Adrian Hayes

September 14th, 2018

The feeling of my back hitting the wall forced a breath of air out of my lungs. Before I could collect myself his lips were on mine. The feeling of him pressed against me brought me back to old times. Back when we were just dumb kids in highschool without a clue in the world. It had been so long since then, I had almost forgotten what he tasted like. But how I could forget? How could I forget my boy's taste? His strong arms lifted me up as he carried me to my bedroom. Our lips never broke contact as I felt my back hit the mattress of my bed. I felt him pressed against me, hard as he could be. Our kiss only became more wet as my mouth practically began watering. His hands found the waistband of my pants and tugged them down to me knees. I reached down and helped him pull them down the rest of the way. My breath hitched when his fingers found their way beneath my panties. I was practically soaking through them at this point. So much that it didn't take him long to rip them off of my body.

A moan escaped my lips when one of his fingers prodded me. While his fingers were busy beneath my waist, his mouth was busy above it. His teeth found the edge of my lip as he softly bit down on it. His aggressive side was something only I got to see. Nobody had any idea the kind of dominant man my boy could be. I only met his dominance with my submission. He was the luckiest boy on earth, I was never the "bottom bitch" in any of my previous relationships. But with him.....I'd be his "bottom bitch" any day of the week. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him tight against me, I wanted to be as close as I could be. I wanted him to stop the fucking foreplay, I wanted him to take me like he did all of his freshman year. I reached a hand between us to rub him over his pants, I needed him to get the fucking message. I was met with a pause in his movements. For such an aggressive side, he was still that shy boy from algebra.

Most importantly, he was my shy boy from algebra. He was mine and I was his.

I.......was.

I pulled away for the first time since his lips touched mine. I was met with his chocolate brown eyes near centimeters away from mine. I could feel his breath against my lips, I could smell the familiar cologne he always wore.

"Fuck you Quinn Peterson for smelling so damn good." I whispered.

"Fuck you too Adrian Hayes......for looking so damn good." He whispered back.

"When did I get so lucky to have a boy like you?"

"The same time I got lucky enough to have a girl like you." He said with slight grin.

I moved my hand up to his cheek. "Is this real?"

"You know the answer to that." He said brushing his fingers along my stomach like he used to.

I shut my eyes and shook my head. "No....you're not leaving me this time. You're taking me right here, right now." My eyes fluttered open only to see that stupid smile on his face.

"I don't care if this isn't real, I need to feel you again.....just once.....just once."

"Then.....I'm yours." He said before crushing his lips against mine.

My hands immediately went to the waistband of his sweatpants and yanked them down as far as I could. A chuckled escaped his lips as he pulled them down the rest of the way.

"What's so funny?"

"You?" He said pulling his shirt over his head.

"Me?"

"Such an eager woman." He said.

My eyes fell down to the bulge in his boxers. "You bring that out of me."

"Adrian Hayes." He gasped. "My eyes are up here."

I didn't bother looking up at him. I just bit my lip and reached my hand down to touch it. He hand almost instantly grabbed my wrist and pinned it above my head. My eyes looked back up at his to see the fire in them that I so desperately craved. I rolled my tongue around my lips as we stared at eachother. I went to reach for him with my other hand only for that wrist to be pinned above my head as well.

I rolled my eyes and sighed. "Is there something I can help you with?"

"I should be asking you the same question." He said keeping my wrists pinned with only one hand.

I sucked my teeth and dropped my gaze to the bulge in his boxers. It only seemed to grow bigger since the last time I looked at it. "Isn't it obvious?"

"Tell me." He ordered.

I found his eyes again and licked my lips. "I want it."

"It?" He asked.

"Don't you fucking make me say it!" I hissed.

"Say it Adrian." He said before looking in between us. "Or you're not getting it."

I gritted my teeth and balled my fists up. "I want your dick Quinn. I want it so deep in me that I feel it in my fucking stomach. I want it now!" I shouted.

There was a pause, nothing but the smile on his face. I leaned forward and planted a kiss on his lips, barely pulling away.

"Is that what you wanted to hear you coy fuck?" I hissed.

"You're cute when you're angry. Like a child throwing a tantrum." He said.

"I'm about to show you a tantrum if you don't-"

His lips cut off my words before I could even speak them. He was done teasing, by the way his tongue entered my mouth, he was ready. I felt him reach in between us and pull his boxers off. My breathing became erratic as I felt him pull away only to see my reaction, something he loved doing. I looked down in between us and saw the reason why I put up with his ass for so long. Everybody in high school would've told you that I had a lot of patience. They would've told you the reason I put up with Quinn was his personality. While that was the truth, it wasn't the whole truth. I kept a lot of details away from Riley, afraid she might make a move on Quinn. "Pretty big" was an understatement to Quinn's size. Even now I felt myself seize up at just the thought of him putting that thing inside me. Everytime I thought it wasn't going to fit and everytime Quinn proved me wrong.

I could only watch as he grabbed it and pressed it against me. The feeling of him brought me back to a simpler time. A time where I would ride him all night long in the backseat of his jeep. A time where we would cuddle on the hood of that same jeep and watch the stars. That time was gone.......gone for good. I didn't realize it at first but my expression had completely changed. Quinn had noticed too, so much so that he halted his movements. Instead he reached up and held my cheek in his hands.

"What's the matter?" He asked.

I felt a tear pooling at the edge of my eye before blinking it away. "You're not real....this....this isn't real."

"Of course it's not." He said holding my hand. "But that doesn't mean it can't be real to you."

The tears started pooling in both of my eyes now. "I'm so sorry Quinn....I'm so sorry I fucked everything up. We should still be together, we should have never grew apart. I miss you.....I know I shouldn't but I do. I miss having you there when I go to sleep and much more when I wake up. I miss your stupid fucking smile greeting me every morning." I reached up and held his face in both of my hands. "I really miss that smile."

"Adrian....I'm not going anywhere." He said wiping away the tears on my cheeks. "In fact....I think I'm staying....forever."

I shook my head and shut my eyes. "Don't lie to me."

I wrapped both of my arms around him and pulled him in close. "Just give me what I want."

"I love you Adrian." He said before he thrusted himself inside me.

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

My eyes flew open to the sound of my alarm. I looked around for my phone and found it on my nightstand where I left it. I grabbed it and turned my alarm off before sinking back into my bed. I covered my face with my hands and took a deep breath.

"It was just a dream Adrian. Nothing more. You don't love him. You just love the idea of him."

I had been telling myself that for the past couple of weeks. I had been lying to myself for the past weeks. Even having sex with Riley multiple times a day wasn't enough to drown out the idea of him. I fucking hated myself for that, Quinn had made it very clear we weren't going to work. Yet I was still holding on to the fantasy in which him and I got back together. I shook my head hoping the thought would leave it all together. But how could I try to forget when I was practically soaking wet. So much that my boxers were probably ruined.

"You're such a pathetic nymph!" I screamed internally.

I went to pull my covers down to see the results of what was literally a wet dream. But instead I was met with a figure underneath my covers. Come to think of it....I didn't even feel my boxers on my body.

"Wait a damn minute! Whose tongue is that?!"

I pulled back the covers to see none other than my roommate/fuck buddy, Riley. Her head was in between my legs lapping at my pussy like a kitten drinks it's milk. This wasn't anything new, in face this had become her normal way of waking me up for the past four days. Thats when the feeling of her tongue registered in my head. The rush of lust surging through my body was enough to make me grab her head and force her tongue deeper into me. If she wanted to play this game then I wasn't going to stop her. I needed to get off anyway after a dream like that.

