Ch.11 The glass you can't look through

That night after the encounter with Violet,I was thinking.

If my heart is made of glass,does that mean people can see straight through me?

They can predict what I'm going to do,take advantage of me,or forget all about me.

And if I move,my heart breaks a little more each time.

*quite sobbing*

"Hmm?(Y/N)?Is that you?Why are you crying?"

I can't force words out my mouth.

Mathias climbed out of his bed and sat on the edge of mine.

"Are you going to be ok?I don't want you crying.Your too pretty to cry so much."

I sat up in my bed and just buried my head in Mathias's chest.

"It's ok (Y/N).Everything is going to be ok."

He hugged me close,and held my hand.

"Mathias......"

"You need to rest (Y/N).Don't worry about me."

He softly placed a kiss on my cheek before I drifted off into a dream.

Return to the retuning Dreamland~

In a room.

I looked at myself.I was wearing a white dress.

I walked around for no reason,looking around.

There were people on the other side of the glass.

I tried banging on the glass.

Tried hitting it.

Tried breaking it.

All of them failed.

I saw a mirror in the corner of the room.

As I walk toward it the people were ignoring me.

The mirror showed myself.

But not.

I was smaller,I looked scared.

It was almost like I was transparent,I could see myself in the mirror,but I was ghostly.

My mirror self was trying to bang on the mirror.

It was crying.

She wiped her tears away,looked at me and then behind it,slowly becoming full,I couldn't see through it anymore.

She turned away and walked far away,to the point of me not being able to see her.

Is this what glass is like?

But I couldn't see through her.

Is that the glass you can't look through?

I need to follow her.

I touched the mirror and it cracked.I flinched on sight.

I kicked the mirror out of frustration,shattering it,falling on the floor.

The people on the other side of the glass wall weren't visible anymore.

Can they not see me?

I can't see them?

That's not glass.

That is separation from life.

End of dream~

I woke up to the sunlight beaming on your face.Mathias still had his arms around you,also sleeping with a smile on his face.

As much as I tried to pry him off he wouldn't budge.

"Mathias."

"Hmm?Ahhhh!"

He immediately jumped when he saw me,falling off the bed in a blushing fit.

"Why?What?How?(Y/N) I'm so what?"

"Calm down Mathias."

"Nononono what did I do to you last night?Did I ......."

"Well you helped me stop crying and kissed my cheek........"

"REALLY?"

"Yes.Why?"

"No reason I was just confused."

"Ok can I change now?"

"Oh yeah here let me go."Mathias left the room with a wink which made me blush.

Changed over to my work clothes,and opened the door to see Mathias being strangled by Lukas.

"Morning Lukas."

He dropped Mathias to the ground.

"Good morning (Y/N)."

I saw Emil pop out behind Lukas,he looked at me and then his brother.

"Whoops!"

He pushed Lukas in my direction,making him fall directly on top of me,his lips pressing on mine.

Mathias got up and pulled Lukas off of me and my eyes were spinning with confusion.

Emil ran off to the hot spring,escaping Lukas and Mathias who were chasing him.

Tino and Cameron were next up.

"What's everyone going crazy for?"

"(Y/N)!My sweet heart!"Cameron ran toward me and hugged me,and seeing Tino's face pretty irritated.

"Cameron can you get off me?"

"Oh yeah sure."

After Cameron the three of us talked in the living room until Violet and Berwald got up.

It's weird enough that Berwald woke up late,but I think he broke his glasses,because he wasn't wearing them.

"Hey Berwald where are your glasses?"

"My wife over there brow them coming out of his bed."

"IM NOT YOUR FREAKING WIFE."

"I see."

"No you can't,your not wearing your glasses."

Berwald blindly looked over in Mathias's direction and started staring at him.

For some reason,he looks even scarier without his glasses than with them.

Lukas busted through the door carrying Emil over his shoulder,who was kicking and screaming.

"Put me down right now!Lukas!Lukas!"

"..."

"Put me down!"

He slammed the door behind him.I don't even want to know what he did.

You walked behind Berwald to look in Tino's room for more candy.

Caramel was your favorite so before you entered the room you looked for the candy bowl.Next to his bed.Now to look for those red rappers meaning caramel goodness!

Found them.There are three on top.

Ok Berwald is distracted by Tino talking to him.Perfect.

Now....

Dash!

I ran in the room took the three caramels and some chocolate too before running into my room to put it in my bag.

"(Y/N)......don't think your getting away with my sweets...."

"Tino are you ok?What happened?"

"Mathias stay out of this please."

"Calm Tino."

"She took my sweets."

"...Never Mind."

"Thank you Berwald.Please step aside."

I heard Tino coming my way.

First thing.

Shut the door.

Now how to distract him?

Umm throwing a pillow?

No.

"(Y/N) give them back!"

*bang*

He banged on the door.

