A/n: Explicit language in this one. Anyways, please enjoy this imagine. Okay, without further ado, let's begin!

October fourth, 2022 - Singapore

Shawn's point of view

During the summer, my fiancée, Y/n Y/l/n was on tour with me. I had one concert in September, and then I was off for the rest of the month. I recently went back on tour, but this time, Y/n had to stay at home because of school. Of course I miss her, but she's getting a degree in what she loves, and I'm proud of her for that.

"Shawn, we have to leave in an hour. Are you all set to go?" Andrew Gertler, my manager, asked me. I nodded.

"Yeah, let me just make sure that I have something first." I said.

"Okay." Andrew said. Wherever I go on tour, I always bring the first book that Y/n ever gave me: The Four Agreements. It's so special to me because she even wrote a note in it telling me how much she loves me and how much I mean to her. I've read the book tons of times. I looked through my luggage but I couldn't find the book.

"Fuck." I said as I felt my anxiety kick in.

"What?" Andrew asked.

"My book. Where's my book? I can't find my book." I said.

"Woah, dude, slow down. What book?" Andrew asked.

"The Four Agreements. It's the one that I always have with me." I said as I continued to look around.

"Shawn, we can just get you a new one." Andrew said. I looked at him with wide eyes. He didn't realize how much this book means to me.

"Are you crazy? No. I can't get a new one, I need that one." I said. Andrew put his hands on my shoulders to slow me down.

"Shawn, breathe. Why do you need that one? Why can't we get you a new one?" He asked.

"You don't get it. You don't get it. That book means so fucking much to me. That was the first book that Y/n ever got me and she wrote in it too. I need that copy, I can't, I can't get a new one." I said.

"Okay, why don't you call Y/n so she can calm you down, and we'll go look for it." Andrew said. I nodded.

"Okay." I said. He stepped out of the room and pulled out my phone. My hands were shaky. Y/n wouldn't be mad at me, would she? No, she wouldn't. I called her and she soon answered.

"Hi handsome." She said. I started to cry, unable to control how I was feeling.

"I'm sorry Y/n, I'm so sorry. I'm so fucking sorry." I said.

"What's wrong baby? What happened?" She asked.

"Ever, ever since -" I started before crying again.

"Let's Facetime." She said.

"Okay." I said. We hung up and she Facetime called me.

"Oh honey. What's going on?" She asked.

"Ever since this tour started, I take the book that you got me, The Four Agreements, I take it everywhere with me. I have to leave soon and I can't find it. I can't fucking find it." I said as I sobbed.

"Shawny baby, breathe, my love. Breathe. If you guys can't find it, I'll get you a new one." She said. I shook my head.

"No! No I don't want a new one. I want the one that you gave me after our trip to Maine. That's my favorite book and there's no way that it can be replaced by another one, even if you wrote in that one too." I said as I wiped some tears away.

"Shhh honey, it's okay. Focus on me, okay baby? Can you do that for me please? Can you just focus on me please?" She asked. I nodded and looked at her.

"Yeah." I said.

"Okay, now I need you to listen to me very carefully. Okay babe?" She asked. I nodded my head.

"Okay." I said.

"Take a deep breath in, and then let it out. Yup, just like that, good job babe. Can you take a few more deep breaths just like that for me please?" Y/n asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said, and then took a few more deep breaths.

"Good job honey. How do you feel right now?" She asked.

"I still feel anxious but it's better. I just want to find the book, everybody is out looking for it." I said.

"Okay. They'll find it, don't worry. What can we talk about that will get your mind off of things?" She asked. I shrugged.

"I don't know. I don't know. I just need to hear your voice baby." I said as I ran my fingers through my hair. She smiled at me.

"Well my love, would you like me to tell you a story?" She asked. I nodded, desperate to hear her voice right now.

"Yes please." I said. I laid back on the bed and closed my eyes as I listened to the sound of her soothing voice.

"Okay. So, once upon a time, in the suburbs of Massachusetts, I was a freshman in high school. I sat in front of Lexie in history class. One day, she tapped me on the shoulder. I turned around and she asked me if I had ever heard of vine. I said yes. She asked me if I had ever heard of MAGCON, and I said no. She showed me pictures of all of the MAGCON boys, and do you know what I said when I saw a picture of you?" She asked. I opened my eyes and looked at her.

"I know you've told me, but I forget. I'm sorry." I said.

"It's okay bubs. I saw the picture and said 'Wow, he's cute!' and I think that it was the next day that I told her that I wanted to marry you. I remember that I kind of strayed away from you and all of the viners, but then during my senior year of high school, I was a big fan of yours again. I remember seeing your interviews, or seeing pictures of you, and thinking 'There can't possibly be anyone more handsome than Shawn Mendes, and he seems so sweet and mature and humble.'" She said. I opened my eyes again and looked at her.

"Really?" I asked. She smiled and nodded.

"Yup. Baby, please know that I've been in love with you for a very long time. I think that I was just too afraid to admit it to anyone before we met because I thought that someone would tell me that I was obsessed with you. But then we met, and I remember hoping and praying that what I was feeling was true and real. And guess what Shawn?" She asked.

"What?" I asked. She smiled at me.

"Those feelings, what I felt when we first met, they were true and real. You, Shawn Mendes, are my sweet love. You're my everything, and I can't wait to hold you again. I love you. I love you so much." She said.

"I love you too baby girl. I'm so glad that I found you." I said as I rolled onto my stomach and looked at her.

"I'm so glad that I found you too. You're the one for me Shawn. You're the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. You're the one that I want to have kids with. You're the one that I want to have grandkids with. You're the one that I want to grow old with as we watch our grandkids play in the yard while we sit in rocking chairs, holding hands, saying 'This is it. This is what we've always wanted.'" She said. I smiled.

"I want all of that with you baby. I want everything with you." I said. There was a knock at the door and I took my phone with me as I opened it. Andrew held up the book.

"Found it." He said.

"Oh my gosh thank you so much." I said.

"No problem. We have to leave soon." Andrew said. I nodded and then went back into my room. I smiled at Y/n.

"Andrew found it." I said.

"Good! Do you feel better now babe?" Y/n asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. I have to go, but thank you for calming me down." I said. She blew me a kiss and I chuckled.

"You're welcome. I love you." She said.

"I love you too honey. I swear, when I see you, I'm going to give you the biggest hug ever." I said. She smiled and we soon hung up. I love Y/n so much and I'm so grateful for the fact that she can always calm me down.