After all the build up from that dream it didn't take long for me to reach my climax. I tightened my grip in her hair as I arched my back into her movements. My legs naturally squeezed around her head as I began coming undone against her tongue. It was moments like this where I was happy I lived in my own apartment. The noises leaving my mouth would've been enough to wake up every family member at my old house. It wasn't Riley's fault she was so good at eating pussy, definitely better than that bitch who left me.

After I rode my orgasm out along Riley's face I sunk back into my mattress and caught my breath. Having an orgasm was definitely a weird way to get the day started, but essential none the less. As funny as it was I found myself more productive with sex out of the way in the morning. Less distractions were floating in my head. That's not to say Riley and I only had sex in the morning. On the contrary, we had sex at least 3 times a day for the most part. I assumed it would get boring after a while but after three weeks we haven't slowed down one bit. It didn't help that Riley was so goddamn sexy. Just seeing her walking around the apartment with short shorts was enough for me to take her where she stood. CJ and TJ mentioned plenty of times how they could hear us in the middle of the night.

"Yo would it be too much to ask if you two could get your fucking out of the way by 9 o'clock. Some of us have to work in the morning."

I finally cooled down from my orgasm and caught my breath. I looked down at Riley who was busy leaving kisses along my thighs. I know she probably wanted to go for another round, but I had classes to get to. I sat up and lifted her head up to kiss her on the lips, tasting myself on her tongue. When I pulled away I could see the look of realization in her eyes. She knew I had been dreaming about someone else, that I had been imagining someone else. I trailed my fingers along her shoulder and tucked a piece of hair behind her ear.

"God you're beautiful. Do you know that?"

"You were dreaming about him, weren't you?" She asked placing her hand on my along the side of my neck.

I looked away from her and pulled away from her touch. I sat on the edge of the bed and held my head in my hands. I felt ashamed, like I wasn't enough for Riley. As much as she did for me I still could only use her as a replacement for someone else. Not that she cared, it's why she wanted us to be fuck buddies in the first place. But it didn't stop me from feeling guilty, I mean I felt like I could be giving her more. It didn't take long until I felt her arms snake around my body. I felt her head resting on the crook my neck as she trailed light kiss along it.

I nudged her away. "Quit it Riley!"

"What's the matter Adrian?" She asked keeping her arms locked around me. "You embarrassed I caught you dreaming about Quinn again?"

I turned my head to face her. "I was not!"

"You were." She whispered before planting a kiss on my forehead. "It's ok. He's a handsome man after all."

I didn't respond, there was no need to. I looked away from Riley and felt her move off the bed. I watched as she walked out of my room and as much as I wanted to be upset, it was nice to see her walk away. I hung my head in shame and ran my hand across my face. I needed to focus on something else, like getting ready for school. I hopped off my bed and went into my bathroom. I was already naked so I turned on the shower and stepped into it. The water was ice cold, which I needed to wake me up anyway. The moment the water turned warm I heard the bathroom door open. I rolled my eyes and turned to see Riley doing her makeup in the bathroom mirror.

I pulled the curtain back a bit to see her better. "Hey?"

"Yeah?" She asked covering the hickey on her neck with makeup.

"You're putting on makeup?"

"Well yeah of course." She said glancing at me. "What? Am I not allowed to?"

I shook my head. "No it's just.....you never wear it. Is there something special going on today?"

"TJ asked me if I wanted to go get lunch with him today." She said before applying lipstick on her lips. "I said yes."

"Like a date?"

"I don't know." She said shrugging her shoulders. "I guess, it's whatever he's cool with."

I scoffed. "Whatever he's cool with?"

"Yeah." She said turning her head. "For all I know he just wants to hang out as friends. But if by some chance I catch a vibe that he wants more, I won't reject him."

I closed the curtain and rolled my eyes. "I thought the whole point of us being 'friends with benefits' was so you didn't have to be in a relationship?"

"When did I say that?" She asked.

I ran my hand through my wet hair. "You......didn't."

That's when the feeling hit me. It was weird, something I haven't felt in years. The old familiar sting of jealousy. It crept inside of me and nestled itself in my stomach. I crossed my arms and tried to just shut it out. How could I possibly be jealous of Riley dating TJ? Riley and I made it clear we weren't a couple, just having fun. But she never said she didn't want to be one. Perhaps that was my fault, I mean just because Riley didn't want to be with me doesn't mean she didn't want to be with someone else. Hell I couldn't be upset, Riley knew damn well I'd rather be with Quinn than her. The fact that she's put up with me these past few weeks is more than I deserve. So Riley deserves to be happy, she deserves to date someone who can give her their full attention. Not some girl who fantasizes about her ex everytime they have sex.

"Adrian?" She asked. Her voice sounding much closer to the shower curtain.

I leaned against the wall and sighed. "Yes?"

"I won't go if you don't want me to." She said pulling the curtain back.

"What?" I shook my head and waved her off. "No no it's fine. Go.....go and have fun."

"Are you sure?" She asked staring at me up and down. "I could stay?"

"Riley, I gotta get ready for school." I pulled the curtain closed again. "Go and have fun, just be back by eight. I'm not trying to watch The Conjuring by myself."

There was a moment of silence, nothing but the sounds of running water coming out of the shower head. I shut my eyes and leaned against the wall, I assumed Riley would just walk away and end this conversation already. But I should have known better.

"Adrian?" She asked in her softest voice possible.

My eyes flew open and I pulled back the curtain with an obvious look of annoyance. "What?!"

She leaned in and planted a kiss on my lips. It was gentle, more gentle than I deserved. Her hand came up to my wet cheek when she pulled away. I could see in her eyes that she knew what I was feeling. I always hated how obvious I could be, Riley was always able to read me like a book. Even now its like she could read my thoughts, she knew I wanted her to myself. Like I was some stupid possessive girl who didn't want to share her toys. But she knew as well as I did, that wasn't fair. So before she her touch left my face she leaned in close to me.

"I'll be back by seven." She whispered into my ear. "I plan on eating something before our movie."

I watched as she pulled away entirely and walked out of the bathroom. I stood there letting the water fall over my nude body before regaining enough sense to pull the curtain close. After finishing my shower, I took care of my other hygienic needs. I brushed my teeth and made sure my skin was moisturize for the day. I went into my room and opened up my closet to pick out my outfit for the day. I settled on a red checkered flannel with a white shirt underneath. I rolled the sleeves up a bit to show off the tattoos on my arms. I grabbed a pair of black skinny jeans and slipped them on before sitting down on my bed. I put on a pair of socks before looking at my shoes in the corner of the room. I sucked my teeth when I realized none of them went with my outfit.

Riley was right, I owned way too many pair of converses. I stood up and walked out into the hallway before looking at Riley's room. I remembered her wearing my shoes like it was no big deal. I'm sure she wouldn't mind me trying on a pair of hers. I opened her door and looked around her room. It was still a mess from a few nights ago. Her and I got a bit carried away and decided to trash her room in the middle of sex. It wasn't my fault she was so easy to pick up. However, I definitely could've done without knocking all the stuff off her dresser.

I opened up her closet and looked at the multiple pair of shoes that seemed thrown in. After moving a bunch of shoes out of the way I found a pair that seemed to match my outfit. They were red in black just like my flannel, high tops too. I turned one of the shoes around to see the Air Jordan logo on the side. I was never really the type to wear Jordans, but there's a first time for everything I guess. I sat down on the floor and slipped them both on. I stood up and looked at the full body mirror in the corner of Riley's room.

"Fuck me."

I was never fan of the way I looked in these kinds of shoes. But they'd have to work for now, I couldn't waste time shuffling through outfits. I went back in my room to grab my backpack before heading out of my apartment. I locked my door before turning to walk down the hallway.

