A/n: Smuttiness is ahead so get the holy water out! Also, explicit language in this one. Anyways, without further ado, let's begin!

I woke up to the sound of mine and my husband, Shawn Mendes's four month old daughter crying. I went to get out of bed but I felt Shawn gently pull me back down.

"You stay in bed my love. I got her." Shawn said.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Yup. It's two in the morning and you already carried her for nine months. Rest." Shawn said, and I nodded even though he couldn't see me.

"Okay, but please come get me if she needs to be fed." I said. Shawn and I decided to breastfeed our daughter, Rose Lucille Mendes. In one of the psychology classes that I took in college, I learned about how much more beneficial breastfeeding is compared to formula (A/n: It really is so much better! Also, it's free! You have to pay for formula, but breastfeeding is free. If, for some reason, anyone has any questions on what the benefits of breastfeeding vs formula are, message me and I'll let you know!) and so Shawn and I decided to breastfeed our beautiful daughter.

"Okay honey." Shawn said and then got out of bed. I fell back asleep but it was only for a little bit. I soon woke up to the feeling of Shawn lightly shaking me.

"Huh?" I asked.

"I think that she needs to be fed. Sorry to wake you darling." Shawn said. I sat up and turned on the light that's next to my side of the bed.

"It's okay. I don't mind." I said and lifted up my shirt and bra. Shawn sat down on his side of the bed and when I was ready, I took Rose from his arms and began to breastfeed her.

"Does it hurt when you feed her?" Shawn, my ever so curious husband, asked.

"It hurt a little when I first started, but now it's better. Why don't you lay back down babe?" I asked. Shawn shook his head.

"No, I want to stay up with my girls. Plus, I know that this can take a bit." Shawn said and I nodded. It's true. It can take about twenty, or more, minutes to breastfeed.

"Okay. I love you Shawn." I said as I looked over at him. He gave me a tired smile.

"I love you too Y/n. You know honey, I miss you." He said. I gave him a confused look.

"What are you talking about? I'm right here honey. We haven't left each other's sides." I said. He chuckled.

"Darling, I figured it out in my head. It's been thirteen months since we've made love. I miss your body honey." Shawn said and I blushed.

"I miss your body too but we can't do it with a four month old in the house." I said with a giggle and Shawn chuckled.

"I know. Maybe we could have her spend a night or two at your mom's?" Shawn asked. I yawned and nodded.

"Okay. I'll ask my mom if she can take her but obviously I can't call right now. I'll call later." I said and Shawn nodded as he yawned too.

"Okay. I wish that I could breastfeed for you so you could get some rest." Shawn said and I laughed a little. Once I was done feeding Rose, Shawn put her back in her crib and then came back to bed. Later that day, I called my mom.

"Hi honey, how are you?" She asked.

"Good. How are you?" I asked.

"Good. How's my son in law and granddaughter?" She asked.

"They're wonderful. Shawn is downstairs playing with Rose right now. Um, I have a favor to ask." I said.

"Sure, what is it?" She asked.

"Well, at two in the morning when I was breastfeeding Rose, Shawn pointed out that him and I haven't been... intimate in about thirteen months. Would it be okay if we dropped Rose off at your house for a night so we can just have some alone time?" I asked.

"Of course. How about you drop her off today, and I'll take her for the whole weekend?" My mom asked.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Of course. That gives you and Shawn a chance to not only be intimate, but also to rest." She said. I nodded.

"Okay. Thank you so much mom. I'll call you when we're about to drop her off." I said.

"Okay. See you in a bit." She said.

"Okay, bye mom." I said.

"Bye sweetie." She said, and we hung up. When I went downstairs, I smiled at the sight in front of me. Shawn had Rose in his lap and he had a huge smile on his face as he looked at his daughter who is so beyond precious to him - and to me too.

"Hi handsome." I said as I sat down next to him. He smiled at me as I leaned my head on his shoulder.

"Hi gorgeous. Did you talk to your mom?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yup. She said that we can drop Rose off today and she'll take her for the whole weekend." I said. Shawn's eyes widened.

"Really?" He asked. I giggled and nodded.

"Yup." I said. Shawn smiled.

"I can't wait honey. I've missed you." Shawn said and I blushed.

"I've missed you too." I said. I then got up and used the breast pump and put my milk into bottles for my mom. I got Rose's things ready and then we called my mom and brought Rose over to her house.

