A/n: Okay so recently there was a video posted of Shawn, and he's talking to a girl in a club and it looks they kissed but I don't think that they did because if they did, that was an extremely quick, half second long, kiss. Also, I don't think that it was a kiss on the cheek, but that's what I put in the story. I think he whispered in her ear or something because the music was probably very loud. However, Shawn does follow the girl on Instagram. I WILL NOT BE GIVING OUT HER USERNAME SO PLEASE DO NOT ASK. SHE'S ALREADY GETTING SPAMMED ENOUGH AND I DON'T WANT OTHERS TO SPAM HER EVEN MORE. This is Shawn's life and he can do whatever the FUCK he wants. Explicit language in this imagine. Anyways, please enjoy this imagine. Okay, without further ado, let's begin!

I sat on the couch in the home that I share with my boyfriend of almost three and a half years, the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes. I was scrolling through Instagram when a video of him came up. The video was a little blurry and it was taken from a bit far away, but when I saw it, my stomach went into a knot. Shawn's in Los Angeles right now to celebrate a friend's birthday, and apparently he had gone to a club. In the video, a girl was standing awfully close to Shawn, and it almost looked like they kissed, but it would have been an extremely quick kiss.

No. Shawn wouldn't do that to me. He promised me that he would marry me someday and he's constantly telling me that he loves me and how much he loves me. Maybe he had whispered something in her ear, I don't know. I trust Shawn, I really do, but it's the other girls that I don't trust. Shawn is an extremely good looking guy, and any girl could take him away from me in the blink of an eye. My phone rang, and it was Shawn. My stomach was in a knot and I was shaky. I knew that I couldn't answer because if I did, he would know that something's wrong. I listened to the voicemail that he left me.

"Hey pretty girl. I just wanted to check on you and see how your day was. All right, call me back when you hear this. I love you honey." Shawn said. I didn't call back. Instead, I looked at the comments on the Instagram post. The girl's Instagram was tagged in the comments, and I felt the knot in my stomach get worse when I saw that he follows her. He had never mentioned her before, so it's not like she's an old friend.

I stood up and began pacing around the room as I played with the promise ring that Shawn put on me a couple of years ago. My phone went off again. It was a text from Shawn.

My Love: Hey baby. I tried calling you and you typically answer right away but you didn't. I'm guessing that you're not napping because you always let me know when you're going to take a nap or go to bed for the night. I'll try calling the home phone in a few minutes if you don't respond to this. Text or call me, preferably call me, when you see this. I love you.

I sighed and sat down on the couch again. What do I do? If I don't answer him, he's going to call my mom, and then she'll come over and make sure that I'm okay and make me call him and stuff. I heard the home phone ring after about five or so minutes. I got up and answered it.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey honey. Are you okay? I tried calling your cell phone but you didn't answer and you didn't respond to my text. I was ready to call your mom so she could check on you." Shawn said.

"I'm okay, just doing some stuff around the house." I lied. I hate lying to him, but I didn't want him to know how I was truly feeling.

"Oh, okay. I miss you honey." He said.

"I miss you too handsome." I said. That was true. I really did miss him.

"So what have you been up to besides doing stuff around the house?" Shawn asked. I felt a pang of guilt for that lie.

"Reading, watching television, stuff like that." I said.

"Are you okay baby girl? You don't sound like yourself." Shawn asked and said.

"I'm fine honey. I promise." I said.

"Okay. I hope that you know that I don't fully believe you right now, but okay." Shawn said. Okay, so maybe I wasn't fine, but still, it kind of hurt to hear him say that.

"Whatever. I have to get back to doing stuff. I'm fine Shawn." I said and then hung up. Hearing someone that you love say that they don't "fully believe you" is not a good feeling. Shawn immediately tried calling again, but I just let it ring as I began to make dinner. I listened to his voicemail.

"Baby, it's me. I shouldn't have said that about not fully believing you, it's just that, well, you say that you're fine but you don't sound it. Please call me back so we can work this out honey. I want to know what's going on with the girl that I want to marry someday." Shawn said. I finished making dinner and sat down at the kitchen table to eat alone.

I stayed up that night, watching the video over and over again. I then threw my phone to the other side of the couch and opened up a book. I tried following along with the black words that were printed on the white pages, but it was hard to. The door swung open and Shawn walked in. I thought that he wasn't coming home for a few more days?

"Hey, I didn't know that you were coming home." I said.

"Well you hung up on me and then wouldn't answer my calls or texts after that." He said. Okay, he has a point.

