A/n: Explicit language in this one! Anyways, please enjoy this imagine. Okay, without further ado, let's begin!

Shawn's point of view

I've been dating Y/n Y/l/n for a little over six months but I've known her for a little over ten months. I've been writing lots of music about her. She's a great source of inspiration. Her beauty is breathtaking and she's just so amazing in every possible way. I was on my balcony playing guitar one morning when I felt hands on my shoulders, causing me to jump.

"Shhh handsome, it's just me." Y/n said as she leaned down and kissed my cheek.

"Good morning baby." I said as I set the guitar down and patted my lap. She knew what I wanted so she moved so she was straddling my lap.

"Good morning honey." She said. She leaned down and kissed me. As our lips met, I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt sparks shoot through my body like fireworks, and I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my stomach. My phone rang, so she pulled away.

"I want to kiss you more." I whined.

"I know baby, but it looks like Andrew is calling." She said. I picked up my phone and answered it but used one hand to hold her waist so she wouldn't leave my lap.

"Hey Andrew." I said.

"Hey, um, I have a question for you." He said.

"What's up man?" I asked. Y/n played with my small amount of chest hair that I have.

"Well, I was thinking that you should probably get back into the studio soon." He said. I patted Y/n's side, and she got off my lap.

"I'll be right back baby." I said to her.

"Okay." She said. I went inside and shut the door.

"But that would mean making an album and then touring and touring would mean being away from Y/n." I said.

"I know, but you can't put everything on hold for her forever. This is your career." Andrew said. I ran my fingers through my hair.

"When would I need to get into the studio and what studio would it be?" I asked.

"It would be the one in Malibu, and we would like you in the studio as soon as possible." Andrew said.

"Y/n's staying with me in Canada for the summer though." I pointed out, hoping that I could get a little longer here with her.

"Bring her to Malibu. She can hang out in the studio." Andrew said.

"She'll probably have to talk to her mom. Let me talk to her and then I'll call you back." I said.

"Okay." He said, and we hung up. I put my phone in my pocket and sighed. I then went back outside to the balcony. Y/n smiled at me and I smiled back.

"Come here baby girl." I said. She stood up and I wrapped my arms around her waist as she wrapped her arms around my shoulders. I rested my forehead against hers and closed my eyes. If, for some reason, her mom says no to her coming to Malibu that means that either I put the studio off until the fall when she's back in school, or we go the rest of the summer without each other.

"Are you okay honey?" She asked as she tangled her fingers in my hair.

"I'm so sorry." I said.

"What's wrong?" She asked. I opened my eyes, picked my head up, and looked at her.

"Andrew wants me to get back in the studio as soon as possible." I said.

"Oh. So, would I have to go back home while you're in the studio?" She asked.

"That's the thing baby, I don't want our summer together to end. I would be recording in Malibu. What if you call your mom and ask her if you can come with me? If she says no, I'll even call her and try to persuade her." I said. Y/n pulled out her phone.

"Let me call her." Y/n said.

"Okay." I said. Y/n stepped inside and I leaned on the balcony railing. Y/n and I had talked about things like marriage and kids, but for some reason we had never talked about the fact that we would be, at times, in a long distance relationship.

"Shawn?" Y/n called out after a few minutes. I turned around and looked at her.

"Yes?" I asked. Y/n smiled.

"My mom said that as long as I stick with you or someone from the team, it's okay for me to go to Malibu." She said. I smiled and ran over to Y/n. I picked her up and spun her around, causing her to squeal and laugh. I then set her down.

"That makes me so happy!" I said.

"I know baby, me too." She said. I kissed her passionately. I called Andrew back and told him. He was happy - not as happy as I was, but still, he was happy that she could be there.

"I think that she'll be great to calm your nerves when you get worked up and stressed out." Andrew said.

"Yeah, definitely." I said. Y/n had never been to California, so she was practically bouncing in her seat with excitement during the five hour flight.

