A/n: I know that I just recently wrote that imagine about Shawn and Y/n going public but this is before they go public. Anyways, please enjoy this imagine. Okay, without further ado, let's begin!

My boyfriend of almost five months is the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes. We had yet to go public. I've been staying with him in Toronto for the summer, and even though I had only gotten here about five days ago, Shawn and I had already been spotted a few times. We could've stayed in, but we had nothing to do but watch Netflix. Shawn wanted to show me around, and we wanted to be a normal couple.

Even though Shawn didn't follow me on Instagram, people still found my account. I had my account set to private, but people would message me. Some of them would ask if I was dating Shawn, others would be not so nice. Of course I told Shawn about all of it because I knew that he would want to know. He always felt bad. I ended up just not checking my messages on Instagram anymore.

I followed different Shawn Mendes fan accounts on Instagram and Twitter, which is how I always saw the pictures of us being caught. I would read the captions and the comments, and sometimes the comments weren't all that nice either. The captions were usually either nice, saying that I'm pretty or saying how happy Shawn looks, or they could be neutral, saying that they just wanted to know who I was. Shawn and I had first been seen together on Valentine's Day, which was about three months ago. Some fans just wanted to finally know who I was, but Shawn and I weren't ready to go public yet.

Shawn and I were out, and there was a balcony at the place that we were at. I looked around and saw my man, sitting outside. He was wearing black skinny jeans and a light button up shirt, and he had his airpods in. He had seemed stressed today but I couldn't figure out why. I kneeled behind him and placed my hands on his shoulders and began to gently rub.

"What's going on, my love?" I asked. He shook his head.

"Nothing. I'm just thinking." He said. His voice shook a bit. I moved my body so I was in front of him. He took out his airpods and looked down as I crouched in front of him. I gently put my hands on his cheeks so he would look at me, and that's when he began to softly cry. I had never seen him like this, and it broke my heart. He took one of his hands and placed it on top of one of my hands.

"What's going on baby? I'm right here." I asked and said. He turned his head and kissed the palm of my hand a few times as he closed his eyes. He then looked at me with such sadness in his eyes that I almost started to cry too.

"I'm so sorry." He said. He was still holding my hand to his cheek. I used my other hand to push back his curls gently.

"Why are you apologizing my love?" I asked. I tried to keep my voice as calm and loving as possible, but I was worried about him.

"You used to have a normal, private life. Nobody randomly took pictures and videos of you. Nobody sent you mean messages and said mean things about you. Then I came in and messed everything up. I'm so sorry baby. I'm not good for you. I'll understand if you want to break up with me." Shawn said. My eyes widened and I held his face so he would look at me.

"Shawn Peter Raul Mendes, I do not want you to ever say, or even think such terrible things ever again, do you understand me?" I asked.

"But I'm not good for you." He said.

"You are perfect for me. There is no one for you but me, and there is no one for me but you. We understand each other, and we love each other, right?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Yeah." He said.

"I don't want you to ever think something like this again, and if you do, please come to me right away, okay my love?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah." He said. I moved myself so I was sitting on his lap and he held me close to him and rested his head on my chest. He was still crying a bit, so I kissed the top of his head before rubbing his head.

"My sweet love, can you look at me for a minute?" I asked. He lifted his head up and looked at me.

"Hm?" He asked. I used the back of my fingers to gently wipe his tears away as I spoke softly.

"Do you know what my first thought was when I saw you in Dunkin Donuts?" I asked. He shook his head.

"No. What was it?" He asked. I softly smiled at him.

"I took one look at you and thought 'That's the man I'm going to marry. That's the man that I'm going to grow old with and spend the rest of my life with.'" I said before kissing the side of his head. Shawn's tears slowed down. I moved my fingers to his hair.

"Really?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yup. I've known that you're the one for me since the moment that we met. You're my best friend, no one knows me like you do baby. You know things about me that I've never told anyone before. You're my soulmate." I said. Shawn smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile back. "There's the beautiful smile that I love so much." I said. Shawn chuckled as he blushed.

"I love you so much." He said.

"I love you so much more." I said. He shook his head.

"No way darling. Come give me a kiss." He said. I put my hand on his cheek, he put his hand over mine, and I put my lips on his. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through my body. The kiss wasn't too long, and I could tell that Shawn was putting all of his love into it.

"Should we get going back to your place baby?" I asked. He shook his head.

"I just want to sit with you." He said. I nodded and kissed his cheek. He turned his head towards mine and rubbed his nose against mine a few times. I smiled and then kissed his nose.

"Did you know that I love your nose? Did you know that I love every single part of you?" I asked. Shawn smiled at me and then began to laugh hysterically as I kissed all over his gorgeously handsome face.

"Babe, babe, baaabe." Shawn said as he laughed. I pulled away and smiled at him.

"Yes?" I asked.

"I love you so much. You always know how to make me feel better." He said. I smiled at him and gently picked up his hand so I could kiss it.

"I love you too. As your girlfriend, it's my job to know how to make you feel better." I said. His smile widened.

"Will you rub my head please?" He asked. I nodded.

"Of course I will. Come here, my love." I said. He rested his head on my chest and I kissed the top of his head before rubbing it slowly. After a minute or so of that, he picked his head up.

"How about we go back to my place and relax?" He asked. I smiled and nodded.

"Okay." I said. I stood up and he did too. He stretched his arms up wide and then pulled me in for a tight huge.

"I love you baby girl. I love you so much." He said as he rubbed my back a little.

"I love you too baby boy." I said. He gave me a kiss and then we held hands and left. A little while after we got back to his place, I checked my phone and groaned. Usually, when we got caught, it was by fans. However, the paparazzi caught the whole thing of me comforting Shawn, and it was everywhere. I showed it to Shawn, and although he was upset, he calmed down after a bit. I'm glad that I could be there to help comfort my man.