A/n: I'm back! I've been having some health issues and it took me quite a long time to write this one but I'm proud of how it came out. I hope that you guys enjoy it! Explicit language in this one. Okay, without further ado, let's begin!

I've been dating the singer and songwriter, Shawn Mendes, for almost five months now. I'm staying at his place in Toronto for the summer, and I just finished a very long and stressful semester at college. I was sitting on his couch, cuddling with him, when I decided to check my grades. I got up to grab my laptop and then felt Shawn gently grab my wrist and pull me back down so my body was up against his again. I giggled as Shawn whispered in my ear.

"Where do you think you're going young lady?" He asked. I turned my head so I was looking at his gorgeously handsome face.

"Well I wanted to get my laptop so I could check my grades from this past semester. I don't know if they've been posted or not." I said. Shawn kissed the side of my head and then nodded.

"Okay sweetheart. Go get your laptop and then hurry your cute bum back to me." He said. I blushed and laughed as I went to get my laptop. I sat back down on the couch and Shawn watched as I nervously checked my grades. He knew how hard I had been working this past semester because I would call him when I was stressed. When I saw that my grade point average had gone up, and that I had gotten all A's and one B, I cheered.

"Yes! My grades went up!" I said. Shawn's smile widened.

"Hell yeah! What did you get babe?" He asked.

"I got all A's and one B!" I said. Shawn picked up the laptop, put it aside, and pulled me close to him. I smiled and closed my eyes as I felt his warm lips press a kiss to my forehead. The spot that he kissed was left feeling tingly even after his lips were no longer there. I looked up at him and noticed that he had tears in his eyes. Before I could ask him what was wrong, he smiled and began to speak.

"I'm so proud of you Y/n. You were so stressed about this semester, but look at that baby! You did it! I'm so beyond proud of you baby girl." Shawn said. I smiled and pressed my lips to his. As our lips moved in perfect synchronization with each other, I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through my body. Shawn and I pulled away and smiled at each other.

"I love you." I said. His smile widened at my words.

"I love you too. I want to take you out. Let's go out for lunch or something." Shawn said. I was surprised at his words.

"But we still haven't gone public yet. What if people see us and we get caught?" I asked. Shawn shrugged as he rubbed my back soothingly.

"I want us to go public soon. Our five month anniversary is coming up in a couple of days. How about we go public on our anniversary? My love, I want to show you off to the world." Shawn said. I reached out for his hand and played with his fingers as he rested his head against mine.

"I'm going to get hate. I can go to you when it bothers me, right?" I asked. Shawn kissed my head and then nodded.

"Of course you can baby." He said. I looked at him and put my hand on his cheek.

"Promise me something." I said. He nodded.

"Anything." He said.

"I know that there are probably going to be times when there are rumors and stuff like that. Promise me that we'll never listen to those rumors and that we'll always talk it out with each other." I said. Shawn smiled and nodded.

"Of course baby. I promise." Shawn said.

"What if people say that I'm with you for the money? You know that I'm with you because I love you, right?" I asked. Shawn nodded and held my face in his big hands.

"Of course I know that. I can see your love for me in your eyes. Do you want to go public?" He asked. I thought for a moment and then nodded.

"Yeah. I want to finally be able to post about you and brag about the fact that I'm dating my best friend." I said. Shawn smiled before kissing me.

"So do you want to go public on our five month anniversary?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. So are we going out to lunch today?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Yeah. What about The Loose Moose? It's in Toronto." Shawn asked and said. I nodded.

"Okay. Do I need to get dressed up for it?" I asked.

"No. You can just wear what you're wearing now." Shawn said. I was wearing blue jeans and a white t-shirt.

"Okay. I'm just going to fix my hair and put on some makeup." I said as I stood up. Shawn stood up too and gently grabbed my wrist and pulled me back to him. He was frowning as he looked at me.

"Why are you going to put on makeup? You're beautiful without it." Shawn asked and said.

"Thank you but I just, I don't know. I want to put makeup on." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek slowly a few times before resting his forehead against mine.

"What can I do to help you realize how beautiful you are?" Shawn asked in a whisper. I leaned forward and kissed him slowly and lovingly.

"I don't know. I would just feel more comfortable if I was wearing makeup." I said. Shawn sighed but nodded.

"Okay. I love you my beautiful girl." Shawn said. I smiled and kissed his pink, plump, lips.

"I love you too my handsome man." I said. Shawn smiled and then I went in the bathroom. I fixed my hair so it didn't look like ramen noodles, and then put on some light makeup. When I stepped out of the bathroom, Shawn was standing there wearing what he had been wearing before - black skinny jeans and a white t-shirt. Shawn smiled when he saw me.

"You look so beautiful my love." Shawn said before kissing my cheek. I blushed and smiled.

"Thank you. You look so handsome." I said. Shawn smiled, kissed my hand, and then interlaced his fingers with mine. As our skin touched I felt electricity spark through me, yet I felt safe and warm at the same time. We began walking out of his place and then stopped. He turned to me.

"Maybe we shouldn't go to Loose Moose. Maybe we should go to a restaurant where we can sit outside." Shawn said.

"Why?" I asked. Shawn smiled. He held my hand with his left hand, and brought his right hand up to my cheek.