"Do you need help with your luggage?" I asked.

"No it's fine." He said. I nodded.

"Okay." I said. I watched for a moment as him and my brother carried in his luggage. I then went back to my book. Usually, when Shawn gets home, I give him a hug and a kiss. This time I just stayed sitting on the couch. Shawn soon came over and I felt the couch dip as he sat next to me.

"What are you reading pretty girl?" Shawn asked and I could feel his eyes on me.

"Times to Remember by Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy." I said, never letting my eyes leave the page.

"Is it good?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said. There was a pause before he spoke again.

"You know how much I love it when you read to me. Do you want to read to me darling?" Shawn asked.

"Do you want the girl in the club to read to you instead?" I asked as I kept looking at the pages.

"What? What are you talking about?" Shawn asked. I put a bookmark in the book, put it to the side, grabbed my phone, pulled up Instagram, and showed him the video.

"This girl." I said. Shawn looked at the video.

"She's just some girl that I met at the club honey." Shawn said as he handed my phone back to me.

"Yes, and people are starting rumors saying that you kissed her, and it doesn't really look like that, but people tagged her account and you followed her." I said.

"Wait, do you think that I cheated on you?" Shawn asked, his voice rising a little. I could hear the hurt in his voice.

"No. I literally just said that it doesn't look like that. To me, it looks like you're whispering in her ear or something, but other people, you know, your fans who know about me, are saying that it looks like you guys kissed. And then to see that you randomly followed her just makes the knot in my stomach so much worse." I said.

"Honey, I didn't kiss her, I swear. She's just a girl that I was talking to." Shawn said.

"I don't know what to do. Your fans are starting rumors about this and I can't fucking stand it. I can't stand the jealousy that I feel. And then to see the comments on this video of people saying that you should leave me for her makes things so much fucking worse." I said.

"I'm sorry honey. Do you want me to tell you what happened between her and I?" He asked. I looked at him and nodded.

"Yes." I said.

"She kissed me on the cheek." He said.

"Did you push her away?" I asked. Shawn sighed.

"No." He said.

"Did you tell her that you have a girlfriend?" I asked. He shook his head.

"No. I just assumed that she knew." Shawn said.

"Remember what happened with Drake's security guard? Not every single person knows who you are and knows about your personal life Shawn. Why didn't you push her away?" I asked. He shrugged and then put his head in his hands. I looked away from him, it was too heartbreaking to see him like this.

"I don't know. I don't know." He said.

"Do you have any idea what it's like to feel like this Shawn? Do you have any idea what it's like when your significant other is spotted with someone of the opposite sex, and it gets thrown around social media and everything, and rumors start? Do you have any single clue, as to how jealous I feel, or how I feel in general when I see that shit?" I asked as some tears slipped out of my eyes. Shawn shook his head.

"No." He said.

"Exactly. So let me tell you how it feels. It feels like shit. Absolute shit. As soon as you're seen with another girl, it's all over the place, and I'm stuck at home all alone having to cope with it -" I started before Shawn interrupted.

"Then come on the road with me." Shawn said.

"That would require dropping out of school." I said.

"So what babe? If you feel like this, then come on the road with me, travel with me. I have enough money to pay for the both of us." Shawn said.

"You're living your dream of being a singer. My dream job is to be an adjustment counselor in a high school so I can help kids that are struggling. I need an education to do that. If I drop out, that means that I won't be able to live my dream. Do you think that it would be fair if you got to live your dream and I didn't?" I asked. He shook his head.

"No." He said.

"Exactly. Now let me finish what I was saying please." I said as I wiped some tears away.

"Okay." He said.

"So I have to sit here, and deal with the rumors. I trust you Shawn, I do. I trust you with everything in me. But I don't trust the other girls. You're an extremely handsome and good looking man. A shit ton of girls want you. It doesn't feel good when I see videos like this Shawn. How would you like it if you saw a video that was just like the one that I just showed you, but it was me with another guy?" I asked. I saw his jaw clench.

"I wouldn't like it. I would feel the same way that you do right now." Shawn said.

"Exactly. It's not a good feeling, but just try to imagine it Shawn. Close your eyes and just try to imagine what I'm going through." I said. He sighed and closed his eyes. I watched him clench his fists and his jaw as his eyes screwed shut more. He then opened his eyes and stood up.

"I need a minute." He said and went out onto the back deck. I watched as he leaned against the railing. I then watched as he put his head in his hands, and his shoulders began to shake. I stood up and went outside and put my hand on his back. He jumped for a moment.

