Cameron's P.O.V.
I open my eyes with Shawn in my arms. He's slightly snoring and I love it. What am I gonna tell Mrs. Anderson? My whole career is going to be in ruins. No ones ever gonna wanna hire me. I promised her I'd do the movie and now I'm going to just back out? Ugh. I look at Shawn sleeping. He is more important to me than acting. He's more important to me than anything in this world. I always sleep on the left side of the bed and Shawn always sleeps on the right. I guess most couples do that, I don't really know. I look down at the scar on the left side of my lower torso. I move my left hand to it, running my fingers over it. This scar rarely ever hurt but sometimes it did. It feels so strange to touch. I used to think it was so ugly; I still partially do. Shawn has told me that he think it makes me look more masculine or whatever. I lean down kissing the top of Shawn's head and slowly slide away, leaving him alone in the bed. I grab my grey and black robe, sliding it on for it was a little cool in our apartment this morning. I walk to the bathroom and turn on the lights. I pull out a hand mirror and position it so I can see the top back left side of my head. My hair grew back completely a month or two after my surgery. However, there still remained the scar on the back of my head where no hair would ever grow back. I look at it in the mirror, moving my fingers slowly across it. This scar used to give me horrible migraines but they've mostly stopped. I have some every once in a while but I have medicine prescribed that usually helps the pain. As I'm looking at the scar flashbacks of the hospital come to me. Waking up after the car accident; trying so hard to find Shawn; those 5 or 6 days where I didn't know if he was going to live or not. All these feelings and memories made tears grow in my eyes and they slowly poured down my face. How could I even think about leaving him to go on tour. As sad as it is I'm just gonna have to give up my acting dream. Who cares if I never get another chance to pursue my dreams. At least I'll have my Shawny. I look at the scar one last time then bend down, putting the mirror away in its drawer. I stand up just looking down at the sink. I feel arms start to wrap around my chest from behind. I look up in the mirror to see a cute looking Shawn pulling me close. His eyes were closed and his face bore a tired, loving, serious tone. He was wearing his long blue robe that I had bought him a couple months ago. "Are you ok baby?" He asks. I guess he'd seen me crying.

"No I'm fine." I say smiling. I run my hand across his arm.

"Tell me what's wrong Cameron. I can tell something is seriously bothering you." Through the mirror I can see his face. He looks so sad and concerned for me. It makes my heart melt that he cares so much for me.

"I was just thinking about something...." I say.

"What about?" he says softly. He looked so caring and loving right now. Maybe I should just tell him about the role. It does feel so weird keeping this secret.

"I was thinking about when we were both in the hospital, about 3 months ago." I say turning around in his arms. He pulls me into a hug, and I rest my head in between his head and neck. It was strange but cute when Shawn comforted me like this, because usually I'm the one who holds him in my arms and makes sure he feels ok. I'm glad to know that he can do the same for me.

"What about the hospital?" he asked, not necessarily whispering in my ear, but not talking loudly.

"I was just thinking about how I almost lost you. And I just love you so much Shawn. You are so amazing and it just scares me that I was thinking about being apart from you again." I know. Here it goes. I'm also crying now.

"What to you mean you were thinking about being apart from me? I'm never gonna leave you Cammy." he says trying to reassure me. I clear my throat.

"I know Shawn. I know. I..... I was the one thinking about leaving you." I hold him tighter to me. However, he pulls me up away from him so that he can look me in the eyes.

"What are you talking about Cameron? Why would you be leaving me?" He looked down at his wedding ring worried.

"Not like leave you like divorce you babe." I rub my finger across my eyes drying some of the tears. "I mean like not going on tour with you." His face looked slightly relieved but then showed confusion.

"Why wouldn't you go on tour with me?" he says, his face making an awkward expression between sadness and confusion. Here comes the truth.

"Shawn I've been keeping something from you. A couple of weeks before our wedding I auditioned for an acting role for a movie."

"Ok." he says, following along with me.

"Well I didn't figure I'd actually get the part and I thought it'd be like a whole other month before I even got the news of if I got the part or not. So I was going to tell you between now and then but yesterday I got called back and found out that I got the part." I feel more tears coming. Shawn smiles, rubbing his hands up and down my shoulder.

"Well babe I'm so happy for you. This is exciting news! Why are you crying?" He moves his hands down, joining ours together.

"Because Shawn, the movie is being filmed in New Zealand." He looks slightly confused.

"So what's the problem?"

"I'm supposed to leave in 2 weeks for filming. We were supposed to leave in 2 weeks for filming. But when you told me your news about your tour I didn't wanna ruin your news so I was just going to give up the role and-." He pulls me into a hug cutting me off from talking.

"Babe, do not tell me you are thinking about turning down this role for me?" I pull back and look into his eyes. "Cameron I can't just let you throw away your dreams just so you can be with me when I go on tour."

"But I promised you that if you ever did that I wouldn't let you go alone, and I don't think I'm going to be able to handle 3 months without you." His eyes widen when I say 3 months.

"3 months? Well um, that is longer than I thought but that's ok. We can make it work Cameron. I'm not going to let me get in the way of your dreams."

"But Shawn I was gonna be happy touring with you."

"No Cameron. You're taking this movie role and you're gonna rock it. I'm so proud of you babe." He leans in and we share a short kiss.

"But what about us being apart."

"We can make it work Cameron. We're married. I mean it's gonna be hard but it's just 3 months. And when you're done filming you can tour with me for the last 3 months of my tour." I smile at this. So I get the best of both worlds from this.

"Are you sure Shawn?" I question.

"Cameron what's the worst that could happen? It's not like either one of us is going to cheat or leave the other. We love each other too much."

"Of course not Shawn." I say laughing. "But it's gonna be hard not seeing you everyday."

"We'll have texting and face timing. And I could write you letters." Aww, that's so cute.

"Are you gonna be able to handle not being cuddled up to me every night?" I ask, making a frowny face appear on him.

"Don't make me think about that." he says pulling me into another hug.

"So we're actually doing this Shawn? We're actually going to be apart for 3 months? 3 whole months with no physical touch, no kissing, no anything, except for texts and face timing."

"Well don't think about it like that babe. That sounds depressing. Think about it as 3 months that we get to look forward to seeing each other again. Everyday that passes we'll be closer and closer together." I smile at his amazing advice. He's so cute.

"Aww Shawn." I say. He pulls away from the hug, holding my hand, and leads us into the bedroom.

"Although before you go you have to show me what we're gonna do with that icing."

"I don't know, maybe I'll make you wait 3 whole months." I say seductively. We were laying back in bed now. We were just laying down, looking at each other and laughing as our conversation went on.

"I'm not waiting that long Cameron." he says.

"I don't know. It'll give you something to look forward too."

"Yah, three whole months to look forward to it!"

"Like you said, as each day passes you'll be closer and closer to figuring out how we're gonna use the icing." He laughs rolling his eyes and I scoot closer to him. I move into his arms resting my head on his chest. His arms wrapped around me making me feel secure. I like that Shawn can be here for me when I need it too. But soon neither one of us are gonna be in the others arms. But I'm not going to think of that right now. I'm going to lay here in Shawn's arms and think about how lucky I am to have the love of my life hold me in his arms.