ian and alyssa standing in front of me. i nod and sign. feeling my chest hurting and my head.

"you okay?",ian asks. i nod and stand up.

instantly feeling unsteady and i begin to stumble but being caught by two hands. The hands are smaller then usual. To small to be ians or johns. which leads us down to the only person left. Alyssa. Alyssa helps me up and puts me back on the chair. i look and see a worried face plastered on her face. worried? shes worried for me? Why? she hates me.

"shawn...i know how much you hate this but were going to the hospital. Just to get a new perscription of the meds. You just started tour. What are you feeling?"John asks me.

"dizzy", i say.

Alyssa is now sitting down next to ian talking about something. are they talking about me?

"can you walk?'',john asks.

"i can try", i say getting up. suddenly feeling dizzy. John grabs me by the waist and supports me. The world is spinning just like a mary-go-around. accept im not having fun. I then feel a bit nausea . i groan at the feeling.

"john,i feel like im going to throw up", i say holding my stomach.

"hold on"

i nod.

we start walking towards the exit to the bus. each step i take gets me more dizzier. Alyssa and Ian are walking behind us. we exist the building and enter the bus. John take me to the bathroom and i throw up.After i clean up and go lay down.

What im going to do for the rest of the day?

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