"I want to show you off to the world sweetheart. I want people to see me with the most beautiful and incredible girl in the world who is also my best friend. Who cares if people take pictures? We'll just be there with each other." Shawn said. I thought for a moment before nodding.

"Okay. What do we do if people ask us if we're dating?" I asked. Shawn thought for a moment.

"We could just say maybe and say that they'll find out soon." Shawn said. I nodded and then quickly kissed his lips.

"Okay." I said. Shawn smiled and then we left for the restaurant. Shawn found a restaurant that had outdoor seats, and we were soon seated.

"What are you going to get?" Shawn asked as we started looking at the menus.

"I don't know. Maybe just a grilled cheese. What are you going to get?" I asked. Shawn told me that he was getting something with fries. We ordered and soon our food arrived.

"Do you like it?" Shawn asked after I had taken a bite of my food. I nodded. We talked a bit more before I decided to tease him. I pointed at something that was behind him.

"Babe, look over there, that looks really cool!" I said. Shawn began to turn around.

"What? What does?" He asked as I reached over and snagged one of his fries.

"Right there!" I said as I began to eat the fry, but I couldn't help but laugh a bit. Shawn turned back to me and started laughing when he saw part of the fry that I was putting in my mouth.

"Did you take one of my fries?" Shawn asked. I laughed and nodded.

"Yup." I said when I finished chewing. Shawn laughed and shook his head.

"You're a silly girl Y/n Y/l/n. You can have any and all of my fries." Shawn said. I smiled. Shawn took a bite of his food and some of it was on his face. I giggled before grabbing a napkin.

"You have some food on your face. Do you mind if I get it?" I asked. Shawn smiled and shook his head.

"Go for it." He said. I wiped the piece of food off of his face. I then sat back and looked at him as he smiled that gorgeous smile at me.

"There you go. I've got to take good care of my man." I said.

"You always do sweetheart." Shawn said, causing me to smile. Soon after we finished eating, we paid and then stepped out towards the valet, and then we had to wait for the car. Shawn turned to me and smiled as he pulled me close to him.

"Thank you for bringing me up to Canada and letting me stay with you." I said as I wrapped my arms around his waist and he wrapped his arms around my shoulders. He smiled and then kissed my forehead.

"You're welcome baby. I love having you here with me. Give me one of your magical kisses baby." Shawn said. I giggled as he leaned down to put his lips on mine. Since we were in public, the kiss wasn't very long, but it wasn't a very brief, quick kiss, either. We pulled away and I rested my head on his chest as he began to rub my back.

"I love you Shawn." I said. He kissed the top of my head before responding.

"I love you too Y/n." Shawn said. The restaurant had been playing music that we could hear outside and Truth Hurts by Lizzo started playing. Shawn instantly started dancing, which made me laugh.

"Oh my gosh Shawn." I said. He laughed, continued dancing, and then pulled me close to him so he could kiss me. I smiled into the kiss, and we pulled away.

"What should we do when we get back to my place?" Shawn asked as he swayed us from side to side and rubbed my back a little bit. I thought for a moment as I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes.

"Can we cuddle please? I just want to cuddle with you." I said as Shawn kissed the top of my head.

"Of course we can baby girl. We can do whatever you want. I just want you to be happy." Shawn said. I looked at him. The look of love that he had on his face as he looked at me could've made my heart burst.

"My love, I just need you and I'll be happy." I said. Shawn's smile widened before he ducked down to put his lips on mine. He soon pulled away and the valet brought the car to us. We got in and went back to his place. As soon as we walked in, we sat down on the couch together and turned on Netflix. My back was against his chest as his strong arms wrapped around me and he rested his chin on my shoulder.

"I adore you sweetheart." He said before rubbing his nose against my cheek. I smiled at his words and his loving gesture.

"I adore you too baby." I said. We relaxed for a bit longer, and then, once the movie we had been watching ended, we checked our phones.

"Babe?" Shawn asked.

"Yes?" I asked.

"We were spotted at the restaurant. There's pictures and videos of us eating, talking, you stealing my fries, when I was dancing while we waited for valet, and us kissing. What do you want to do?" Shawn asked. I looked at his phone and saw that his Twitter feed was filled with pictures and videos of us.

"Well, we're going public in a couple of days, so we don't have to say anything now, right?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Right. Wait, what if we just kind of... I don't know, tease?" He asked. I looked at him.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Well, there's this video of me dancing and people are asking what I'm dancing to. What if I just write something about it being Truth Hurts by Lizzo but I won't say anything about you being in the video? People will just be speculating." Shawn asked and said. I thought for a moment and then nodded.

"Okay." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek and then quote retweeted the tweet.

"That moment when Truth Hurts by Lizzo starts playing outside the restaurant while you're waiting for valet." Shawn wrote. I favorited the tweet and then cuddled up to Shawn.

"What are we doing tomorrow baby?" I asked. Shawn thought for a moment.

"Well, we could go to the park tomorrow and pack a picnic and just hang out. Does that sound good?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. That sounds perfect." I said. Shawn kissed my forehead and my eyes fluttered shut at the warmth of his lips. I then smiled at him and he smiled back.

"Yesterday, I found two quotes that's very fitting to how I feel about you. Maybe I should post one of them on my Instagram story today and then post the other one on my Instagram story tomorrow." Shawn said.

"What are the quotes?" I asked. Shawn showed them to me and I nodded.

