Shawn's P.O.V:
"Cameron you're butt naked." I say as we walk outside. There's an outside couch on the back patio. He lays me down on the couch and I take off my robe as he crawls on beside me. I put the robe over us like a blanket. He tucks it in between me and the couch, then wraps it all the way around him. I'm still crying because of how ashamed I feel of myself.

"Babe, shhhh. Stop crying." I try to dry my tears. I've never felt so bad. I betrayed his trust; and lied. Why did I do that!? Ugh.

"You deserve better then me Cameron. You deserve someone who doesn't keep secrets and lie."

"Shawn stop it. I was only trying to make you feel bad." He was rocking me in his arms. "You did exactly what I would have done if I were you. You were just trying to make me happy." I look up and smile at him.

"But you're mad at me Cameron, and you should be."

"No Shawn, I promise I'm not.... anymore. I was only mad at first because I thought you were cheating on me. There's no way I would have been able to manage if you did that." I shift over so we're looking eye to eye.

"Cameron I would never cheat on. You always remember that. No one could ever make me feel the way that you do. No one." I pull him over into a hug.

"I known Shawn, and please don't feel bad. I love you. I just wanted you to feel what I felt. I shouldn't have done that. And I was never actually going to leave you. I couldn't bare doing that."

"I deserved it. I'm a horrib-" He kisses me.

"Shh." he says laughing. He kisses me again.

"You're seriously not mad babe?"

"At first I was Shawn, but not anymore. I love you." He kisses me again. "And I wanna make love to you." He starts grinding onto my body.

"Babe there's a small beach down there by the lake, wanna make love in the sand?" He smiles.

"Always looking for ways to make it exciting aren't we Mr. Mendes?" he says smiling again. He lifts me up carrying me over to the beach like a baby.

Cameron's P.O.V:

I lay Shawn down on the sand. The moon provides enough light reflecting off the water for us to see. I lay down beside him. He cuddles into my chest, causing me to smile. Holding him made me feel happy. I know I should probably be mad about what he did but I've made him feel bad enough. I hated seeing him cry, even if he deserved to feel bad. "Shawn I know we came down here cause we're both horny but could I just hold you for a minute."

"Aww Cameron. You can hold me anytime you want to."

"I know. All I know is that we're here together right now and we're not guaranteed tomorrow. I need to appreciate what I have." He raises his hands up to my face, holding it with his hands.

"Are you ok babe?"

"Yes. I was just thinking that anything could happen between us. I love you now and I'll love you forever but we are still going to make mistakes. And what if one day I make a mistake and you won't love me anymore."

"Cameron shut that up. That love that you have for me..... I have for you back. And you shouldn't worry about me leaving you! It would be physically impossible." He laid back down on my chest.

"Shawn we are gonna have sand everywhere." I say laughing. "Like everywhere."

"Oh, I didn't even think of that." he said.

"I don't mind." I say as I roll over on top of him. I'm hovering above him because I'm holding my upper body up with my hands in the sand. Our crotches were rubbing together though. It was sexy. I run my hands over his muscles. "You're biceps are the best." I say, rubbing his large arms.

"Not as good as yours." he says grabbing my biceps and rolling us over so that he was on top. He leans down and kisses me. My hands are on his back and they slowly slide down to his ass.

"I was thinking, maybe tonight I could...." I stop talking because I feel my face blushing. I hadn't bottomed in a while and it made me feel embarrassed asking for it.

"You wanna take it?" he asks leaning down to my ears.

"If you don't mind." I say laughing.

"Mind? Babe! I love fucking you!" I laugh. I'm glad that he loves it. "Seriously, don't be embarrassed to ask. I love ramming that sweet ass of yours." he says rubbing his junk against mine, smiling with a sexy smile.

"It's just been awhile..... so remember to be careful."

"I will. We don't have any lube so I'm gonna have to get you wet myself."

"How?" I ask curiously. He slowly makes his way down my body to my cock.

"Roll over." he says in a sexy way. I roll over onto my stomach, the breeze blowing across my ass. I feel him grab my ass cheeks and move them apart.

"What are you doing?" I ask laughing. His hands felt nice on my ass. They're slightly rough, but mostly smooth.

"Just wait." he says. My neck is turned around watching him. "Just lay down. Relax." he says. I move my head back and lay my face down. I feel something wet start to move across my asshole.

"What is that?" I ask laughing. It kind of tickled and felt really good at the same time.

"You don't know what a rim job is?" he asks.

"No. I've never heard of that before."

"Oh." he pauses. "Well I was looking up things to do to you know.... spice up our sex." I just stare at him about to laugh. "This was near the top of the list."

"So what do you do?" I ask curiously trying not to laugh still.

"Well you know what it means to eat out a girl right?" Of course I know what that means. Wait a minute.

"So that means you're going to be..." I stop talking.

"Yes Cameron." he says laughing.

