One of my uh .. wishes is to know someone completely.. maybe not everything everything. Just everything that matters. Even the things that appear not to. And not because I have a vested interest in them other than the fact that I wish to know them. You know. Sometimes because we talk to people everyday we think we are actually paying attention to them. Till eventually we realise we actually did know them but only in part. It's then I wonder whether we are interested in who they are or what we experience when we're with them.
'I want to talk to someone funny, exciting, engaging,' and all the other things we wish new people are. Well some people, aren't funny. Aren't exciting. Aren't engaging. But they are every bit worth knowing. Our funny bones aren't always in the same places.
And even if they are funny or exciting or engaging, most times, that is where we stop. People are so much more than we are concerned to know. Then again, what people prefer to do less of is their business. Passion is mine. I prefer to do less of what I have no passion for. One of my passions is people. To intimately know those that I do and passionately pursue those that I will, eventually. It's the journey of the uniqueness that excites me. Where I begin to laugh at the things that aren't funny. Or where I am intrigued by the most trivial of things. Or where I am captivated by songs of solitude and the reserved souls that sing them.
And even when I wish some of them were more like me, willing to fully explore another, I remember. That's what makes them, them. That's what makes me, me.
Although once in a while, you meet people who adopt parts of you, making them their own. Something you do as well, but never notice.
I am therefore a collage of all I've seen, touched, tasted.. I am not yet done therefore I am not yet the figure of who I am in a timeless state. I am more tomorrow than I was today of those things that I am that do change. There are ofcourse the things that don't. Like the size of my foot. Ha. The things that do interestingly include the size of my heart. I'm sure, it could only get bigger.
But if by some wild chance it started to shrink, I'd urge all the people that live in that luxurious continent to get a little closer to each other. It's not wise to be too close to the sun especially when those walls are made of sunshine.
'People always leave' is a phrase I never forgot from the show, One tree hill. Mostly because it's true. Everybody gotta leave sometime. I guess I wanna be prepared when they do. Prepared to cry so magnificently well it hurts my eyes. Not even for the pain they left but for the memories I will never forget. Just like that phrase. Sometimes pain reminds you of the peace you took for granted. So I figured it's best to do whatever I do, only if I'm passionate about it.
Time is of the essence, they say. Whatever time was before I came into the equation, whatever it may be long after I am not, I am thankful it gave me you. Whoever you are. It seems I appeared just in time... to get to know you. Now, isn't that a beautiful thing?