I've been dating the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes for five months now, and things are getting serious. He got me a promise ring recently, we say I love you to each other, we've talked about marriage and kids, we've met each other's friends and family, and I'm staying at his place in Toronto for a little bit of the summer. I woke up in the morning to an empty bed. I padded my feet out of Shawn's bedroom and saw him sitting on his balcony, playing guitar. I quietly stepped out as I smiled at the shirtless man in front of me. I then began to massage his shoulders. He jumped.

"Shhh handsome, it's just me." I said. He relaxed and tilted his head back to smile at me.

"Hi gorgeous. How did you sleep?" He asked.

"Good. How did you sleep babe?" I asked as I leaned down and kissed his cheek.

"Good. This massage feels nice." He said as he set the guitar down. I smiled.

"Yeah?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah. I love you honey." He said.

"I love you too babe. You're so amazing, did you know that?" I asked. He chuckled as he tipped his head back to look at me again.

"Well thank you, but you're the amazing one." Shawn said. I blushed, and when Shawn noticed this, he laughed.

"You know, you're very good at making me blush." I said.

"Yeah I like to make you blush. Your face is so cute when it's all red, but then again it's always so cute." He said. I continued to massage his back as I kissed his cheek. My phone was in my pocket and I heard a noise, signaling that I had gotten a text.

"Hold on a second baby." I said.

"Okay." Shawn said. I pulled out my phone and looked at it. My former neighbor, Liz, had sent me a screenshot of Shawn and I holding hands as we walked through a park in Toronto. It was from an Instagram post. Shawn and I hadn't gone public yet. I read the caption.

"Looks like love is in the air for Shawn Mendes! He was spotted out in Toronto holding hands with a mystery girl. Hmmm, who is this girl Shawn?" E! News posted. I sighed.

"You okay babe?" Shawn asked. I showed him the post.

"I guess we were caught." I said. Shawn looked at the screenshot of the post and then handed my phone back to me as I sat down next to him. I felt nervous. This meant that we should probably go public, which would mean that I would most likely get hate.

"Well they didn't take pictures of us smooching." Shawn said. I nodded as I looked out at the view of Toronto. "What's wrong babe?" Shawn asked. I looked at him.

"Can I sit on your lap please?" I asked. He nodded.

"Of course honey." He said. I moved over and straddled his lap. He put his hands on my sides as I let my hands roam around his bare chest.

"I'm torn right now." I said.

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"Well, we should probably go public. I mean, there's already been rumors about us anyways. Now that people are going to spread around pictures of you holding hands with someone, well, we can't stay a secret for much longer. But if we go public, I'll get hate." I said. It was true about there being rumors. I follow Shawn Mendes fan accounts on Instagram, and I had seen pictures that people had secretly snapped of us out at dinner or at the park or at a concert. I guess we weren't as slick as we thought that we were.

"I don't think that we should go public honey." Shawn said. I looked at him.

"Why not? Are you ashamed of me?" I asked. Shawn's eyes widened and he shook his head.

"No, oh my gosh no. I'm so proud to have you as my girlfriend, I just don't want you to get hate." He said.

"Well, I can come to you if I'm upset about the hate, right?" I asked. He nodded his head.

"Of course." He said.

"I hate having to hide things from people. Plus, E! News caught us holding hands, so it's kind of out there already." I said. My phone dinged again. People magazine's Instagram had posted a photo, which Liz screenshot and sent me. It was a picture of Shawn and I kissing. He was holding my face as we kissed. I read the caption.

"Shawn's smooches! Singer Shawn Mendes was caught smooching with a mystery girl in Toronto the other day." The caption read. I showed it to Shawn.

"Okay. Let's go public." He said. I smiled and nodded.

"Okay. Can I have a kiss please?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Of course you can baby. Come here." Shawn said. I put my lips on his. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through my body like fireworks. Shawn and I soon pulled away and smiled at each other.

