AUTHOR'S NOTE, PLEASE READ: Explicit language in this one! I don't mean to make Shawn look like a bad guy in this, but I needed a story line. Okay so the guy in the picture is Noah Gregory Centineo who is a MAJOR cutie and was in To All The Boys I've Loved Before and Sarah Burgess Is A Loser, both are on Netflix. I haven't seen Sarah Burgess but To All The Boys I've Loved Before is soooo good! By the way, I know some of this stuff about Noah because I've seen videos of him. He's super hilarious! Okay, let's begin!

"Hey do you want to meet up today?" My kind of sort of friend Noah Centineo, the actor, asked me over the phone. Him and I have been going on dates for the past few weeks but I've also been hanging out with my other kind of sort of friend Shawn Mendes, the singer and songwriter. Both of them know that I'm hanging out with both of them and getting to know each of them.

"Yeah of course. Where do you want to meet up at?" I asked Noah.

"Do you want to meet at that little diner that you seem to love?" He asked. I nodded even though he couldn't see me.

"Yeah! I do love that place." I said, causing Noah to laugh. Something about his laugh makes my heart flutter.

"Well let's have lunch there today. Does noon sound good to you?" Noah asked.

"Yeah. I'll see you then." I said with a smile.

"Alright. I'll see you then beautiful." He said. I blushed.

"Stop you're making me blush! I'll see you then." I said with a giggle. He laughed, my heart fluttered, and we hung up. My phone went off. I had gotten a text.

Shawn: Hey, want to hang out today?

Me: I'm hanging out with Noah at noon but maybe after?

Shawn: Sure.

I really hope that Shawn isn't upset with me because I'm meeting up with Noah. Oh well, he knows that I want to get to know the both of them. Here's the thing: the both of them are good looking, but it goes beyond the looks. Both Shawn and Noah are hard workers who put everything that they have into their work. They're both down to earth, nice, kind gentlemen. I know that neither of them would hurt me, or at least not on purpose, and it kills me to know that in the end, when I choose just one of them, the other is going to be hurt by me.

I went upstairs and got dressed. Since it's autumn, I figured I would dress warmly. I put on blue jeans, a long sleeve blue shirt and a denim jacket. Noah has a denim jacket too, maybe he'll even be wearing it today. I put on black boots, put on a little bit of makeup - both Noah and Shawn don't like it when I wear makeup but I like to wear at least a little bit of it - grabbed my purse, and headed out. I got to the diner and immediately saw Noah. When he saw me, his eyes widened.

"Woah." He said. Woah is his signature word. He says it all of the time.

"What? Is something wrong?" I asked. He shook his head as he pulled me in for a hug. His hugs make me feel so safe and warm.

"No, you just look so beautiful." Noah said. I blushed, causing him to laugh.

"Well thank you. You look very handsome Mr. Centineo." I said. His hair looked long but was covered up by his Warner Bros. hat. He was wearing his signature denim jacket with a blue shirt underneath, with blue jeans.

"You're welcome Miss Y/l/n. Oh I just noticed that we match!" He said with a big smile on his face. I giggled, causing his smile to widen.

"We do. Let's sit down. Have you ordered anything yet?" I said and asked. He nodded as we sat down.

"I got you a lemonade and a water for me." He said. I smiled.

"You know I like me some lemonade." I said. He nodded.

"I do. I'm guessing you want grilled cheese?" He asked. My eyes widened.

"How did you know?" I asked. He laughed and shook his head.

"You always order it, no matter where we are." He said with a smile.

"That's true." I said. My phone went off. I ignored it. It went off again.

"It's fine, you can check it. I don't mind." He said. I shook my head before taking a sip of my lemonade. Yum, so good.

"No it's okay, I think that I know who it is." I said, knowing that the texts were from Shawn. He knows that I'm with Noah right now, why is he texting me?

"If you don't mind me asking - no nevermind." Noah said. I shook my head again, feeling confused.

"No what is it?" I asked. He paused for a moment before speaking.

