Shawn's P.O.V.
(IDK if you have noticed but we haven't seen the story through Shawn's eyes since chapter 29. I did this for a reason):

The door slams shut behind Cameron. I sit down on the bed, bending over to pick up my underwear. I slide them on. Woah. Cameron just found out. I feel tears start to pour from face. I am just so confused. I think back to the night I got that phone call from my parents. (Which was the last time we saw through his eyes, Chapter 29, once again on purpose.) I asked Nevada to leave after I told her what happened. I couldn't handle being around someone. When she left I didn't even bother to call Cameron and I just laid there trying to go to sleep. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep though, because my mind was just constantly racing. After laying there for about 20 minutes I heard a knock on the door. I went and opened it, being greeted by a sympathetic looking Nevada, holding two large brown bags.

Flashback:

"Hey Shawn." she says sympathetically.

"Hey." I say instantly crying. She sets the bags down opening her arms to embrace me. I run into her arms crying.

"It's ok Shawn. Here." She pulls away from the hug, picking up the big, brown, paper bags. She walks in, setting them in the kitchen. She pulls out a bottle of alcohol. Next, a bag of shots-red solo cups. She opens the bottle, pouring it into a cup. She hands it to me. I shake my head at her. "Come on, it'll help."

"I don't really like alcohol." I say, drying my tears.

"It'll help you get through this. Trust me." She puts it into my hands. I just take it. She pours herself a shot and drinks it. I don't even bother asking what it is. I just need something to get my mind off of this. I can't stand to keep thinking about this: my dying dad, who basically disowned me. My husband and I being separated for 67 days now. I need to get myself into another state of mind. I finish the whole first cup in one drink. I stick it out, earning a smile from Nevada. She gladly fills it up again. We continue this little filling and drinking until I had drank about 5 shots. Woah.

Flashback ends.

After that, things just kind of got blurry. I remember Nevada and I having a great time. Laughing our asses off the whole night. Who knows what we did that night. I had a pretty good idea though when I woke up in the morning. I opened my eyes laying on the couch bed. I guess through the course of the night we had opened up the couch, getting the bed out of it.

Flashback:

I open my eyes. The sun shining into the living room only adds to the splintering pain I'm experiencing in my head. I'm laying butt ass naked on the couch bed, with a cover covering me. What the hell happened last night? I honestly cannot remember a thing. I lay back down, stretching out my arms. I was laying on the right side of the couch bed, and for some reason my hand just collided with something. I look to my left, seeing a sleeping Nevada. This is not happening. I feel my heart start to best incredibly fast as I just stare at the passed out Nevada. I honestly think I'm going into shock. There's no way we actually had sex is there? I squirm my way out of the bed. I bend down picking up my underwear. I hear a laugh come from behind me. "Nevada!" I say surprised to hear here awake. I turn around to see a tired, but smiling, looking Nevada. After a second I cover my bulge up with both of my hands, my face clearly blushing.

"Last night was so much fun Shawny." she says, rolling over.

"What do you mean?" I asked scared. I didn't wanna know the answer. I don't remember us having sex. Please dear God Nevada, say we didn't.

"Oh don't act like you don't remember." She rolls back over looking at me and smiling. I feel my heart beating even faster. We actually had sex. Holy shit. Cameron. How am I going to explain this to Cameron. I can't explain this to him. I betrayed him. I cheated on my husband. I actually cheated on Cameron.

"I'll be right back." I say, walking to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror, after shutting and locking the door. Tears are slowly pouring down my face as I disgustingly look at myself. I'm such a horrible person. Look at yourself Shawn; you worthless piece of shit. You cheated on your Cameron. You betrayed your only lover. I lean against the sink on both of my palms, a sound of frustration leaving my lips. Why the fuck did you let that happen Shawn!?! You have control over what you do and last night you just let yourself go. What did you just do? What the fuck am I gonna do about Nevada. I look at the bathroom door. I can't get mad at her. She'd tell the whole world what happened: that Shawn Mendes is a lying, cheating, worthless man-whore. I can never be mean to Nevada now. Even if I didn't wanna be her friend I can't not be. I have to be best friends with her now. I hear a knock on the door. "Yes." I say normally. I start drying my tears. I can't let her know I'm crying.

"I actually have to go Shawn. But I want you to know last night was one of the best nights of my life. I've never had so much fun. I'll see you tonight."

"See yah tonight." I say. I hear her walking away. I was now forever trapped with this person.
Flashback ends.

Ever since that night I've just been so off. Every time I went to go do something I'd see Nevada and I'd be reminded of what I did. Then I'd have to act like she's my best friend. I couldn't let her know I don't want anything to do with her now. I couldn't let Tara or anyone for that matter know that things are different. I slowly pushed everyone away. Tara was right; this Nevada girl was a bad influence. But there was nothing I could do about it. The damage had been done. The unbearable, unacceptable, unintended damage. And now I was going to have to explain this to Cameron. And I know that he's probably not going to take me back. I sit on this bed crying; crying because I now realize that Cameron and I's relationship might actually be over: and I'm the one to blame for all of it.
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So what'd you think? If you are at all confused about something comment right here. I'll clear up anything you may or may not be confused about. Also who thinks Cameron and Shawn are done? Who thinks they're going to get back together? Are you mad at Shawn? Is it his fault? Comment what you think and what you feel. I know that right now may be a very emotional time for all of you.

Also the reason I haven't had it from Shawn's P.O.V. for so long is because he was constantly thinking about this, so if we had his P.O.V. you would have all found out what he did. Just wanted to point that out.