"Do you like them? Do you think that I should post them?" He asked.

"Yes to both of those questions." I said with a giggle. Shawn smiled and soon I got a notification that he had posted on his Instagram story. Even though I had just read the quote, I read it again.

"She's the kind of girl you never see coming. It starts off simple and two months later you're saying I love you, you are my world. She told me 'I want a kiss' and I knew I was in trouble. I want to spend every night tucked up in the mystery that is her mind. What is she thinking? What does she want? Is this enough for her? Am I enough for her? Some people you can read; she's a novel written in another language. Love is never easily understood. Our love was unexpected, the kind you only read about. One second I was flying on a plane, the next we were falling in love. It gives me hope that the world is a good place. She gives me hope that I am good. I look into her eyes and I'm in her soul, completely transfixed. She wraps her arms around me and I swear no one has ever felt safer in this world. Fingers intertwined with mine and I'm sure we can take on the world. Lying next to her I feel her magic, the kind you can only find in a girl who finds humor in everything. She kisses me and I sprout wings that take me to a place where we're together forever. Sometimes she laughs and I swear it's the cure for any disease. It healed me. She feels like home. No better than that; she feels like where I belong, where I was always supposed to be. I wasn't looking for anyone; she showed me my forever. She's the kind of girl that can do that, steal your heart and change your life." The quote read.

"Beautiful." I said.

"So it's just like you?" Shawn asked.

"Oh my gosh." I said with a blush before leaning on Shawn. We spent the rest of the day cuddling on the couch. The next morning when I woke up, Shawn wasn't in bed with me, but he had already posted the other quote onto his Instagram story, so I read it.

"I'm not sure what love is, but I think it's hearing her say, 'You're an asshole,' while her smile betrays the words that just came out of her mouth. It's getting a FaceTime call at eight in the morning so she can show you her outfit, because she thinks she looks really cute that day. I think love is blurting out exactly how you feel about her when she asks you why you're looking at her 'like that.' It's unplanned and sloppy, the exact opposite of how you wanted it to happen; but the smile on her face tells you that it was perfect in its own way. Love is being afraid to let her know about certain parts of yourself, but telling her anyways. It's making breakfast with her in the morning, dancing with her despite your two left feet, and passionately singing the wrong lyrics just to hear her laugh. I'm not sure what love is, but it just might be magic." The quote read.

I got up and went down the hall. Shawn was in the kitchen, shirtless, making breakfast for him and I. I leaned against the doorframe and just looked at him for a moment as I took in how lucky I am. I slowly stepped towards him before gently wrapping my arms around his torso. He jumped for a moment and then relaxed into my touch.

"Good morning beautiful. When did you wake up?" He asked as I placed a gentle kiss on his beautiful and strong back.

"Good morning handsome. I woke up just a little bit ago. You're so handsome, my love and you're so wonderful. I'm the luckiest girl in the world to be your girlfriend." I said as I rested my head against his back and closed my eyes. Shawn hummed.

"Well I'm the luckiest man in the world to be your boyfriend. Pancakes are ready baby girl." Shawn said. I unwrapped my arms from around him and took my plate from him.

"Thank you." I said. He gave me a quick but loving kiss.

"You're welcome." He said. After breakfast, and after we made our lunches and put them in a picnic basket, we got ready to go to the park. I wore a light blue t-shirt and dark jean shorts. Shawn was wearing a white shirt that said coffee and black jeans.

"I love that shirt on you baby. You look so good." I said. Shawn smiled at me and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"You look so beautiful Y/n. Ready to go?" Shawn asked.

"Yeah." I said as I nodded and interlaced my fingers with his. After a little bit of driving, we got to the park.

"Where should we put the blanket? Right here?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said. He laid the blanket down and we sat down. Shawn knows that I love to cuddle with him, so when he sat down, he immediately spread his legs a bit and then patted his lap. I smiled and crawled over so I was in between his legs and my back was against his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the side of my head. I closed my eyes and tilted my head back as I relaxed into him more.

"Is my precious girl cozy?" Shawn asked. I nodded, opened my eyes, and brought one of his hands to my lips so I could kiss it.

"Yeah." I said.

"Good." Shawn said.

"Shawny?" I asked after a pause.

"Yes?" Shawn asked.

"Are you going to love me even when I'm all old and wrinkly and gray and sagging?" I asked. Shawn moved me gently so I was turned around and facing him. He placed his hands on either side of my face so I would look at him.

"I'm going to love you, especially when you're all old and wrinkly and gray and sagging. I promise." Shawn said. I smiled and then kissed him.

"Thank you for that baby." I said.

"You're welcome. What are you going to do when I go bald?" Shawn asked. My eyes went wide.

"I'll get you a toupée." I said. Shawn threw his head back with laughter before pulling me closer to him so I was sitting on his lap. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and he wrapped his arms around my waist. Shawn kissed my lips once, twice, three times, and then smiled at me. Of course I smiled back.

"Baby you make me so happy and I've loved having you here with me for the summer." Shawn said. My smile widened.

"You make me very happy too and I've loved being here with you. Do you like it even when my hair looks like ramen noodles in the morning?" I asked. Shawn threw his head back with laughter and then nodded.

"Of course I do. Should we eat now?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said as I got off of his lap. We got out our sandwiches and ate them.

