Earlier today I met Justin Timberlake and John Mayer. They're both good friends of my boyfriend of three months, Shawn Mendes. At one point while they were here, Justin asked if he could talk with me for a moment on the balcony and I said yes. He asked me how I felt about Shawn, so I told him. He then asked me if I loved Shawn. I smiled and said yes, but then my smile faded when I told him that Shawn and I have yet to say it to each other.

"Do you love Shawn?" He asked. I smiled.

"I've loved him from the moment that I laid eyes on him, and I'm constantly falling for him more and more. But, um, we don't say it to each other. I don't know how to tell him. I mean, what if it's too soon, or if I say it and he doesn't feel the same way? If I told him that I love him and he said that he doesn't feel the same way... I would be heartbroken." I said. Justin nodded.

"Well, it's not my place to say how he feels, but I know how he feels. John does too because Shawn said it in a group chat. What I will say is this: when you say it, you won't get your heartbroken." Justin said.

I had understood what he meant. Shawn must have said that he loves me in the group chat. Well, at least I'm guessing that that's what happened. I want to tell Shawn that I love him, but I don't know how, and I don't want the moment to feel forced. I went on Pinterest. I love poems, and maybe there's a poem out there that will help me. Shawn was out getting Chinese food for him and I. I found the perfect poem and saved it to my phone just as Shawn was walking in the door. He smiled at me.

"Hey beautiful." He said. I blushed and sat up.

"Hey handsome. Need any help?" I asked as I nodded my head at the two bags that he was holding. He shook his head.

"No, but I do need a kiss from my girl." Shawn said. I giggled and my heart fluttered when he called me his girl.

"I can help with that." I said as I walked towards him. He smiled at me. I put both of my hands on either side of his face, and put my lips on his. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through my body like fireworks. We soon pulled away and smiled at each other.

"Magical, per usual." Shawn said. I nodded.

"Yup. Hey babe?" I asked as I watched him go into his kitchen.

"Yeah?" He asked.

"Before we eat, can I show you something please?" I asked.

"Sure. Let me just get the food out of the bags and then I'll be right there." Shawn said. I nodded even though he couldn't see me.

"Okay." I said, and went to sit back down on the couch. Shawn soon came in the room and sat down next to me.

"You okay baby? You seem nervous." Shawn asked and said.

"Yeah, I just, um, there's something that I want to tell you, something that I need to tell you, and I don't know how you're going to react and respond." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek.

"It's just me darling. You don't have to be nervous." He said.

"Yes I do because what if you don't feel the same way?" I asked. Shawn kissed me again.

"It's okay baby. We'll work everything out." He said. I nodded and unlocked my phone to the poem.

"So, um, I know that you say that I have a way with words, but right now I'm not quite sure of how to express how I feel, so I found a poem that basically describes how I feel, and then I want to try and put it into my own words after I read the poem. Is that okay?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"That's perfect." Shawn said.

"Um, do you want me to read the poem to you, or do you want to read it?" I asked.

"I would love to hear you read it to me baby girl." Shawn said. I nodded. That actually made things easier: I wouldn't have to see his facial expression when I read the poem. I took a deep breath as my heart raced and began reading the poem.

"I love you / Not only for what you are, / but for what I am when I am with you, / not only for what you have made of yourself, / but for what you are making of me. / I love you for the part of me that you bring out. / I love you for putting your hand into my overflowing heart / and passing over all the foolish, weak things / that can't help, / dimly seeing there, and for drawing out into / the light all the / beautiful belongings that no one else had / looked quite far enough to find. / I love you because you are helping me to make / of the dreams of my life / not a thought but a reality, / out of the works of my every day not a / reproach but a song... / Yes, a Love song." I read. I then looked up at Shawn who had a big smile on his face.

"Oh honey, that was beautiful." He said. I put my phone down.

"Thank you. Is it okay if I try to put it into my own words?" I asked. Shawn nodded as he brushed some hair out of my face again and then rubbed my cheek with his thumb.

"Of course it is darling." He said. I nodded and took another deep breath.

"Um, so when I first saw your vines all those years ago, I remember having a big crush on you. Then, before we met, I would see photos of you on Instagram, or I would watch your interviews, and I would think 'How could anyone be more good looking than Shawn Mendes? How is it that he's so young but so mature and humble and wise?' and then Shawn, when I saw you in person for the first time, I fell for you right then and there. And the more I learn about you and the more time I spend with you, the harder I fall for you. So, what I'm trying to say while I'm babbling on, is that I love you. I love you Shawn Mendes, and I'm head over heels, madly, deeply, crazily, insanely, in love with you." I said as I somehow maintained eye contact with Shawn. He smiled the biggest smile before pulling me onto his lap.