"Wait, so are we just going to be in the studio house the whole time or am I going to see other places too?" She asked.

"We could go to Los Angeles if you'd like." I said. She nodded.

"Yeah. Do you think that they have good bookstores?" She asked. I laughed.

"They probably have a lot of good bookstores. We can go to a couple of them if you want." I said. Y/n nodded.

"Yes! As soon as we land, I'm going to google best bookstores in LA." She said. I smiled.

"Okay baby girl. Here come here, come lean on me." I said, and she did.

"You're cozy." She said, causing me to laugh. By the time that we landed, she was tired and yawning. Someone was going to pick us up from the airport. I grabbed our luggage and so did Y/n.

"Shawn, can I get a picture with you please?" A girl asked. I nodded and soon a bunch of people wanted a selfie. I felt my phone vibrate and I saw that it was Andrew, so I answered it.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Where are you?" He asked.

"By the luggage. There's a line of fans." I said.

"Jake's on his way." Andrew said.

"Okay." I said, and we hung up. I took more pictures with fans. I looked over at Y/n, and felt bad that she was just standing off to the side, looking around. I spotted Jake and he came over to us.

"All right guys, Shawn and Y/n have to get going." He said. I held Y/n's hand, said goodbye to the fans, and we got in the car.

"I'm sorry baby. I didn't know that fans were going to show up." I said.

"It's okay. As long as I'm with you, I'm okay." She said, and I could tell that she meant it. I kissed her hand and she smiled at me.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you too." She said. Y/n, Andrew, Jake, and I all drove to the studio house. Teddy waved at us.

"This must be the lovely Y/n that I keep hearing about." Teddy said and pulled Y/n in for a hug.

"Hi." Y/n said. I squeezed her hand three times - it's one of my ways of saying I love you - and she did it back. She met Scott, Ziggy, and a couple of other people. She had gone back to being shy and quiet, and when I sat down, I gently pulled her into my lap so her back was against my chest.

"You okay babe?" I asked as I wrapped my arms around her. I saw her nod but she didn't respond verbally.

"Hey Shawn, remember that time that you brought that girl back here and -" Scott started.

"Dude, seriously? My girlfriend is sitting right here on my lap." I said.

"Okay. Sorry. We'll talk about it later." He said.

"No we won't. I'm in a happy relationship and I don't want to talk about or think about the girls in my past." I said. Y/n was tense and I could tell that she was uncomfortable.

"Well if you guys don't talk about past relationships that's a bit unhealthy." Scott said.

"We've talked about past relationships. We have a healthy relationship. We talk about everything and we don't keep secrets from each other." I said. Y/n wriggled out of my grip and stood up. She looked at me.

"I'm tired. I'm going to head to bed." She said.

"She can speak!" Ziggy said jokingly. I shot him a death glare, and when I went to turn back to Y/n to ask her if she was sure about going to bed, she had already left the room. I looked at Ziggy.

"You asshole. She's shy and quiet around new people." I said as I stood up.

"Sorry. I meant it as a joke." Ziggy said. I went down the hall and found Y/n already laying in bed in the room that our luggage was in.

"Baby?" I whispered. She looked at me.

"Hm?" She responded.

"You okay?" I asked. She nodded.

"Yeah. Just tired and I don't want to hear about girls from your past. Plus I didn't really like what Ziggy said." She said.

"I know baby. He apologized and said that he meant it as a joke." I said as I leaned down and ran my fingers through her hair.

"Okay. What are we doing tomorrow?" She asked.

"We could go to a bookstore tomorrow. Did you find any good ones on google?" I asked.

"Yeah. There's one in LA called The Last Bookstore and it looks really cool." She said. I smiled.

"I'm probably going to have to work a bit tomorrow, but we can go there." I said.

"Okay." She said.

"I'll be right in so we can cuddle, okay?" I asked.

"Okay." She said. I kissed her temple and then went back into the other room where everybody was.