"Magical, per usual. I love you." I said. Shawn's smile widened and he reached his hand up to rub my cheek with his thumb. His touch felt inviting and safe.

"It really was magical. I love you too baby. Is it okay if I tag you in the post?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah of course and write whatever you want. Would it be okay if, after you make your post, I post something too?" I asked. He nodded.

"Of course honey. Want to help me pick out a picture?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said. I moved in his lap so my back was against his chest and we looked at the many photos that we have together that are on his phone.

"What about this one?" Shawn asked. I looked at it and shook my head.

"No. It doesn't even show your handsome face." I said. Shawn kissed the side of my head, and when I saw the next photo, even though it was in black and white, I liked it.

"What about this one?" Shawn asked. In the picture, Shawn and I were sticking out our tongues and it was really cute. I smiled and nodded.

"I like it." I said.

"Okay baby, I'll post this one. Can you actually get off my lap for a little bit please? I want what I write to be a surprise." Shawn said. I nodded.

"Okay." I said and got off his lap. As he wrote his caption, I chose the picture that I wanted to post: him and I kissing while we stood in front of his bathroom mirror. After a little bit, my phone dinged and I saw that Shawn had posted. I felt nervous as I unlocked my phone to see what he had written. There was no going back now. I took a deep breath and read the caption.

"So, I've been keeping a secret from you guys. Last August, I was in Boston on tour. I felt tired so I went to a local Dunkin Donuts to get some coffee. I had never been there before, so I didn't know what to get. I figured that I would ask the girl at the front of the line what to get. When the girl turned around... holy crap. I instantly fell for her with her beautiful y/h/c hair and beautiful y/e/c eyes that never cease to mesmerize me. The girl came up to me and asked for a picture, I said yes, and after we took the picture I asked her to text it to me. She did and I asked her what her name is. She said 'Y/n Y/l/n.' and I asked her out on a date right then and there. Thank God she said yes, because on December 22, 2019, after texting, calling, and Facetiming each other constantly for four months, I flew to Boston, showed up on her doorstep, and asked her to be my girlfriend. She said yes, making me very happy. We've been dating for a little over five months now and they've been the best five months of my life.

"I know that Y/n is going to get hate, and I don't like that. Please do NOT send her hate! Let me tell you guys about her: Y/n is sweet, kind, and caring. She's loving, gentle, funny, and compassionate. She would give the shirt off her back to a stranger if they needed it. When I'm upset or anxious, she's the one that I call, even if it's the middle of the night, and she always answers or calls back as soon as she can. It used to be that I was my happiest when I was on stage, but now I'm my happiest when I'm with her.

"Y/n isn't just some fling or anything like that. We say I love you to each other. I've met her family and she's met mine. Not just parents and siblings, but cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents. My family loves her, and so do my friends. I gave her a promise ring. We've talked about our future together. I love Y/n, and I hope that you guys do too because she's amazing. Y/n, my sweet girl who's sitting with me right now, I love you more than words will ever be able to describe. As I'm writing this, I can see you getting fidgety and restless. I know that you're worried about the hate, but I'll protect you as best as I can. I love you darling." Shawn wrote. I smiled.

"That was beautiful. Thank you for that honey." I said. Shawn smiled.

"You're welcome baby." He said.

"What do you think of me posting this picture?" I asked as I showed him the picture. He smiled.

"I love it." He said. I smiled, took a deep breath, and made the post.

"Shawn Mendes, you've read essays that I've written for school, you've read my Instagram captions, you've read poems that I've written, and you always smile and say 'My darling, you have a way with words.' which always makes me happy, but right now, I don't know what to write to accurately describe my love for you and how much you mean to me.

