"Look at me!" I scream. He looks down at the ground. I throw his phone away and stand up. I slowly head to him.

"I ask you this one last time, did you ever loved me or not?" I say really calm and angry at the same time. He swallows and still doesn't look at me.

"Go, now!" I show him the door and he doesn't move. "Are you deaf? I said go!" I scream. "No" he says quietly. "No?! How dare you to say no!" I have never been so mad in my intire life. All my emotions are coming out. I thought he really loved me..

"How could you Shawn? After everything we been through." He wants to come closer. "Don't you dare to come closer! Stay away from me!"

He still comes closer to me well, I thought he did. He walks to the door and there he stands. "I'm sorry Jade, I had to do it" and he leaves. What does he mean with 'I had to do it?'

I hear the front door closing and I head to the bathroom. I can't believe that he did this for his friends. I thought I really changed him.

Words keep repeating themselves in my head. I had to do it, but why? I can't ask him, it's too late. And beside, he only makes me sad. I wish I had a boy who truly loves me. But guess what, life hates me.

I take a shower and I hear my phone ringing. I sigh and step out of the shower. I look at the name. Shawn. Great, this day is getting better and better.

"What do you want?" I say. "I'm truly sorry Jade, I had no idea that you loved me." "Well, you said it in the right tense, exactly I loved you." Or do I still love him?

It's quiet, he doesn't say anything. "But what is the real reason you're calling me? I hope you have a good reason, because 'I'm sorry' aren't the words I want to hear" I say. He still gives me no answer, if things are getting too much he always says nothing, it's so annoying.

"Okay I know enough bye Shawn" and hang up. I sigh and head to my room. All I want to do is crying, I thought he really loved me. But of course, life hates me.

I close my eyes and hear my phone ringing. Don't answer it Jade. I turn around and fall a sleep.

The next morning I wake up with a huge headache. I grab my phone and read my messages. A lot of messages from Shawn. I sigh and leave my bed.

I put my bathrobe on and head to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror. I look so tired. I throw water in my face and leave the bathroom.

I head downstairs and yawn. This day is going to be so boring I swear. I head to the kitchen and make pancakes. I know, it isn't healthy but hey! If you're heart broken you can eat whatever you want to eat.

After I made my pancakes I head to the living room but then I let go of my bord. It's broken, just like my heart. I look in his eyes. "W-what are you doing here?" I say quietly. He stands up and heads to me. "N-no! Go away!" I scream.

I take a step back but everytime I do that he comes a step closer until I hit a wall. "Please go" I say quietly. He has a lot of guild in his eyes and a lot of pain. "Jade please" he says. I press my lips together and look at the ceiling. I feel the tears in my eyes.

"Babe please don't cry." "Don't call me babe, you idiot!" I scream. He looks sad. "Just go" I say. "No." He comes closer and puts his hands on my waist. I just let them there, because I know if I take them away he would do it again. "I want to explain some things just let me talk okay?" I sigh and swallow. "Fine then."

He reaches a hand out to me but I shake my head. We are heading to the couch. We both take a seat, but not right next to each other.

"Talk" I say. "Well okay, you read the messages. But isn't what you think it was. I made this stupid deal with Cameron a while ago. Why? I was the badboy and I thought you was easy to get. But from the moment we run against each other it felt different. The first moment I touched you it felt different. I started to hang out with you and I actually enjoyed it, and the most important thing, I felt in love with you."

I see he has a tear on his cheek. "I didn't want to make you cry" he says quietly. I smile. "Your words, they are so beautiful." "I speak the truth." Deep in my heart I know he has feelings.

He stands up and sits right next to me. "I have never cried before, you have no idea what you're doing to me Jade." I look at him. His brown eyes are so beautiful. Is he really meaning it?

His face comes closer to mine but I stop him. "Too soon" I say. He nods. "I understand, sorry." I smile. "Isn't necessary." "Can we start over?" he asks. "What do you mean?"

He stands up and reaches a hand out to me. "Eh?" "I'm Shawn Mendes, and you are?" I roll my eyes. "You're supposed to grab my hand" he says quietly. I smile and grab his hand. "I'm Jade." He smiles. "Nice to meet you Jade."

There is a silence, not a bad one but a good one. We are looking in each other eyes. His thumb caresses my cheek. I look down at the ground but his finger lifts my chin up so I have to look at him.

He comes closer and kisses me. I push him away. "Too soon?" he asks. "I don't kiss strangers" I wisper in his ear and walk away. I turn around and give him a smile.

I head to my room and stand in front of the mirror. What to wear today? I'm looking through my clothes but I can't find anything. Suddenly I feel two arms around my waist. "What are you doing?" he says in my ear. It gives me goosebumps. "Looking for clothes."

"Why? I prefer you without it." I turn around and look at him. "What did you say?" "You heard me" he smirks. "I prefer you without your shirt" I wisper in his ear. Shawn bites on his lip. I have no idea why, but it gives me a strange feeling when he is doing that.

"Well, what can we do about that Jade?" he asks. "I have no idea Shawn, I think you should take it off" I say quietly. I go with my hands under his shirt and rub over his sixpack. "You can take it off if you want hun."

I take his shirt off and look at his body. "But then you have to take off your bathrobe." He wants to take my bathrobe off but I run away. "Jade!" he screams. I laugh.

I head as fast as I can downstairs. "Jade!" he screams. I hide behind a door. "Jade?" he says quietly. I laugh but apparently too loud because Shawn has found me. "Don't you dare to run away again" and he lifts me up.

My legs are around his waist. We are heading to my room and he let's go of me in my bed. He takes my bathrobe off. And yes, I'm wearing underwear.

We are looking at each other and we both laugh. "Shawn am I interesting? You keep staring at me" I smile. He takes a deep breath. And then he says something I thought he would never say.

"I love you Jade Watson, more than you will ever know."