Hey my lovelies! Hope you're all having a wonderful day. I'M SEEING THE KILLERS THIS TIME NEXT WEEK ARGHHHH

9am, 6 July 2017 - Day one of Illuminate World Tour US Leg

Shawn's POV

Today is the day - Illuminate Tour US Leg begins, and I'm nervous. Malia is coming with me on tour to support me, which is sweet of her.

The hardest thing was saying goodbye to my family. I didn't want to postpone the tour as I don't want to let my fans down, plus Avo wouldn't have wanted me to cancel; she would have told me to carry on with the tour and do what I love.

I'm currently on the private plane to Portland, and we are currently flying over Montana, so don't have long to go. I'm exhausted, but I can't get to sleep so I check my phone and see so many pictures of Avo and I that my fans have tagged me in.

I see this one and my heart breaks - this was just before I left for my first ever tour and my Avo came out to see me, just like last week. Tears begin to form in my eyes - no Shawn. Not now. I try to blink them away. A huge sob escapes my mouth, and I try to calm myself. I then feel an arm around me.

"It's okay hunny." Malia tells me. I rest my head on her shoulder and I continue to cry silently. My new tour manager, Jeff then comes up to me. (A/N this is a made up character)

"Shawn we need you to do some vocal warm ups so that we can start rehearsals as soon as we get to the arena. We've not got much done as you've not been able to come to practise." He tells me, sounding slightly bitchy.

"Yeah that's fine." Jeff returns to his seat.

"What's his problem?" Malia whispers to me.

"I'm not sure, he's been like this all week. We only hired him a month ago and he was fine when I could come to practise, like its not my fault." I tell her.

"Just ignore him, focus on yourself." She replies. I put my head back on her shoulder and close my eyes. To my surprise I fall asleep. "Shawn we are here." Malia shakes me awake and we get out of the plane. We then go straight to the studio, and set up. Then it was rehearsals and meet and greet, which all went to plan. Things begin to go downhill during 'Hold On'. I added it in as Avo liked it, and its about my dad and I'm missing him right now. Hold On was second to last on the setlist.

"This one's called Hold On.
Stop, take it in and I
Breathe for a minute, I
Think too much when I'm alone
I never win when I
Keep all my thoughts inside
So I'll pick up the phone

And my dad says, "Shawn, stay with me
Everything will be alright
I know I haven't seen you lately
But you're always on my mind

I don't know what
You're going through
But there's so much life
Ahead of you
And it won't slow down..." I completely go blank - everything is spinning, tears are falling from my cheeks. I just about make it backstage before my legs give in, Malia catching me.

"What's the matter?" She holds my head against her chest as I cry into her.

"Avo..." I feel her grip tighten as I calm myself down. Malia helps me to my feet as Andrew comes up to me.

"If you don't want to finish its okay. I'm proud of you for getting through pretty much all of it." He pats me on the back.

"Is that o...okay?" I stutter, and probably would've fallen if Malia wasn't propping me up. Andrew nods.

"Malia get him some water and something to eat and get him backto the hotel. We will see you later." Andrew then leaves, and Jeff comes up to me.

"Shawn you need to move on. These things happen and you need to let it go, work hard and give each performance your all or sales will begin to decrease." He smiles at me in that damn bitchy way and leaves.

"Shawn ignore him. You only missed one song, and that was added in so you did the same number of songs. They all had an amazing time, don't let his opinion get to you." She hugs me - I'm still processing what Jeff said.  Maybe I do need to work more.

And thats it!! Hope you liked it Xx