A/n: Okay so I know that I ended the first part with Y/n having Rose, but let's pretend that it's only been a month since Shawn and Y/n had the miscarriage. Okay, I hope that you guys like this imagine. Okay, let's begin!

About a month ago, my husband Shawn Mendes and I found out that we had lost the baby that we were two and a half months pregnant with. Losing the baby broke our hearts. Shawn has been trying to cheer me up by having friends and family members come over, but it's not really working. I've spiraled into a deep depression and I don't know how the hell I can get out of it. I haven't really been eating much and I've been crying and sleeping a lot. I also go for a lot of walks. Sometimes Shawn joins me on the walks, sometimes he doesn't, but he usually does join me as we walk in silence and hold hands.

I woke up one morning crying. I looked over and saw that Shawn wasn't in bed with me but I soon heard him rushing up the stairs. I sat up in bed as he walked in and sat on the bed with me.

"I'm right here love, it's okay, you're okay." Shawn said, trying to comfort me. I just kept crying.

"My baby. Our baby." I cried out. Shawn sighed and moved over so he was on his side of the bed and leaned up against the headboard of our bed.

"Come here honey." Shawn said. I leaned on him as I cried my heart out.

"I want our baby back." I said. Shawn kissed the top of my head.

"I know honey, I know. Can I ask you a question?" Shawn said and asked. I looked up at him and nodded.

"Yeah." I said.

"I need you to be honest with me, okay?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Okay." I said, wondering where this was going.

"Have you had any thoughts of hurting yourself or anything?" Shawn asked. He looked so concerned. I started to cry harder as I gripped his shirt. I finally answered his question.

"Yes, but I'm not going to act on anything, I swear. Please don't send me to a hospital, Shawn, please don't send me to a hospital." I pleaded. Shawn gently grabbed my face in his hands.

"My love, I'm not going to send you to a hospital unless you do act on those thoughts. Then we'll talk about you going to the hospital, but you're here and you're safe, okay?" Shawn said and asked. I nodded.

"Okay. Thank you." I said. Shawn kissed my temple.

"You're welcome darling. Do you want something to eat?" Shawn asked. I thought for a moment before shrugging.

"I don't know. I'm not really all that hungry." I said. Shawn sighed before he kissed my cheek.

"Honey, you not wanting to eat is the depression and grief. Can you please at least try eating something? For me?" Shawn pleaded. I sighed before nodding.

"Okay." I said. Shawn smiled at me.

"Thank you." He said.

"You're welcome." I said, and him and I walked into the kitchen while holding hands. His touch sent electricity through my body, yet it felt safe, inviting and warm, all at the same time.

"What do you want to eat?" Shawn, my amazing and loving husband asked me. I looked around the kitchen before pointing at some cereal.

"Can I have some honey nut cheerios please?" I asked. Shawn nodded and got me a bowl. He poured the cereal in first and then the milk and sat with me as I began to eat. As I was taking my third bite, the doorbell rang.

"I got it." Shawn said. I nodded and soon heard two female voices.

"Where's Y/n?" I heard my friend Liz, who I've known my whole life, ask.

"She's in the kitchen eating." Shawn said.

"Oh good!" I heard Sophie, another one of my friends, ask. They walked into the living room and I waved to them from where I was sitting. They waved back as they sat on the couch. I took a fourth bite and decided that I was no longer hungry.

"Shawn?" I called out. He walked over to me.

"What's up bubs?" Shawn asked. I pushed the bowl away from me, indicating that I didn't want anymore. "How many bites did you take?"

"Four." I said.

"Can you take one more please? For me? I don't like the fact that you haven't been eating as much and that you've been losing weight." Shawn asked. I looked at the cereal and chewed at my bottom lip as I thought for a moment. I really didn't want to take another bite, but Shawn seemed so worried about me. I suddenly burst into tears. Shawn rushed over to squat down beside my chair.

"I'm so sorry for making you so worried. I don't mean to. I just get so sad and then I don't feel like eating. I'm so sorry Shawn." I said. Shawn wrapped his arms around me.