"Come here baby girl." Shawn said as he laid down on the blanket. I laid down too and put my head on his chest and wrapped my arm around his torso. The sky was mostly blue with some clouds.

"Shawn?" I asked as he kissed the top of my head.

"Yes Y/n?" He asked.

"When you were younger, did you ever look up at the clouds and try to figure out what shape they were in or what they looked like?" I asked.

"Yeah. Did you?" He asked. I nodded my head against his chest.

"Yeah. We should do that now." I said as I felt Shawn use his thumb to rub my shoulder.

"Okay darling. What do you think that one looks like?" Shawn asked as he pointed up at one of the clouds. I looked at it for a moment.

"I think that cloud looks like Darth Vader holding a baby turtle." I said, which made Shawn laugh hysterically.

"You think it looks like what?" He asked as he laughed. I started laughing too as I took out my phone and took a picture of it.

"Darth Vader holding a baby turtle." I said.

"Oh my gosh. Do you mind if I tweet that?" Shawn asked. I laughed and shook my head.

"No, that's fine. Here, do you want the picture that I took of the cloud?" I asked. Shawn smiled and nodded.

"Yeah. Um, wait, since we're going public tomorrow, and people will follow you on Twitter, should I just tag your Twitter account in this post?" Shawn asked. I thought for a moment before nodding.

"Yeah." I said. Shawn smiled and kissed my cheek. He posted the picture and what I had said.

"'I think that cloud looks like Darth Vader holding a baby turtle.' - @YourUsername" Shawn tweeted.

"Looks good babe." I said. Shawn smiled and we laid back down on the blanket. Shawn had followed me on Twitter the day that we met last August. He followed my private Instagram account in March and soon I was getting a lot of requests for people to follow me. I suddenly realized that I should change the account to public. I picked my head up and put my chin on Shawn's chest as I admired him. He's so beyond handsome. Shawn smiled at me, causing butterflies to erupt in my tummy.

"What's up my love?" Shawn asked.

"My Instagram is set to private. I should probably make it public." I said. Shawn nodded his head.

"Yeah. And maybe you should change your Instagram bio so instead of where you went to school, it has your Twitter and Snapchat and things like that. Does that sound good?" Shawn asked. I nodded and made the changes.

"All done." I said. Shawn smiled at me and held me close to him.

"So this is really happening huh? I'm really going to be able to show you off to the world?" Shawn asked. I blushed and then nodded.

"Yeah. I love you baby boy." I said. Shawn gave me a sweet kiss.

"I love you too baby girl." Shawn said. I sat up and took a picture of the park and then posted it on Instagram without a caption or anything.

"Do you like that picture?" I asked Shawn. He nodded.

"Yup. I'm going to go like it right now. You know what I'm going to do?" Shawn asked with a mischievous smirk.

"Oh gosh. What are you going to do?" I asked.

"Well, you don't have a lot of posts. I'm just going to like every single one of your Instagram posts." Shawn said. I giggled as he took out his phone and went to my Instagram.

"Oh my gosh. Well, that's definitely going to get people's attention." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek and then smiled a loving smile at me.

"Well I have to support my girl, you know?" He asked. I nodded and smiled. "Do you mind if I comment on some of the pictures?" Shawn asked me, his eyes twinkling.

"I would love that." I said. He scrolled through and liked the pictures. He then got to the picture that I had posted the day that he had asked me to be his girlfriend - it was a bouquet of pink tulips that he had given me. I had captioned the post something about it being a good day.

"I loved that day!!!" He wrote.

"You're so cute." I said to him. He smiled and then commented on the picture of him and I from the day we met.

"Hey that's meeee." He commented.

"Oh my gosh baby." I said when I saw it. There was a picture of just me, and when Shawn saw it, he smiled and then commented on it. What he commented could've confirmed our relationship.

"OH MY GOSH YOU ARE SO PRETTY I LOVE YOU!!!!" He commented. I blushed and giggled.

"Oh my gosh Shawn, you practically just confirmed our relationship." I said. Shawn shrugged.

"Oh well. I just love you so much and I want everybody to know it." Shawn said. I leaned over and kissed his cheek.

"I love you so much too baby." I said before I continued to watch him like my posts. My smile widened when I realized that he wasn't just looking at a picture and liking it - he was reading each of the captions too, no matter how long or short they were. After liking all of my posts, we just laid there for a bit longer, and then went back to his place. As soon as we walked in and kicked off our shoes, Shawn started to kiss all over my face, causing me to erupt into giggles. He then held my face in his hands as his caramel eyes looked into mine.

"I hope you realize that I would do anything to make you laugh. I love hearing your laugh and I just want to hear it every single day for the rest of my life." Shawn said. I smiled and gave him a quick kiss.

"Our lives babe. For the rest of our lives." I said. Shawn's smile widened and then he buried his face in my neck. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and he wrapped his arms around my waist. Shawn picked his head up and rested his forehead against mine as he began to sway us from side to side. I closed my eyes, enjoying the feeling of being in his arms. I hummed in contentment when I felt Shawn begin to rub my sides.

"Does this feel good baby?" Shawn asked.

"Yeah." I said.

"I want to give you a massage. Do you mind if I give you a massage?" Shawn asked as he moved his forehead away from mine. I opened my eyes and smiled.

"Are you sure?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah, but if you don't want me to, that's fine." Shawn said. I put my hands on his cheeks, gave him a kiss, and then smiled at him.