I stopped when I saw my front neighbors door wide open. Arthur, I think his name was. I took a step forward and put my hand on the doorframe before peaking my head inside. I had no reason to be nosy, but why would the door be wide open? I took another step and gasped when I saw a body laid out on the living room floor.

I rushed over to its side to see it was indeed my neighbor Arthur. He was on his back in his underwear with his eyes shut closed. He looked like a mess, his curly hair was all over the place and his beard as trimmed as it was the last time I had seen him. I didn't see any wounds on his body, but he wasn't moving. I checked to see if he was breathing but in the middle of that I heard footsteps coming from his bedroom. I turned to see a woman standing in his bedroom doorway with a wash cloth in her hand. She looked about my age, maybe a bit older. Her hair was brown tied up in a messy bun, her bright green eyes were complemented very well by her sunkissed skin.

"Who are you?" She asked. A hint of a spanish accent in her voice.

"I'm his neighbor." I stood up and squinted me eyes at her. "And you?"

"I'm his sister." She said walking over to him before placing the washcloth on his forehead.

"That was odd, they didn't look related. Step siblings perhaps?"

I knelt down beside them both. "What happened?"

"You shouldn't be in here." She said looking up at me.

I pointed to the front door. "The door was wide open. I saw his body lying on the floor, for all I knew I thought he'd been murdered."

"He's fine." She said patting Arthur on the stomach. "Just hungover."

I sighed and stood back up. "I'm sorry, this is what I get for not minding my own damn business."

"It was thoughtful." She said with small smile. "In a nosy kind of way. Lucky for him I was here, don't be a stranger.........."

"Adrian." I smiled. "My name's Adrian."

"DeeDee." She said pointing to herself.

"Well don't be stranger either DeeDee." I pointed behind me. "I'm only across the hall."

"You're new here aren't you?" She asked.

"Yeah, only moved in just a month ago."

"This may sound a bit odd, but would you like to have dinner tomorrow?" She asked standing up to her feet.

I fidgeted with the straps off my backpack and tilted my head. "Why?"

"Arthur.........I'm not always here." She said running her hands her hair. She looked stressed, really stressed. "Arthur could do with meeting some new people."

My eyes fell to Arthur still flat on the floor. "Sure. I just moved and honestly....I could do with having a new friend." My eyes went back to hers. "Two new friends."

"I'll let him now when he wakes up that you checked on him." She said with a huge smile. "Sometimes Arthur thinks I'm the only one in the world who gives a shit about him......I'm glad to see he was wrong."

I slowly nodded my head. "I know what that feels like."

"See you tomorrow at......let's say seven." She said with a wave.

I nodded again and returned a wave. "Tomorrow. Seven. Gothcha."

I turned around and walked out into the hallway. I did them a favor by closing their door for them. I had to get the fuck outta this building, too much weird shit to start my day. I walked past CJ and TJ's room and right into the elevator. I hit the button to call for it and waited until it opened up. I stepped inside and hit the first floor button and leaned against the wall. I closed my eyes and ran a hand through my hair. First my dream, then Riley dating TJ, and now finding my neighbor passed out. Today has been too weird and it hasn't even hit noon yet. I heard the elevator doors open and my eyes opened along with it. I walked out into my apartment complex's front lobby before heading outside.

FSU was only a few minutes from my apartment so it didn't take long until I found myself walking into my first class. Physics wasn't a class I'd usually go for, but signing up for classes at the beginning of the semester didn't leave me with many options. It was a lecture hall type of class which meant a shit tone of note taking. Also something I would never really find myself doing. Many of the seats were empty because I had gotten here a bit early. I walked down one of the isles and took a seat right at the end of the row. I was seated right in the middle row of the lecture hall which again, I wouldn't normally do. I'd usually be the type of person who sits in the back of the classroom. I remember how much trouble Quinn and I got into in Geometry. Sitting in the back of the classroom allowed us to get away with a lot of things.

"Oh no no no no. Don't do that. Don't think about him."

I took my mind of things by looking through my backpack for anything to distract me until class started. It was times like this where I really wished I had a phone. I used to read a lot back in highschool, it was times like this I wish I had a good book to read. Maybe I could stop by CJ's later and see what else he has besides old movies. Maybe I could......maybe I could see if he had any plans tomorrow night.

"NO! Don't do that!" I screamed internally. "Don't seriously consider asking CJ out just because Riley is dating TJ. That's wrong and weird on so many levels."

"You know what else is wrong and weird on so many levels?"

"Did I say that last part out loud?"

"Talking to yourself."

I turned my head to see a skinny boy sitting diagonally from me. He had a book in his hands and a smile on his face. His hair reminded me of Quinn's back in highschool, brown and curly. His eyes were fixed on to mine with a sort of sincere look in them. His eyes.....those fucking green eyes. What was it with the green eyes today? I swallowed the lump in my throat and searched for the right words to say. Truth was I couldn't think of anything, this was indeed wrong and weird on so many levels. That's what I seemed like, the crazy girl who talks to herself.

"Then again.....so is drowning in college debt." He said.

I blinked my eyes and ran a hand through my hair. That seemed to be my go-to move when I was nervous.

"Excuse me?"

"You know like debt? It's weird, it's wrong, and it totally fucking sucks." He said with another smile before closing his book.

I looked away and went back to digging through my backpack. "I'm sorry I just.......yeah it does suck."

"You know it's funny, I feel like I've seen you before." He said.

I looked back at him and noticed he was getting out of his seat. "Well that is funny, because I've never seen you before."

"No surprise there, I think I have a knack for blending in." He said scooting past me to sit down in the seat next to mine. "At least that's what I've been told."

"Who told you that?"

"Everyone." He said with a smirk.

I looked at his outfit and shrugged my shoulders. "Well with a shirt like that, it's hard to see you blending in anywhere."

"Hey respect the yellow flannel ok." He said tugging at his collar. "Besides, you're wearing one too."

I nodded and returned my attention to my backpack. "Respect the red."

"You know it's pretty hot to be wearing a flannel, don't you think?" He asked leaning back in his seat.

I pulled out my notebook and a pen before looking over at him. "I could ask you the same thing."

"What can I say? Long sleeves do a good job of hiding things." He said. I noticed his eyes drop down to my hands, better there than my boobs I guess. Not that I had any to look at.

I lowered my head to catch his eyes again. "You got things to hide?"

"A few." He said before running his finger along the edge of the sleeve. "Nice ink."

"Did he just touch me?"

I pulled my hand away. "Thanks."

"Why cover it all?" He asked.

I crossed my arms and leaned my head back. "First impressions are everything, tattoos can be a bit....off-putting."

"So can talking to yourself." He said with a chuckle.

I couldn't help but crack a smile at that. "Ok yes I get it. Ok I sometimes say my thoughts out loud, I can't help it."

"So what was it you were thinking about? What was so wrong and weird on so many levels?" He asked.

I closed my eyes and sighed. "That's personal."

"Not if you're saying it out loud for everyone to hear." He said.

I smiled and ran my palm across my face. "Touché."

"But I understand. Hopefully you get it figured out. However wrong and weird it might be." He said.

I opened my eyes and turned my whole body towards him. "I'm Adrian."

"Adrian huh?" He asked before holding his hand out. "Lukas."

I shook his hand. "You look like a Lucas."

"No no not Lucas. Lukas, with a K." He said.

"Why a K?"

"Ask my mother, lord knows I'd like to know." He said before going through his backpack.

I looked back at my notebook and clicked my pen. "I think my mother wanted a boy when she named me Adrian."

"I like it." He said placing his notebook on the pull-up table attached to the seat. "You look like an Adrian."

I nodded and stared at a blank page on my notebook. "You know I think that might be the first time I heard that one."

"You don't sound like one though." He said.