"Hi guys. Hi Rosie!" My mom said.

"Thank you so much for doing this mom." I said as she took Rose and Rose's stuff.

"Of course. I'll see you guys Monday morning, and don't worry about her, she'll be fine." My mom said and we nodded.

"Bye Rosie, Daddy loves you, yes he does. Be good for Meimei, okay?" Shawn asked Rose. I gave Rose a little kiss on the forehead before Shawn and I headed back to the car to go home.

"Oh I'm so excited!" I said and Shawn laughed.

"Me too babe. We have condoms at home by the way." Shawn said and I nodded.

"Okay." I said. We soon arrived at home and as soon as Shawn kicked the front door shut, he pulled me close to him and kissed me. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through my body like fireworks as I let my hands tangle into Shawn's hair. Shawn then began to kiss and lick my neck, and when he hummed into it, I inhaled sharply.

"You like that kitten?" Shawn asked, using a nickname that he only uses for me when he's in the mood, it's also a nickname that he hasn't called me in a while because this is our first chance to be intimate and make love.

"Yes. Oh Shawn do it again. I'm already so wet for you." I said. Shawn hummed into my neck again and I let my hands roam to his back. I then felt one of his hands reach down but his fingers stopped right before he the waistline of my pants.

"Mind if I check how wet you are for me kitten?" Shawn asked. I love the fact that he's always so caring and gentle. I smiled.

"Go ahead baby." I said. Shawn moved his hands down my pants and when he put his fingers to my soaking privates, I moaned. Shawn's eyes were dark with lust as he smiled at me.

"You like that kitten?" He asked and I nodded.

"Yes. Shawn, please make love to me. I need you inside of me." I said. He nodded, took his hands out of my pants - which left me whimpering for his touch - and carried me upstairs. He kicked our bedroom door shut too.

"Mind if I undress you?" Shawn asked.

"Go ahead honey." I said. He smiled, gave me a quick kiss, and then lifted my shirt and bra over my head. He then continued to smile as he pulled down my pants and underwear.

"So beautiful." Shawn whispered as he looked at my privates but I still heard him. He then placed a gentle kiss on my privates and I threw my head back.

"Shawn." I moaned. I then looked at him as he stood up.

"Do you want to undress me Y/n?" He asked. I nodded, and because I needed him so badly, I practically ripped his shirt off of him. Shawn laughed a little. "Is my kitten eager for me?" Shawn asked as I began to pull down his shorts and boxers, when I did, his hard penis sprung up.

"Yes, and by the looks of it, you're eager for me too." I said. Shawn nodded and stepped out of the boxers and shorts so we were both completely naked.

"Yup, I am. I love you darling, and I'm going to take good care of you, I promise." He said. I brought my hand to his cheek and rubbed it with my thumb.

"I love you too and I know you will, you always do. Um, I have a favor to ask, but you totally don't have to do it if you don't want to." I said.

"What is it babe? You don't have to be worried or nervous, it's just me." Shawn said as if he had read my mind. He held my naked body close to his and I felt his tip at my entrance, causing me to moan. I had to take a step back so I could concentrate on what I was asking.

"Um, so, once we've reached our orgasms and come down from them, well, I've missed the feeling of you being inside of me. Would you mind just staying in me for a moment after we've come down?" I asked. Shawn smiled and kissed my forehead.

"My darling, I absolutely love the feeling of being inside of you, so I wouldn't mind that at all." Shawn said and I smiled.

"Thank you. Should I lay down now?" I asked and Shawn nodded. I laid down and he grabbed a condom, put it on, and then got on top of me and lined himself up with me.

"Ready darling?" Shawn asked and I nodded. He entered me and I moaned at the amazing feeling.

"Oh Shawn." I moaned. He kissed my cheek when he was all the way inside of me.

"Let me know when you've adjusted and when I can move." Shawn said and I nodded. It took me a moment before adjusting to his big size, but when I did, I nodded.

"Okay, you can move. Can I still scratch at your back and tug at your hair please?" I asked. Shawn nodded as he smiled.

"Of course you can baby." He said and then he began thrusting into me. I moaned.

"Oh Shawn. Oh I've missed this." I moaned as my fingers scratched at his back lightly.

