A/n: Smuttiness is ahead! Also, explicit language in this one! Anyways, I hope that you guys enjoy this imagine. Okay, without further ado, let's begin, shall we? I think we shall.

I let out a shaky breath as I stood in my boyfriend's bathroom. I've been dating the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes for six months now. He knows that I'm waiting for marriage before I have sex, so we decided that on our six month anniversary, he would eat me out. I've never done anything like this before so I felt nervous. How was I supposed to know when I was about to cum? What if I didn't feel the pleasure? I jumped when I heard a knock on the door.

"Babe? You okay in there?" He asked.

"Y-Yeah." I said. Shawn had never seen me like this: in just my underwear and bra. Now, he was about to see my stretch marks. I felt insecure.

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"Yeah." I lied. I took a deep breath and opened the bathroom door, hoping that my nerves would go away. Shawn's eyes widened as he eyed me up and down. I immediately used my hands and arms to cover up my stomach. Shawn looked me in the eyes.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

"I have stretch marks on me. I don't want you to see them." I said.

"Oh honey. You know that I love you, right?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yes and I love you too." I said.

"You're the most beautiful girl in the world. Let me see your beautiful stomach honey." He said. I slowly revealed my stomach and he smiled.

"Do I look okay?" I asked.

"Honey, you're stunning." He said.

"But I have stretch marks." I pointed out. He pulled me in for a hug. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and I wrapped my arms around his waist.

"So what? They make you who you are. You're gorgeous and beautiful and stunning." He said. I smiled and blushed.

"Thank you." I said.

"You're welcome. Give me a kiss baby girl." He said.

"With pleasure babe." I said. I put my lips on his and I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through me. We soon pulled away.

"Do you want to undress me? You don't have to if you don't want to." He asked and said.

"No I want to." I said before taking off his white t-shirt. I felt him study my face.

"So beautiful." He said and I looked up at him.

"So handsome." I said. He smiled at me and I took off his shorts. I then looped my fingers around his Calvin Klein's. I had never done this before, and I was about to see his penis for the first time. I looked up at him as if my eyes were asking permission. He nodded.

"Go ahead baby." He said.

"Okay." I said and then pulled down his Calvin's. He was already hard for me. My eyes widened at his large size.

"Can I finish undressing you now?" He asked as I stood up. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said. He took off my bra and smiled and then continued to smile as he took off my underwear.

"Go lay down on the bed honey." He said. I did as told, but I didn't tell him that I felt nervous.

"Okay." I said.

"If at any point you want me to stop, just let me know, okay? I won't be upset, I promise." He asked and said. I nodded.

"Okay." I said.

"Spread your legs baby girl." He said. I spread them and watched as his face got very close to my privates.

"No." I said suddenly as I sat up and brought my knees to my chest. Shawn looked at me with concern in his eyes.

"What's wrong baby?" He asked. Tears fell onto my cheeks.

"I don't think that I'm ready. I thought that I was, but I just feel so nervous and the nerves aren't going away. I'm so sorry Shawn. I wasn't trying to tease you or anything, I promise. I'm so sorry." I said. Shawn sat next to me on the bed.

"It's okay baby. We don't have to do it right now. Remember what I said on our second date?" He asked. I thought for a moment.

"That you won't break my heart." I said as I looked at him.

"Well I said that too, but I was thinking about the fact that I said that you set the pace, and I'll just keep up. My love, if you're not ready to do this, we don't have to do this." He said. I nodded.

"Can we get dressed and then talk please?" I asked as I wiped tears away. He nodded.

"Of course baby." He said. We got dressed and then sat on his bed again. I held his hands in mine. His touch electrified me, yet I felt safe and warm at the same time.

"I just, I feel insecure about my body, and I know that you say that I'm beautiful, but that's just hard for me to believe. It's nothing against you, it's my own self-esteem issues. And -" I started.

"Honey you don't have to explain this to me." Shawn said.

"I feel like I should. Would you mind if I did?" I asked. He shook his head.

"No, that's fine, you can explain it to me. I just don't want you to feel like you have to. Do you want to sit in my lap?" He asked. I nodded and straddled his lap. I rubbed his shoulders and he rubbed my sides as I spoke.

"I've never done anything like this before. I don't know how to tell if I'm about to cum or not or anything like that. I just don't feel ready yet. I want to do this with you, please know that. I want to do intimate things with you, I just don't feel ready. And also please know that it's nothing that you did, it's just my own insecurities and things like that. I love you Shawn, and I want to make you happy. I want to do these things with you, and I promise you that I'll tell you when I'm ready." I said. Shawn nodded and pulled me in for a hug.

"Okay baby. I love you too. And do you want to know something?" He asked. I pulled away from the hug a little and Shawn began to rub my cheek with his thumb.

"Yeah." I said.

"You already make me the happiest man alive. I don't need to be intimate with you to be happy in this relationship. I just need you. Whenever you're ready to do anything intimate, let me know, and I'll take the best care of you, okay?" He asked. I nodded and smiled.

"Okay. Thank you for making me feel better." I said. He smiled.