"Guys, please understand that she's shy and quiet and nervous around new people. Plus, she's never been in a recording studio before, and she's never been to California. Just go easy on her, okay?" I asked. They all nodded.

"Okay." They said.

"I'm going to head to bed. Good night." I said.

"Good night." Everyone said.

"We'll get to work tomorrow." Andrew said. I nodded.

"Yeah. Y/n and I are also going to check out a bookstore in LA at some point tomorrow, but I already told her that I also have to work." I said. They nodded.

"Okay." Everyone said, and I retired to bed. Y/n was sitting up.

"What are you doing honey?" I asked as I got under the covers.

"Waiting for you." She said. I smiled.

"Well I'm right here darling. If at any point you want to go home, just let me know and I won't be mad, okay?" I asked.

"Okay. I'm tired." She said.

"I know. Come here baby." I said and we both laid down. She cuddled up to me and I held her close.

"I love you." She said. I kissed her forehead and then rested our foreheads together.

"I love you too." I said. The next morning, I woke up to someone moving around. I opened my eyes, and it was Y/n. She sat up and looked at me.

"Oh, I didn't know you were awake." She said. I sat up too.

"Felt someone moving around. You okay baby girl?" I asked.

"I feel restless and I've just been laying her for an hour or so. Can we get up please?" She asked. I nodded.

"Of course baby." I said. We got up and got dressed. When we walked into the other part of the studio house, where some of the team was.

"Good morning." Andrew said.

"Good morning." Y/n and I said.

"You ready to get back in the studio?" Andrew asked.

"We haven't even had breakfast yet." I said.

"Oh. Well how about Joan's on Third? It's in LA." Andrew asked and said. I looked at Y/n.

"Do you want to go there babe?" I asked as I wrapped an arm around her.

"Do they have a menu online?" She asked.

"I don't know. Let's check." I said and we sat down and looked at their menu.

"Oh, maybe I'll get some macaroni and cheese." Y/n said.

"That sounds so boring." Ziggy said.

"Well you're not going to be the one eating it." I said as I rubbed Y/n's back.

"I think that I'll get the grilled cheese." Y/n said.

"That sounds boring too." Ziggy said. I looked at him.

"Can you just let her pick what she wants to eat in peace? If that's what she wants, then that's what she wants." I said. Ziggy nodded. Soon, Y/n and I got in the car and we drove to the restaurant.

"Thank you for bringing me here. To California, I mean." Y/n said.

"Of course darling." I said. We soon got to the restaurant, ordered our food, and began to eat.

"This is good." Y/n said after taking a bite of her food.

"Good. Shit." I said as I looked to my left.

"What?" Y/n asked.

"Paparazzi are here and there's plenty of them." I said. I instantly became concerned about Y/n. She has anxiety and I didn't want her to see the paparazzi and get scared away. She saw them and looked back at me.

"What do we do?" She asked.

"We try to eat our meal in peace. If we ever come here again, we can ask to be seated somewhere privately." I said. She nodded.

"Okay." She said. I could tell that she was pretending to be okay. I could tell by the way that she kept fidgeting that she was anxious.

"You're okay my love. I'm right here." I said. She nodded and then put her sandwich down.

"I don't think that I'm hungry anymore." She said.

"You didn't eat much honey." I said. She looked at the paparazzi - more of them had shown up - and then back at me with pleading eyes. I could tell what she was asking me: Can we go back? I nodded and called over a waiter.

"Hi." He said.

"Hi, could we get our meals to go please?" I asked. He nodded.

"Of course. Sorry about the paparazzi. Is there anything that we can do?" He asked. I shook my head.

"No. Thank you though." I said. He left, came back and put our food in to go boxes, and gave us the bill.

"Do you want me to pay for the tip?" Y/n asked. I shook my head.

"I got it darling." I said. She nodded and played with her fingers - another indication that she was nervous. I paid and held out my hand for her to take. "Don't let go of my hand, okay? I've got you."

