Azun:

I go back to the Colonies. Those planets have the tradition of burying their dead. Similar to how I have a tradition of being a looser.

Something is changing inside of me. I am not the same person I was seventeen years ago. I have not aged since I matured, my silver eyes are sad as I gaze at myself upon the water. Something is not quite right.

I am sick of just waiting around. I'm through with playing by the rules, wait for what you want, treat others like you want to be treated, I am just done with it all! But I am too late to the battle field, too late to the showdown. I need to trust my instincts and take a leap of faith across my mind.

It's time I try to defy death. I think I will try to die and resurrect myself. No matter what Luke tell me, what he tells dad, I won't give up. He will not being me down. I will not be accepting the boundaries he has placed in front of me, I will leap across them, into uncharted waters. There are some things I can never change, like the fact that Nathaniel is gone and there is no bringing him back. For too long I have been in fear of what my brothers will do to me if I step out of line, it's time to take a stand and defy death.

My future is unlimited. I close my eyes and fall to my knees. A vision of the future flashes before my eyes. It's Nathaniel. Tears pour down my face as the vision ends.

Death doesn't care who you are. Death takes all in the end, it takes sinners and saints, angels and demons. Why do I keep living a good life if I am just going to die in the end? We all make mistakes we regret, we all have demons inside us.

I have not seen Nathaniel in seventeen years, that vision was like he was standing in front of me. I know how it is going to end for him. I'm sorry to admit to myself that I can not change a prophecy.

Is there a reason I am alive when so many people I love are all gone?

"If you need me I will be on Francium Nathaniel." I send a message to my brother, not knowing if my vision was past present or future. He may never receive it.

I will take every chance I have. Nathaniel is facing a huge climb that must get to the top. He has so much to lose but he can't choose, this fight is unstoppable. He is not standing still he is fighting for everything he has. What would it be like to be like him? I could have have every bit of confidence. I could turn back the tides, be someone else.

I take out my Net-pad, pressing 2 on my speed dial.

"Luke." I speak before he has a chance to. "I'll take the job."

Then I hang up before he can react.

I hope Nathaniel is doing better then I am.