"I would love it if you gave me a massage." I said. Shawn smiled and interlaced his fingers with mine. He led me to his bedroom.

"Okay babe, um, it would probably be easier if you, um, if you took off your, your bra and your shirt." Shawn said as his face turned bright red. I giggled and gave him a kiss.

"It's okay baby. You don't have to be embarrassed to ask me that." I said. Shawn nodded and I watched him gulp as I took off my shirt and then my bra. We had yet to do anything sexual, so he had never seen me like this before. I was about to ask him if I looked okay when he smiled at my body.

"Beautiful. You're absolutely beautiful my love." Shawn said. I smiled, blushed, and gave him a kiss. Then, something happened - I believed that I was beautiful, which isn't something that happens often. I held his face in my hands and looked at him for a moment. He placed his hands on my waist, and we just stood there for a moment, taking in everything, and each other.

"Shawn, my love?" I asked as he closed his eyes and rubbed his nose against mine.

"Yes my beautiful girl?" Shawn asked.

"Thank you for being able to make me feel beautiful. No one has ever been able to do that before. I get insecure pretty often, but you're very good at making me feel beautiful and I'm grateful for that." I said. Shawn smiled and gave me the sweetest, most loving kiss ever.

"Well I hope that I can always make you feel beautiful because that's what you are. Whenever you're feeling insecure, I want you to come to me, okay?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Okay." I said.

"I also want you to come to me whenever you're feeling beautiful, okay?" Shawn asked. I frowned a little bit.

"That's probably not going to be that often." I said. Shawn shrugged.

"I don't care how often it is, I just want to know whenever you're feeling beautiful, okay?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Okay. Should I lay on my stomach for the massage?" I asked. Shawn nodded and I laid down so he could give me a massage.

"You have a lot of tension in your back sweetheart. We should do this more often, okay?" Shawn asked. I nodded my face against the pillow.

"Okay." I said. Once he was done with the massage, he moved so he was sitting next to me on the bed.

"How was that baby? Did you like that?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. That really relaxed me. Um, I have a question." I said. Shawn laid down and kissed my forehead, probably because he could tell that I was nervous.

"What is it baby?" He asked.

"Um, I know that I've never worn any of your shirts before, but would it be okay if I wore one of your shirts? If you don't want me to wear it, that's fine too." I said. Shawn's smile widened.

"My sweet girl, I would love to see you wear one of my shirts. Pick any shirt you want, none of them are off limits." Shawn said. I smiled and got out of bed. I opened up the drawer and picked a plain white shirt.

"Is this one okay?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"It's perfect baby." Shawn said. I put it on and quickly realized that it was like a dress on me.

"How do I look?" I asked Shawn. His smile was huge.

"Beautiful. I want to see you in my clothes more often, okay baby?" He asked. I nodded.

"Okay." I said.

"Wait, let me take a picture of you wearing my shirt." He said.

"I'm not wearing a bra underneath this." I said. Shawn shrugged as he got out his phone.

"Yeah, but you can't tell. Come on pretty girl, smile for me." Shawn said. I smiled as he took some pictures of me, and then I crawled back into bed with him.

"I'm excited for you to see the gift that I got you tomorrow." I said as I put my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and held me close to him.

"I hope that you like what I got you. I think that you will. I hope you will." Shawn said. I picked my head up and put my chin on his chest. He looked at me as I put my hand on his cheek.

"My love, I'm going to love whatever you got me, I promise." I said. Shawn smiled and nodded. Shawn then reached over and grabbed his phone. I closed my eyes as I listened to his heartbeat.

"Shit. Um, babe?" Shawn asked. I picked my head up and looked at him.

"What's up?" I asked.

"We were caught kissing and cuddling out at the park. But wait, that's fine, right? We're about to go public, so it's okay, right?" Shawn asked. I nodded and rubbed his chest a little bit.

"Yup. Well, you're okay with it, right?" I asked. Shawn nodded as he looked at his phone.

"Yeah." He said.

"What are people saying?" I asked as I moved over so I could his phone screen too.

"Some people are saying that we're being too affectionate with each other." Shawn said, and I could tell by the tone of his voice that that comment bothered him.

"Baby boy, we're affectionate with each other, and we love being affectionate with each other, right?" I asked as I moved so I was looking at his handsome face. He set his phone down on his stomach and nodded.

"Yeah. I just love being so touchy feely with you." Shawn said. I smiled and nodded.

"Exactly, and I love being so touchy feely with you too. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. We have to remember that you and I are the only two people in this relationship, nobody else. Does that make you feel better?" I asked. Shawn nodded and then kissed my forehead.

"Yeah. You always know what to say to make me feel better baby. Thank you for that." Shawn said. I kissed his chin.

"You're welcome. I kind of want to see the pictures that people took of us because we're a cute couple." I said. Shawn chuckled and picked up his phone. He kept one arm around me as he used his thumb to rub my shoulder. His other hand held his phone as he scrolled through the pictures and videos of us that were all over Twitter. People were making the connection between the fact that Shawn was posting love quotes and being seen out with a girl.

"I love you." Shawn said before kissing the top of my head.

"I love you too. I'm tired." I said. Shawn locked his phone and plugged it in. I did the same with my phone.

"Ready for bed?" Shawn asked. I nodded as we turned off the lights.