I rolled my eyes and glanced over at him. "Ok you lost me."

"Adrian sounds like a girl from Brooklyn." He said before pointing right at me. "You don't sound like you're from Brooklyn. Hell you don't sound like you're from Florida either."

"My dad's from Melbourne." I motioned towards my mouth. "Hence the accent."

"Accent?" He asked with a cheeky grin. "I hardly even noticed you had one."

I shook my head and rolled my eyes at him again. For the rest of the class he stayed surprisingly silent. I wondered, while I was taking my notes, where he had saw me before. I don't why I was so hung up on that. I liked to think I wasn't a girl you could forget so easily. How many curly-haired girls with tattoos and an Australian accent did Lukas run into? Why the hell couldn't I remember him?

"Because you never met him before. God stop fucking overthinking everything."

I placed my pen down and rubbed my eyes. "Fuck Psychics."

"Couldn't have said it better myself." Lukas muttered.

I leaned over towards him and cupped my mouth. "Does this shit get easier?"

"If I'm being honest......no." He said with a soft grin.

I ran both of my hands through my hair and leaned back in my seat. "Fuck, I was hoping you would lie to me."

"Not much of a liar." He said placing his pen down.

I rubbed my neck and closed my eyes. "I knew I would be rusty coming back to school, but this is not what I expected."

"If you need any help, I could help you study." He offered.

I opened my eyes and sigh. "At this rate I just might take you up on that offer."

"Well let me just give you my number then." He said pulling out his phone.

I held a hand up and waved him off. "Don't bother, I haven't had a phone in like a year."

"Really? Why's that?" He asked.

"Just haven't gotten around to getting one."

"Alright well my room number is 207 in building A. Just stop by whenever, I'm usually there." He said.

I clicked my pen and scribbled it down on one of the pages of my notebook. "207, building A." I repeated. "Alright, if I stop by randomly you better be there."

"If I'm not there, my roommate Henry should be. I'll let him know about you, he's actually more of a genius when it comes to this shit than I am." He said.

The class had ended which meant I was off to the rest of my lessons for the day. I never met anyone like Lukas in any of the other classes. Everyone kept to themselves on this campus apparently. It was hard to believe there was parties here every other week. Especially with everyone being so reclusive. After my last class I ended up back in the elevator of my apartment building. It was only six in the afternoon, according to the clock in the lobby. Riley should've been home which meant we could get down to watching The Conjuring. I'd be lying if I hadn't been looking forward to it all day.

I was also a bit curious how her day had went with TJ. It was weird to see Riley so open to seeing someone else. I knew what "no strings" meant but still....I was secretly hoping it would just be us two. I could never tell Riley that, not after she already started seeing TJ. God just thinking about those two together was enough to get my heart going. I swear the second the elevator doors opened, I'd head straight to our apartment and tear off whatever stupid outfit she was wearing. Just as the thought crossed my mind the elevator doors did indeed open. But to my surprise I was met with the other man next door to me, CJ.

He had his usual attire on. Which consisted of a pair of jeans that were loosely fitted on to him, followed by a button-up shirt that had to be atleast one size too big. But he wore one thing that fit him perfectly, and that was the bandana tied around his neck. It was black with a white floral pattern on it, I thought it was the only good thing he wore. I looked at his shoes which were just a pair of Jordans I didn't know the name of. I kept things simple with my shoes, today was the only exception. But CJ, the only thing simple about him was his name.

"Oh shit, what's up Adrian." He said with a huge smile.

I smiled back and greeted him with a hug. "CJ! Where you off to?"

"I honestly was just gonna head over to Josie's. TJ and Riley still aren't back yet." He said.

"They aren't?"

"Nope, they must be having a great time together." He said.

"Well I was just heading back over to my room. Riley and I were supposed to watch The Conjuring." I sighed. "But I guess I'll just have to settle for watching it by myself."

"Oh come on Adrian." He said putting his arm around me. "You think I'm gonna head out knowing you're by yourself? I can watch it with you?"

I put my arm around his neck and leaned into him. "If you say so CJ."

"What is The Conjuring anyway?" He asked as we started walking down the hallway together.

"A horror movie, a pretty good one from what I've heard."

"I don't know, I don't really fuck with horror movies." He said before nudging me. "But for my favorite neighbor, I think I'll make an exception."

I looked over at Arthur's door. "Well the competition isn't exactly fierce."

"Oh I see you've met Arthur?" CJ asked.

I unlocked my room's door and opened it all the way. "I found him passed out in his living this morning. What the hell does that guy get up to?"

"Besides day drinking? Not much, he owns the building." CJ said following me into my apartment.

I stopped and turned around on my heels. "That man owns this building?"

"Arthur?" CJ asked sitting down on my couch. "Sure does."

I closed my front door and joined him on the couch. "Is he the one with the BMW that's always parked out front?"

"The I8? Man that thing is sexy. I've asked him so many times if I could drive it." CJ said leaning against me.

"Any luck?"

"Oh that man don't ever talk to me, I'm surprised he's said a word to you." CJ said.

"Well besides him returning some of my mail, I've never really had a conversation with him." I leaned against him and grabbed my tv's remote. "In fact, I hadn't even seen him until this morning."

"The man usually sticks to himself." CJ said. "No real surprise there."

"His sister invited me to dinner at his room tomorrow night." I sighed and rubbed my eyes. "I'm debating on going honestly, but I just can't help but feel bad for the man."

"Why's that?" CJ asked.

"Because I know what it feels like to think you're alone in the world."

"He's not alone, he's got his sister right?" CJ asked.

I turned on the dvd player and then turned the tv on. "Yeah....I guess."

"You don't think so?" He asked.

"Loneliness doesn't always mean physical presence. You could be surrounded by all your loved ones and still be the loneliest person in the world."

"I don't know about that now." He said almost laughing.

I nudged him and scoffed. "It's true."

"Whatever you say Adrian." He said holding his hands up.

I started the movie and leaned back against the couch cushion. "Just shut your mouth and watch the movie."

"I swear if this shit turns out to be too much. I ain't never coming back here." He sneered before kicking his shoes off his feet.

I giggled and mimicked his movements by taking off my shoes as well. "You can't stay away for long."

"Yeah you're probably right, my apartment gets pretty fucking boring after a while." He said putting his arm around me.

I leaned into him and moved the rest of my body on to the couch. "Trust me, it can't get any more fucking boring than this place."

"Oh come on, this place has..........you." He said with another dumb grin.

I looked up at him and returned a grin of my own. "My point exactly."

It didn't take long for the movie to get going. I hadn't seen it before so my heart was constantly jumping out of my chest from the jump scares. CJ wasn't scared however, probably because he was too busy laughing at me. So much though that he started hiding it under his bandana. He's lucky I enjoyed his company or else I would've punched right in his stupidly handsome face.

"Handsome? Where did that thought come from?"

I wasn't so stubborn that I couldn't admit when another guy was handsome. CJ and TJ were both good looking guys, I couldn't entirely blame Riley for dating one of them. Lukas also wasn't that bad looking of a guy either. It's like the universe was throwing all the cute guys my way in hopes that it would get me to forget about Quinn. But try as I might, even in the middle of watching a horror movie, I could still imagine his stupid fucking smile. While I rested in CJ's arms I picture it being Quinn's. CJ wasn't as muscular as Quinn, but being pressed up against him gave me that same warm feeling in my core. It was the only reason I even allowed CJ to put his arm around me. I usually hated being touched, but right now, it's all I wanted.