"You're welcome baby. Let's get some sleep." He said, and with that we laid down and fell asleep.

Six months later

It has now been a year since I said yes when Shawn Mendes asked me to be his girlfriend. Shawn makes me the happiest and luckiest girl in the world and I'm so fucking grateful for him. He just took me out to a nice dinner, but he has no idea about what I have planned for him for when we get back to his place.

Six months into our relationship he was about to eat me out for the first time when I stopped him. I explained to him that I felt insecure and that I wasn't ready. He wasn't mad at all. Instead, he reminded me of what he said to me on our second date: "You set the pace, I'll just keep up." I remember feeling so grateful when he said that. But now, I feel ready. We soon got back to his place.

"I just have to use your bathroom and then I'll be right back babe." I said to Shawn. He gave me a quick kiss.

"Okay darling, I'll be right here on the couch." He said. I nodded and went into his bedroom. I got out some lingerie that I had ordered online. It was a pink and black lace, transparent underwear with a matching push up bra. I put it on, took a deep breath, and walked out to where Shawn was sitting on the couch, looking at his phone.

"Shawn?" I asked. He looked over at me and his eyes widened.

"Holy fuck." He said as he put his phone down and stood up, his eyes never leaving my body the whole time. He walked over to me.

"Do I look okay? Do you like it?" I asked. His eyes met mine and he nodded.

"I love it. You look... oh my gosh. Sexy." He said and I blushed. I put my hands on his shoulders and he put his hands on my waist.

"I'm ready Shawn." I said. His eyes went wide again.

"You're ready?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. I'm ready for you to eat me out." I said.

"Are you sure? Are you positive? We don't have to do this just because it's our one year anniversary." He asked and said. I pecked his lips.

"I know. I'm ready. You said to tell you when I'm ready, and I am. I want this, I promise." I said. Shawn smiled.

"Come here baby." Shawn said. He put his lips on mine, and as we made out, his hands traveled to my bum and squeezed, which turned me on more. I moaned and then pulled away from the kiss.

"Keep doing that baby. Keep squeezing my butt." I said. Shawn smiled and squeezed again.

"Am I turning you on?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yes." I said.

"Good." He said. He then continued to kiss me. As he was kissing me, he sucked my bottom lip into his mouth and swiped his tongue across it. My fingers were tangled into his hair and I moaned. I could feel myself getting wet for him. He then moved his lips to my neck and placed sloppy, wet kisses there. He then began to lick my neck and I couldn't help but moan his name.

"Oh Shawn." I moaned. I quickly realized what I had done and Shawn picked his head up and looked at me with wide eyes.

"Did you just moan my name?" He asked.

"Yes, I'm sorry, I won't do it again -" I started.

"No babe, keep doing it. That was hot as fuck." He said.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Positive. I want to hear you moan as much as possible." He said and then began to squeeze my butt as he went back to licking my neck. When he hummed into my neck, sending vibrations through me, I inhaled sharply before moaning.

"Shawn. Oh honey. I want you to eat me out baby. Please." I moaned. He smiled at me and took my hand in his and led me to his bedroom.

"I'm going to take good care of you darling, I promise." He said.

"I know that you will." I said.

"Do you want to undress me again?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. Do you want me to leave your boxers on or off?" I asked.

"That's up to you babe. This is about you since it's your first time." Shawn said. I nodded and smiled at him.

"Okay." I said. I stripped his upper half and then took off his jeans, leaving him in his Calvin's and stood up.

"Do you mind if I undress you?" He asked. I shook my head.

"No, go ahead handsome." I said. He smiled and undressed me and then had me lay down on his bed.

"If at any point you want me to stop, just let me know, okay?" He asked. I nodded.

"Okay." I said.

"Spread your legs baby." He said.

"Wait, before I do that, um, sorry I'm just nervous to ask this." I said.

"It's okay baby. You can ask me anything, you know that." He said.

"I don't want to sound ignorant." I said. Shawn frowned.

"You won't sound ignorant my love. What is it?" He asked. I blushed at the thought of what I was about to ask him.

"Um, how am I supposed to know when I'm about to have an orgasm?" I asked. Shawn moved to sit on the bed with me.

"It's like, how would I describe it, um. It's basically like, you're feeling a bunch of pleasure, and then it builds up. The orgasm part kind of feels like a different kind of pleasure than what you had been feeling before and it's stronger. If you don't have one, don't feel bad, that's fine. Okay babe?" He asked. I nodded.

"Okay. Sorry, I've just never done this before." I said as I looked down. Shawn put his hand on my cheek and made me look at him.

"It's okay honey. You don't have to apologize. Do you have any other questions?" He asked. I shook my head.

"No. I'm ready babe. I know you, and I trust you, and I know that you'll take good care of me." I said. Shawn smiled and nodded before giving me a quick kiss.

"Thank you for trusting me to be the first person to do this to you." He said.

"You're welcome honey." I said.

"Ready?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said.

"Okay baby. Lay back." He said.

"Is it okay if I watch you do this?" I asked as Shawn moved to the end of the bed. He smiled.

"That's fine honey. Whatever you want." He said. I smiled.