Maybe......

I opened the door and pulled Tino in the room.

"(Y/N) can I have my candy back?Its not cool to take it."

"But I love caramel!"

"Ugh fine but ask me for them next time.How many did you take?"

"Three."

"*sigh* Your lucky I'm going to get more tomorrow."

"Can I come?"

"Sure if you want to."

"Thank you so much Tino!"

You blew him a kiss to see his reaction.He busted blushed and looked down eyes closed.

"Ummm I have to go eat now (Y/N)....."

"Well I have to as well."

He left the room kind of awkwardly and Berwald must have noticed.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing!Nothing is wrong!"

Mathias went outside to do whatever so it was just Me,Berwald,Tino and Violet because Lukas and Emil also went outside after the ordeal.

We all sat down and ate oatmeal with some orange juice.

I've never had oatmeal before so it was new to me.It tasted pretty sweet though so I ate it all up.

It was pretty silent,until Berwald got up to go and get a new pair of glasses.

Wait Cameron is still here.Where did he go?You know what?I don't want to know.

Violet went off outside looking for Lukas for whatever,so now it's only Cameron and Tino.

"Seems like we are alone now......so what are we doing?"

"I don't know,but I'm going outside to go practice magic.Need to work on it."

"Ok I'll start making dinner then.Nice kill yesterday!That will be enough for everyone."

"Oh thanks.See you later!"

Tino's POV

Awww man!How does Cameron do it?!?! We were alone in the house!I could have done a little kiss or something so Lukas or Mathias don't steal her while she is outside!Dang it stupidity!Why must you block me?!

Your POV

I went outside to see Lukas by him self by a tree.Wonder what's wrong.

"Hey Lukas you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine.Just getting some rest."

"Mind if we chat?"

"About what?"

"Magic."

"Sure."

"Are there any useful spells I could use or learn to use?"

"How about strength?Its pretty simple.Focus on the rocks."

"Anything else like for escaping?"

"Invisibility.You have to-"

He stopped mid sentence and started staring at me.

I was crying.Why was I crying?Invisibility.

The dream came back into my memory,of being unseen by people.Getting walked through,even though you can't walk through others.

"Why are you crying?Did I say something wrong?"

"No it's just.....I had a dream last night about being invisible.....*sniffle*"

"What was bad about it?"

"I've been that way all my life!Most people walk straight through me like I'm not there.Its frustrating to me.I need attacking spells."

The tears dried up fast and Lukas walked closer to me.

"Can you do me a favor?"

"Sure."

He started turning a light grey and started looking almost transparent.

"Walk through me."

"But I can't do that to you,your too nice."

"Walk through me."

"Ok fine."

And just like that I walked right through him,like nothing happened.He tried putting his hand on my shoulder but it went right through me.

"This is how I normally feel."

"Hmm....."

The grey light disappeared and Lukas turned back to normal.

"I feel like glass,waiting to break,people look right through me and think nothing of me,because they want to see the other side,or the other me."

"What about darkness?Are you scared of it?"

"It's usually all I had so no."

"Be carful.It has a tendency to take over the host."

"Will I be ok?"

"Try using it."

I got my wand ready and aimed it at a tree.I could feel the power surging inside of me.
I saw the dark light rising from my hands.
I looked down at my legs to see the the darkness engulfing me.It felt comforting,and warm so I let it.

"(Y/N) you need to stop!Its going to engulf you!"

Will it?I kind of don't care.Wait what am I thinking?!?What will happen to me?But I want to find out.....But not like this?We am I fighting myself.

I put both of my hands on my head and my eyes widened.

"(Y/N)!(Y/N)!You have to fight it!"

Lukas actually sounds worried for me.Thats a first.

I want to be the darkness though,I've been around it forever.......No stop.I need to live my life,not in the darkness but the light.

But the darkness is a weapon,right?

Is light a weapon?

I felt my surroundings go dark.

Lukas's voice is going dim.

"(Y/N)!Don't leave us!We need you!Stay here!*sob*"

Was he.....crying for me?Lukas has never really shown emotion in front us that much.

"Lukas!Whats happened one to (Y/N)?!?"

It was Mathias's voice.

"Get her inside now!Put her on a bed!"

I can hang out with the darkness for a while right?I mean I always do,it's like family.

But these guys are my family....

I don't even know them that well.

But they care for me.....

The darkness was here to help with your shattered glass heart.

They.....they......

Who are 'they'?

They are my friends,family.

Your little glass heart is cracking again.You could feel it in your body.You were breaking under pressure.



Through that glass go look through.

The glass is staring at you.

Who is the glass to you?

The glass is you,shattered in pieces that can never be fixed.It is scratched with scares that will last a life time.You can look through it still,to see the thing behind the mask or what's inside.

Now I'll ask you again.The glass,The Shattered Glass.Who?

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