This made me even more pissed that Riley didn't show up on time. I was really looking forward to seeing her again, seeing those cute ocean blue eyes in between my legs. Right where they belonged, not locked on to some other fucking guy like TJ. I hated myself for being so jealous, but fuck TJ and fuck Riley for thinking he was cute. She was supposed to be with me tonight, instead I had to settle for watching this movie with CJ. Not that I didn't enjoy his company, I did. But I couldn't do the things with him that I could do with Riley.

I mean.............I could.

"No no no. Control yourself Adrian! Don't even consider it!" My inner conscience screamed at me.

"But he feels so warm." I thought.

"He's your neighbor, not your boy toy!"

"Fuck he smells good too. Why does he have to smell good?"

"Control yourself Adrian!"

"I can't."

"You can and you will!"

"Just one kiss."

"NO NO NO NO NO!"

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. "Just.......one."

"Hey are you good?" CJ asked brushing a few strands of hairs away from my face.

I opened my eyes and was met with his. "Yeah."

"You look like you're thinking about something." He said.

"I bet if I scoot closer I could feel his bulge."

I nodded. "Oh you have no idea."

"Well if you need to get something off your chest-" He said grabbing the remote and pausing the movie. "You can.

I watched his motions as he brought his hand back over to rest by his stomach. "I.....I uh......"

"Adrian....what's up?" He asked pulling his arm away from me and crossing his arms instead.

"Fuck! How dare he pull away from me like that! It was so warm."

I shook away the thought and collected myself. "CJ.......have you ever been in love with someone?"

"Well fuck I wasn't ready for this kind of conversation." He said with a chuckle. "But shit I mean.....yeah I guess you could say I have."

"But have you ever.....have you ever been in love with someone who.......didn't love you back?"

"Well I mean.............?" He asked. His smile faded as quick as it had came. He looked away from me, setting his eyes on the sliding glass door that led to the balcony. His bandana had fallen off at some point and was now laying at his feet.

"CJ?"

"There was one girl. I had been friends with her for about a year. She was so fucking bad, badder than any girl I've ever seen. She was so funny, she was so nice too. I thought she was perfect, I thought....after all this time....that she was the one." He said standing up from the couch. He walked over to the sliding glass door and placed his palm on it.

"She needed me......and I wasn't there for her. Probably one of the biggest regrets of my life. We probably wouldn't have worked out anyway." He said.

"Why not?"

"It turns out her and her whole family, while they were nice, they didn't associate themselves with............" He paused.

I stood up and followed him over to the sliding glass door. "With what?"

He sighed and turned his body to face me. I'd never seen this side of CJ before, he looked.....vulnerable. Like a lost puppy far from home. All of my time spent with him, he acted like he was happy. The joker of the group, the one that made us all laugh. Now it made sense, it was a coping mechanism. He was coping with the fact that even though he smiled more than anyone......he couldn't have been more depressed. I reached a hand out to cup his face, I didn't care about what I wanted anymore. I just wanted to let him know that he wasn't alone. It hurt me to even see the glossy look in his eyes. He wanted to cry, he wanted to ball his eyes out. But his pride wouldn't let him, he needed an out........so I gave it to him.

"With what CJ?"

"Her family.......they were white folk you know so.......they didn't want their daughter to date a........you know." He said sucking in a quick breath. One lone tear made its way down the side of his cheek. He quickly wiped it away and tore his eye sight away from me.

I placed my hand on his shoulder and turned him around to face me. "CJ?"

"You're a good person Adrian, through all your life mistakes.....it don't take away from who you are." He said forcing a smile on his face. The way he always does. "Who ever this person who doesn't love you back.....they have no idea what they're missing out on. A person like you......they deserve to be happy with someone else."

I stood there and placed my other hand on his other shoulder. "It's ok CJ.....it's ok to be upset....you don't have to hide from me.....from all of us."

"What? What do you mean?" He asked trying to brush it off. "I'm fine.....like I'm good.....I'm......"

That was it.....that was the out he needed. His eyes both had tears nearly streaming out of them. I didn't say anything else, I pulled him closer until I embraced him. That's when he finally let go. He buried his face in my shoulder and sobbed uncontrollably. I could tell he had held it in for a long time........a long long time. His arms wrapped tightly around me, nearly knocking us both over. His breaths were short and rapid, it was almost like he was still trying to hold it in. He couldn't....he couldn't hold back the pain anymore.

It only lasted a few minutes, but when he caught his breath, he pulled away from me. His arms were still around me but he was now looking into my eyes. Night had fallen, which meant the moon was now shining on to the balcony. The lights were in my apartment which meant the only source of light was the tv and the moonlight. CJ's eyes almost seemed to shimmer because of it. A few loose braids had fallen in front of them, he didn't attempt to brush them back. I had no idea what he was thinking, it couldn't have been anything compared to what I was thinking only minutes ago. All I knew was he still hadn't loosened his grip on me....and I didn't think I wanted him to.

"Adrian." He said.

"Yeah?"

"I'm sorry for.....for breaking down like that." He said breaking eye contact. He tried to look for something else but I wouldn't let him.

I cupped his face with both hands and pressed my forehead against his. "Look at me CJ."

"I really loved that girl Adrian.....I really fucking did." He said trying his best not to break down again. "And I fucked it up....just like I fuck everything else up in my life."

"It's not your fault......you're an amazing human being CJ. What you did then, it doesn't define who you are now." I let my hands fall down to his shoulders. I felt his hands naturally fall down to my waist. "Atleast that's what I tell myself, because if people like us can't move on from our mistakes, then what is life really worth living for."

"Adrian.....I.....I...." He trailed off, words couldn't form in his mouth. He didn't know what the right thing to say was. He didn't need to say anything.

"CJ?"

"Look it's just been a crazy few months you know with losing her and getting new neighbors." He rambled. "Not that you guys are bad or anything you guys are actually both amazing. I mean you're something else Adrian, if I was that boy who came over last time I would've-"

"CJ!" I shouted.

"Yeah?" He asked.

"Just.....just stop talking."

I didn't have time to think, all I had time to do was lean in and capture his lips in mine. It was pure instinct, it felt as if it was the only right thing to do. How ironic it was, two broken hearts trying to fall in love. At least that's what I thought, CJ was hesitant. He didn't kiss back, so I pulled away.

For a moment....and only a moment, I thought to myself that I had made a mistake. But it was only when CJ didn't hesitate to press his lips against mine, that I knew I was right. This time I got a proper feel for his mouth. His lips were so different from Riley's, the taste was so different. It had been nearly five years since I had been with a man. The feeling of it was so much different than with a woman. A man's hands were coarse but strong, their lips weren't as soft, but their embrace was soothing. I felt safe in CJ's arms, this man that I had only met a month ago, I felt secure in his embrace. He pulled away slightly just for a moment, as if debating whether or not to continue. The thought must've have left as quickly as it came because he immediately crushed his lips back against mine.

I had woke up this morning having dreamt about a man I could never have, now I was going to spend the night with a man I could claim. Even if it may have only been just for tonight, I wasn't going to pass up the opportunity. Too much has happened today, the stress I had carried throughout school, it needed to be relieved.

I felt CJ's hands lower to my ass, if only to lift me up into his arms. I wrapped my legs around his waist and allowed him to carry me all the way to my room. It scared me how much this was like my dream, the only difference was the man I was with. But if I was being honest with myself, I preferred this over that fantasy. Because atleast this man, Chris fucking Justice, atleast in this moment......he wanted me just as much as I wanted him. I felt my hands roam over cheeks feeling the essence of dried up tears. I was going to wipe those away, wipe them away forever.