"Okay." She said. We stepped out and the paparazzi got right in our faces.

"SHAWN! SHAWN! IS THAT AN ENGAGEMENT RING?" One of them yelled, referencing the promise ring that Y/n was wearing.

"SHAWN! WHEN'S THE NEW ALBUM COMING OUT?" Another yelled.

"SHAWN! OVER HERE!" Another one yelled. Y/n knew not to say anything to them because it would just feed into them. She held my hand tight.

"Y/N! Y/N YOU'RE A SLUT!" One of them yelled. I whipped around in his direction.

"WHAT THE HELL DID YOU JUST CALL HER?" I yelled. Y/n squeezed my hand.

"Shawn." She said.

"I didn't call her anything." He lied.

"I JUST HEARD YOU CALL HER A SLUT. DON'T EVER TALK TO MY GIRLFRIEND LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN." I yelled and then we got to the car. Y/n didn't say anything until we were back on the road. I was gripping the steering wheel so hard that my knuckles were hurting a bit.

"You okay baby?" She asked.

"How is it that you're the one that got called something bad yet you're asking me if I'm okay? You never cease to amaze me Y/n Y/l/n." I asked and said.

"Thank you but you're changing the subject." She said. I sighed and reached out for her hand.

"You're not a slut." I said as I interlaced our fingers.

"I know that and you know that, and that's all that matters. Shawn they want a rise out of you and they want a reaction out of you." She said. I kissed her hand.

"I just want to protect you." I said.

"And you do. Hey, since we're in LA, do you want to find that bookstore?" She asked. I smiled and nodded.

"Yeah." I said.

"Yay!" She said. I laughed. We soon arrived there.

"We're here." I said. She jumped out of the car and so did I.

"Come on! Come on!" She said as she waited for me on the sidewalk. I laughed and we went inside.

"Woah." I said.

"I heard that it's a very Instagrammable bookstore." She said.

"Yeah." I said. As she browsed around, I took some pictures of her. She then looked in her wallet and frowned.

"Oh, I should probably put some of these books back." She said.

"Why?" I asked.

"I don't have enough money for them." She said as she looked at the books. I put my hand to her cheek so she would look at me. I smirked at her.

"You're a silly girl if you think that I'm letting you pay." I said.

"What? No, Shawn, I can't do that to you." She said.

"Honey, you were planning on spending the summer with me in a different country than your home country. Now you're back in your home country, but on the other side of it and with me. You don't know how much that means to me. Please let me buy the books honey, and get as many as you want. I don't care if the total comes to a thousand dollars, I just want you to be happy." I said. She smirked at me.

"You're a silly boy if you think that I need books to be happy. I just need you." She said. I kissed her again and she smiled into the kiss.

"Buy as many as you want. I'm paying." I whispered against her lips. Our lips were still so close that her eyes were closed. She opened them and nodded.

"Okay. Thank you, you're the best." She said. I laughed. She got a bunch of books and we headed out to the car.

"Which one are you going to read first honey?" I asked. She was already looking through the bag.

"I don't know. I'll figure it out. So, when we get back to the studio house, do you have to get in the booth and record?" She asked.

"Yeah. You can sit and listen to me sing if you want, or you can read. You can do whatever you want babe." I said.

"I think I'll listen to you sing while I read." She said. I nodded.

"Okay." I said. We soon arrived back at the studio house.

"What took you guys so long?" Andrew asked.

"The paparazzi found us and then we went to a bookstore." I said.

"Okay. Which song do you want to record first?" Andrew asked as he pointed at a list of song titles of songs that I had written. I turned around and looked at Y/n, who was already reading one of the books. I smiled.

"My love?" I asked. She looked at me and smiled.

"Yes?" She asked.

"Will you come look at this list please and suggest which one I should record first?" I asked.

"But I don't know what the songs are about." She said. I shrugged.

"Oh well. Choose whichever one has a title that stands out to you darling." I said. She put a bookmark in the book and came over to look at the list. It was a big list. I stood behind her and rubbed her shoulders as she looked.

