Janet

After Gil went into beast most and managed to keep up with Shawn in the LA traffic we pulled into a grocery store and parked. We watched her go in  and waited in the parking lot.

"I can see it now..." Gil whispered. "Janet Jackson, Diva turned stalker." He said dramatically and started to laugh.

"Shut up, we're not stalking her, we're just spying on her a little bit." I said, trying to make myself feel better.

"We is too many people." He said and then screamed at a tap on his window.

I'd texted Preston and had him meet us there with food. Gil rolled down the window and grabbed the bag.

"I'm not even going to ask why you guys are having fast food in the parking lot of a grocery store." Preston said giving us an odd look.

"Shh!" I said putting my finger to my lips. "You never saw us tonight."

Preston laughed. "Just be careful please." He said, tipped his hat and walked away.

About fifteen minutes had passed and still no sign of Shawn. All kind of  thoughts we're going through my mind. Maybe she was inside buying dinner for a date tonight. I glanced at Gil, he was cutting his eyes at me.

"What Gil?" I laughed. "Why are you looking at me like that?"

"You said we could get food."

"We did."

"Don't nobody want no damn McDonalds French fries Damita."

I started to laugh. "It's just a snack, I promise to get you real food but this was the best I could do for our little stake out." I glanced in front of me. "There she is."

We watched as she walked back to her car carrying a few bags.

"What do you think she bought?" Gil asked.

"Probably dinner for her new girlfriend." I said sitting back hard in my seat and folding my arms.

"Think it's Amelia?" He said. I scoffed and turned my nose up at him. "I'm just saying, the bitch keeps poppin up."

"Come on, she leaving."

It was long before we pulled into Shawn's building. She'd already gone upstairs and Gil and I sat staring at each other in his car.

"What now?" He asked.

"I don't know, I didn't think that far ahead." I said.

"I mean what are we suppose to do, go up there and knock on the door?" He said.

"Let's just go up there and see what happens?" I said opening my car door.

"This is such a bad idea." Gil said and followed.

We got off the elevator on Shawn's floor. The hallway dark and except for the light next to Shawn's door at the end of the hall. As we stepped off he door opened immediately and she walked out with a girl.

Gil gasped catching Shawn's attention as she looked down the hall towards us.

"Ja-" Shawn started to say, I back up into a dark corner before the girl could see me. "Gil what are doing here?" She finally said.

"Gil?" The girl said. "As in the Gil?" She asked.

She started to head in Gil's direction but he met her in the middle making sure she didn't get close enough to see me standing in the shadows. Smart kid.

She extended her hand and Gil shook it.

"I'm Dani. I dance at the studio Shawn teaches at sometimes. It's very cool to meet you." She said. She looked back at Shawn. "I have to get going. Give Kaz my love and tell her I will see her tomorrow." She said.

"Let me walk you to the elevator." Shawn said as she made sure to walk a few step sahead of her.

"Maybe one day you can convince Janet and Gil to come to one our classes." She said. "Every one would flip the fuck out. It would be the coolest thing ever."

"Maybe, she's busy a lot but I can definitely see if there is ever some free time."

The wide eyed girl got into the elevator and was gone.

Shawn looked relieved as the elevator door closed finally. She glanced at me Just as I stepped into the light.

"That girl would've lost her shit if she would've seen you." She said and started walking towards her door. She quickly closed it and turned to face us. "What are you guys doing here?"

"You're not going to invite us in?" I asked.

"I'm kinda busy right now. Can you guys talk to me tomorrow at the studio?"

"Shawn who's Kaz?" I asked. She was quiet for a moment and scoffed. She was clearly irritated that I asked.

"Someone that I need to get back to, now if you'll excuse me." She said. "I will talk to you guys tomorrow."

She turned around, opened the door and a
dog went running past our feet.

Gil squealed. "You got a dog!"

I looked down, then at Shawn and smiled. It didn't take me long to figure out who Kaz was.

She rolled her eyes. "Y'all so nosey! Come in."

Gil and I sat on the couch as Kaz ran back and forth between our laps. I watched Shawn from across the room like I always did. I know she could feel me watching and she glanced over her shoulder at me.

"Kaz, come here girl!" She said holding a treat out a treat in front of her. She jumped from my lap and ran right over to her, excited for her treat.

I walked over to them, kneeled down and rubbed Kaz's head.

"She super cute and well behaved. Where did you get her?"

"I'm not keeping her, just fostering. The shelter that Dani works at is full. She was telling us all about it at our last class, a few of us volunteered to take them in until they could be placed in good homes."

