I walk back into the house with a huff, there is a clear contrast to my mood when I come back to this place.

I used to rush here because it was my favourite place, but now I hate having to come back here, I absolutely loath it.

But I agree with Charlotte on this one –irregardless how impulsive and spiteful she is– I have to say she is right.

No one is forcing me to be here, I come back here on my own. It's time I move out. I've clearly over stayed my visit.

I walk into Nathan's bedroom and I shower.

I remove my clothes and stand under the steaming hot water. The hot water touches my body and immediately I relax into its touch. A sigh of relief seeps out of me as the temperature of the water eases the tension and aches on my muscles.

I lather the shampoo and conditioner into me hair before washing it out and covering my entire body with towels.

I throw Nathan's shorts on and his large black hoodie.

When I walk, I almost faint from the scare I get.

Nathan is seated on the edge of the bed. The tips of his fingers are laced together as if he is indulging himself in prayed. His chin rests over his joined hands , his eyebrows dip and knit together.

He is thinking.

I cough to announce my presence. He stares up at me. A small smile plays at his lips and I unintentionally smile back.

I wipe the smile off as fast as it appeared.

"You're back." He starts.

I look at him with disappointment on my face.

No shit Sherlock .

"I was wondering if you'd come with me to a wedding." He says.

"Oh." I say.

I'm still a little pissed with him. And I still blame my period.

"Oh? That's it? If you dont want to go just say it." He bites.

He's annoyed.

"I didnt answer you yet." I simply say.

"And why is that?" His patience is wearing thin.

"Because I'm shocked." I say drying my hair.

His knuckles turn white from the way he is clenching his fist.

"Why are you shocked Gemima?" He pushes.

"Why did you ask me? Why dont you ask your Elizabeth?" I ask sitting on the little couch near the windows.

"My Elizabeth?" He asks.

When he realises that I'm not going to answer him and speaks again.

"If I wanted to take her then I'd have been asking her right now and not standing here." He grits out .

"Oh." I say. Looking bored.

I'm anything but bored. I'm actually enjoying pushing his buttons.

"Oh? You know what Gemima! Forget I mentioned anything to you! Just forget it." He starts to storm off.

"Wait!" I call.

"What?" He yells. I dont flinch.  I guess I just know that he wouldnt hurt me.

How?

I dont know.

"What colour are we wearing?" I ask.

He visually softens. I internally smile. I sure know which buttons to push and when.

"Red." He says then leaves.

I sigh before heading to my son's room.

He is knocked out.

Next room is Charlotte's,  she left before me.

"Hey." I greet her comfortable structure.

"Hey Gemma." She greets back smiling at whatever Tyler sent.

"Ethan is sure knocked out." I smile at her.

"Yea, apparently he had a playdate with some kid named Ricky." She says smiling..

I nod before heading out and falling asleep. I wake up to an empty bedside.

What? He was right there when I woke up to pee at four am.

I walk to the bathroom to brush my teeth before I see a red dress in a see through bag.

Be ready by nine.

XOXO
Nate

I smile.  He's cute. I shower and I slip into the dress.

The dress hugs my body so warmly. My breast are almost spilling out of the dress. My waistline is very visible and my large behind is out for everyone to see. Matching red heels are on the floor and I slip into them.

I pull my hair into a nice looking head wrap, letting a little hair fall from the given slot.

My edges are done and my lips match my dress.

I walk down the stairs.

"Whoo! Mama!" I hear Charlotte say.

I smile.

"Sis you look absolutely gorgeous. Beyoncè has no shit on you!" She says.

Ethan walks closer from the dining room.

"Mommy looks like a queen,  daddy look!" He and Ethan walk into the room.

A aggregated Elizabeth behind.

"I dont understand why he calls him that." She grumbles.

Everyone ignores her. I mean what are we going to gain?

"Oh my—" Nathan begins.

"Holy –" he tries again but stops.

"Uhh – you look. Oh my–" he says again.

I smile and when I'm closer enough his hands pull me closer to him.

He kisses my forehead.

"Marry me." He breathes and I chuckle, he joins but I can see that its hesitant.

"Let's get going." He says.

I notice that he and Ethan are in matching suits and red ties.

I smile.

We walk into the car and notice Tyler's bike parked next to Nathan's Mustang.

"He slept here." Nathan reads my mind.

We get into the car and the drive feels relaxing.

The route we're taking. I feel like I know where we're going. But a part of me wants to deny it.

We couldnt.

The car ride is filled with conversation between Nate and Ethan.

"Champ, I didnt say that." He denies.

"Daddy you did. You said youd be me ice cream as big as the house. Mommy he said it didnt he?" He asks me.

I chuckle, that is a possibility.  Nathan spoils my son.

He'd do anything for him.

"It does sound like something you'd say." I laugh.

"Oh come on sweetheart, way to betray me." He laughs.

I love it when things are like this. When we are just calm and there's no outsider's view on us.

I enjoy it, when we can throw our heads back and laugh. It feels good.

He parks his car and immediately my heart falls into my asshole.  I'm about to shit my heart.

The Black's house is just like I remember.

It's only been a month Gemima, ut hasn't been that long.

I cringe. The last time I was here, I felt out of place.

He opens the door for myself and my song and we walk out, he carries Ethan as we walk in.

The house is full. People I know and people I dont.

Ariana sees me from a distance.

"Gemma" she asks.

A young man is hooked to her waist.

"Ari, it's so nice to see you." I hug.

She smiles at me. She looks gorgeous, she looks older.

"Oh is this Ethan? Hey baby, I'm your aunt Ari." She greets.

"Hey Aunty. " he greets back.

"I'm Nathan–" he begins.

"Meyer, I know you." She smiles and nods warmly. She shake his hand.

"Come on in, mom is going to be so happy to see you." She leads us further into the house and to the large backyard.

To say it looks good is an understatement. 

I see the back of Alice's head. Next to her is a man I barely spoke to when u spent so much time here.

"Mom look." She shouts.

"Gemma?" She asks.

She hugs me.

If course they did not expect to see me here. Mr Black nods when he stares at me.

"This is Nathan, my–" I uncomfortably cough when I realise that I dont know what out status is.

"Partner." He just says.

Alice's smile gets brighter.

After the small talk, she takes Ethan into her arms and they chat.

A row ahead, I see Allyson and Colt holding hands with Jasmine in her other hand.

She turns to look at me and when she sees Nathan who is gawking at me, she turns and simply pretends that I'm not behind her.

"Stop that. Its weird. " I tell Nathan .

"I can't,  you're just fucking gorgeous." He says.