"Oh fuck babe. Me too. Oh honey, scratch me harder." Shawn said.

"Are you sure?" I asked. Shawn looked at me and nodded.

"Yes. I've, fuck, missed it and the pain, shit, adds to the pleasure." Shawn said. I nodded and scratched him harder.

"Like that?" I asked. He nodded and then buried his face in my neck and placed little kisses and licks there.

"Yes, fuck baby. Oh you're making me feel so good." Shawn moaned.

"You're making me feel so good too baby." I said.

"Oh kitten you're so tight for me. Fuck. I'm close." Shawn said.

"Me too. Faster Shawn, more." I said. He picked his head up and rested his forehead against mine as he began to pound into me faster. I moaned loudly.

"That's it darling, moan for me." Shawn said.

"Shawn, I'm going to cum, I'm going to cum." I moaned.

"That's it kitten. Cum for me, cum all over your husband's dick and scream my name." He said. His words sent me over the edge and my legs shook very hard as I came.

"SHAWN! SHAWN I'M CUMMING! FUCK I'M CUMMING! SHAWN! SHAWN!" I screamed as I came. Shawn's nose scrunched up and he then came.

"FUCK BABE! Y/N I'M CUMMING! Y/N! I'M CUMMING Y/N! FUCK YES Y/N! Y/N! SHIT!" Shawn screamed as he came. His legs shook a bit as he came down from his high. He then let his body go limp on me.

"That was amazing." I said, still slightly out of breath. Shawn nodded his head.

"It was. Is this what you meant when you said that you wanted me to stay inside of you for a little bit honey?" Shawn asked as he picked his head up to look at me. I nodded and smiled.

"Yes. I love this feeling. This may sound cheesy, but it's like I'm one with you when you're inside of me." I said. He smiled.

"I feel the same way babe. Are you up for doing more?" He asked. I nodded.

"Definitely." I said. Shawn smiled and flipped us over so I was on top of him.

"Want to ride me kitten?" He asked. I nodded and placed my hands on his chest as he moved his hands so they were behind his head.

"Yes." I said as I began to move up and down. Shawn moaned.

"Fuck kitten. I love seeing your boobs bounce when you're riding me." Shawn said. I smiled.

"Fuck babe. Oh Shawn." I moaned. I then began to bounce faster, causing Shawn to throw his head back with pleasure.

"FUCK!" He yelled.

"Oh Shawn, oh Shawn baby." I moaned. He smiled at me, his eyes still dark with lust.

"That's it, fuck, moan my name." He said.

"Shawn. Shawn rub me." I said. He knew what I meant so he took one hand and reached forward to rub my clit. I screamed in pleasure.

"Am I hurting you?" Shawn asked. I shook my head.

"No. Oh my gosh, fuck, fuck, fuck." I moaned.

"Slow your breathing down darling." Shawn said and I tried my best to slow it down so I wouldn't blackout like I once did.

"Fuck Shawn! I'm about to cum!" I yelled.

"That's it darling, cum for me." He said.

"Oh my gosh, I'm going to squirt. Shawn I'm going to squirt." I said.

"Squirt honey. I've missed your juices. Squirt all over me." Shawn said and I raised myself off of him a bit as I reached down to rub myself as I screamed. Shawn helped to rub me. He also held one of my legs so I wouldn't fall.

"FUCK! SHAWN YES! I'M SQUIRTING ALL OVER YOU! I'M CUMMING SHAWN! SHAWN!" I screamed as I squirted all over him, but mostly on his dick. When I was done squirting, I lowered myself back onto him so he could cum.

"Fuck that was hot. I'm so close honey." Shawn said.

"Cum for me baby. Cum for me Shawn." I said. I then took one of his hands, the same one that had rubbed me, and put it in my mouth. I know how much it turns him on when I suck on his long fingers. His eyes widened as I did this. I let my tongue swirl around his fingers as I tasted myself. I hummed into his fingers, and that's what sent him over the edge as I felt him twitch inside of me.

"FUCK Y/N! YES! KEEP SUCKING! KEEP SUCKING BABE! FUCK YES! FUCK Y/N! I'M CUMMING Y/N! FUCK Y/N! Y/N!" He screamed and when he was done cumming, I released his fingers from my mouth.

"Fuck that was amazing." I said. Shawn nodded.