"We met last August at a Dunkin Donuts in Boston. I had seen you in concert the night before, but when I saw you in person on August 16, 2019, I almost dropped my drink. There were two reasons why I almost dropped my drink: one of them being that my idol and favorite celebrity was standing right in front of me, already looking at me, and the other reason being that you looked even more handsome in person, and I knew that I needed to ask for a picture with you. I went up to you, our eyes never leaving each other, and asked for a picture. Your first words to me were: 'I'm sorry what? You have the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen.' and that was the first time - out of many - that you made me blush.

"You asked me out on a date within five minutes of knowing each other and we sat down and talked for two hours before Jake told you that Andrew wanted you. You tilted your head towards Jake, but looked at me as you said 'Tell him that I'm with a beautiful girl and I don't want to leave.' but I had to go anyways. You and I instantly clicked and connected. During those two hours together, we never ran out of things to talk about. I instantly felt comfortable with you.

"Four months later you texted me and asked me what my address was, so I told you. A few hours later you were at my front door with a bouquet of pink tulips - you had remembered that pink is my favorite color, and that tulips are my favorite flowers. You came in and hugged me. As soon as your arms were around me, it was like I was home, like nothing bad could come anywhere near me. You asked me to be your girlfriend and of course I said yes. You smiled and kissed me.

"Shawn, these past five months have been nothing short of magical. You make me feel so special and loved. You constantly shower me with your love and affection. You make me laugh, smile, and you're always able to cheer me up when I'm down. I love the fact that we're so happy and in love with each other. Being with you is like a non stop laughing, smiling, giggling, and kissing spree with my best friend. You know how much I love quotes, and I feel like this quote is fitting to how I feel about you:

"'I'm not just falling in love with you. I'm falling into you. You're an ocean, and I'm falling in, drowning in the depths of who you are. Like you said, it's scary in a way, but it's also the most amazing thing I've ever experience. You are the most amazing thing I've ever experience.' - Unknown.

"Thank you for loving me like you do and accepting me for who I am and for being my best friend. You have the kindest heart and sweetest soul. I'm the luckiest and happiest girl in the world because of you babe. You're one of a kind, and I love you so much Shawn Mendes." I wrote. Shawn read the caption and smiled.

"Perfect caption babe. Want to go lay on the couch and cuddle?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said. We went inside and he laid down first and then I laid on him and rested my head on his chest. He turned on the television and I closed my eyes. When I woke up, Shawn was rubbing my back and I heard him talking quietly. I quickly realized that he was doing a live stream.

"Y/n is asleep on my chest right now, but thank you to those that are saying nice things on our posts. For those of you who are saying some not so nice things, just know that I can see those comments and I don't appreciate them. I love my girl so much. I'm just rubbing her back right now." Shawn said and I smiled when I felt him kiss the top of my head. I picked my head up and looked at him. He smiled at me.

"Hi." I said.

"Hi honey. How was your nap?" He asked.

"Good. I always sleep better when I'm in your arms. I'm not looking forward to when I have to leave." I said.

"Well you're here for a couple more months, so we don't have to worry about that. Do you mind the fact that I'm doing a live stream?" He asked. I shook my head.

"No that's fine baby. Do you want me to leave the room while you do that?" I asked. He shook his head.

"No, come here baby girl, let the fans see you." He said.

"I don't even have any makeup on." I said.

"So what? I love it when you don't wear makeup. You look prettier, more real without it. Come here honey, let the fans see you." He said. I hesitantly moved so the fans could see me and Shawn smiled.

"Hi guys." I said as Shawn kissed the top of my head.

"So Mendes Army, this is my girlfriend, Y/n Y/l/n. Isn't she gorgeous? Oh my gosh she's the most gorgeous girl I've ever laid eyes on." Shawn said. I blushed.

"Oh my gosh." I said as I buried my face in his chest. He erupted into laughter.

"Come on pretty girl, let me see that beautiful face of yours." Shawn said as he rubbed my back.

"No, I'm going to hide forever." I said.

"You're going to hide forever?" He asked with a chuckle.

"Yup." I said as I nodded my head against his chest.