"If you don't mind me asking, is it Shawn?" He asked. I nodded.

"I would be surprised if it wasn't." I said. He nodded.

"Well, check it. See what he wants." Noah said. I hesitantly nodded and checked my phone.

Shawn: Hey, what are you up to?

Shawn: Oh crap, I forgot that you were with Noah, sorry.

"He asked what I was up to and then said that he forgot that I was with you so he apologized." I said. Noah frowned.

"How does he know that you're with me?" He asked.

"He called me after you and I got off the phone and said he wanted to hang out but I told him that I was going to hang out with you, so him and I are going to meet up later. I'm sorry." I said, feeling guilty.

"Why are you sorry?" Noah asked.

"Because in the end I'm going to hurt one of you guys. I don't like hurting people." I said, tears forming in my eyes. Noah moved so he was no longer sitting across from me, but now he was next to me.

"I know that you don't like hurting people, and I know that I might get hurt, but you're worth the risk." Noah said with a smile as he rubbed my cheek. I nodded and closed my eyes, liking the feeling of his warm hand against my cheek.

"What the fuck?" I heard Shawn say. I opened my eyes and saw Shawn standing at the door. He walked over to us as Noah moved so he was across from me again.

"Shawn you know that I'm getting to know Noah too." I said.

"Yeah I just didn't know that he was going to be able to caress your cheek. I didn't know that we could do that." Shawn said. I frowned.

"Well he was comforting me. Wait, what are you even doing here? Did you know that we were going to be here?" I said and asked.

"No, I thought that you guys would be hanging out at your place Y/n. I had no clue that you guys would be here." Shawn said angrily.

"Listen dude," Noah said. "Don't get mad at her just because I was comforting her."

"I didn't know that we could rub her cheek, so I'm a little upset right now." Shawn said.

"Well it's not like I'm kissing you guys. Shawn, people are watching, you're making a scene, could you please lower your voice?" I asked. He shook his head.

"You need to make your decision on who you're going to pick and you need to pick soon because I can't take much more of this." Shawn said.

"Don't rush her dude, let her get to know us better." Noah said.

"Am I talking to you? No." Shawn said. Noah shook his head in disbelief and took a sip of his water. I looked back at Shawn.

"Shawn, we'll talk later. Right now I'm with Noah." I said.

"I'll see you at your place later." Shawn said, and with that, he stormed out. I looked at Noah.

"I'm so sorry Noah. I've never seen him like that before. He's usually so cool, calm and collected." I said.

"It's okay. Take your time picking between us. Get to know us both." Noah said. I nodded. Noah and I ate, talked for a while, and left. We gave each other a hug goodbye. I held onto him tight for a moment before pulling away.

"I know you said that it was okay, but I'm really sorry about Shawn getting angry and acting like that." I said. Noah smiled and shook his head.

"It's fine, don't worry about it. We all have our moments." Noah said. That's another thing about him, he's so understanding. I nodded, we hugged again, and then both drove away in our seperate cars. When I got back to my place, Shawn was waiting outside for me. I stepped out of my car and walked over to him.

"Hey. How long have you been waiting for?" I asked him.

"Since I left the diner that you guys were at." Shawn said. My jaw dropped.

"Shawn that was like, an hour and a half ago." I said. He nodded.

"Yeah and it's freezing, can we please go inside?" He asked. I nodded and unlocked the door. We stepped in and I turned to him.

"Can I have a hug please?" I asked with a smile, hoping that he wasn't still angry.

"Don't you have Noah for that?" Shawn asked. Okay, so he's still upset.

"Shawn, listen, you're making me feel bad. You knew what you were getting into and you said that you would patiently wait for my decision, and now you're going back on your word." I pointed out. He hung his head.

"I did say that, didn't I?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yes, now can I please have my hug?" I asked. He smiled and put his arms around my waist as I put my arms around his neck loosley. Shawn also made me feel safe, just not as safe as Noah did.

