Shawn's P.O.V

Sitting outside of me and Y/N's room I couldn't stop crying. I felt absolutely horrible. I guess this all sobered me up pretty quickly.

"Y/N?" I knocked on the door.

She must have fallen asleep because I could no longer hear her on the other side of the door. Getting up quickly because I could feel all the alcohol coming back up I ran to the bathroom.

I had done this a few times already, and I was tired of it. I wanted Y/N to tell me that I would feel this in the morning. I wanted to sleep next to her but I couldn't cause I messed up.

Y/N's P.O.V

Waking up the next morning I remembered what happened with me and Shawn last night. I instantly felt sad again.

Getting out of the bed I put on slippers and a housecoat. Opening the door I looked down and saw Shawn slumped over on the floor. Walking past him I went into the kitchen and started making toast and a hot chocolate.

"Y/N?" I heard Shawn call a while later.

I stayed silent.

"Hey Y/N, I uh i'm really sorry about last night. I don't know what came over me"

He came towards me to hug him and I backed away.

"Y/N, please" he started crying.

The tears weren't working for me.

"I think it's best if I go stay with my parents for a little while until we figure out how to deal with this" I sighed.

"what! no, oh god no please"

"it's for the best"

Walking past him I went back into our bedroom and started packing a few things up. Zipping yo my duffle bag I went and grabbed my car keys.

Unlocking the front door I opened it and was about to leave when I heard Shawn again.

"please Y/N, i'll never be able to forgive myself for what I did to you but please don't leave me" he whispered.

"Shawn..." I shut the door again.

"i'm so so so sorry"

"I don't know if I can forgive you right now. But we need to work this out and I feel that if I leave it will make things worse" I said sliding down the door.

"We can work this out. I know we can!" Shawn smiled.

I narrowed my eyes at him I was skeptical. How could he have gone from happy to sad so quickly.

"I love you Y/N please don't even forget that. I'm not going to go out with my friends anymore and get smashed"

"whatever" I said.

I knew it would take a while for me to forgive Shawn but eventually I would come around.