"Well if you're going to do that then I'll just have to tickle you." Shawn said. I picked my head up.

"That's a no for me." I said and Shawn laughed.

"I knew that would get you to pick your head up." He said and I laughed.

"You know what happens when I get tickled too much or when I laugh too hard." I said.

"Yes, I do. Do you want to tell my fans what happens?" He asked with a smirk.

"Stop smirking." I said with a laugh.

"Nope." He said as he popped the 'p'. I put my lips on his and kissed him. When we pulled away he was smiling.

"I got you to stop smirking." I said and he laughed.

"Yup. I love your magical kisses." He said.

"Well I love your magical kisses too." I said.

"Do you want to tell my fans what happens when you get tickled too much or when you laugh too hard?" He asked. I sighed.

"I pee." I said quietly.

"What's that babe? Sorry I couldn't hear you." He teased.

"Oh my gosh. I pee. When I laugh too hard or get tickled too much, if I don't make it to the bathroom in time, I pee." I said. Shawn smiled and laughed.

"There we go!" He said.

"You're insane." I said.

"Yeah, insanely in love with you." He said before kissing my face repeatedly, causing me to laugh.

"Babeee. Babe. Babe I have to pee!" I said. Shawn stopped and I ran to the bathroom.

"There she goes, off to empty her bladder." Shawn said. I laughed harder but made it to the bathroom in time. I finished in the bathroom and then went back to Shawn, who was now sitting up. "Feel better?" He asked with a smirk.

"Yes. Every time you smirk I just want to kiss it away." I said.

"Well then maybe I should smirk all the time." He said and I smiled and leaned my head on his shoulder. He had his phone propped up so he didn't have to hold it. I looked up at him.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you too darling. You're so precious to me, did you know that?" Shawn asked as he wrapped his arms around me and rubbed his nose on my cheek and then kissed my cheek. I smiled and nodded.

"Yeah, you like to tell me that, you're so precious to me too." I said as I closed my eyes and hummed.

"You happy baby?" He asked. I pulled away and looked at him. He had a small but loving smile on his face. I put my hand to his cheek as I smiled back.

"With you? Always." I said. His smile grew and he tackled me so my back was on the couch as we kissed. I couldn't help but laugh into the kiss. I knew that our faces were out of view of his phone. Shawn pulled away, the smile never leaving his face.

"What are you laughing about silly girl?" He asked.

"You practically tackled me so you could kiss me." I said and he chuckled.

"Yeah I like to kiss you." He said.

"I like to kiss you too." I said. He pecked my lips again before sitting up. I stayed laying on the couch. Shawn looked at me and laughed.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

"I'm cozy." I said.

"You're cozy? How in the world are you cozy with your legs in this funky position?" He asked. I laughed and sat up.

"Okay, so it wasn't very cozy, but still, it was a little cozy." I said. Shawn smiled at me.

"I'm in love with you." He said. My heart fluttered.

"Well that's good because I'm in love with you." I said.

"How about I end the live stream and we just spend some time together? Does that sound good darling?" He asked. I shrugged.

"It's up to you baby. It's your live stream." I said. He smirked.

"You know what we could do?" He asked.

"Oh God. What?" I asked.

"We can continue the live stream and I'll move forward a little bit and you could give me one of your amazing massages." Shawn said. I laughed and nodded.

"Okay honey." I said. He smiled and scooted forward. I sat behind him but let my legs wrap around his waist.

"Should I put a shirt on?" He asked.

"No! You look hot babe. You're such a hottie." I said and Shawn laughed.

"Alright hun. I'll keep my shirt off, just for you." He said. I placed a gentle kiss on his back and then began massaging his shoulders.

"How does this feel babe?" I asked.

"Amazing. Maybe you shouldn't go into the psychology field, maybe you should become a masseuse, you know, like Phoebe from Friends." Shawn said. The fans watching the live stream couldn't see me anymore since I was behind Shawn. I smirked.