"I love you too." He said. I smiled and all of my nerves drifted away.

"Really?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yes. I am so in love with you. Everything that you feel about me, I feel the same way about you. Well maybe I'm head over boots in love with you instead of head over heels, but still. I love you Y/n Y/l/n." He said. I hugged him as tight as I could and he hugged back really tight.

"I love you Shawn. Oh my gosh I was so worried that you wouldn't feel the same way. I'm so happy right now!" I said. Shawn pulled away from the hug a little and smiled at me.

"Oh trust me babe, my friends are constantly telling me to shut up because I can never stop talking about you. I've loved you since the moment that I laid eyes on you honey. I love you so much." He said.

"I love you so much too. I can't stop smiling." I said with a giggle and Shawn laughed.

"Neither can I. Do you want to know something?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said as I stroked his cheek with my thumb.

"You make me feel things that I've never felt before. Like, when we kiss, my heart races and I get butterflies and I feel sparks. And when we hold hands, it's like electricity, but I feel safe and warm at the same time. Or sometimes, all we have to do is look at each other, and it's like we're the only two people in the world. And your smile, oh my gosh your smile alone gives me butterflies." Shawn said. My smile widened, which I didn't even know was possible.

"Do you want to know something?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah." He said.

"I get all of those same feelings too." I said. Shawn moved suddenly so we were laying on the couch. I laughed as my back hit the couch and he kept one arm on either side of my head. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he planted kisses all over my face, causing me to laugh and squeal. He then began talking in between kisses.

"I," He said with a kiss. "Love," kiss. "You," kiss. "So," kiss. "Much." he said with another kiss. I laughed.

"I love you so much too babe." I said. Shawn pulled away from kissing my face and looked at me with such love in his eyes that my heart could have exploded with happiness.

"Do you realize that you make me feel like I want to get on the roof and yell that I love Y/n Y/l/n?" Shawn said. I blushed.

"Oh my gosh. You're making me blush babe." I said and Shawn laughed as he sat up.

"I have an idea for a new nickname for you." He said.

"What is it?" I asked as I sat up.

"Well now that we say I love you to each other, I could call you my love." Shawn said with a smile.

"Oh my gosh I would love that!" I said. He smiled.

"Okay, then we'll make that one of your new nicknames." He said.

"Baby?" I asked.

"Hmm?" Shawn asked before kissing my cheek.

"Can I call you my love too?" I asked. Shawn smiled and nodded.

"Of course you can baby. Should we get our food and sit out on the balcony?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. I'll be right there." I said.

"Okay, my love." Shawn said. I smiled at him and gave him a quick kiss. He then went into the kitchen to get our food, and I pulled out my phone to text Justin.

Me: Hey Justin, it's Y/n Y/l/n. I just told Shawn that I love him and he said it back! I'm so happy right now!

Justin: That's great! He just texted John and I in all capitals and wrote "Y/N TOLD ME THAT SHE LOVES ME OMG THIS IS AMAZING!"

Me: Lol. Thank you for what you said earlier.

Justin: No problem.

"Ready babe?" Shawn asked. I smiled at him.

"Yeah. Here, let me take some stuff. I don't want you carrying all of my food too." I said.

"Don't worry honey, I got it." Shawn said.

"Baaaabe, I want to help." I said. Shawn laughed at my whining.

"Fine. But only take your food, I don't want my girl carrying more than she needs to." Shawn said. I smiled and took my food.

"Okay babe." I said. We went out on the balcony and started eating.

"So you fell for me right away, huh?" Shawn asked with a smirk. I nodded.

"Yup. When did you start falling for me?" I asked as I turned to face him more.

"Right away." He said. I smiled but it faded when I realized that he had suddenly become nervous.

"You okay honey?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah. Well, I don't know." He said.

"What do you mean?" I asked. He put his food down and looked out at the beautiful view of Toronto that he had.

"There's something that I want to talk to you about but I'm nervous to." He said. I put my food down on the same little table that he had put his food on and moved so I was straddling his lap.

"My love, it's just me. Don't be nervous. Would it help if I ran my fingers through your hair while you say it?" I asked, knowing how much that calms him and helps him.

"Yeah." He said and I immediately began to run my fingers through his hair.

"Okay, what's on your mind baby?" I asked. He sighed and I noticed that he was looking anywhere on my face but in my eyes.

"Um, so, sorry I'm just nervous." He said.

"It's okay baby. I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere." I said. He finally looked me in the eyes.

"Promise?" He asked. I gave him a soft smile as I nodded.

"I promise." I said. He nodded and rubbed my sides.

"When I laid eyes on you for the first time... not only did I fall for you, but I realized that you're the one. I'm sorry if it's too early in the relationship to tell you this, but Y/n, you're the one that I want to marry someday, and you're the one that I want to have kids with someday. I don't want anyone else, I just want you." Shawn said. I smiled.