"Honey I don't know what any of these songs are about." She said again.

"They're about you babe." I admitted. She whipped around.

"Wait, what?" She asked. I chuckled and nodded.

"Well of course. You're my girl and you've been a great source of inspiration for me." I said before pecking her lips. She smiled and then looked at the list again. She pointed.

"The one that's called My Love." She said. I smiled.

"Okay. Thank you baby. You can go back to your book now if you want." I said.

"No way. Now that I know that a song is written about me, I definitely want to hear it." She said. I laughed and held up the list.

"Babe, all of these songs are about you." I said.

"Holy shit." She said with wide eyes. I laughed, gave her a quick kiss and then headed in the booth. I watched her as I sang the song that I had written the day that she left after her first visit to my place in March. It was inspired by her and the time that we said I love you to each other for the first time. I finished the song, stepped out of the booth and walked over to her.

"How did I sound?" I asked.

"Amazing. That was beautiful." She said. I kissed her forehead and then recorded another one.

One night in the middle of August, a little bit after we celebrated my birthday, I woke up without her. I got out of bed and couldn't find her. I then stepped outside and she was walking around, hugging her arms to her chest. I could tell that something was on her mind. I watched her for a moment longer before heading towards her.

"Hey pretty girl. It's like, four in the morning. What are you doing out here all by yourself?" I asked. She turned to me and there was sadness in her eyes.

"Just thinking." She said as she stopped walking. She put her hands on my shoulders and I put my hands on her waist.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked.

"You're making an album. That means tour and tour means being away from each other for long amounts of time." She said. I rested my forehead against hers and I watched her eyes flutter shut.

"We'll make it work. I promise." I said.

"We have to make it work. I love you Shawn and I need you in my life." She said, her eyes still closed.

"You have me baby. You always have and you always will. I love you too darling." I said.

"You're going to see a lot of pretty girls and they could easily -" She started.

"No," I said, knowing where her mind was going. She opened her eyes and looked at me. "No one could ever take me away from you."

"I'm going to miss you when you leave." She said.

"I know baby, and I'm going to miss you too, but we don't even know when I'm leaving yet. But we'll talk all of the time. We'll text and call and Facetime constantly, just like we did when we were getting to know each other." I said.

"Promise?" She asked.

"I promise." I said. I kissed her forehead.

"Will you promise me another thing Shawn?" She asked. I looked into her beautiful y/e/c eyes and nodded.

"Of course. Anything." I said. Tears formed in her eyes.

"Promise me you'll love me forever." She said. I hugged her tight.

"Of course I will. I promise you right here, right now, that I, Shawn Mendes, will love you, Y/n Y/l/n, forever, until the end of time." I said. She nodded.

"I just never want to lose you." She said.

"You're not going to babe. I promise. Now come on, let's get back to bed." I said as I pulled away from the hug a little bit.

"But it's nice out, and maybe we can have a few quiet moments together, just the two of us." She said. I smiled and nodded at her.

"Okay baby. Let's go inside and sit down." I said.

"Okay." She said. We went inside and my phone vibrated. It was a text from Ziggy. He had sent two pictures: one of them being a photo from when Y/n's hands were on my shoulders and our foreheads were resting together, the other one was of us hugging.

Ziggy: I didn't mean to be a creep and I don't know what was going on, but I thought that you might like these. You really love her, don't you?

Me: Thank you for these. I love her more than I'll ever be able to express.

I showed Y/n the pictures and she smiled.

"Do you mind if I post these on Instagram?" I asked.

"That's fine babe." She said. I kissed her cheek and then posted the photo after I quickly found a quote.

"'You're safe with me. I promise. And when you get scared: Look me in the eyes, hold me a little tighter and smile. Because I'm not going anywhere.' - Unknown. Thank you Ziggy for capturing this early morning, tender moment between my girl and I." I captioned it. Y/n smiled and liked the post.