"I'm still so fucking hard and horny for you babe." Shawn said.

"Do you want more?" I asked and he nodded. I began to bounce on him again.

"Come here." Shawn said as he gently pulled me down so my boobs were on his chest. I quickly realized what he was doing as he wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted his hips up a bit. He then began to pound into me.

"SHAWN! YES! FASTER! HARDER!" I yelled.

"Fuck!" Shawn yelled as he pounded into me more.

"As fast as you can Shawn. Come on, you know I want you." I said. He smiled and then went as fast as he could without hurting me. I moaned and let my head rest on his chest.

"Look at me kitten." Shawn said and I did. Our eyes met and his were dark with lust. I placed a kiss on his lips, but it was a bit hard to kiss him with how hard he was pounding into me. I looked at him and moaned. He was a glorious sight to take in. His chest was red from my scratches - I can't even imagine what his back looked like - his hair was a mess from me tugging on it so much, and he was so sweaty.

"Shawn, so handsome, so sexy." I moaned. He smiled.

"So beautiful." He said and I blushed as I moaned.

"Oh Shawn. I'm not going to be able to walk tomorrow." I said. He chuckled.

"Then I'll cater to you." He said. I smiled.

"Shawn I'm going to cum. Oh Shawn." I moaned.

"Cum for me. Cum for me baby." Shawn said as he went even faster. I screamed as I came.

"SHAWN I'M CUMMING! I'M CUMMING FOR YOU SHAWN! OH SHAWN! SHAWN!" I screamed. Shawn then reached his high.

"Y/N! YES Y/N! I'M CUMMING BABE! I'M CUMMING Y/N!" Shawn screamed. We both went limp as we came down from our highs.

"Shawn... that was... amazing." I said, out of breath.

"It was. You're crazy if you think that we're done by the way." Shawn said.

"What?" I asked.

"Lay on your back darling." Shawn said. I got off of him and laid on my back.

"What are you going to do?" I asked. Shawn smirked at me.

"Let me taste you kitten." Shawn said and I nodded. I propped myself up on my elbows as he lowered his mouth. He placed a gentle kiss on my privates, but it still made me moan.

"Shawn." I moaned.

"I've barely touched you kitten." Shawn said with a chuckle. He then began to eat me out and I threw my head back in pleasure.

"Shawn, oh my gosh." I moaned as he held my legs apart. I looked at him and he was staring at me intensely. His tongue was relentless with it's work. He licked all over, and then would dip his tongue inside me, then back out. He then gave his mouth a rest and inserted two fingers inside of me and I gripped onto the bed as I screamed. "SHAWN!"

"So beautiful. Look at you, naked for me, giving yourself to me. Do you like my fingers inside of you, my beautiful girl?" Shawn asked. I nodded, momentarily unable to speak because of the pleasure. "Use your words kitten. You know that I love hearing your pretty voice."

"Yes, I love it. Fuck Shawn, I love your fingers inside of me." I moaned.

"Do you want to feel my wedding band inside of you?" Shawn asked. I nodded my head violently.

"Yes! Yes please!" I said.

"Your wish is my command." Shawn said and inserted a third finger, his ring finger inside of me. I threw my head back.

"SHAWN! YES!" I screamed.

"Want me to curl my fingers? Or would that hurt?" Shawn asked.

"Curl them." I said but it came out as a moan. Shawn smiled and curled his fingers.

"Like that?" Shawn asked.

"SHAWN! OH I'M ABOUT TO CUM! FASTER!" I screamed and Shawn went faster.

"Is this good babe?" Shawn asked. I sat up a little more and ran my fingers through his hair as I nodded. He leaned forward to kiss me as he continued to pump his fingers in me.

"SHAWN!" I yelled basically right in his face since he was right in front of me but I couldn't help it. The pleasure was immense. He rested his forehead against mine.

"I love you. Am I making you feel good?" Shawn asked.

"Fuck. I love you too. Yes. I'm going to cum, oh my gosh Shawn I'm going to cum." I moaned.

"Keep your eyes on me when you cum. Cum all over my fingers babe, come on kitten, cum for me." He said. His words sent me over the edge as his fingers kept pumping in and out of me quickly while they were curled.