My back hit the wall of my bedroom which forced a breath of air out of my lungs. The kiss was only broken for a moment before his lips were locked on to mine. My hands were still fixed on to the sides of his face. I ran one of them down to press against his chest. There were too many clothes in between him and I, they needed to go. I reached in between us and tried my best to start unbuttoning his shirt. With only one hand I got down to the buttons near his stomach before he brushed my hand away. Before I could say anything I felt my back hit the mattress. I propped myself on my elbows to check out CJ standing at the edge of the bed. I smiled as I watched him unbutton the rest of his shirt to reveal a toned midsection. I guess I shouldn't have been surprised, CJ didn't exactly look out of shape. He let the shirt practically fall off his shoulders as he worked on unbuckling the belt on his jeans. I felt my teeth bite down on my bottom lip as his jeans dropped down to the floor.

"Fuck me, this is really happening. Its been a long time since I've had sex with a man. What if I'm not good anymore? I mean I can please women but a man..............wait a minute."

I felt a grin creep up on my face. "This'll be easy."

"What will?" He asked with a smile on his face. A real smile.

I let my eyes drift down to his midsection and then further down. "Don't worry about it."

"If you say so Adrian." He said climbing on to the bed with me.

I went to work unbuttoning my flannel as CJ slowly crawled over to me. By the time he got to me I had gotten down to the last button. He made quick work of it before opening it up, exposing the white shirt I wore underneath it. CJ looked up at me and gave me a cockeyed look. I shrugged and helped him take off my flannel. The moment I pulled my arms out of my flannel, I tossed it across the room and felt CJ's hand press me back down against the mattress. I took the cue to let him take the lead in this one. It was odd being on bottom again, not that I was gonna complain. After all this time....this is exactly what I needed.

His hand travelled down to the hem of my shirt before pulling it up to expose my stomach. His lips followed his hands by leaving a trail of kisses up my stomach. My shirt was eventually pulled up past my bra leaving him to plant a few kisses on my cleavage. I raised my arms above my head to allow him to easily pull my shirt off. Once my shirt joined the rest of the clothes on the floor, CJ went to work playing with the clasp on my bra. His smile returned as he placed a few kisses along my collar bone. I couldn't help but smile too, I also couldn't help my hand from drifting down to the back of CJ's head. He stopped only when his lips came into contact with my silver heart necklace. Him and I both paused as I slowly unhooked it from behind my neck and placed it on my nightstand. Within seconds he hooked his fingers around my bra and practically ripped it off of me. I gasped at his persistence but at the same time that action only turned me on more than I already was. Now that my chest was bare to him, I started to feel more of my insecurities plague me.

"I mean they're not as big as other women's but atleast they're noticeable."

"I wouldn't say noticeable, that's not giving you enough credit." He said before placing his mouth over one of my nipples.

"Did I really-" I gasped and moved both of my hands to his head. "Did I really say that out loud?"

"Sure did." He said pulling away from my breasts. "For a woman as bold as you.....I'm surprised you're coming off this shy."

I scoffed and nudged him a bit. "Shy? Oh give me a brea-"

His lips cut me off before I could object any further. They were more aggressive this time, it was almost primal the way he was kissing me. I fucking loved it, this was the kind of stuff I could never do with Riley. No matter how hard she tried, she could never replace a man's touch. His hands unbuttoned my jeans before yanking them down to my knees. I helped him in pulling them the rest of the way off. They joined the pile of clothes at the foot of the bed. There was a momentary pause in his actions, I wondered why until I looked up into his eyes. He was waiting, waiting for permission.

"He chooses now to be a gentleman. Just flip me over and fuck me you fucking idiot!"

I caught myself off guard with that one. "Shit did I say that out loud?"

"Say what out loud?" CJ asked with the most clueless expression.

I smiled and bit my lip again. "Oh nothing."

"Are you sure about this?" He asked.

I sucked my teeth. "Nah, I'm gonna wait till you're halfway inside me, before I know I'm sure."

"You're bad Adrian." He said placing his finger over my lips. "Very bad."

"And what are you gonna do about it?" I whispered before taking his finger in my mouth.

"Still got it bitch!"

"Bet." He said.

He pulled his finger from my mouth and hooked around my panties. If I had known I'd be getting action by someone besides Riley, I would've wore something nicer. Atleast they were panties and not boxers, which I usually wore. CJ tugged my panties down my legs and threw them across the room. I was now completely nude in front of him. It felt weird being naked in front of another guy again, like I wasn't supposed to be doing it. The thought of curling up into a ball and covering myself almost came into fruition. But then I was met with that warmth, the warmth that I so desperately craved. CJ's hands were on me again, sliding up my thighs until they rested on my waist. I reached up and pulled his body tightly against mine. I pressed my lips against his, prodding his mouth with my tongue. I needed to feel his skin against mine, I needed that warmth....I needed it inside me.

I let my hand drift between us before resting on the bulge in his boxers. I heard a hitch in CJ's breathing when I rubbed my palm against the shape of his dick. I could feel its length, it's.....girth. I felt a sense of relief, not that I ever doubted it would be small, it surely wasn't. I felt him reach down and pull his boxers completely off of his body. I had to assume he threw them across the room because I didn't look. My eyes were seemly fixed on the massive appendage pressed against my thigh. I bit my lip at the sight of it, I wrapped my fingers around it to get a feel for it. They barely wrapped all the way around it.

"Holy shit......Adrian what did you get yourself into?"

I swallowed the lump in my throat and moaned at the feeling of CJ's lips pressed against my neck. I leaned my head to the side to give him better access. My hand was busy stroking his dick, getting a feel for his length. This was so much better than a dream, the feeling of a real dick in my hand was enough to make shiver. I ran my thumb over the head of it which made CJ audibly groan. I felt a smirk form on my lips as I repeated the action. He shifted his body which made the head bump against my clit. A sudden moan filled my lungs as my other hand found it's way to his back. He pulled his head away from my neck and stared into my eyes. He wasn't looking for permission this time, he just wanted to enjoy my reaction.

"Cheeky fucker."

I lifted my hand from in between us and placed it behind his neck. The hand that was on his back made its way to his shoulder. Both of his hands were on either side of my hand pressed against the bedsheets. I stared at him with pleading eyes in hope he was just get the message. He smiled at the expression on my face, I'm sure I seemed pretty amusing to him. My lip got stuck in between my teeth again as I felt the pressure of him against me. It was a pressure I hadn't truely felt in some time. The kind of pressure that fingers could not replace, no this pressure was special. I held my breath as he slowly eased his way inside of me. I shut my eyes and tensed up as I felt the head push past my lips. I had a feeling this part would suck, but I wasn't a virgin, I knew it was only a matter of time until it got better.

I felt his lips touch my forehead as he pushed further into me. The warmth was slowly filling me up, inch by inch. Air finally filled my lungs and I let out a sound that probably seemed off-putting. I immediately opened my eyes and saw a look of worry in CJ's. I felt the warmth leaving me and out of desperation I wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him back into me.

There was no holding back the moan that escaped my mouth as he was pulled deeper into me. His lips had made their way back to mine as he finished thrusting himself the rest of way inside me. Both of my hands made their way to his broad back, my nails were practically digging into his skin. He was so fucking big, I felt like I was being split in half. He hadn't moved sense he moved all the way inside of me. I took a moment just to adjust to his size, his warmth. It didn't matter that it wasn't the warmth I was seeking, it was still so warm. I pulled away from his lips nearly out of air and smirked at him.

"I'm not made out of glass you know."

"You sure about that?" He asked with another smile. I could get used to seeing that. "I almost thought I broke you."

"Do me a favor CJ?" I adjusted my legs so that they were spread out, just for him. "No matter what you hear, no matter how stupid I may sound, don't you dare hold back.......and don't you dare fucking stop."

"Be careful what you wish for Adrian." He said. His smile turning into one of malicious intent.