"Oh. Well I hope I'm decent down there." I say laughing. Did I just make it awkward? I didn't mean to. Just the first thing I thought when I thought of someone's tongue in another persons ass was what if someone had a dirty ass. (Sorry lol. I just felt this was very Cameron's character. I love the way he thinks🙈. Sorry if it's weird😂) That would be nasty. Shawn's laughing now. "Why are you laughing I was being serious. What if I had swamp ass or something. You're making me feel all self conscious." I say laughing, closing my ass cheeks.

"Babe you don't. We just got out of the bath a few minutes ago. I wouldn't stick my tongue in your ass hole if it was nasty." he says laughing.

"Whatever." I say. "Just do whatever you were going to do." I think this is actually gonna feel good. "It felt good when you stared." I say smiling.

"So now you're excited?" he says spreading my ass again.

"You've got me all curious now."

"Good." He leans down and I feel his tongue connect to my ass. I feel it start to move up and down, and enter me. This literally makes me so fucking horny.

"Shawn this feels amazing."

"Good." he says. He goes back to my ass. After about another minute I feel his finger enter me.

"Ohh babe. You didn't warn me." I say laughing.

"Sorry, I'm just ready to tear you apart."

"Baby boy I love when you try to be all dominant."

"Try?" he says putting two more fingers in my ass together.

"Ohh babe. Fuck!"

"You're so tight Cameron. It's so sexy."

"Fuck me Shawn!" I moan out. I couldn't take it anymore. I needed him inside me.

"Tell me what you want Cameron."

"I want you baby. Fuck me. Fuck me!" He laughs after I say this.

"Good job." I feel him start to enter me. He wasn't being easy either.

"Babe remember, it's been awhile for me. Be gentle."

"Sorry, you just get me so riled up I forget." He slows down, still entering me.

"Fuck! You're so big Shawn." I feel my face scrunch in pain. I'm blowing out breaths like a pregnant woman having contractions.

"Does it hurt Cameron?" he asks passionately.

"Yes. It really does." I say. It burned to have him inside me all the way. "Just give it a minute. I just need to get used to."

"So I shouldn't do this then." He starts to slide out.

"Fuck Shawn seriously!" It was still burning. "Please babe." I say. I felt a tear in my eye. I don't remember it being this painful. He sees my face and automatically cuts his dominant act out.

"Babe are you ok?" he asks. He lays down closer to me. "I'll stop if you want me to. I didn't mean to hurt you." I don't answer. I feel my breathing start to turn normal again.

"It's fine. It feels better now." I say. It really did feel good now. How could this hurt before?

"Fuck yes." he says. He starts to grind into my ass.

"Hot damn Benito." I say.

"Did you just call me Benito?" His voice squeaks when he says Benito. I turn around and he's blushing.

"Fuck yah." I say. "I read that article where you said the sexy side of you when you do photo shoots is named Benito." I roll my tongue on the Benito, trying to sound sexy.

"You're so damn hot Cameron." I feel him thrusting into me harder. He lays back down on me, continuing to thrust into me. We lay for a minute, our hot sex becoming more of a romantic love making. Our bodies close together, releasing all the hot sexy energy between us.

"Shawn I'm about to cum." I mutter out. I feel the feeling in the pit of stomach.

"Me too babe." He breathes loud for a minute. "Fuck babe." I feel him releasing in my ass.

"Holy shit." I say, cum shooting out of my dick. Shawn pulls out of me and the feeling makes even more cum shoot out of me. He rolls me over and we roll over in the sand so I'm not laying in my cum.

"Cameron that was so damn hot." he says laying on me. His abs felt nice pressed against mine.

"Shawn I love your Benito side. He's pretty hot." I laugh. He moves his head over and attaches our lips. After a few seconds he stops and just lays back down relaxing on top of me. We lay there for a few minutes and I feel his body slightly shiver. "You cold baby?" I ask.

"Just a little, but we can lay here still if you want." I laugh rubbing his back. I sit up and get up to my feet. I hold him close rubbing his back again.

"I'm kinda cold too." We walk back to the small house, my arm wrapped around his shoulder, holding him close to me. We walk back into the house and I move my arm off of him to shut the door. He walks back to the bed. I find the thermometer and turn the heat up. It actually is pretty cold. When I walk into the bedroom again Shawn is already wrapped up under the blankets with his eyes closed. "You look like a cute little teddy bear." I say. My body craves the warmth this bed shows off. I crawl in, sliding under the covers. "You wanna cuddle?" I ask. He either is asleep or is acting asleep. I'm about to find out. "Fine then. I guess I'll lay right here, alone." I roll away from Shawn on my side of the bed. I sit there for a few seconds and close my eyes. I feel his arms wrap around me after a few seconds and his head start to nestle into my chest. I open my eyes and see him smiling, rubbing into me. "I love you baby boy." I say to him.

"I love you to Cameron."

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I'm sorry if you guys think this book is boring or if it's bad. I just wanted these first 10 or so chapters to be happy; because I know the rest of the book isn't going to be. If you think it's boring and slow I want you to know two things: number one, you're gonna miss them being so close later on in the story when some other events take place. And number two Cameron and Shawn are not going to get a happy ending. So I figured I give them a happy beginning.😑😑😑 Love you guys!