I'm engaged to the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes, and I'm currently on tour with him. Shawn has been letting me come into his question and answer sessions lately, and it's been really fun.

"Are you ready to come into my q and a babe?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. Come give me a kiss." I said with a smile. Shawn smiled back and put his lips on mine. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through me like fireworks.

"I love you baby." Shawn said as we pulled away.

"I love you too honey." I said. We soon went into Shawn's q and a and the fans screamed as we sat down.

"So, just like always, if someone is asking a question, please don't talk over them. If someone needs a question repeated, I'll repeat it. Also, as you guys know, this is my lovely fiancé, Y/n Y/l/n, and it's okay with her if you guys ask her questions too." Shawn said. He then picked someone.

"My question is for Y/n. Um, what's it like to wake up with Shawn every morning?" She asked. I smiled at the thought of waking up in my fiancé's arms all the time.

"Oh it's wonderful. I sleep better in his arms, and I love waking up to his handsome face all of the time. Sometimes, he'll wake up before me and so when I wake up, he's already smiling at me, and he'll go 'Good morning gorgeous.' and I always smile back and say 'Good morning handsome.' and it's just so wonderful." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek and then picked someone else to ask a question.

"My question is also for Y/n. Does Shawn talk in his sleep at all?" She asked. I smiled.

"No." Shawn said. I looked at him and then at the fans.

"Yes, he does talk in his sleep sometimes but it's not often." I said.

"What? What are you talking about?" Shawn asked. I looked at him.

"Didn't I tell you the story about when you said something about me in your sleep?" I asked. He shook his head.

"No." He said. I kissed his cheek and then looked at the fans as I answered the question.

"There was one time that I woke up before Shawn, but I stayed in bed and then I closed my eyes again. Shawn was holding me and I heard him say 'Y/n? Where are you?' and I thought that he was just being silly or something so I said 'I'm right here babe.' and then I opened my eyes and realized that he was still sleeping. After I said that I was right there, in his sleep he smiled and pulled me closer to him and said 'Okay. Don't go anywhere.' and I said 'I won't honey, I promise.' and he very sleepily said 'Okay.' and then didn't say anything else until he woke up. It was so cute." I said. Shawn kissed my cheek and then chose someone else to ask a question.

"My question is for Y/n. So I don't know if you've seen those Instagram stories where some of Shawn's fan accounts pretend to be his girlfriend and answer questions about him, but if you do see them, does it bother you?" She asked. I sighed and thought for a moment.

"Um, honestly it does bother me a little bit, but I don't say anything to those accounts that do it. But it is a bit hard because I'm the one that he's in a relationship with, and I've seen it where people ask if it's me or not and I've seen it where someone says that they actually are me but that I'm just running a fan account. I don't have a fan account. I only have one Instagram account. I was really tempted to message that person that said that they were me but Shawn told me to let it be. But it is odd for me to see people saying when them and Shawn are going to get married and how they fell in love with Shawn and things like that." I said. Shawn rubbed my back. He then whispered in my ear.

"Do you want me to ask them to stop?" He whispered. I shrugged.

"That's up to you." I said. He nodded and looked at the fans.

"If any of you guys do that, where you pretend to be my girlfriend, please don't do it. It doesn't just bother Y/n, but it also bothers me a bit, because there's only one girl that I'm in love with and that I'm going to marry, and she's sitting right next to me, and like she said, she only has the one Instagram account." Shawn said as he continued to rub my back. He then picked someone else to ask a question.

"Mine isn't so much a question, but this is for Y/n. I know that you like books and I know that you like poetry. Um, my friends and I got you these because we're so grateful for how happy you've made Shawn since he's our idol." She said. I smiled as she held out two books, one in each hand. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Shawn's security guard, Jake, move to get them. But Shawn always says that this is a person to person relationship with the fans. I got up and reached the girl before Jake could. I gave her a hug.

"Thank you so much!" I said.

"You're welcome! We wrote in the beginning of one of the books for you." She said.

"Thank you so much. I really appreciate it." I said. I then went back to Shawn. I looked at Jake, and he did not at all look happy.