"It's just me." I said. He looked at me as tears streaked down his face. My heart broke.

"I never want to imagine that ever again. I imagined it just like I was in the video, but in my imagination it was clearer, closer, and so fucking painful to watch. I'm so sorry baby. I'm so fucking sorry." He said.

"I didn't mean to hurt you by having you imagine that Shawn, I just wanted you to understand how I feel. I know that you said that you don't like imagining it, but imagine seeing it repeatedly as you scroll through Instagram." I said. He thought for a moment and then cried harder.

"I'm so sorry. I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you. Please Y/n, I'm so sorry." Shawn said. I pulled him in for a hug and he held me extremely close to him.

"You're not going to lose me. You're never going to lose me Shawn. I just... I feel like shit seeing all of that." I said. Shawn pulled away from the hug a little bit but kept his hands on my waist.

"What can I do to make this better? How can I fix this?" He asked. I thought for a moment.

"Would you mind doing a live stream and just explain to your fans that they need to stop spreading this around please? I have enough shit going on, I don't need this. I don't need this extra stuff." I said as I began to cry.

"I'll do a live stream and I'll unfollow her too. Baby what do you mean you have enough shit going on? What's been going on? Has there been stuff that you haven't told me about?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said.

"Why haven't you told me honey?" Shawn asked, concern and worry laced in his voice, and concern in his eyes. Now he was the one that wasn't crying and I was.

"I don't like worrying you. When you're away and we talk on the phone, I tell you about some of the things that happen, but not all of it because I don't want you to worry about me. But it's too much Shawn, all of it is too much." I said. Shawn pulled me in for a hug as I sobbed.

"Y/n it's my job to worry about you. What's been going on honey?" Shawn asked.

"Can we go inside and sit down and talk please?" I asked. Shawn nodded and that's what we did. I told him everything that had happened and then I felt bad when he looked extra worried as he held my hands in his.

"Y/n Y/l/n, tell me next time. I'll do everything in my power to make things better, okay?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Okay. Are you going to do the live stream?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah. Do you want to be in it or no?" He asked. I shook my head.

"No." I said, but I did watch him unfollow the girl. I then moved a few seats away so the fans couldn't see me and watched Shawn do the live stream.

"Hi guys, so I guess that there's been a video of me with a girl in a club that's been going around. Yes, that's me in the video, but I did not kiss that girl. She kissed me on the cheek. For some reason I didn't push her away and I just assumed that she knew that I have a girlfriend. Yes, I followed the girl on here, but I just unfollowed her.

"Nothing happened between that girl and I. I have a girlfriend that I am so beyond in love with and that I want to marry someday. I have a girlfriend who hung up on me today because I said something that I shouldn't have, and then she wouldn't return my calls or texts, so I flew home. I have a girlfriend who asked me to put myself in her shoes and imagine seeing that video, but instead of a girl getting awfully close to me, imagine a guy getting that close to her. I literally had to step outside and I started to cry.

"There was more to the conversation between Y/n and I, and so when she saw that I was crying, she came out onto the back deck. I told her that I couldn't lose her. Guys, Y/n is the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I wouldn't be able to live without her. She's my everything, she's my future wife, she's the love of my life, she's my best friend, and so I can't lose her. I need you guys to stop spreading that video around. Actually, if you've posted it, please delete it. Y/n explained to me that it wasn't a good feeling to see that video on her feed repeatedly or even at all.

"I also want to say that Y/n trusts me, but it's at least some of the other girls that she doesn't trust. I don't blame her for getting so upset. She was hurt that I didn't tell the girl that I have a girlfriend. She reminded me that not every person knows who I am and knows my personal life. When Y/n and I made up, she broke down sobbing and told me that this is all too much and that she didn't need this. Apparently, when I'm away, she doesn't want to worry me, so she doesn't tell me every single thing that's going on. Her and I came back inside and she vented to me about what's been going on. Let me tell you guys something: it's not a good feeling to be worried about your significant other's mental health. Hearing Y/n say that she can't deal with this, that this is too much and that she can't deal with all of the things that are going on anymore, honestly, it scares me. I made her promise that she wouldn't do anything to herself.