"Really?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yes, and I'm sorry if I'm scaring you away, but -" He started but I cut him off with a loving and passionate kiss. We eventually pulled away.

"Shawn, when I first saw you - in person - it was like, okay this is going to sound so cheesy, but it was like my heart went 'Oh there you are, I've been looking for you.' Shawn, I promise you that you're not scaring me away. You're the one for me Shawn. You're it. You're all I want." I said. Shawn smiled as his nerves drifted away. He kissed me.

"I feel like I don't even want to eat right now, I just want to keep talking to you about this stuff." Shawn said. I kissed his cheek.

"Well my love, we can eat and in between bites we can talk." I said. Shawn nodded.

"Okay." He said. I got off his lap and began eating. In between bites, I turned to him more.

"So how many kids do you want?" I asked. He thought for a moment.

"Um, probably like three or four." He said. I nodded.

"I think that three is a good number. Keep in mind that you're not the one that has to push them out of your private parts." I said and Shawn laughed.

"Okay, three sounds good. So, I know that we can't really guarantee what gender we have, but what genders do you want?" Shawn asked. I finished chewing and then answered his question.

"I want a girl, and then a boy, and then another girl." I said. Shawn nodded.

"I like that." He said. I nodded.

"Um, I'm kind of nervous to ask this question." I said. Shawn looked at me.

"It's just me honey. Don't be nervous." He said. I nodded and set my food down for a moment.

"So, I feel like we should wait until we've been married for a year before we start trying to have kids, and I have a feeling that you wouldn't like finding out that our kids said their first word or walked for the first time over a Facetime conversation. Do you think that you would take a break from touring to spend time watching the kids grow up a little?" I asked. He thought for a moment and then nodded.

"Yeah. I mean, you're right, I don't want to get a call from you saying that our kid took their first steps and I'm on another continent. I want to be there. If we have three kids, or no matter how many kids we have, I'll probably wait until the youngest is, like, three or so." He said. I smiled and nodded.

"Okay. I feel like you would still be writing music because getting married and having kids would be great inspiration - I'm guessing - but you just wouldn't be touring." I said. He nodded.

"Right, and I probably wouldn't even really be going into the studio. You know that I'm a family man. Plus, when we get married, I want to savor married life with you while it's just the two of us for a year, so yeah, I would take a break from music." He said. I nodded.

"Well technically it would be just the two of us for longer than a year." I said. Shawn looked at me, confused.

"What do you mean?" He asked. I smiled.

"Shawn, I would be pregnant for nine months, so we would have more than a year to just the two of us." I said. He nodded.

"Ohhh, okay." Shawn said.

"I love you." I said. Shawn smiled at me.

"I love you too darling. So do you have any ideas for names?" Shawn asked as he looked at his food again. I suddenly became nervous.

"Um, yeah, but what if you don't like them?" I asked. Shawn thought for a moment.

"I mean, I'm sure that I will, but if I don't, then we can come up with something else. What do you have in mind for a boy?" Shawn asked.

"Well, for a boy, I was thinking that he could have his first name - obviously - and then two middle names. The first name and one of the middle names are really important to me." I said.

"Okay babe, what are the names?" He asked. I nodded.

"Well, I really like the name Jacob Alexander Scott but Jake as a nickname. The Jake part and the Scott part are really important to me." I said. Shawn nodded, knowing about my friend Jake that had passed away, and my Uncle Scottie that had passed away when I was younger.

"I love that name." Shawn said with a smile.

"Really?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yup. What do you have in mind for girl's?" Shawn asked.

"Well I really like Rose Lucille and Julia Kennedy." I said. He smiled.

"I love those names. Especially Rose Lucille. Wait a second, did we just pick out our future kids names?" Shawn asked as he looked at me with wide eyes. I smiled and nodded.

"Yeah, I think we did." I said. Shawn set his food down and patted his lap.

"Come here honey." He said.

"Okay." I said as I set my food down and sat on his lap. His smile was huge, and so was mine.

"I love you so much honey. I'm so glad that we feel the same way about each other, and I know that we were both really nervous, but I'm glad that we've had such important talks." Shawn said. I nodded.

"Me too." I said before yawning.

"Does my love want to go to bed?" He asked.

"I want to stay up with you." I said.

"Well I'm getting tired too. Let's put our food away and then we'll go to bed. Sound good?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said. We put our food away and climbed into his bed. He pulled me close to him and swung his leg over my hip.

"I love you." Shawn said as I snuggled up to him more.

"I love you too." I said as I smiled. We soon fell asleep. I love Shawn so much and I'm so glad that we had such important conversations today.