"What does it say?" Shawn asked. Both books were by Rupi Kaur. One of them was titled Milk and Honey and the other one was The Sun and Her Flowers. I opened one of them up and read it to Shawn.

"Y/n, my friends and I are so beyond grateful for how happy you make our idol. Shawn has always seemed so happy, especially when he was on stage. Now when we see pictures of you guys, he seems just as happy with you as he is when he's on stage, if not more. Thank you so much for making our idol happy. We appreciate you so much." It said, and then they signed their names. After the q and a, Shawn, Jake and I went back to Shawn's dressing room.

"Y/n, can I talk to you in the hallway for a second please?" Jake asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said. I stepped out into the hallway with him and he shut the door so Shawn couldn't hear us. He pointed his index finger at me and had a stern look on his face.

"You are never allowed to do that ever again." He said.

"Do what?" I asked.

"Don't play stupid with me. You know what you did." He said.

"I went to my fiancé's q and a session." I said.

"Yes, and then when the fan gave you those books, I should have gotten them for you. You don't know if the girl had a knife on her or what she was going to do." He said. I tried to remain calm.

"She literally had one book in each hand, she didn't have a knife or anything. All I did was give her a hug and thank her for the books. Shawn always says that this is a person to person relationship with the fans, so I wanted to personally thank her. I would feel weird sitting there and watching someone else grab a present that was for me, especially since she was so close to me. She was only about two people into the crowd." I said.

"Well it was a pretty stupid thing of you to do. You never should have done that." Jake said.

"So because I wanted to personally thank someone, I was being stupid?" I asked as I crossed my arms. Jake nodded.

"Yes." He said.

"Okay, cool. I'm just going to head back into Shawn's dressing room now." I said.

"Don't tell him what I said." Jake said.

"Why? Are you afraid that he's going to yell at you or get mad at you? Let me make one thing absolutely clear: Shawn and I do not keep secrets from each other." I said. I walked into Shawn's dressing room and practically slammed the door behind me. Shawn sat up a little.

"What was that about?" Shawn asked. I told him and watched as he clenched his jaw and made a fist.

"But I wasn't supposed to tell you that, but honestly, I don't care. You're not just the man that I'm going to marry, you're my best friend, and we don't keep secrets from each other." I said. He nodded and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.

"I'll be right back. No one's allowed to talk to you like that and get away with it, not even Jake." Shawn said as he stood up.

"What are you going to say to him?" I asked. Shawn thought for a moment and then shrugged.

"I'll tell him never to call you stupid again because if he does he won't be my security guard anymore. I'll set him straight." Shawn said. I nodded.

"Okay babe. Do what you feel you have to." I said. He nodded and then left the room to talk to Jake.

Shawn's point of view

I found my security guard, Jake. I was practically fuming with anger. He looked at me.

"Hey Shawn." He said.

"Do not ever call Y/n stupid ever again or you'll be fired so fast that you won't even have time to blink. How dare you call her that! All she was doing was thanking a fan for a gift." I said.

"Yeah, well, she could've gotten hurt." Jake said.

"I wasn't worried about her. The girl was only about two people in, so even if there was a problem, you and I would've been right there to help her." I said.

"Tell Y/n not to go into the crowds at the q and a's anymore." Jake said.

"No. You know what? If the fan is further back, then sure, you can get whatever they had, but what Y/n did today was fine. Do you understand to never call her or anything she's doing stupid ever again or else you'll get fired?" I asked. He looked at me.

"Shawn, I've been working with you for years. You would never fire me." He said. My blood boiled.

"Do it again and it'll happen, I promise. Just don't ever do this again." I said and then walked away.

Your point of view

I sat in Shawn's dressing room. He came in and gave me a hug as he pulled me into his lap.

"So what happened?" I asked. Shawn told me.

"I know that you did the right thing honey. You weren't being stupid." Shawn said. I gave him a kiss.

"Thank you baby. I love you." I said.

"I love you too. Do you want to cuddle before I have to go?" He asked. I nodded my head.

"Yes please." I said. I'm so glad that Shawn talked to Jake, and I'm so grateful for the gifts that the fans gave me.