"SHAWN! I'M CUMMING! I'M CUMMING SHAWN! SHAWN YES! SHAWN! SHAAAWWN!" I screamed and my body shook like crazy. Shawn smiled. I soon came down from my high and laid back down and covered my face with my hands as Shawn pulled his fingers out of me. I felt overwhelmed. Shawn had just made me cum four amazing times, and each of them were intense, but especially that last one. I felt embarrassed as I began to cry.

"You okay darling?" Shawn asked as he laid down next to me. I felt his arm wrap around my waist. I nodded. "Why are you covering your face?" He asked. I pulled my hands away from my face.

"Sorry that I'm crying." I said. His eyes went wide.

"Oh my gosh babe, did I hurt you?" He asked. I shook my head no.

"No. It's just, that was so much pleasure and I haven't felt that pleasure in a while. All of those orgasms were really intense, especially that last one, and I guess that I just feel a little overwhelmed right now. Sorry." I said. Shawn kissed the side of my head and wiped some of my tears away.

"It's okay to cry darling. I know that that was a lot of pleasure. You were shaking pretty hard. Are you sure that you're okay?" He asked. I laid on my side so I was facing him and nodded.

"Yeah, it was just... woah I'm not going to be able to walk tomorrow." I said and Shawn chuckled.

"Well, my love, I will cater to all of your needs." Shawn said as he wiped a stray hair out of my face.

"I'm sorry that I'm crying. I probably seem so pathetic." I said. Shawn shook his head.

"No you don't. Remember when I got overwhelmed after sex and cried a bit?" He asked. I nodded.

"I don't think that I can walk. Would you mind wiping me down please?" I said and asked. Shawn chuckled and nodded as he got out of bed and threw away the condom.

"Of course darling. I'll be right back." Shawn said. I laid on my back again.

"Okay." I said as I watched him go into the bathroom. He came back with some toilet paper and he began to gently wipe down my privates, which by now were very sensitive so I whimpered a little. Shawn stopped and looked at me.

"You okay?" He asked, concern evident on his face.

"I just feel a bit over sensitive right now." I said. He nodded.

"I'm sorry honey." He said.

"It's okay. It's because we had a lot of fun, right?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah. I'll be gentle but let me finish wiping you down and then we can cuddle, okay?" He asked. I nodded.

"Okay." I said and watched him as he was even more gentle as he wiped me down. Soon, he was done wiping me down and he laid down next to me and gently pulled me close to him. He kissed my forehead and the spot that he kissed was left tingly even after his lips were no longer there.

"You did such a good job honey. I'm proud of you." Shawn said and I smiled.

"Thank you, and thank you for making me feel so fucking good." I said. Shawn chuckled as he traced random shapes on my back. I felt tired. Those four orgasms had really wiped me out.

"You're welcome. I can tell that you're tired my beautiful girl. Close your eyes and rest. I'll be right here when you wake up." Shawn said. I nodded, cuddled my head into his chest and closed my eyes.

"Did you like it when I squirted?" I asked.

"Holy fuck babe that was hot. If we talk about it then I'm going to get turned on again." Shawn said and I giggled.

"I love you Shawn." I said. He kissed the top of my head and I felt his wedding ring on my skin as he rubbed my back, causing me to smile.

"I love you too Y/n. Are you my girl?" He asked. My smile widened and I opened my eyes and looked up at him as I nodded.

"Yeah, I am." I said. He smiled at me.

"Yeah you are. Rest my love." He said. I nodded and closed my eyes again, but this time with my face turned up towards his.

"Okay." I said. About ten minutes had passed and Shawn must have thought that I was asleep, because I heard him whispering to me.

"You're so beautiful honey. I know that you're asleep, but I love you so much. You're amazing in every possible way. I love how hard you make me cum, how amazing a wife you are, how amazing you are with our wonderful daughter that you carried in your belly for nine months, and I love how amazing you are as a person. I love you hun." Shawn said. I opened my eyes and smiled at him.

"Thank you baby. I love you too." I said.

"I thought that you were asleep?" Shawn asked with wide eyes. I shook my head.

"No, not yet. Will you sing to me please?" I asked. He smiled and nodded.

"Of course. Any special requests?" He asked.

"Never Be Alone please." I said. Shawn nodded, rested his forehead against mine, and then began to sing to me as he rubbed my back. The next day, because I couldn't really walk without getting wobbly, Shawn catered to me. I love Shawn, and our sex, so much.