"It's okay honey. We'll get you better, I promise." He said. I nodded as he stood up and dumped the rest of the cereal away. I walked into the living room as I stopped crying and tried to fake a smile towards my friends. Shawn had pulled out some extra chairs so Liz and Sophie could sit on the couch and him and I could sit across from them, next to each other. He sat down next to me and held my hand. I put our interlaced fingers in my lap and squeezed. He squeezed back. We were all talking about different things when suddenly Sophie said something that hurt.

"Did you guys hear that Sarah got pregnant?" Sophie asked, and then immediately realized what she had said. I flinched at her words and felt jealousy stir inside of me. Sophie looked at me. "I am so sorry. I wasn't even thinking and the words just came out." She said. I waved my hand as if everything was fine even though my world was practically falling apart.

"It's okay. I think I'm just going to step out on the back deck." I said as I got up and went out onto the deck. I shut the door behind me, signifying that I wanted to be alone as I leaned up against the railing of the deck.

Shawn's point of view

"Shawn I am so beyond sorry." Sophie said as my wife stepped outside and onto our deck.

"It's okay. Let's just leave her alone for now." I said as I stared at Y/n. She leaned against the railing of the deck.

"It looked as if she flinched when you said that." Liz pointed out. I nodded.

"Yeah I saw that too." I said. Everyone nodded. I excused myself and went outside to where my wife was. She turned her head to look at me.

"Hi." She said. I wrapped my arms around her from behind.

"Hello my love. You okay?" I asked. Y/n leaned so her back was pressed up against my chest and I rested my head on her shoulder before placing a kiss on her cheek, and then I put my chin on her shoulder again.

"Yeah, I just feel jealous I guess. I mean, we're supposed to be pregnant right now, but I ruined it -" Y/n started before I physically turned her around so she was facing me.

"Hey, what do you mean you ruined it?" I asked. Tears formed in my wife's eyes, causing my heart to break. I hate seeing her cry.

"I lost the baby. I know that everyone says that it was an accident but I just feel so bad. We were both so excited to be parents and then I lost the baby and ruined everything." Y/n said as she broke down crying. I pulled her in for a hug.

"You didn't ruin anything my love. The doctor said that it was an accident and that these things just happen sometimes. Everything's okay." I said. Y/n cried as she hugged me but she nodded her head against my chest. We heard the door to the deck open and I turned around to see Liz standing there.

"We're going to head out. We love you guys." Liz said. I nodded.

"We love you guys too. Thank you guys for coming by." I said. Liz nodded and then they left. Soon, Y/n and I went back inside.

The next day, as Y/n napped, I called my manager Andrew. Y/n loves the television show, Supernatural, and I would really like for the two main actors of the show to come over to mine and my wife's house. I want to cheer Y/n up somehow. Andrew said that he would try his hardest to get them to our house. The following week, Y/n was napping again when the doorbell rang. I opened the door and saw my manager standing with the two main actors of the show, Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki.

"Surprise!" Andrew said. I smiled as I shook their hands.

"Hey, come on in. Please, come sit in the living room. I'll go grab Y/n. Um, do you guys know that my wife and I had a miscarriage?" I asked Jared and Jensen as they sat down and I pulled out some extra chairs for Y/n and I. Jared and Jensen nodded.

"Yeah. Your manager filled us in and we're very sorry for your loss." Jensen said. I thanked him and went upstairs. When I walked in the room, I noticed that Y/n wasn't asleep. Instead, she was laying in our bed staring off into space. I walked over to her and leaned down so I could place a gentle kiss on her temple. She barely even blinked.

"Darling, there are some people here that want to see you." I said. Y/n shook her head.

"I don't feel like moving." She said. I sat down on the bed with her.

"I know honey, but I think that you'll be happy to see these people." I said. Y/n finally nodded as she stood up. She held my hand and we walked down the stairs. As soon as she saw her two favorite actors, she began to cry. She walked over to Jared and hugged him.

"My baby. My baby is gone." She cried as they hugged. Jared nodded.

"I know, and I'm so sorry for your loss. Do you remember what my motto is?" Jared asked. Y/n pulled away from the hug a little and nodded.