Gil called her over allowing me and Shawn to have a moment.

"Why would you try so hard to make me think you're seeing some one else Shawn?" I asked.

"Because you hurt me, all over again. As soon as things got hard you left." She was silent for a second. "Besides you are."

"What are you talking about?"

"This industry may be big but gossip travels fast. I know about JD."

Shawn

She scoffed and folded her arms, seeming a bit defensive now.

"It's not like we're together, you can do what you want J."

"It's not even like that Shawn. Yeah he has try to make himself known. We hung out at a party once, but nothing happened. He was nice and made me laugh."

"That's cool, you're not my girl J. You don't owe me any kinda of explanation." I said and headed for my room. I went into my closet and grabbed a pair of clothes to box in. Beside rehearsals I hadn't gotten my work out in for the day. I was definitely feeling a bit tense and was in need of some kind of release.

I pulled my shirt over my head and opened my eyes to see Janet staring back at me.

"Shawn don't act this way towards me."

"Look I'm not trying to be any type of way towards you. We're good. I've come to terms with whatever this is. So I'm good." I said slipping into a pair of shorts. "I just want to get in my workout and go to bed so if you guys could let yourselves out, that would be amazing." I said and slipped into my shoes.

I walked up to her, getting close and in her personal space. "It just sucks though, we were earth shattering together." I said, kissed her cheek and walked back into the living room.

Gil laid his head back on the couch and looked at me. "Gonna work out?" He asked.

"Yup," I said and kissed his forehead. "Can you put Kaz in her cage for me. Just grab a treat and say kennel and she'll walked right in for you." I rubbed Kaz's head and walked into the other room. "Janet still has a key, lock up when you guys leave please."

I put my headphones in my ears, turned on the lights and tuned everything out. It was my favorite thing to do. My favorite way to relieve stress... well, one of them.

I began to hit the bag harder.

I did my best to keep Janet out of my mind but I didn't know how. I thought about her the entire hour and forty-five minutes. I was done trying to figure this out but I still wanted her bad. I could hear my gloves against the bag as I went savage on it.

And then I stopped. Pulling my plugs from my ears I finally took a deep breath allowing myself to just breathe for a moment. I took off my gloves and threw them in a corner and turned out the lights.

Kaz was in her cage sleeping and they'd turned off all of the lights. I stopped by fridge grabbed a bottle of water and headed for the shower.

Showering always made me feel better. It somehow become symbolic for me. Like I was washing away all the troubles of my day. Though today hadn't been a bad one, it was still pretty stressful but I was starting to feel better.

I was so in my own head walking into my bedroom I almost didn't see her sitting there.

"J?" My voice was different from before now that I'd had a chance to relax. "I thought you left with Gil." I said. I felt pretty vulnerable, standing there in just a towel and tried to lean casually against my dresser. She still hadn't spoke.

She stood up and walked slowly towards me. I shifted as she got closer.

"Was there something else you needed because I should really get to bed." I asked.

She just kept moving closer until she was inches away from me. She pushed her body into mine and made swirls from the beads of water that were still on my shoulders. Goosebumps rose against my skin and I shivered.

"Cold?" She finally said.

I laughed nervously. "Just a little."

She leaned in, her lips grazing mine. "I can make it warmer if you like."

"I've been doing good just doing me I'm not trying to go down this road with you again. Besides what about JD?"

"What about him?" She shrugged. " I'm not asking you for anything else right now other than to let me make you call out my name." Her words went through me like electricity.

"S- So what, we're just fucking now?"

"Say you don't want me and I'll turn around and I'll leave and not bother you again." I could feel her hand, slowly moving up my thighs. Her warm breath kissed my lips and I was getting wet already.

Janet knew what she wanted. My body knew what it wanted. We were adults, why did I have to put a label to what we were? As long I could have her any time I wanted, why should it matter? Right?

The energy in the room shifted and it was like this sex demon was taking turns feasting on our souls leaving with nothing but this deep sexual tension.

She turned me around, pinned me against the dresser, forcing me to face myself in the mirror as she pressed her hips into mine. I watched her hand find the front of my towel as she opened it and let it fall to the floor. Her hands grazed my arms and she touched my neck with her finger tips. I couldn't take my eyes off of her reflection staring back at me.

There was never any hope for me. I was under her spell.

"Can I have you?" She asked.

I nodded. "Anytime you want, in any way you want." It was the only answer. I was hers.