A/n: Explicit language in this one! Also, I know that the guy in the photo looks NOTHING like Shawn, but please just go along with it, lol. Anyways, I hope that you guys enjoy this imagine. Okay, without further ado, let's begin!

My fiancé is the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes. He's my soulmate, my best friend, my everything. I was laying down on the couch, my head in his lap as he rubbed my scalp. It felt nice and soothing, so my eyes were closed. We were talking about Harry Potter when he mentioned a character.

"Who's that? I don't remember that character." I asked and said.

"Are you serious?" Shawn asked. I was tired.

"Yeah. I don't remember that character." I said.

"I want the ring back." Shawn said.

"What?" I asked as my eyes opened. Did he mean the engagement ring? Was he about to break off our engagement just because I didn't remember a character.

"Your engagement ring, I want it back." He said and he sounded serious.

"Wait, so because I don't remember a character you want my ring back?" I asked.

"Yup." He said as he reached out for my hand to take my ring off. I sat up and it was like I could feel my heart breaking.

"Are you serious right now? You're going to end our engagement because I don't remember a character in Harry Potter?" I asked as tears formed in my eyes. When he noticed the tears, his eyes widened.

"Honey I was just kidding. I wasn't actually going to take off the ring. Of course we're going to get married, I would never end our engagement." Shawn said. I didn't feel angry, I felt hurt as tears fell onto my cheeks. Shawn tried to reach forward to wipe them away, but I stood up.

"Shawn, you know how much I love you. You know everything about me, so you know what my biggest fear is, don't you?" I asked. He put his head in his hands and nodded.

"Yeah, I do." He said.

"And what's my biggest fear Shawn?" I asked. He removed his hands from his face and sighed.

"That I'm going to stop loving you and leave you." He said. I nodded as I wiped tears away.

"Exactly. Shawn, you didn't sound like you were joking, you sounded like you seriously wanted me to take the ring off. So when you said that, and then when you reached out to take the ring off -" I started.

"I wasn't actually going to take the ring off." He said.

"But how was I supposed to know that?" I asked. He sighed and shrugged.

"I don't know." He said.

"Exactly. When you did that, it felt like my heart was breaking. I'm not even angry with you or mad at you, I'm just hurt." I said.

"I'm sorry honey, I shouldn't have done that. Honestly, I would rather you yell and scream at me right now than hear the hurt in your voice." Shawn said as tears formed in his eyes. I looked away, not wanting to see the tears. It would only break my heart. I wiped my own tears away.

"I can't do that. I can't yell and scream at you." I said.

"Why not?" He asked.

"Because I only yell when I'm angry, and like I said, I'm not angry, I'm hurt. So, I'm going to go upstairs and journal or read or something. I just need some space right now." I said.

"Wait, baby please, I'm sorry." He said as I began walking towards the stairs. I looked at him and my heart broke as I saw the tears fall onto his cheeks.

"Shawn you know me better than anyone. You should've known not to joke like that. You should also know that I need space when I feel like this." I said. He nodded and I went upstairs and sat on mine and Shawn's bed after locking the door.

I may have been overreacting, I don't know, but I was hurt. Shawn knows that my biggest fear is that he's going to stop loving me and leave me, so for him to make a joke about wanting the engagement ring back hurt. My phone lit up. Shawn had posted on Instagram. It was a picture of us from our engagement photoshoot. I was wearing a white dress and he was in a suit. We were smiling at each other. I read the caption.

"Y/n, my sweet, precious girl, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I hurt you. I'm sorry that I made a joke that was in no way funny. I don't know why I made that joke. I know what your biggest fear is, yet I made that joke. I know that I already said this, but I wished that I could have heard you scream and yell at me rather than hearing the hurt in your voice as you wiped away tears. I'm sorry that I made you cry and caused you pain. I'm sorry that, because of what I said, you went upstairs to be alone. Knowing you, if I tried to go up there and open our bedroom door, it would be locked. Please just know that I'm sorry beyond words and I'll sit on the couch for as long as I need to. I'm right here in the living room, waiting for you when you're ready. I want to be with you forever, I promise. I love you so much honey. Come downstairs so we can work this out whenever you're ready my love." Shawn wrote. More tears fell onto my cheeks. I liked the photo and then commented on it.

"I just need some time. What you said hurt, and right now I need to just think. I'll come down when I'm ready to, I promise." I commented. He replied to my comment.

"Take as much time as you need babe." He said. I locked my phone and sat there for a moment before getting up and looking at the photos that we have on our wall. All of them are pictures of him and I. I then looked at the photo that was next to Shawn's side of the bed. It was when he proposed to me. He had taken me to a park - the same place that we had our first kiss at - and said that Andrew and Josiah were just tagging along for fun. I didn't know that Andrew was going to videotape Shawn proposing to me, nor did I know that Josiah was going to take pictures of us.

