By a show of hands, or smiley emojis or even comments, let me see people who have never gone through trying times? Anyone? If you really are out there then, wow! I don't know whether to call you lucky or otherwise.

Bold statement I know, because who wants to go through, trying, embarrassing and less than ideal situations? Well my good man Paul, enjoyed it! 2 Corinthians 12:7-10.

One thing I have realised is that we human beings operate a certain way. When everything is going smoothly, we hardly recognise or even need God. Until things start falling apart and we soon start crying looking for him. We are very good at calling Him our friend, but can you imagine yourself in His position for a sec? You have this friend whom you love, you are always there for them whether they realize it or not but they, on the other hand only call on you when in trouble! What would you do?

Imagine, no matter what God does for us, we have proved time and again that the only way He can get our full attention is when we are in trouble. Is this human nature? I honestly don't know but I think so.

I am at a place in life where I finally can say that I have a relationship with God. No, I don't just know of Him, I have a relationship with Him. This did not come easy, due to my stubborn nature, (human) I had to be driven to my knees, to turn to God!

Lots of failures, pain, trials, tears, heartbreaks, you name it, I probably gave gone through it! Until I said enough is enough! There is a God out there that can deliver me and here I am drowning in this worlds filth! Oh, did I forget to mention that even while going through all this, I was still a Christian? But by name only!

I truly started seeking God at a very low point in my life. I had just given birth to my second son, and we were flat broke! Didn't even have anything warm to put on him while in hospital kind of broke! The nurse was like "don't you have anything warm for this child, he will catch a cold!" I said that my husband would bring the clothes knowing full well that was a lie! She dressed him in the few items I had and covered him in a shoal. Warm enough.

After I was released from hospital, I kept hoping people would come to see my child. Its customary, that when you are going to see a new born, you bring them some clothes or money. Well of course, you can tell why I was eagerly looking for my visitors. None came! Well my mum came, brought, lots of food from the garden and a pair of shorts and a T-shirt. One day, remind me to tell you how much I love this woman.

Anyway, I was angry! Why weren't people coming to see my son? I am their relative, they should at least do more than send congratulatory messages by phone. I was particularly upset with a relative who lives close by, she didn't come either! Oh don't worry I am not here to vent, I have a point, kindly read on. 😝😀

I usually say were it not for God, depression would have set in at this point. Post natal depression, is that the name? Well, I qualified. But God being the loving Father he is, He never allowed me to succumb to it. I was all alone, my husband was there, but I felt alone! Finally God revealed the problem, I had been putting all my hope and trust and happiness on human beings. God gave us this child and here I was, looking to mere mortals to provide for a child they had no hand in bringing here!

Trust is Something that grows gradually. I started small, listening to lots of preachers on television, started standing on verses I stumbled upon. Well to cut the very long story short, two years layer, my son is still here, healthy, has never suffered pneumonia a day in his life because of cold or whatever. And clothes you ask? I am thinking of giving some away to a children's home nearby!

In my stubbornness, I allowed myself to fall into horrible pits. God used those very situations to get my attention. To get me to realise that he is my source, my deliverer, my all. This is an everyday battle but I have come a long way.

God has proved faithful through it all. When you actually stay still and listen to him, He talks! Ask him to help you recognise his voice. And simply obey.

There is a verse that says; I have been young and now am old; Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken, Nor his descendants begging bread.

2 Corinthians 5:21 for He made Him who knew no sin, to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in him. You and I are the righteousness of God in Christ. Refer to the above verse, never seen the righteous forsaken...

Romans 8:17 and if children, then heirs, heirs of God and joint Heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with him that we may also be glorified together. (This is a verse I use to punch the devil in the gut! Whenever I notice his shenanigans, I proclaim that I am an heir with Christ and a descendant of Abraham; therefore I claim all the promises given to Abraham and to Christ.)

Just a few verses that uplift me.

Trails test your faith, your perseverance. You are brought to a position where you can humbly listen to God. You learn more about how He actually views you, contrary to what you believe to be true. You also learn more about Him, you learn to hear his voice...Trials are not awesome but try and learn all you need to while going through your trial. It certainly will save you, and maybe someone else too. Trails will come anyway we look at it but don't you think its better to be prepared, instead of waiting to look for God when only in trouble, keep your relationship alive by looking for him everyday.

Where? In his word! Read your Bible.

Also, listen to other preachers, you will find some out there that preach Bible truths you've never heard of. Just make sure to confirm what they are saying is right by referring to your Bible.

God bless you people!

June.