"Yeah." I said as Shawn pulled me nice and close to him.

"Good night my sweet love." Shawn said.

"Good night baby." I said, and then closed my eyes and fell asleep. When I woke up, my head was on Shawn's chest. I lifted my head up and saw that Shawn was smiling at me.

"Good morning Y/n. Happy five month anniversary." Shawn said. I smiled back.

"Good morning Shawn. Happy five month anniversary." I said before giving him a sweet kiss which lasted longer than usual, but neither of us minded. I also didn't mind the feeling of his hands going underneath my (his) shirt. I eventually pulled away to catch my breath and Shawn smiled at me and brushed some hair out of my face.

"I adore you sweetheart. You're incredible." Shawn whispered. I blushed at his words and buried my face in his neck, which caused him to laugh as he rubbed my back.

"I adore you too." I mumbled into his neck.

"Mhh hmm. Should we go make some pancakes together?" Shawn asked. I picked my head up and thought for a moment.

"What about waffles? Do you have waffles?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Yup. Do you want waffles instead of pancakes?" Shawn asked.

"Yes please." I said. We got up, got dressed, and made breakfast. After eating, I went to my suitcase and grabbed his present. We then both went back into the living room, our gifts for each other hidden behind our backs.

"Ready?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yup." I said. We moved our hands from behind our backs to in front of us, and laughed when we realized that we had both gotten each other rings.

"How the hell did we do that?" Shawn asked as he took the ring box that was in my hands and I took the ring box that was in his hand.

"I have no clue. Okay, I'm too excited, you open your present first baby." I said. Shawn chuckled at my enthusiasm and his eyes widened when he opened the box and saw a ring in the shape of a guitar. He looked at me, his eyes still wide.

"Are you serious? A ring in the shape of a guitar?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yup. Do you like it?" I asked, suddenly becoming a bit nervous.

"Oh my gosh babe it's fucking perfect for me. I love it! Is this why you asked for my ring size?" Shawn asked. I let out a sigh of relief and nodded.

"Yup. Can I put it on you please?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Of course you can. How about my index finger?" Shawn asked. I nodded and put it on his index finger.

"Do you like it there?" I asked. Shawn nodded and gave me a kiss.

"I love it there. You should open your gift baby." Shawn said. I nodded and opened up the ring box. It was a ring with an S on it. I smiled at him and gave him a kiss.

"I love it so much Shawn. Will you put it on me please?" I asked. Shawn smiled and nodded as he took the ring from me.

"Which finger sweetheart?" He asked.

"Um, what about my middle finger?" I asked. Shawn nodded and put it on me.

"Do you like it there?" He asked. I nodded.

"It's perfect. I love you." I said as I moved over so I was cuddled into his side.

"I love you too. Let's go public in a little bit, I just want to cuddle with my girl right now." Shawn said. I nodded and smiled as he sat back on the couch and kept his arm around me. I rested my legs and feet on his lap a bit and rested my head on his shoulder. I closed my eyes, feeling content, feeling like I was in my true home.

I tried to memorize all of my feelings, both physical and emotional, knowing how valuable these quiet and peaceful moments with Shawn are. I felt his thumb rub my shoulder and relaxed into his touch even more. Shawn and I stayed like that for a bit longer before I moved my head to look at him. His eyes were closed but I knew that he was awake because he was still rubbing my shoulder. I admired him for a moment before I placed my hand on his abs and gently rubbed.

"Handsome man, as much as I love this moment with you, we should go public now." I said. Shawn opened his eyes and looked at me. He put his lips on mine and kissed me.

"Ready for this?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. I'm ready for anything with you Shawn, I promise." I said. Shawn smiled, gave me another kiss, and then we unwrapped ourselves from each other. Shawn grabbed his phone and opened up the photos app.

"What photo should I post baby?" Shawn asked. I rested my head on his shoulder as we looked at the pictures of us that he has on his phone.

"What about that one?" I asked as I pointed at one of my favorite pictures of us. Shawn nodded and smiled.

"Perfect. Okay, you sit back and relax, I'm going to gush about you in my post. Sound good?" Shawn asked. I laughed and nodded.

"Yup." I said. I moved so my feet were in his lap as he made his post. I grabbed my phone and started looking at the pictures and videos that I have of him and I that I could post. Soon I got a notification that Shawn had made a post. It was the photo that I had helped to pick - the one of me sitting on his lap, our heads resting together, fingers intertwined, as we smiled huge smiles at the camera. He had tagged me in the post. I read the caption.

"Congratulations to my beautiful, strong, powerful, and extremely SMART girlfriend for absolutely crushing this past semester and getting such incredible grades! Y/n Y/l/n I'm so proud of you and I love you so much! You've taught me to live life with deep wonder and curiosity, you have brought such light into my life and you constantly inspire me to be the best person that I can be. You constantly leave me in awe of you and your incredible strength. I swear that I will do anything to see your gorgeous smile that always gives me butterflies and hear your incredible laugh which always makes my heart flutter. I love you, my sweet, darling, precious girl! Happy five month anniversary!!!" Shawn captioned it. I read the caption and then gave him a kiss.

"I love it. That was beautiful." I said. Shawn smiled at me.

"Not as beautiful as you." He said. I blushed, which made him laugh.

"I was thinking that I could post these videos." I said as I showed him the videos that I had in mind. He laughed and nodded.