"So you want me to massage random people's bodies?" I asked as he rubbed my legs.

"Nope, never mind, go into the psychology field if you want to." Shawn said. I laughed.

"I definitely want to go into the psychology field." I said as I moved my hands from his shoulders to his back.

"You love psychology." Shawn said.

"I do! That's why it's my major. Does this feel okay babe?" I asked.

"This feels perfect honey, thank you for this." He said. I smiled.

"Anything for you my love." I said before placing a kiss on his toned back.

"You guys can't see it, but she just kissed my back. She's amazing." Shawn said. I smiled.

"You're the amazing one Shawn. Like I said in my post, you have the kindest heart and the sweetest soul. That's why I'm with you, and that's why I love you. I don't care about the fame or anything like that, I care about who you are as a person." I said. Shawn leaned back so his back was against my chest and kissed my jaw. I wrapped my arms around his chest and smiled.

"I adore you. You're my princess." He said. I kissed the side of his head.

"I adore you too and you're my prince charming. Gosh I love your hair." I said. Shawn laughed.

"Do you want to play with my hair babe?" Shawn asked.

"Oh my gosh yes." I said. He laughed and sat up again.

"There you go gorgeous. Play with it as much as you want." He said. I immediately tangled my fingers into his luscious locks.

"Please never cut your hair unless it's for a trim." I said.

"You like the length that it's at now honey bunny?" He asked. I smiled at the nickname.

"Yeah." I said as I continued to run my fingers through his hair. I then stopped and hugged him from behind, my legs still wrapped around his waist.

"You okay babe?" He asked. I rested the side of my face on his back and nodded.

"Yeah. I just love you a lot and I love snuggling with you." I said. He started to play with the promise ring that he put on me recently.

"I love you a lot too and I love snuggling with you too babe. Are you my cuddle bunny?" Shawn asked. I nodded my head against his back.

"Yeah." I said.

"You cozy?" He asked. I nodded.

"Mmm hmm." I hummed as I closed my eyes. He was still playing with my ring.

"Good. By the way guys, this is not an engagement ring on Y/n's finger. It's a promise ring. But I did promise her that I would switch it out for an engagement ring someday. That won't be for another couple of years, but it'll happen guys. She's the one. She's it for me." Shawn said. My heart swelled with joy as I kissed his back again and then rested my face there again and closed my eyes.

"You're my everything." I said and Shawn rubbed my arms.

"Well you're my everything too baby. How about I end the live stream and we spend some alone time together?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Okay honey." I said.

"Okay, bye guys, I love you guys!" Shawn said. There was a pause and then Shawn moved his head so he could try and see me. "You okay honey?"

"Yeah. I just like, hold on." I said.

"Okay." He said. I moved so I was sitting next to him now rather than behind him. I moved my legs onto his lap and put my hand to his cheek. He looked at me with such love in his eyes that my heart could have bursted at that moment.

"I just love how much you love me. You make me the luckiest and happiest girl in the world. And to know that you want to marry me someday? Oh Shawn honey, that makes me so happy." I said as happy tears formed in my eyes. He smiled at me.

"Come here, come sit on my lap honey." Shawn said and I did as told. "Honey, of course I want to marry you. I know that we haven't even known each other for a year, but still, I've known that you're the one for me since I laid eyes on you. You're so amazing in every way possible. I love you and I don't want anyone else but you." Shawn said. I smiled and then buried my face in his neck.

"I love you too. I'm sorry if there are times when I get jealous, I just love you a lot and I don't want to lose you." I said.

"Hey, look at me." Shawn said. I picked my head up and looked at him. "You're never going to lose me. Not now, not ever. You and I? We're it. We're in it until the end." Shawn said. I kissed him again and then smiled at him when I pulled away.

"Let's go lay in bed and cuddle." I said. He nodded and that's exactly what we did. I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

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