Last night I stayed up to watch the Grammys. My boyfriend of three years is the singer and songwriter, Shawn Mendes and he was nominated for two Grammys. Before the Grammys even started it was announced that Shawn lost one of the awards. He called to tell me that and I'll be honest, I cried a little, but he seemed hopeful for the next award. When the award show started and Shawn's category was up, I was on the edge of my seat, and then, he lost. I angrily turned off the tv and pulled out my phone to text Shawn.

Me: You should have won! I'm upset now :( I'm going to bed. Good night. I love you baby. You deserve the world and more.

Shawn: It's okay honey, maybe next time. Good night. I love you too.

The next day Shawn was coming home so I was pretty excited. Due to him rehearsing for both the Grammys and for tour, I haven't seen my amazing boyfriend in what feels like forever. I miss him so much and I can't wait to be back in his arms. When I woke up the next morning, I was feeling excited. Shawn wouldn't be home until the afternoon, and I had school, but oh well. I went to school which seemed to drag out.

When I came home, I opened the door, kicked off my shoes, and immediately headed upstairs to put my backpack on my bed. I then went downstairs and into the kitchen to make myself some lunch. All of the sudden I felt arms snake around my waist, causing me to jump.

"Shhh, it's just me darling." Shawn said into my ear and I immediately turned around to hug him.

"Shawn! You're home!" I said. Shawn chuckled.

"I was sitting on the couch waiting for you to notice me." He said as he pulled away from the hug but kept his hands on my waist. I tilted to the head to the side in confusion.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I've been home for an hour. I'm surprised that you didn't notice me sitting on the couch when you walked in but instead you took your shoes off and went upstairs." He said. Luckily he didn't look upset. I put my hands on both sides of his face.

"Oh I'm sorry honey. I would have gone straight over to you if I had noticed you, I promise." I said. Shawn smiled and kissed my cheek before hugging me again.

"I know. Oh my gosh my love I missed you so much." Shawn said. I hugged him tighter as I placed a kiss on his neck and then buried my face there.

"I missed you so much too baby." I said. Shawn pulled away from the hug and rested his forehead against mine. He then smirked. Oh gosh. He put his lips on mine, but not fully. He started to tease me but just grazing his lips over mine. I tried to push myself up so our lips would meet but he backed away a little. I frowned at him and then turned back to my food. He kept his arms around my waist and then planted small kisses on my neck. I tried to move away a little by squirming but it was to no avail.

"What are you doing baby?" Shawn asked.

"Making lunch." I said, even though I knew that he was referring to me squirming around. Shawn chuckled.

"No I mean, like, why were you squirming like that?" He asked.

"Because you're not being very nice right now." I said.

"How am I not being very nice right now?" Shawn asked. I focused on the food.

"You were teasing me. We haven't kissed in weeks and you teased me rather than kissing me." I said. Shawn turned me around so I was facing him.

"I'm sorry baby. You know that I like to tease you though, right?" Shawn asked. I frowned.

"But Shawn, we haven't seen each other in so long and I've missed your divine lips. I just want some of your kisses, well actually, I just want you and all of your love and all of your cuddles." I said as I rubbed Shawn's chest. He smiled at me.

"Then you'll get all of my love and all of my cuddles." Shawn said before putting his lips on mine. I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through my body like fireworks. Shawn and I pulled away from the kiss, breathless from our loving and passionate kiss. We smiled at each other before I grabbed my food. I sat down on the couch to eat and Shawn sat down next to me. When I was done eating, I threw the plate away and walked back over to the couch. Shawn was standing up, rather than sitting down like he had been before.

"What are you doing baby boy?" I asked as I walked over to him. Shawn wrapped his arms around my shoulders and I wrapped my arms around his waist. He rested his forehead against mine and closed his eyes as he sighed. I wondered if something was wrong but I didn't want to push it. Shawn opened his eyes and brushed some hair out of my face.

"You're so beautiful." Shawn whispered. I blushed and smiled.

"Thank you baby. You're so handsome my love." I said. Shawn blushed and smiled. Shawn then put his lips on mine and we kissed again. He pulled away and kissed my forehead, letting his lips linger there, causing me to smile. When he lets his lips linger on my lips or forehead it's his way of saying I love you.

"Can I lay on you, my beautiful girl?" Shawn asked. I blushed and nodded as I laid down on the couch.

"Of course." I said. Shawn then laid down on top of me but was careful not to put all of his weight on top of me. I ran my fingers through his hair, causing him to hum in contentment. While one hand was in his hair, my other hand was rubbing his back, soothing him. His nerves were drifting off of him and I wanted him to open up to me when he was ready to. Finally, he began to speak.

"Would you still love me even if I never won a Grammy?" Shawn asked. I put my hand to his cheek and he looked up at me.

"Honey, of course. Grammy or no Grammy, no matter what you do or don't have, I will always love you. Why do you ask that baby?" I said and asked. Shawn shrugged.

"I don't know. I guess I just feel a bit disappointed in myself." Shawn said. My heart broke.

"Oh baby, please don't be disappointed in yourself. You still got nominated! Plus, your performance with Miley freaking Cyrus was amazing! I'll always love you, no matter, okay?" I said and asked. Shawn nodded and then rested his head back on my chest. He seemed sad.

"I love you baby girl." Shawn said.

"I love you too baby boy." I said. We stayed like that for a while before I could tell that Shawn had fallen asleep. I took out my phone and went to Snapchat. I recorded a little video of me rubbing Shawn's head and when I kissed the top of his head, in his sleep, he smiled. I captioned it "Cuddles with my sleepy boy." and posted it. Shawn woke up a little bit later.

"Did I fall asleep?" Shawn asked as he picked his head up and looked at me. I nodded as I put my hand to his cheek and rubbed it with my thumb.

"Yup. Did you have a nice nap my love?" I asked. Shawn nodded.

"Yeah. I know that you said not to be disappointed in myself for not winning but I just feel, ugh. I was so hopeful." Shawn said.

"I know honey. What can I do to make you feel better?" I asked. Shawn chewed at his bottom lip as he thought for a moment and then smiled.

"Hold me and love me forever." Shawn said. I giggled and smiled.

"That was already the plan bubs." I said. Shawn's smile widened and he lifted his body up a little and put his lips on mine again. We made out for a little bit, but it soon turned heated. I loved the kiss but I didn't want the kiss to be too heated. I tapped Shawn's shoulder and he pulled away.

"What's wrong love?" Shawn asked.

"Sorry, it's just, the kiss was getting heated and you know how I'm waiting for marriage before I have sex." I said. Shawn nodded.

"It's okay love. You don't have to apologize honey. I love the fact that you're waiting for marriage before you have sex." Shawn said, surprising me.

"Really?" I asked. Shawn nodded before he pecked my lips with a kiss.

"Yup. It shows me that you're protecting yourself and I love that about you." Shawn said. I smiled but then my smile faded.

"It's hard because I know that you're the right guy for me and that we're going to spend the rest of our lives together... so why the hell am I holding us back?" I asked as I covered my face with my hands. Shawn took one of his hands and pulled my hands away from my face.

"Baby, you're not holding either of us back from anything. You're protecting yourself honey. It's okay. We'll do it when we get married, okay?" Shawn said and asked. I nodded.

"Okay. I'm tired. Can we go cuddle and nap in bed please?" I asked. Shawn smiled and nodded as he stood up and then helped me up. We went up to our bedroom to cuddle and nap. He may not have won a Grammy this year, but I know that Shawn will win one someday, and I love him so beyond much.