His lips attacked mine again before any other thoughts came racing to my mind. The warmth had left me for only a spilt second before returning with force. I moaned into his mouth as my nails digged into his back even harder. He repeated the action of moving his hips into mine with such brute force. If I thought I was being split in half before, it now felt like I was being stabbed. I kept thinking to myself it would get better, it was only a matter of time. I just needed to get used to his girth more than anything, it was overwhelming. I felt his teeth tug against my bottom lip as he smashed his dick into me again. I told him not to hold back, looks like he listened. The pain of him fucking me only began to subside the more he kept thrusting into me. I took a breath and just like that time nearly froze. There was a rush of bliss that crashed over me like a wave on the beach. There was no longer any pain, it was gone now. The only feeling flowing through my body was pure unadulterated..........ecstasy.

My core began to heat up as I started rocking my hips to meet CJ's. He started to notice too and I even felt him smile against my lips. I had to think my pupils must've been the size of saucers. I hadn't had a feeling like this since I was hopped up on the best heroin in northwest Florida. Just like that feeling, I only craved more of it. I needed more, I needed more so fucking badly. My nails dragged down his back as he increased his pace. The sounds of our skin meeting seemed to be the only sounds filling the room. Well......it was all I heard. I was ninety percent sure I was so out of it, I didn't even notice half of the noises I was making. Riley constantly teased me about being a "loud one".

"Fuck!" I moaned out abruptly.

While I was busy giving myself shit for being loud, CJ had been busy fucking me into the mattress. My eyes drifted in between us, I could see it all. His dick sliding out of me before slamming back inside. The rush of bliss that struck me everytime he thrusted into me was too much. I hadn't experienced anything like this in so long. The last person to make me feel this way was........was.........

"No no no no no no! Stop stop stop stop!"

"STOP STOP STOP!!!"

"Whoa whoa whoa! What's wrong?" CJ asked stopping his movements entirely.

I shook my head almost frantically. "No no not you! Keep going!"

"Are you sure?" He asked. "You caught me off guard there for a sec."

"I.....I...." I stumbled on even thinking of anything to say.

"Do you want me to stop?" He asked.

"What?!" I shook my head. "No please don't!"

"Ok, but I gotta warn ya." He sneered pulling out of me entirely. "This could get rough."

"What the hell did he think he was doing? I feel so empty now."

"Is there any other way of doing it?"

"I mean yeah, but this is how it should be done." He said moving his hands to my hips. "If it ain't rough it ain't right. Right?"

"I was being sarcastic asshole." I giggled.

"Will see who's laughing after this is over." His smile quickly faded. "Don't say I didn't warn ya."

"What do you-"

One moment I was on my back, the next moment I was on my stomach. CJ's hands gripped my hips and pulled my ass up high in the air. My face was pressed into the mattress with such force. My back naturally arched into his movements and just like that.....he was back inside me. The sudden rush of him matched with the pleasure it brought left me with only one thing to say.

"FUCK!"

It was too much too fast, my only reaction was to try and crawl away. That was only met by a jerk of his hands which put me right back in my place.

"Nah don't run from it now." He said.

I felt one of his hands leave my hips only for it to come crashing back down hard on to my ass. I felt a sort of yelp leave my mouth followed by a sly grin forming on my face. I could feel his dick so deep in me, so fucking deep. I hadn't been in a position like this in.....god I really should've done this sooner. The moment I saw his cute fucking smile I should've went next door and had him fuck me like this all night. Better late then never, but never late is better....so much fucking better. I turned my head so that I could look back at him. I needed to see his face again, I needed that smile. If he wanted to be rough and dirty, two could play at that game.

I felt the grin on my face grow. "Is that all you got bitch?"

"Stop fucking talking!" He ordered. His hand struck my ass again which only made me moan this time.

"Fuck! Do that again!"

"What the fuck did I just tell you!" He shouted this time. His hand struck my ass again, I only moaned louder.

I wanted to make another sly comment just to piss him off even more. But right as I thought of what to say, a hand wrapped around my throat and squeezed it. It wasn't enough to cut off my oxygen but just enough to make me melt against his touch. I felt his hand yank my head back until my back was pressed against his chest. I felt his tongue playing with shell of my ear as his other hand went between my leg. The noise that left my mouth next was less of a moan and more of a cry. His fingers played with my clit as he kept thrusting into me with all of his length. I naturally went to place my hand over his but that's when I noticed a bulge in my stomach.

"Fuck me he was big! He's literally in my stomach right now. I think I'm gonna.......I think....I think.....fuck I can't think."

"UGHHH! OH MY FUCKING GOD!" I cried out.

"That's it baby." He whispered into my ear. "Cum for me."

He didn't need to tell me twice. Between his enormous length nearly splitting me in half, his hand around my throat, and his fingers rubbing my clit. I was about to collapse, my entire body seized up and that's when it came to me. A surge of bliss unlike anything I had felt before, it collided with me like a car crash. For a moment I held my breath and fell entirely silent. The only sound in the room was of CJ's hips meeting my ass. I couldn't make a sound, my body was out of my control. I felt my eyes nearly roll into the back of my head. Every feeling running through my body was cranked up to eleven. The feeling of CJ's tongue running along the side of my face brought me back down to earth.

Air filled my lungs once more and the sound that followed wasn't a cry, it was a damn scream. As to not wake up my neighbors and everyone else in the building, I collapsed into the mattress and continued to scream into my sheets. CJ didn't slow down, not one bit. He kept his chest pressed against my back as he continued to pound into me with such vigor. The feeling in between my legs was so tight, the way it wrapped around his dick, as if to keep him from leaving. It clenched around him for only a few moments longer before relaxing again. As if we were in sync, CJ slowed his hips until he stopped entirely.

That's when I turned my head and started taking in huge breaths of air. I felt as if I had just ran a fucking marathon. I was surely sweating like I had, so was CJ. It was like the sweat was the only thing keeping us glued together. His hand left my throat and his other hand came out from in between my legs. My eyes came back to me and glanced over at CJ who was searching for my eyes as well. I couldn't form words, I felt like a baby learning to speak for the first time. All that came out was mindless babbles. I had never had an orgasm like this before, one that left my brain so scrambled. It must've been entertaining for him to watch.

"I bet I look silly right about now."

"You don't look silly......not at all." He said planting a kiss on my temple. "You look so fucking sexy right now."

"I really gotta stop saying all my thoughts out loud." I giggled.

"I like hearing what's on your mind." He said running his hand through my brown curls. "It's so......."

"Dirty?"

"Mysterious." He finished. "But that too."

"I might as well not even keep anything to myself anymore, I accidentally say so many things out loud as it is."

"Around me, you don't have to hide a damn thing." He said.

I leaned over and kissed him on the lips. "You want to know what's on my mind now?"

"What?" He asked.

I bit my lip and looked up at him through my eyelashes. "I want you to cum inside me."

"Yeah?" He asked taking my hand in his and pressing it into the mattress.

"I got him right where I want him. Only one more thing left to say, every man's weakness, the one word that could drive any sane man crazy."

I batted my eyelashes at him and smirked. "Yes daddy."

Just like that I saw his eyes almost darken. I felt his dick twitch inside me as he propped himself up. He pressed his other hand into the mattress and began pounding into me like he did before. Only this time I could care less about the things I was feeling. I had one goal in my mind, my mysterious and dirty mind. I wanted this man CJ to blow his load right into me, right into my fucking stomach. I shouldn't have been thinking like that but this man was bringing out the worst in me. I should've been scared of not using a condom with him in the first place. The thought of him cumming inside me only made me so much more wet, I honestly didn't care about anything else. It's not like I could get pregnant, I've been on the birth control from Jessica for the past two weeks. It was practically risk free, that only made me want it more.