"That's fine baby girl." Shawn said. I smiled and posted the videos. One of the videos was Shawn being silly while dancing and singing along to I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston. The next video was of Shawn and I imitating that dance move from Dirty Dancing where Patrick Swayze lifted up Jennifer Grey. There was a video of Shawn and I saying the same thing at the same time, so we did rock, paper, scissors to figure out who would talk next. The next video was Shawn and I literally rolling on the floor laughing, and the last video was of just Shawn. He had been watching something on television as I slowly but surely zoomed in on his face until you could barely see anything. I then wrote the caption.

"Five months of loving my favorite goofball!!! My love, you have the kindest heart, the sweetest soul, and the most magical personality I've ever known. You aren't just my boyfriend, you're also my best friend, my soulmate, my confidant, my everything! You make the boring things fun, and the fun things even more fun, and there's no one else that I would want to roll on the floor laughing with but you. Thank you for giving me a life filled with endless hugs, cuddles, kisses, love, laughter, and smiles. I love you Shawny baby! Happy five month anniversary!!!" I captioned it. Shawn smiled when he saw the post, and then liked it. He then looked at me and gently pulled me into his lap.

"I love you my pretty girl." Shawn said as we smiled at each other.

"I love you too my handsome man." I said before burying my face in Shawn's neck. He kissed the side of my head and then began to rub my back. I sighed in contentment and relaxed into his touch more.

"My love, would you like to go out to lunch?" Shawn asked. I nodded my head against his neck.

"Yeah. Where would we go?" I asked.

"We could go to Earl's. They have burgers and stuff like that. Do you want to go there?" Shawn asked. I picked my head up and nodded.

"Yeah." I said. Shawn and I got ready to go. He was wearing a blue t-shirt and black jeans, and I was wearing a Harvard shirt and black shorts. Shawn stuck his head out for me to take and I gladly interlaced my fingers with his. Shawn looked at me as he brought my hand to his lips and closed his eyes as he placed a gentle kiss on the back of my hand. My heart fluttered at the beautiful gesture and I smiled.

"Do you want to go for a walk after we have lunch?" Shawn asked. I was about to point out that we could get caught, but then I remembered that we had just gone public. I nodded and smiled.

"Yeah." I said. Shawn smiled at me and then we left for the restaurant. When we got to the restaurant we realized that we could sit anywhere (A/n: I'm not sure if the restaurant that I mentioned is actually like that but that's how I wrote it for the story.).

"How about I sit next to you baby? I don't want some random person sitting next to you and making you feel uncomfortable." Shawn asked and said. I nodded.

"Okay." I said. We sat down next to each other and soon someone brought us menus. After figuring out what we wanted to order, but while we waited for our waitress to come back, we turned to each other and talked. Shawn kept his arm on the back of my chair, and it made me so happy to see so much love in his eyes. I smiled even wider as his fingers lightly brushed against my head so he could tuck some of my hair behind my ear. He then placed a gentle kiss on my lips.

"I love to kiss you babe. Your kisses pull me in." Shawn said. I blushed and smiled at his words.

"I feel the same way about your kisses babe." I said, which caused Shawn's smile to widen. Our waitress came back and we ordered our food, and talked while we waited for our food to arrive.

After our food got to us, Shawn and I continued to talk in between bites. At one point, Shawn picked up one of my fries and pretended like he was going to feed it to me before eating it himself. He chuckled again as my jaw went to the floor.

"When's the next flight back home to Boston?" I teasingly asked, which caused Shawn to crack up laughing. He finished chewing and looked at me.

"That's hilarious." He said as he kept laughing.

"That's the cruelest, meanest thing that you have ever done to me. I love fries so much and you just did that to me." I teased. Shawn laughed and then shrugged his shoulders. He then pulled out his phone and went to Twitter. "What are you doing?" I asked him.

"You'll see." He said.

"Oh my gosh." I said. He tweeted something, and then showed me his phone, which had the tweet on it.

"If anyone thinks that their gf is the biggest drama queen, please know that my gf just (jokingly) said that me stealing her French fry was the 'cruelest, meanest thing' that I've ever done to her, LOL." Shawn tweeted. I laughed.

"I love you." I said. Shawn kissed the side of my head.

"I love you too. Are you all done eating baby?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said.

"There's a park nearby. Do you want to walk there and we can sit and just relax?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah, I'd like that." I said with a smile. Shawn smiled at me and soon called the waitress over so he could pay. He let me pay the tip, but he paid the bill.

"Come on baby." Shawn said as he held his hand out for me to take as we began to walk out of the restaurant. I took his hand and noticed that some people around us were taking pictures. This was definitely something that I was going to have to get adjusted to. We walked out and began walking towards the park. Shawn pulled me nice and close to him as he smiled at me. We talked a bit as we walked to the park, and as soon as we got there, we sat down on a bench. Shawn put his arm around my shoulders and I leaned my head on him and closed my eyes.

"Thank you for making our five month anniversary so wonderful." I said as I opened my eyes and looked up at him. Our faces were so close together that I couldn't help but gulp when I felt his hot breath on my forehead.

"You're welcome sweetheart. You've made it pretty wonderful too. I love the ring so much." Shawn said as he looked at the ring. I smiled, knowing that I had made my man happy.