"Always keep fighting." She said. Jared smiled and nodded.

"Yup. And that's what I want you to do, okay?" Jared asked. Y/n nodded and then hugged Jensen. We soon all sat back down.

"So Y/n, how long have you been watching the show?" Jensen asked.

"Since my freshman year of high school. So basically, a long time." Y/n said with a small laugh. I was so glad to hear that laugh since I haven't heard it much lately because Y/n has been so sad. Y/n held my hand in her lap and rested her head on my shoulder. I kissed the top of her head. We all talked a bit more and it seemed as though Y/n was herself again, or at least a little bit. Her eyes lit up as Jared and Jensen told her behind the scenes stories about the show and they discussed her favorite episodes.

"Shawn are you good? You're quiet." Andrew asked and said. Everybody looked at me, but I looked at my wife instead.

"Y/n seems happy again, talking about her favorite show with her favorite actors. I'm just happy to see her smile again and hear her laugh again. I swear, every damn time she laughs, my heart flutters." I said with a chuckle. Y/n kissed my cheek. I took my index finger and tapped my lips, causing her to laugh her angelic laugh. She put her lips on mine and I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my stomach, and I felt sparks shoot through my body. Y/n and I pulled away and smiled at each other.

"I love you." Y/n said. My smile widened.

"I love you too." I said. Jared and Jensen and Andrew left soon after that. The next day, I expected my wife to be better considering the mood that she had been in when she got to talk to Jared and Jensen, but she had slipped back into sadness again. I called my mom the next night, unsure of what to do.

Your point of view

I was laying in bed when I heard my husband, Shawn, talking to someone downstairs. I slowly went down the stairs and stopped when I realized that he was on the phone with someone.

"Mom, I'm failing my own wife and I'm failing as a husband. I can't even make my own wife smile or laugh. I want to hear her laugh, and not just from when I watch videos of her, I want to hear it in person. I want to see her smile, and not just in a picture. I want to see it in front of me. I'm failing my wife and I wouldn't be surprised if she left me." Shawn said as he cried. Tears formed in my eyes and I walked downstairs and into the living room, where Shawn was. He looked at me.

"Shawn?" I asked.

"Mom I have to go. Bye. Love you too." He said, and hung up. I walked over to him and sat on his lap. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and he wrapped his arms around my waist. How should I make him feel better? I looked at him for a moment before putting my hand to his cheek and stroking it with my thumb. I then put my lips on his and tears ran down our faces as I got all of those same magical feelings that I always get when we kiss. The butterflies, the sparks, the heart racing, everything. I pulled away from the kiss and kept rubbing Shawn's cheeks, trying to wipe the tears away.

"Shawn, you in no way at all have failed me." I said.

"Yes I have." He said.

"How? How have you failed me?" I asked. Shawn sighed.

"I can't seem to make you laugh like I used to and the same goes for your smile. I would completely understand if you want to leave me to find someone who can actually make you happy." Shawn said as we both continued to cry. I moved my body a little so I was straddling his lap.

"Shawn Peter Raul Mendes, I am never going to leave you. Never. You're my husband and the love of my life. You're my best friend, my rock, my everything. I love you so damn much Shawn, and you've been the only thing holding me up during this dark time. Shawn, you are the only light in my life. You're my only source of happiness. You're the only thing that's keeping me going. If I had to go through this alone... I wouldn't be able to do it, which is why I'm so damn grateful for you. No one makes me happier than you do, and I'm sorry that I've been so sad lately, but I promise you that I'm trying my hardest to get better, I really am Shawn." I said. Shawn nodded as our tears slowed down.

"I'm sorry that I even thought those things. I know that you're trying to get better honey, and I'll always be here to support you and help you. I'll do anything for you ba - honey." Shawn said.

"Shawn, you can call me baby. It's okay." I said. Shawn shook his head.

"No, I don't want to trigger you or upset you or anything." Shawn said. I shook my head.

"It's okay. You can call me baby again. Can I call you baby again?" I asked. Shawn gave me a small smile and nodded.

