A/n: Explicit language and LOTS of drama in this one! Okay, I hope that you guys like it. Let's begin!

I came home after a long day of school, which was followed by a long day of work, wanting nothing more than to crawl into my fiancé, Shawn Mendes's, arms. I opened up the front door to the home that we share and walked in. I looked around the first floor for Shawn, but I couldn't find him. I went upstairs and he was in his office, so I knocked on the door.

"Come in." He said, and there was something that was off with his tone. I walked in and he didn't even turn to see who it was. I sat down in the chair that was next to his desk. He still didn't look up to see who it was.

"Hi baby." I said.

"Hi." He said.

"Are you okay Shawn?" I asked. He finally looked up at me.

"This wedding is costing me a fortune." He said.

"Okay... what can I do to help?" I asked. The money that I was making was already going toward car payments and other bills. Shawn shrugged.

"Nothing. Just like usual." He said.

"Excuse me?" I asked.

"Nothing." He said.

"No, what did you just say?" I asked.

"I said 'nothing, just like usual.'" He said as he looked up at me.

"And what exactly is that supposed to mean?" I asked. I was tired from the long day and now I was feeling frustrated.

"It means that you don't exactly help to pay for the wedding." Shawn said.

"And who was the one that said to me 'Babe, you're a student. Let's let our families pay for stuff and I'll pay for stuff too.' Who said that Shawn?" I asked, the feeling of frustration rising.

"I did." He said as he sighed.

"Exactly. So you can't give me shit when this was your idea. Don't you think I feel bad about the fact that my wedding dress costed you three thousand dollars, even though you told me to pay for it with your credit card? Don't you think I feel bad about the fact that we're getting married at a place that costed a few thousand dollars? And I couldn't help! But that was your fucking idea Shawn, so don't you dare give me shit when it was your idea." I practically yelled.

"Well you're the one that's picking out all of this expensive stuff for the reception and stuff!" He yelled back.

"You're the one that agreed to all of that! You literally could have turned down any and all of it and we could've picked something else that we liked. I'm not doing this on purpose Shawn. I'm not trying to drive you into debt." I said.

"Well you're finally getting what you wanted, aren't you?" He asked.

"What?" I asked.

"You've always been with me for the money, and now you get to blow mine on this stupid wedding." He said. My eyes went wide and my hand went to my mouth.

"First of all, you know that I wouldn't care if you were broke and living on the streets, I would still love you just as much as I do now. You know that I'm so beyond in love with you! And you just called our wedding stupid! How could you Shawn? You know what? I need to go." I said as I got up and left the room.

"Wait, Y/n, I didn't mean it baby. Please come back." Shawn said, but I was already heading down the stairs. I was tempted to take off my engagement ring and give it to him if he really thought that our wedding is stupid. I left the house and got in my car. I looked up to see Shawn running out of the house after me, but it was too late. I had already put the car in reverse and started to drive away. I drove to my mom's house, which isn't too far away from where Shawn and I live. I walked in and she was sitting on the couch watching tv. I sat down next to her and bursted into tears.

"What's wrong?" She asked. I told her everything that happened. She adores Shawn, she loves him, but I could tell that at this moment she was beyond pissed at him. "Are you kidding me?"

"Nope. I'm so tempted to go back there and take off the engagement ring and give it to him if that's what he really thinks of me and our wedding." I said. The front door swung open and Shawn walked in.

"Can we talk?" He asked. I sighed and nodded.

"Fine." I said.

"Before you guys go in another room to talk, Shawn, I'm disappointed in your choice of words. You've hurt my daughter deeply and that upsets me." My mom said. Shawn started to cry and he looked at me.

"I'm so sorry babe. I didn't mean a single word that I said." He said.

"Come on, let's go in my old bedroom and talk." I said. We went in my old room and shut the door. My old bed was still in there, so Shawn and I sat on it.

"I'm so fucking sorry babe. I'm sorry that I fucked up and said those things that I didn't even mean. I didn't mean to hurt you. I was just frustrated with work and everything and I took it out on you." Shawn said. I nodded.

"Do you want to know what I was tempted to do when I was walking out of the house?" I asked.

"What was it?" He asked, and I could tell that he was nervous. With what I'm about to say, he probably should be.

"Because of what you said about me being with you for the money, which you know for a fucking fact isn't true Shawn, and what you said about our wedding being stupid, I was so tempted to take off the engagement ring and give it back to you." I said as I began to cry. I felt tired, hurt, and frustrated. Shawn started to cry harder and he put his head in his hands before looking at me.

"I'm so sorry baby. I didn't mean what I said, please keep the ring on. Please baby, I didn't mean it." Shawn said. I didn't know what to do. I just felt so hurt by what he had said to me. I thought for a moment before speaking.

"I think that it would be best if I asked my mom if I could sleep over here at least for tonight. I need to think about everything." I said. Shawn looked heartbroken.

"Baby please, please Y/n." Shawn pleaded. Seeing him like this broke my heart, which, in a way, already felt like it was a bit broken by what he had said earlier when we were at the house. I was still crying.

"Shawn please don't make this any harder than it already is. What you said really, really, hurt, and I need some space from you right now." I said. Shawn nodded.

"Okay. I love you Y/n, I really do." He said.

"I love you too and that's what makes this so hard. Let's go in the living room so we can talk to my mom." I said.

"Okay." He said. We walked out to the living room.

"Mom, um, right now Shawn and I are still together -" I started.

"Oh God don't word it like that please." Shawn said.

"Well it's the truth. Anyways mom, um, could I just spend the night here tonight so I can just gather my thoughts and stuff?" I asked. My mom nodded.

"Of course." She said.

"Thank you." I said.

"You're welcome." She said.