"I'm sorry for today." Shawn said as we pulled away.

"It's okay." I lied. Shawn shook his head.

"No, it's not. I embarrassed you in front of Noah and a whole bunch of people. I'm so sorry Y/n." Shawn said. I nodded.

"Okay." I said, not sure of what else I could say.

"I just - I know that I said that I would be patient, but I'm starting to lose my patience. I want to know if you're going to be mine or not. Can you please make your decision soon?" Shawn said and asked.

"Shawn I need to take my time because what if I make the wrong choice and get fucked over?" I asked.

"I'm not going to fuck you over." Shawn said.

"With how you were today at the diner how am I supposed to know that for sure?" I asked.

"I said I was sorry!" Shawn yelled. I was surprised. When Shawn raised his voice at the diner, it was only a little bit. But now? This was a full on yell. It scared me a little.

"I know that Shawn! But all he was doing was comforting me. When I apologized to him after you left for you freaking out he was very calm and understanding. You know what Shawn? I've made my decision." I said. He looked surprised.

"What is it?" Shawn asked, and I could tell that he knew.

"Noah makes me feel things that I've never felt before. He makes me feel safe and warm when we hug and all of this great stuff." I said.

"Have you ever felt any of the things that you feel with him, with me?" Shawn asked nervously. I shook my head. Shawn hung his head.

"No, I haven't. I'm sorry. Shawn, listen, maybe we're meant to be together but it's just the wrong time. You never know." I said. Shawn picked up his head and nodded.

"Okay. I should probably go. Can I have one last hug?" Shawn asked. I smiled and nodded.

"Of course. Come here." I said before pulling him in for a hug. We soon pulled away. He looked sad and I felt bad about it.

"Goodbye Y/n." Shawn said.

"Goodbye Shawn." I said, and with that, he left. I took out my phone and called Noah.

"Hey pretty girl." Noah said. I bursted into tears. I had just hurt Shawn and I felt so bad.

"Can you come over please?" I asked.

"Yeah I'll be right there. Get a cold bottle of water, sip it, and sit down." Noah said.

"Okay." I said. We hung up and I did what he had told me to do. Soon there was a knock on my front door. I opened it and saw Noah. He rushed in and held me.

"What's wrong?" He asked. I took his hand and led him to the couch.

"I just talked to Shawn. I told him that I made my decision and looked so sad. I hurt him Noah, I hurt him." I said, still crying. Noah pulled me onto his lap.

"I don't want you to choose me because you feel rushed. If he's hurt, he'll move on eventually." Noah said. I nodded, starting to calm down as Noah rubbed my back.

"I just didn't like the side of him that I saw today and then he full on yelled when he was here and it kind of scared me. I don't like it when people yell, especially at me. I'm not choosing you because I feel rushed, I'm choosing you because I feel things that I've never felt before when I'm with you." I said. He looked surprised.

"Really? What do you feel?" Noah asked.

"Well, when we hug, I feel safe and warm, like extremely safe and warm. And when you laugh, number one: your laugh is amazing, number two: it makes my heart flutter. Whenever our hands touch, I feel sparks and electricity race through my body. You're so amazing. I want you Noah Centineo." I said. Noah smiled at me.

"I get all of those feelings too." Noah said. Now it was my turn to be surprised.

"Really?" I asked. He laughed.

"Yeah. Y/n? Will you be my girlfriend?" Noah asked. I smiled and nodded.

"I would love to be your girlfriend." I said.

"Can I kiss you?" He asked shyly. I nodded again. When our lips met, I felt sparks shoot through me like fireworks, I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, and I felt butterflies erupt and fly around and my tummy. We pulled away.

"Wow." I said with a smile as I touched my fingers to my lips.

"Woah." Noah said while also touching his fingers to his lips.

"That was amazing." I said. Noah nodded.

"Yeah." Noah said before kissing me again. We pulled away smiling. He stayed for a while before heading back to his place. Although I'm not happy that I hurt Shawn, it may just have been the wrong time.