"Just please understand that I am in a very happy relationship with the woman of my dreams. I'm so damn in love with Y/n, and like I said earlier, she's my everything. Please stop spreading rumors about me and any girl. The only girl that I want is Y/n. She's the only girl that I have eyes for. Please, please, please stop spreading that video around, and if you've already posted it, please delete it. I hate watching Y/n be in pain. All right, I'm going to go spend time with my girl and remind her of how much I love her. I love you guys, bye." Shawn said, and then ended the live stream. I moved so I was sitting next to him.

"Thank you." I said as he wrapped an arm around me. He kissed the top of my head.

"Come here honey." Shawn said as he picked me up. I squealed.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"You'll see." He said as he carried me upstairs and laying me on our bed. "I'll be right back. I just have to grab our phones and stuff." He said before leaving the room. Do I get under the covers? He soon came back.

"What are you up to baby?" I asked as I watched him put our phones and my book on his dresser. He then crawled up to me on the bed, causing me to giggle. He gently lowered himself a little so he was laying on me.

"Wrap your legs around my waist honey." Shawn said with a soft smile. I did as told and also wrapped my arms around his shoulders. He then began planting kisses all over my face, causing me to laugh and squeal like crazy - well, just like I usually do whenever he does this.

"Shaaawn." I said while laughing. He spoke in between planting kisses on my face.

"I" He said. Kiss. "Love" kiss. "You" kiss. "So" kiss. "Fucking" kiss. "Much." He said with another kiss. I laughed and he kept planting kisses all over his face. I then got an idea. I gently grabbed his face and put his magical lips on mine. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through me like fireworks. I tightened my legs around his waist and then pulled away from the kiss, out of breath.

"I love you so fucking much too." I said. Shawn smiled and nudged my nose with his gently. He then got off of me and laid on his back. I moved so my chin was on his chest and he smiled at me.

"You're so damn beautiful. Most beautiful girl in the world. Come here baby." Shawn said as he moved me so I was completely laying on top of him.

"Well you're the most handsome man in the world. That's why I get so scared baby. Anyone could take you away from me in the blink of an eye and that scares the crap out of me." I said. Shawn put his hand to my cheek and rubbed it with his thumb. He was frowning.

"Baby, no one, not a single fucking person in this world could ever take me away from you. I'm never going to let you go honey, and God forbid you broke up with me for some reason, I would fight with everything in me to get you back." Shawn said.

"I would never break up with you Shawn. The only reason why I would ever break up with you would be if you cheated but I know that you would never do that to me." I said. He shook his head.

"I would never do that baby. I love you and you're the only one for me. You're the only one that I want." Shawn said. I placed a sweet and gentle kiss on his lips.

"I love you too, and you're the only one for me too babe. Oh! I just remembered something!" I said as I got off of Shawn. He laughed.

"What did you remember baby girl?" Shawn asked. I ran into our closet, grabbed the little bag, and then went running back to him. He sat up as I sat down on the bed next to him.

"Okay, so I'm extremely proud of you. Not just for finishing the first leg of your world tour, but just in general too. You're an amazing man. I love you and adore you more than words will ever be able to describe. I got you this because I'm so proud of you and I love you so damn much." I said as I handed him the little bag. He gave me a quick kiss and then he took out what was in the bag. His eyes widened as he smiled.

"Oh my gosh. I love it honey." He said as he looked at the key chain that had a picture of us on each side.

"Are you sure?" I asked. He kept turning it over and over as he smiled.

"I'm positive. I love it baby. Where are my keys? I want to put it on them right now, wait no. Do you mind if I post about it on Instagram?" Shawn asked. I smiled.

"That's fine baby. I'm so glad that you love it." I said. Shawn smiled and took a little clip of it as he flipped it back and forth slowly.

"Guys, look at the beautiful gift that my girl got me. I love it so much!" He said. He then stopped recording.

"Wait, are you going to post it on your Instagram story or make it a post?" I asked.

"You'll see babe." Shawn said.

"Oh my gosh." I said. My phone then lit up after a bit. Shawn had posted the video to his page. I read the caption.

"Love my girlfriend so much! You're the sweetest and the best there is @yourusername !" Shawn captioned it. I commented kissy emojis and then looked at the time after I yawned.

"I'm tired baby." I said.

"Well let's get under the blankets and cuddle." Shawn said.

"Okay." I said as we got underneath the covers. Shawn held me close to him.

"I'm sorry that the video made you jealous honey." Shawn said. I snuggled my face into his chest more.

"It's okay. As long as I have you, I'm okay." I said. He rubbed my back.

"Good night honey. I love you." He said. I smiled as I closed my eyes.

"Good night babe. I love you too." I said. With that, we fell asleep, content and peaceful.

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