"Um, I'm going to head back to the house. Could I... is it okay to give you a kiss goodbye?" Shawn asked. I wiped my tears away as I shook my head.

"No." I said. Shawn looked pained but he nodded.

"Okay. Um, good night." He said. My mom and I just nodded. When he left, I sat down on the couch and my mom held me as I cried. I then sat up and pulled out my phone so I could text my best friend, Grace.

Me: Hey, Shawn and I got into a really bad fight so I'm going to sleep over my mom's house tonight. Would you mind coming over please? I need to get your opinion on what to do.

Grace: Sure! I'll be right over.

"Grace is on her way over. I'll probably head into my old room and tell her everything. It's so hard because I love him, so much, so much, so I really don't want to end it, and maybe I'm overreacting about it all, but I'm just so damn hurt by what he said." I said to my mom as I cried. She nodded.

"I know. I'm upset with him right now. The fact that you were considering taking off your engagement ring to give back to him speaks volumes." My mom said. I nodded and looked at my ring.

"But I still love him. I love him more than anything and that's what makes this so hard." I said. My mom nodded. Soon, Grace walked in.

"Hey, what's going on?" She asked. I rushed over to hug her as I cried. I then brought her into my old room so I could tell her everything. She looked pissed. "You've got to be kidding me." She said. I shook my head.

"Nope. He knows that I'm not with him for the money, and him saying that our wedding is stupid really hurt me. He said that he didn't mean it and that he was just frustrated with work and other stuff but still, I almost took off my engagement ring to give back to him." I said. That's when Grace's eyes widened.

"Are you serious?" She asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said.

"Oh my gosh. But you still love him, don't you?" She asked. I nodded my head.

"Of course. He's the love of my life, my best friend, and my everything, and I don't want to be without him." I said.

"Did you just hear yourself?" Grace asked.

"Yes. Why?" I asked.

"Because you just said that you don't want to live without him." Grace said. I nodded and started to play with my engagement ring.

"I guess I won't give back the engagement ring then. Should I still stay here for tonight so we can get space from each other, or should I go to him so we can talk?" I asked. Grace thought for a moment.

"Go to him. Rip the bandaid off and talk to him." Grace said. I nodded and hugged her.

"Thank you for letting me talk to you." I said.

"Of course. That's what best friends are for." She said with a smile. We left my old bedroom and I told my mom what had been said. She smiled at me.

"Then I guess you should go to him." She said. I nodded and ran out to the car and practically sped home. When I walked in the door, I felt nervous. What if he gets upset with me because I got so upset with him and acted like that? I went upstairs and looked in our bedroom, he wasn't there. I went into his office, and there he was, strumming a guitar while sitting on the couch. I knocked on the door and he jumped.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." I said.

"It's okay. I, um, I thought that you were going to spend the night at your mom's house." Shawn said. I nodded and sat down next to him, but still a little bit away from him.

"Yeah, um, I talked to Grace and I realized something." I said. Shawn put the guitar away and sat back down and faced me.

"What did you realize?" He asked. Tears formed in my eyes, but they were happy tears.

"I realized, not for the first time, um, that I don't want to live without you. I really don't. You're my everything. You're my best friend and the love of my life, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you Shawn. What you said hurt, but you said that you didn't mean it. Just please don't take your frustrations out on me again, because look, it literally almost broke us up." I said. Shawn gently took my hands in his. His touch sent electricity through me, yet I felt safe and warm at the same time.

"So does that mean that the wedding is still on?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yes. Our wedding is still on." I said. Shawn breathed a sigh of relief and then pulled me into his lap.

"Thank God I have you back. I was so scared that I was going to lose you, but I was ready to fight with everything that I have for you. If I had lost you, I wouldn't have given you up easily." Shawn said. I smiled.

"You're not going to lose me baby. I promise. I'm sorry if I overreacted but I -" I started.

"You didn't overreact at all. I was being a dick for no reason and I'm so sorry for that my love." Shawn said. I nodded and ran my fingers through his hair as he rubbed my back.

"I love you Shawn. I love you with every fiber in me, every cell that's inside of me." I said. Shawn smiled.

"As much as you love me, I love you more babe." Shawn said. I giggled and shook my head.

"You're crazy." I said.

"Yeah, crazy in love." He said. I blushed, which made him laugh. He then kissed my cheek. I tapped my index finger to my lips and he smiled before putting his lips on mine. I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, I felt sparks shoot through me like fireworks on the fourth of July, and I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon. Shawn and I pulled away and I rested my head on his shoulder.

"I love you Shawn. I never want to fight ever again." I said. Shawn kissed my forehead and continued to rub my back.

"I love you too Y/n, and I never want to fight with you ever again either. Do you want to go to bed honey?" Shawn asked. I shook my head.

"Maybe in a bit. Right now I just want to cuddle with the man that I'm going to marry." I said. Shawn kissed my forehead again.

"I'm so glad that you want to take my last name." Shawn said. I nuzzled my face further into his neck.

"Of course babe. I'm so glad that you said yes to me taking your last name. I've wanted to be Y/n Mendes for a long time." I said. Shawn chuckled.

"Well I hope you realize that once you become Y/n Mendes, you'll always be Y/n Mendes." Shawn said. I nodded.

"Yup. We'll be together forever, right Shawny?" I asked. Since my face was nuzzled into his neck, I could feel him nodding.

"Yup. Always and forever." Shawn said. I soon fell asleep on him, but he just carried me to bed and we cuddled. On May 23, I walked down the aisle and married my best friend and my everything: Shawn Peter Raul Mendes. My engagement ring was no longer on me, and Shawn put a wedding ring on me. At the reception, Shawn and I danced the night away and then at the end of the night, we left for our honeymoon. I know that no matter how bad it gets, Shawn and I will always fight through and have each other.