I sighed and walked towards the door. I unlocked it and went downstairs slowly. There was silence. The television wasn't on, Shawn wasn't talking to anyone on the phone, and I couldn't hear him typing on his phone or anything. I looked at my engagement ring and then peeked around the corner. Shawn wasn't in the living room. I walked into the room and noticed that he was on the phone with someone while out on our back deck. I walked towards the door and my heart broke when I heard Shawn crying.

"I don't know Mum. I fucked up. I know that that's her biggest fear yet I made a joke that I wanted her engagement ring back. No, don't call her please, we'll work this out. At least I hope we will. Oh God Mum, what if she ends it with me because of this? I can't lose her Mum, I can't live without her." Shawn asked. My heart broke and I stepped outside. Shawn was too busy crying and sniffling to hear me.

"Shawn?" I asked. He looked at me with wide eyes.

"She just stepped outside with me, I have to go. I love you too. Thanks. Bye." Shawn said and they hung up. I walked over to him and put both of my hands on his cheeks. I used the pad of my thumbs to wipe away his tears. He put his hands on my waist.

"Don't cry my love. You're not going to lose me, I promise." I said. Shawn let out a sob of relief as he pulled me in for a hug. He buried his face in my neck.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I fucked up. I didn't mean to hurt you. I never want to hurt you, not in any way, shape, or form. I'm sorry." He said. I rubbed his back with one hand and let my other hand tangle in his hair as I tried to soothe him.

"Shhh baby, it's okay. I forgive you. I overreacted and I apologize for that." I said. Shawn picked his head up and shook it as he looked into my eyes.

"You didn't overreact at all. I messed up and I'm sorry. Are you sure that you forgive me?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Of course I'm sure honey." I said.

"I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you Y/n. I just can't. I don't want to be without you." Shawn said as more tears fell. I pulled him in for a hug.

"You're not going to lose me baby. You're never going to lose me, I promise. Let's go inside and sit on the couch." I said.

"Okay." Shawn said. He immediately interlaced our fingers. I felt electricity spark through me, yet I felt safe and warm at the same time. We sat on the couch and Shawn looked hesitant about something.

"What's up baby boy?" I asked.

"Is it okay to pull you onto my lap?" He asked.

"Oh honey of course it is." I said.

"Okay." He said. He then pulled me onto his lap. I rested my head on his shoulder as he wrapped his arms around me. I then played with the finger that his wedding band will go on.

"I can't wait to put your wedding band on you. I can't wait for the wedding honey." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek.

"I know baby, I can't wait either. I'm still sorry about that stupid fucking joke." Shawn said. I moved so he was straddling his lap. He put his hands on my waist and I put my hands on his face.

"My love, it's okay, I forgive you. Let's talk about something else, something happier, okay?" I asked. He nodded and pulled me closer to him.

"Okay." He said.

"You and I, my love, we're going to get married. And then, after a year, you're going to put a baby in my belly, right?" I asked with a smile. Shawn smiled back and nodded.

"Yup." He said. I rubbed his cheek.

"And then, we're going to end up having three little ones running around the house. Two girls and a boy - hopefully. And we're going to grow old together and be together forever." I said. Shawn nodded.

"I want all of that with you honey." He said.

"You'll get it, don't worry." I said. He put his lips on mine and I immediately got magical feelings from his sweet and loving kiss. We soon pulled away.

"Let's take a picture baby." He said. I nodded and set his phone on a timer so he could capture a picture of me sitting on his lap sideways as he kissed my cheek. We then looked at it.

"I love it." I said.

"Mind if I post it so my fans know that we're okay?" He asked.

"That's fine Shawny." I said before kissing his cheek. After a little bit, he told me to check my phone and I did. I smiled at the post and then read the caption.

"To those of you who saw my last post, Y/n and I are all good. I said something that I shouldn't have, and Y/n wasn't too happy about it. Sometimes couples get into arguments and things like that. I've had fans come up to me and say that Y/n and I are a perfect couple and that we probably never fight. I'll tell you a secret: we do sometimes - not often, but every once in a while. But we love each other, so we always make up. Y/n and I made up, she forgave me for what I said. I'm so grateful to have such an amazing woman by my side and I can't wait to marry her." Shawn wrote.

"Perfect baby. I love you." I said.

"I love you too honey." He said. He then called his mum and told her that him and I are all good and she was happy. I love Shawn so much and I could never leave him.