"I'm glad that you love it, and I love the ring that you gave me too." I said. Shawn looked at me with a smile, and I could have sworn that time had stopped just with that look of love. We smiled at each other, and my smile widened even more - which I didn't know was possible - when he took his thumb and rubbed it on my bottom lip.

"Do you want me to kiss you?" He asked with a smirk. Shawn has such an affect on me that it had suddenly gotten hard to breathe, and it was like I was rendered speechless. All I could do was nod. Shawn chuckled and held my face as he kissed me. It wasn't a long kiss, but it wasn't a short kiss either. We soon pulled away and smiled at each other.

"I love you Shawn." I said.

"I love you too Y/n. I have a surprise for you when we get back to my place." Shawn said.

"What is it?" I asked. Shawn chuckled and shook his head.

"I can't tell you. If I told you it wouldn't be a surprise, now would it?" Shawn asked. I shook my head.

"No, it wouldn't. Can I at least get a hint?" I asked. Shawn laughed and thought for a moment before shaking his head again.

"Nope. I can't think of any hint that wouldn't give it away." Shawn said. I sighed, wanting to know what it was, and then nodded.

"Baby?" I asked.

"Yes gorgeous?" Shawn asked, causing me to blush.

"Can I trace your tattoos please?" I asked. Shawn smiled and nodded as he put his arm on my lap. I've always loved tracing his tattoos. I smiled and put my index finger on the tattoo of the sparrow on his hand. I could feel his eyes on me as I traced the tattoo, and then moved my finger to trace the guitar tattoo.

"I love you." Shawn whispered. I looked up at him with a blush and kissed him before resting my head against his.

"I love you too." I whispered.

"Let's go back to my place and I can reveal your surprises." Shawn said before giving me a kiss. I stood up and we walked to his car, and then drove back to his place. As soon as we walked in the door, I turned to him.

"Okay, I'm ready for my surprise." I said. Shawn laughed and held my hand as he led me over to the couch and we sat down. He suddenly seemed nervous as he took out his phone and put it on the coffee table in front of us. He then turned to me and held my hands in his.

"I don't know why I'm nervous right now, but I am. Um, when we first met, I instantly fell for your beautiful y/e/c eyes, and the next day, we had an incredible second date. That was when we had our first kiss, which was absolutely magical and incredible. After our second date, I went back to my hotel room, and I started writing a song called 'Y/e/c Eyed Girl'. Do you mind if I play it for you?" Shawn asked nervously. My eyes widened.

"Oh my gosh, I would love that. No one has ever written a song for me." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek.

"Well, that's changed baby. Are you ready to hear the first song I ever wrote about you?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yes!" I said. Shawn smiled and played it for me. It was absolutely beautiful, and soon it came to an end.

"What do you think?" Shawn asked.

"That was so beautiful Shawn. I loved it." I said. He smiled at me.

"Well I have two more songs to play for you. Are you ready?" He asked.

"Wait, seriously?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yup, this next one I wrote a couple days after we said 'I love you' to each other for the for the first time. It's called 'My Love.'" Shawn said. I smiled as he pressed play. The song was so perfect and I couldn't help but lean my head on Shawn's shoulder and close my eyes as the song played. Once the song ended, I kissed him.

"I love it so much baby." I said. Shawn smiled at me and gave me a kiss. He then held my hands in his as I sat up and looked at his gorgeously handsome face.

"This next one I wrote after you told me about your biggest fear. I know that you're scared that someday I'm going to stop loving you and leave you, but I swear that that's never going to happen. Okay?" Shawn asked. I nodded and squeezed his hands.

"Okay." I said.

"So, this song is called 'I'm Right Here.' Are you ready to hear it?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said. Shawn pressed play and I couldn't help but cry as he sang reassuring words about my biggest fear. I leaned on him again as he held me in his strong, comforting arms. Soon, the song came to an end, and I looked up at him.

"What do you think? Are these good tears or bad tears?" Shawn asked.

"These tears are... wow that was so beautiful Shawn. Oh my gosh that was incredible. I love that so much. Thank you so much for that. That, um, that means a lot to me." I said. Shawn smiled at me and hugged me.

"I love you." Shawn said as my tears slowed down.

"I love you too." I said.

"I kind of feel like I want to check Twitter to see what the fans are saying." Shawn said as my tears stopped. I nodded and we both pulled out our phones.

"People took videos and pictures of us at the restaurant and at the park. Wow, we're a cute couple." I said. Shawn laughed and held me close to him as we looked at our phones.

"Yup, we are." Shawn said. I saw some pictures from when we were at the park. Someone had taken pictures of us as I traced his tattoos. I hadn't realized the way Shawn was looking at me. I read the caption.

"OKAY BUT SHE'S TRACING HIS TATTOOS AND LOOK AT HOW HE'S LOOKING AT HER OMG THIS IS LOVE." The tweet said. I showed it to Shawn and he smiled.

"Do you like the way I look at you?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. Is it okay to favorite the fan's tweets?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Of course it is baby girl." Shawn said. I smiled and favorited the tweet, and then saw some others that I favorited. I looked at Shawn and gave him a kiss.

"I'm so happy that we're public now baby. I love you." I said. Shawn smiled and kissed my forehead.

"I love you too. I'm so happy that I can show you off to the world now." Shawn said. I love Shawn so much and I'm so glad that we can finally post about each other.