133. Hysterical

A/n: OMG I LOVE THE NEW SONG!!! Also, let's pretend that the video is a bit steamier than it actually is. Like, let's pretend that maybe there's a make out scene or something in it and it gets really steamy. Explicit language in this one. Anyways, please enjoy this imagine. Okay, without further ado, let's begin!

June twentieth - the day before the "Señorita" music video comes out

My fiancé is the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes. He's currently on tour, and I'm going to join him in a few days. I was sitting on the couch, about to text him just to tell him that I love and miss him, when he walked in the house. He has the day off today, but still, I was surprised.

"Shawn? What are you doing here?" I asked. Something was up. I couldn't put my finger on it, but he looked nervous.

"I thought I'd surprise you. Plus, I need to talk to you about something." He said. My stomach went into a knot. Oh my gosh, is he about to break off the engagement? I nodded and he put some of his suitcases in the other room. He then came into the living room and sat on the couch with me.

"Are you about to break off the engagement?" I asked. His eyes widened and he shook his head.

"No, no, oh my gosh, no. I just, the Señorita music video is going to be coming out at midnight tonight, and um, it's kind of steamy." Shawn said.

"How steamy?" I asked. He rubbed the back of his neck nervously.

"Do you want to come upstairs with me and we can lay down and cuddle?" Shawn asked, switching the topic.

"How steamy is it Shawn?" I asked again. He sighed.

"Camila and I kissed for the music video and there's a part of the video where it looks like we've just slept together and it's the morning after." Shawn said. My heart broke as tears formed in my eyes.

"You guys, you guys kissed?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Yes." He said. I've always been jealous of the relationship that he has with Camila, and to know that they kissed made me feel like shit. Tears fell onto my cheeks, and I ran upstairs to mine and Shawn's bedroom. I tried to shut the door behind me, but Shawn was quick and he wouldn't let me shut it. I didn't put up a fight, and just went and sat on the bed. He sat next to me, and he tried to hold me, but I pushed him away gently.

"You, you always say that you get crazy feeling when you and I kiss. Did you feel anything, anything at all, when you kissed her?" I asked, afraid of the answer as I cried and looked at Shawn. He shook his head almost violently.

"No. The kiss meant nothing to me, I just did it because the director told us that we had to kiss." Shawn said.

"Why? Didn't you tell the director that you're engaged?" I asked.

"Honey, this was filmed before we got engaged." He said. I looked at him.

"SO YOU'VE KNOWN ABOUT THIS FOR MONTHS AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME?" I yelled as I looked at him. He nodded.

"Yes, I had to keep it a secret." He said.

"Okay, but we were dating at the time, so you could've told the director no!" I said, still crying.

"I tried to, but he was adamant that we kiss." Shawn said.

"Is there any possible way that I could see the video before it comes out please?" I asked.

"I'm not supposed to show it to anyone honey." Shawn said.

"Well I'm about to be your wife in a couple of years and I want to know what the fuck happened in the video so I can have fair warning before I see it all over Instagram and Twitter. It's not like I'm going to record it or show it to anyone." I said. Shawn sighed and nodded as he grabbed his phone. He pulled up the video and handed it to me.

"Here you go honey." He said. I watched the video and cried. I couldn't lose him. I couldn't lose Shawn. He's my best friend, my soulmate, the love of my life, he's my everything. When the video was over, I handed Shawn his phone. I was silent for a moment before speaking.

"She's jumping into your arms the way that I do to you, and you're pushing her against a wall the way that you do to me, and you're getting on top of her on a bed the same way that you do to me. You could've been more adamant with the director Shawn." I said.

"I know honey, I know." Shawn said. I laid down on the bed and Shawn moved so his upper half was laying on top of mine.

"I can't lose you Shawn. I just can't. I love you too much to lose you. Please Shawn." I begged as I looked at him.

"Oh my love, you won't lose me. Not now, not ever, I promise." Shawn said. I wasn't thinking straight and my mind was all over the place. I had heard what Shawn had said, but my mind was still scattered. I gently pushed Shawn off me and we both sat up as I turned to him.

"What can I do to keep you in my life? Do you want us to go out and elope rather than having a big ceremony? Do you want to take my virginity right now rather than waiting for our wedding night? You can take my virginity right now if you want, I don't care, I just can't lose you." I said. I was hysterical. Shawn gently grabbed my wrists since I was moving my hands around so much.

"Y/n, stop. You're not going to lose me and you're not thinking straight. You don't want me to take your virginity right now, you don't want to elope, you're hysterical. Babe, the kiss meant nothing to me. You're not going to lose me honey." Shawn said.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I just... seeing that video... I know that you're saying that I'm not going to lose you, but losing you is my biggest fear and I just love you so much Shawn." I said. Shawn gently pulled me close to him and I let him this time. He held me in his arms as I cried.

"It's okay my love, just know that you will never, ever lose me. I love you so much too honey, more than words will ever be able to describe. I can't wait until we're married my love - I don't want to elope, I want to have a big ceremony that all of our friends and family are at, I'm just so excited to marry the love of my life." Shawn said. I closed my eyes and leaned into him more.

"Shawn?" I asked as he kissed the top of my head.

"Yes beautiful?" He asked.

"Could you do me a favor please?" I asked.

"Of course baby. What is it?" Shawn asked.

"Um, I know that the music video isn't out yet, but can you please do a live stream and stop rumors about you and Camila before they start?" I asked as I looked up at Shawn. He thought for a moment.

"I'm not really supposed to talk about the music video though." He said.

"You could just say that it gets a bit steamy and that you want to stop rumors before they start about you and Camila." I said. Shawn finally nodded.

"Okay baby. Let's go downstairs and sit on the couch and do the live stream." Shawn said.