"Yeah. Baby, what can I do to make you smile or laugh right now? I want to hear your laugh and I want to see your smile again. What can I do baby?" Shawn asked. I thought for a moment and then looked at one of the pictures that Shawn and I had framed and put on the wall in our living room. It's a black and white photo from our first dance as husband and wife at our wedding. I smiled a little and then looked at Shawn as I rubbed his bicep.

"Talk to me about what you remember from our magical wedding day." I said. Shawn smiled a little.

"Oh, you mean the best day of my life?" Shawn asked. I giggled, causing Shawn's smile to widen, and I nodded.

"Yes. The best day of our life." I said. Shawn smiled, kissed my cheek, and then began to tell me everything that he remember from that beautiful day. I smiled at certain times and laughed at others, like when he talked about taking a picture with my cousin who's less than five feet tall. The height difference between the two of them was hilarious. Soon, Shawn finished his story, and we were both left smiling at each other.

"Actually, could you get off my lap for a second please honey?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah." I said as I got off his lap. He turned on his speaker and put on our first dance song, Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran. I smiled at my amazing and loving husband as Shawn extended his hand towards me.

"Mrs. Mendes, would you like to dance with me?" He asked. I giggled and nodded as I took his hand and stood up.

"I would love to dance with you Mr. Mendes." I said. Shawn held one of my hands in his as his other hand rested on my waist and my other hand rested on his shoulder. We slow danced to the song. I stared at my husband and examined his facial features. He's the most handsome, best looking guy that I've ever seen. I bit my lip as I examined his earrings.

"Oh God, don't bite your lip. You know that it drives me crazy." Shawn said. I threw my head back with laughter.

"I can't help it! My husband is just so hot and sexy!" I said with a laugh. Shawn blushed and smiled as he shook his head in disbelief. Suddenly, realization hit me: this man is mine, all mine. He's my husband and I get to spend the rest of my life with him. Happy tears formed in my eyes.

"What's wrong my love?" Shawn asked as a look of concern became etched across his face.

"Nothing. I'm just really happy. I'm literally married to the most amazing man ever and I get to spend the rest of my life with him. I'm so in love with you Shawn and I hope that you're in love with me just as much." I said. Shawn smiled and placed a loving kiss on my lips before he twirled me.

"I love you more than words will ever be able to describe honey. I really, truly am in love with you. Marrying you was the best decision that I ever made. I can't wait to spend the rest of our lives together. You're so amazing my love, my wife. I love you so much honey." Shawn said, happy tears still running down my face as I smiled at him. The song came to an end and he dipped me, causing me to laugh. We soon sat down on the couch and cuddled up to each other.

"By the way, I love you too." I said, causing Shawn to chuckle. We cuddled for the rest of the night.

The following week Shawn was meeting with his team, which included Andrew, Teddy, Ziggy, Geoff, and others. When he came home, he found me outside on our back deck. I suddenly felt a pair of arms wrap around me and I jumped since I hadn't been expecting this.

"Shhh honey, it's just me." Shawn said, and I instantly relaxed into his touch.

"How did the meeting go today baby boy?" I asked as I reached one of my hands back so I could play with his hair. Shawn hummed in contentment. 

"It went well. They think that I should get back to writing music again though." Shawn said. I nodded and my husband buried his face in my neck, something that he loves to do, and I smiled. I suddenly became nervous.

"Shawn?" I asked.

"Mmm-hmm?" He responded.

"I'm ready." I said. Shawn lifted his head up and then turned me around as he gave me a look of confusion.

"You're ready for what?" He asked. I put my hands on his cheeks.

"I'm ready to start trying to have a baby again." I said. Shawn's eyes widened.

"Really?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah, really. What do you think?" I asked slightly nervously, but the nerves drifted away when Shawn smiled at me.

"I would love to start trying to have a baby again." Shawn said. I hugged Shawn tight and he hugged me back.

"I love you so much Shawn." I said.

"I love you so much too Y/n. Now come on, let's go try and make a baby." Shawn said with a smirk as he took my hand and led me inside and up the stairs into our bedroom. Nine months later, Rose Lucille Mendes, my other light and happiness in life, was born.