"I love you." She said.

"I love you too." I said. She had a book in her lap, but she set it aside.

"Can I tell you something?" She asked with a smile as she scooted closer to me. I smiled back and nodded.

"Anything." I said.

"I really want to make out with you, but I feel like if we make out while we're in this room, anyone could walk in." She said quietly. My smile widened and I stood up.

"Well come here darling. Let's go to the bedroom and make out." I said. She smiled and followed me. I shut the bedroom door and we laid down on top of the blankets.

"I love you." She said.

"I love you too. Thank you by the way." I said.

"What are you thanking me for?" She asked.

"You didn't ask for this. Any of this. The first day in California you were called a slut. You get shit from so called fans. You put up with a lot and you didn't ask for any of it. I can tell when it all makes you uncomfortable or anxious, but you push through, and I'm proud of you for that." I said. She smiled and rubbed my bicep.

"Thank you for being proud of me. My love, I may not have asked for this, but when we were getting to know each other, and when we first started dating, I knew that I was going to get hate and stuff like that. As long as I have you, I'm okay." She said. I smiled at her and we kissed passionately for a while.

Later on, I was in the booth when Y/n stepped out of the room. When she came back in, I could tell that she was uncomfortable. She faked a smile at me and I noticed that when Andrew gestured towards the couch where she had just been sitting, she shook her head and waved her hand. I stopped in the middle of the song and stepped out of the booth. I walked right up to her.

"You okay baby?" I asked.

"Can we, um, can we talk somewhere more private please?" She asked. I nodded and we went to our bedroom.

"What's up darling?" I asked. She looked uncomfortable and embarrassed.

"Um, I just went to the bathroom and I got my period, but I don't have any pads." She said. I nodded.

"Okay. Don't be embarrassed honey. I've seen what kind you get, I'll go out and get those right now." I said.

"I'm sorry." She said.

"Why are you apologizing?" I asked.

"Because you were in the middle of a song." She said. I kissed her quickly.

"Don't apologize sweetheart. I could tell that you were uncomfortable. I'll be right back, okay?" I asked. She nodded.

"Okay. Wait, so should I just stay in here or go with you?" She asked.

"You can just stay in here pretty girl. I'll be back." I said. She nodded.

"Thank you. I'll pay you back." She said.

"No you won't." I said, and left the room before she could say anything to protest.

"What are you looking for?" Andrew asked as I looked around the room.

"My keys." I said.

"Why do you need your keys?" He asked.

"I have to go somewhere." I said. I knew that Y/n would be embarrassed if I told everyone that she had gotten her period and needed pads.

"Well I don't want you leaving until I know why you're leaving." Andrew said as I found my keys.

"Seriously dude? I'll be right back." I asked and said.

"I'm serious. Where are you going that you absolutely need to go there right now? Why can't you finish the song first?" He asked. I sighed.

"You really want to know?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yes." He said. I looked him straight in the eyes.

"My girlfriend is bleeding out of her private parts and needs feminine products. Can I leave to go get them now?" I asked. His eyes went wide.

"Yup. Go. Bye." He said as he waved his hand. I left, got the pads, and went back to the studio. I went straight to the bedroom where Y/n was.

"You're a lifesaver. That was hilarious by the way." Y/n said.

"What was?" I asked.

"What you said to Andrew." She said as she got up and grabbed a fresh pair of underwear.

"You heard that?" I asked.

"Have you forgotten that I have supersonic hearing?" She asked with a giggle.

"Oh that's right. Yeah, you hear everything." I said. She nodded and then got some pants too.

"Seriously Shawn, thank you for this." She said as she turned to me.

"You're welcome darling. I'll be in the booth." I said. She nodded.

"Okay." She said, and went in the bathroom. I went in the booth and after a little bit Y/n came back out and sat down on the couch. She smiled at me and then opened up her book and read. I love Y/n, and I would do anything for her - even if it includes buying feminine products.