"If I'm in the live stream, it's going to look like I made you do this. I know that I kind of did, but -" I started before Shawn shook his head.

"You're not making me do anything honey. I promise. If you don't want to be in the live stream, that's fine. I love you." Shawn said.

"I love you too." I said. I had stopped crying by now. Shawn and I went downstairs and sat on the couch. He got the live stream ready, and I sat on the other end of the couch so people couldn't see me.

"Hi guys. Um, so I'm not really supposed to talk about the Señorita music video, but I want to talk about some things. So, the video gets a bit steamy between Camila and I. I know that some fans of mine ship Shawmila, but personally, I ship my fiancée and I. I love my fiancée more than anything and anyone in the world. In fact, Y/n is my world. So, basically, this live stream is to shut down rumors about Camila and I before they even start. Camila and I are not together. Y/n and I are together, we're engaged, and we're extremely happy and in love with each other. Y/n makes me happier than I've ever been in my whole life and she's my everything. Please guys, stop commenting on Y/n's posts saying that you want me to be with Camila instead of Y/n and things like that. Please understand that I'm in a very happy relationship with Y/n and that I'm going to be marrying her. I just want to shut down rumors before they start." Shawn said. I suddenly got an idea.

"Shawn?" I asked. He looked at me.

"Yeah babe?" He asked.

"Can I put my legs in your lap please?" I asked. Shawn smiled and nodded.

"Of course you can baby." Shawn said. I moved over and put my legs in Shawn's lap. He wrapped an arm around me to hold me close to him. I put my hand to his cheek and put my lips on his. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through me like fireworks. I'm usually not big on making out with Shawn in front of others, and yes tens of thousands of people were watching me make out with Shawn as he pulled me closer to him so we could make out some more, but I needed people to know that Shawn's mine. We eventually pulled away so we could catch our breaths, but Shawn smiled as he rested his forehead against mine and I smiled too.

"Do you think that will stop rumors before they start?" I asked. Shawn held me even closer to him as he kissed me some more. At this point, I didn't care about the live stream, I cared about kissing my man. Both of Shawn's arms were around me, and the kiss became more heated when I felt Shawn's tongue swipe against my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I pulled away and smiled at him as we had to catch our breaths.

"Holy shit babe." He said with a smile. I giggled.

"I just need to make sure that the people watching the live stream know that you're marrying me and that you and I are together, not you and Camila, or you and anyone else." I said.

"I honestly completely forgot about the live stream. Your lips were on mine and everything else faded away." He said with a smile. I smiled too.

"Do you think that that's going to happen on our wedding day when we have our first kiss as husband and wife?" I asked.

"Darling, it happens every time we kiss. Why didn't you let me French kiss you?" Shawn asked as he gently nudged my nose with his.

"Shawn!" I scolded.

"What?" He asked with a smirk.

"Don't say that during a live stream!" I said as my face turned red from embarrassment.

"Says that woman that just made out with me during a live stream! I'm very proud of you for doing that. You don't like making out with me unless it's just us and there's no one around. Like, if we're in front of others, even if it's family or close friends, you'll give me a quick kiss or something, but you wait until we're alone to make out." He said. I smiled.

"Well I just needed to make sure that people know that I belong to you and you belong to me." I said. He lifted up my hand, the one that has the engagement ring on it.

"And this engagement ring doesn't prove it enough?" He asked with a chuckle. I suddenly became more serious.

"I guess not because your fans are still saying that you should be with Camila, or Hailey -" I started.

"Hailey? She's married to Justin." Shawn asked and said. I nodded.

"Yeah, but your fans still say stuff. But when they're talking about you and another girl, it's typically Camila." I said. Shawn looked at his phone.

"Guys, seriously, that needs to stop. Camila and I are nothing more than friends. I'm engaged to Y/n, I'm going to marry Y/n, someday I'm going to have kids with Y/n, and then even later in the future I'm going to have grandkids with Y/n. Please guys, stop. I know that some of you want me to be with Camila, but her and I are friends. Y/n is the love of my life. I'm going to go now but I love you guys, bye!" Shawn said and then ended the live stream. He looked at me.

"Baby?" I asked as I moved so I was straddling his lap. He rubbed my sides.

"Yes darling?" He asked. I held his face in my hands.

"How long do I have you for?" I asked.

"Until tomorrow afternoon." He said. I nodded and gave him a brief kiss.

"I'm sorry about the way that I acted earlier, and I'm sorry that I was supposed to be on tour with you already, but then my mom surprised Thomas and I with this trip to see my grandparents, and I just -" I started.

"Baby, it's okay. Let's just cuddle and spend time together, okay?" He asked.

"Can we lay in bed or lay on the couch and make out please?" I asked. Shawn chuckled and moved me quickly and swiftly so I was laying on my back on the couch and he was hovering over me.

"Are you going to let me French kiss you now?" He asked with a smirk. I nodded and he put his lips on mine. I wrapped my legs around his waist and tangled my fingers in his hair. His tongue swiped across my bottom lip and I granted him the access that he wanted. He moaned into the kiss and slowly let his body lay on top of mine. I pulled away from the kiss to catch my breath.

"I love you Shawn." I said with a smile.

"I love you too Y/n." He said as I stroked his cheek.

"It's so weird when I heard you say my name." I said. Shawn tilted his head in confusion.

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"Well, I'm just so used to hearing you call me cute nicknames that when you call me by my actual name it's weird, but I still love it. You make my name sound beautiful." I said.

"That's because your name is beautiful." Shawn said. I blushed and smiled.

"Kiss me." I said.

"With pleasure baby girl." He said and we made out again. Shawn spent more time with me until he had to leave to go back on tour. I love Shawn so much, and I can't wait to spend time with him while I'm on tour with him.

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