"Okay, I'm ready." I said.

"Okay babe. Remember, if you want me to stop at any point, just let me know." He said and I nodded. I propped myself up on my elbows.

"Can I play with your hair?" I asked. He nodded.

"You can do whatever you want to me." He said.

"I love you." I said. His smile widened.

"I love you too my precious girl." He said and I smiled. I spread my legs for him and he looked up at me. I could tell what he was asking just by looking into his eyes. Is this okay? Are you ready? I nodded. He placed a kiss on my privates, and then began licking. I gasped at the instant feeling of pleasure and reached down to tangle my fingers in his hair.

"Oh Shawn." I moaned. He smiled at me and then began sucking. I threw my head back. "Oh my gosh baby. Don't stop honey."

"I won't stop unless you tell me to." He said and then resumed eating me out. I looked at him again and we locked eyes. I smiled at him before moaning.

"Oh Shawn honey. Oh this feels amazing. Shawn." I moaned. I suddenly wanted him to go faster. "Faster baby. Lick me faster."

"Are you sure?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yes. More baby, I want more." I moaned.

"Okay honey." He said and began to go faster. I threw my head back as I gripped his hair.

"Shawn! Oh my gosh Shawn, fuck yes baby. Keep going." I moaned.

"Look at you, writing under my touch." Shawn said. He then dipped his tongue in me.

"SHAWN!" I yelled. I could definitely feel the pleasure building.

"Do you mind if I give my tongue a break and finger you for a bit?" He asked.

"Go ahead, just keep going." I moaned. He smiled. I had never been fingered before.

"Ready?" He asked. I nodded and he inserted his index finger in me.

"Oh Shawn, Shawn." I moaned.

"That's it kitten. Moan for me." He said. Kitten? Where did that come from? I'll have to ask him later.

"More baby, please." I moaned as I looked at him.

"Are you sure? I don't want to hurt you." He asked and said.

"If it hurts I'll tell you." I said. He nodded.

"Okay." He said and then added another finger. I moaned as I threw my head back. Shawn kept fingering me, but moved so his face was closer to mine. He smiled at me and I smiled back before moaning as he added another finger.

"SHAWN! Oh my gosh, I'm going to cum, I'm going to cum." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek and then rested his face against the side of my head.

"That's it kitten. Cum for me, cum all over my fingers." He said. I turned my head so we were looking at each other.

"Are you going to watch me cum baby?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yup. I want to see your face as I make you cum for the first time." He said. He didn't have to wait long, because soon the orgasm hit me. One hand gripped his bed, the other gripped his shoulders.

"SHAWN! I'M CUMMING! FUCK BABY! SHAWN! SHAWN I'M CUMMING! I'M CUMMING! SHAWN! SHAWN!" I yelled.

"That's it baby. Let it out." Shawn said. I held onto Shawn but let my head fall back a little as I basically chanted his name as I came down from my high.

"Shawn, Shawn, Shawn, oh Shawn." I moaned. I then laid back on the bed and Shawn took his fingers out of me. I looked at him, out of breath. He took his fingers, which had just been inside of me, and put them in his mouth and sucked and licked his fingers clean.

"Delicious. Best I've ever had." He said. I smiled.

"That was amazing." I said. Shawn smiled and laid down next to me. He kissed my cheek.

"You did wonderfully babe. I'm so proud of you my love." He said. I turned onto my side and faced him. I put my hand to his cheek and rubbed it with his thumb.

"Thank you for being proud of me, and thank you for doing all of that." I said.

"You're welcome." He said.

"Can I ask you a question?" I asked. He nodded as he gently pulled me closer to him.

"Of course baby." He said.

"Where did the kitten nickname come from?" I asked. He blushed.

"I don't know. It just sounded nice and sexy to me. I won't call you that anymore if you don't want me to." He said.

"No keep calling me that! I loved it!" I said. He smiled.

"Really?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. How about this: call me kitten whenever you're in the mood so that how I'll know that you're in the mood. Does that sound good?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah." He said.

"Should I come up with a nickname for you?" I asked. He nodded.

"I would love that." He said. I thought for a moment. We were laying on top of the blankets.

"Mind if I check something?" I asked. He shook his head. I opened up his Calvin's a little and looked inside. I then looked at him.

"Why did you check my boxers?" Shawn asked.

"Well that's my second time seeing your penis, and it's quite large, so I think that I'll nickname you Big Boy." I said. Shawn laughed and nodded.

"I love it. Do you want to watch a movie honey?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. Harry Potter?" I asked. He smiled at me.

"Damn you know the way to my heart." He said and I laughed. We got into pajamas and then cuddled on the couch.

"Thank you for today. Not just for eating me out and fingering me, but for the whole day, dinner, presents, everything. I love you." I said as I put my head on his chest. He kissed my head.

"You're welcome darling. I love you too. Happy one year anniversary." He said. I looked at him and smiled. He was already smiling at me.

"Happy one year anniversary." I said.

"One year down, forever to go." He said and I nodded.

"Yup." I said. I'm so lucky to have Shawn as my man.