CJ and I never broke eye contact as he increased his pace. He was fucking me with so much force that the headboard started moving with him. It kept slamming into the wall, probably denting it, but neither of us seemed to give a shit. I didn't give a shit about a lot right now, my mind had no filter anymore. CJ took it away just like that, he was something else. I never would've talked like this to Riley, I could restrain myself with her, but CJ.......he made me feel bold.

I squeezed his the hand he had interlocked with mine. I stared into his dark brown eyes and licked my lips. "You like this pussy daddy? Huh? You like fucking this tight pussy?"

"Fuck don't start!" He groaned. I was getting to him, he was so easy in that regard. "Don't start that dirty talk."

I giggled and pressed my lips against his for a moment. "You love it don't you? You love this pussy don't you daddy?"

"Stop!" He damn near begged. His thrusts were becoming more erratic, he was getting closer. "Fuck!"

I kissed him again, this time I ran my tongue up the side of his face. "You're so fucking big daddy, I can feel you in my stomach."

"FUCK!" He growled.

In one fluid motion I felt us both get turned on to our side. CJ was still right behind me and he was still thrusting into me with so much force. I hooked my leg around his and spread my legs out to give him easier access. His arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me tight against him. He rested his head against mine so that we were cheek-to-cheek. I turned my head only slightly to look into his eyes again. They still had that look in them, that look of lust. He was getting there, he was getting so close. I began grinding my hips against his to meet his thrusts in unison. I heard a groan from deep within his throat come out into the air. I leaned towards him and ran my tongue along the side of his face. I was gonna get him there, after the orgasm he just gave me, I had to get him there. I felt him lean in and roughly force his lips against mine, it was only a matter of time. I could feel him twitching inside of me, I could feel with every pump that he was getting closer.

I place my hand on the back of his neck and pulled him in close. "Let it out, I want you to let it out all inside me."

"Adrian I.......FUCK!" He shouted pulling me even tighter against him. "Say my name! Say my fucking name!"

"Oh CJ! Fucking cum inside baby!" I moaned before crashing my lips against his.

That was the final push he needed to throw him over the edge. Because right after I said that, he thrusted into me one last time. It was then I felt that rush of warmth inside of me. It filled every inch it could before spilling out on to my sheets. I never thought it would make such a mess, but I was happy either way. I pulled away from CJ's lips and watched as he pumped into me a few more times. I couldn't help but let out a small giggle as he pulled out of me entirely. Part of me felt so empty, but at the same time, I was so full. I rolled on to my back and tried to catch my breath. I glanced over at CJ was looked like he was doing the same. It was at this point that I started to think about us, I mean what were we? Were we just two friends who just hooked up? Or perhaps.....something more.

I didn't want to burden him with the question, it was hardly pillow talk. Instead I scooted over until I could slide off of the bed. I had to clean myself up after sex like that. I went to plant my feet on the floor but was left on shaky legs.

"Oh yeah, I did just get fucked pretty hard after all. God dammit I hated this part!"

"Yo are you good over there?" CJ asked.

"Yep." I lied trying to stand up on my legs again. "Just gotta.....just gotta.....fuck."

"Need help?" He asked.

I looked back at him and pouted my lips. "If you wouldn't mind."

"Not at all." He said hopping off of the bed. He slipped on his boxers before walking over to my side of the bed.

"Awwww." I pouted again.

"What?" He asked standing right in front of me.

I reached out and pulled on the hem of his boxers. "I kind of liked looking at it."

"Well I'm sure you'll see more of it in the future." He said hooking his arms under my body before lifting me up.

I wrapped my arms around his neck in the process and tilted my head. "Future?"

"Oh yeah." He nodded while carrying me to my bathroom. "I mean....I'm down if you're down?"

"Down for what exactly?"

"Whatever you want." He said pushing the door open to my bathroom before turning the light on.

"If you want a relationship, I think I'm down to give it a try. If you just wanna be fuck buddies then......I'm down for that too."

"CJ that's......I don't know."

"What do you mean?" He asked sitting me down on the edge of the bathtub.

I hung my head and sighed."It's just..........there's still someone else."

"No no no no no. Don't do this Adrian! Don't give this up for Quinn!" My conscience screamed at me. "Don't give this up for a guy who you could never have! Don't settle for a fantasy, accept the reality!"

Only....I wasn't thinking about Quinn. There was someone else from my past, someone unbeknownst everyone in my life right now. Except for maybe two people, but even then nobody knew. It was better that way, easier that way.

"Oh.....it's the other guy right? The one who came by a few weeks ago?" CJ asked.

I kept my eyes low and nodded my head. "Yeah."

"So I'm a liar now?"

"Aight well.....it's ok if you just wanted this to be a one time thing." He said before walking over to the bathroom door. "I mean we're still good right?"

I looked up at him and smiled. "Yeah.....we're good."

"I think I'm just gonna get dressed and head back over to my place." He said turning around to leave.

I shook my head and laughed a bit. "Ummm no you're not."

"I'm not?" He asked stopping in his place and turning around to look at me.

I smiled and nodded. "Go back to my bedroom and wait for me."

"Ok.....why?" He asked.

"You'll see."

"Bet." He said before disappearing from my doorway.

I took a deep breath and stood up on my own two legs. They were still a bit shaky but not as bad as before. I cleaned myself up before splashing some water on my face. I needed a moment to myself to think for a second. CJ offering to be my boyfriend was a surprise for sure. I mean I'm sure he was just trying to be polite, but what if he wasn't? This could be my way out. My way of forgetting about the one that got away, Quinn Peterson. The reality was him and I would never be a couple, no matter where our lives went. But CJ and I had a real shot at something, it wasn't just the sex, we were so comfortable around eachother since we met. He wasn't exactly the type of guy I would usually go for but he was everything I wanted. He was nice, funny, and boy was he good looking.

I looked at myself in the mirror and took another deep breath. I grabbed a towel from off the rack and wiped the water off my face. I walked out into my hallway and dropped the towel on the floor. I had a decision to make when I walked through my bedroom door. Do I just remain friends with CJ? A guy who obviously wanted me as much as I wanted him. Or do I settle on being a single woman, crushing over a guy I could never be with, Quinn. I walked forward until I could see CJ laying down in my bed, still only wearing his boxers. I leaned against the doorframe and smiled at him.

"Did I ever tell you how much I fucked with your tats?" He asked smiling back at me.

I looked at my tattoos on my arm. "I don't think you did."

"Well.....I'm here." He said patting the mattress. "What did you want to show me? Besides that sexy ass body of yours."

I sucked my teeth. "That's hardly the truth."

"Yeah, but I always had a soft spot for skinny girls." He said smiling even bigger.

I walked over to the bed before slowly crawling on to it. I kept my eyes fixed on CJ who still had that smile on his face, his real smile. I crawled forward until I straddled his waist completely. I felt his hands naturally slide up my thighs until resting on my ass. I leaned forward and planted a kiss on his lips before resting my forehead on his.

"That boy you saw leaving my apartment a few weeks ago was my ex-boyfriend. We've been apart for a long time, about five years."

"Oh....yeah you told me that." CJ said.

"Just listen! I thought I wanted him back, I thought he would want me back too. But he didn't.....ever since then I've been stuck up on him, while he probably hasn't thought of me since."

"Damn Adrian, why do you think that is?" He asked.

"I know why, but it's a long story." I shook my head and pressed a hand against his chest. "The point I'm getting to is.......I like you CJ. Tonight was.....well it was really fun.....and I think I want more nights like this if I'm being honest."

"Adrian that's....that's good to know. If you're down for more nights like this then shit I'm down too." He said cracking another smile.

"No you idiot!" I smiled and pushed against him a bit.

"I don't just want nights like this. I want nights where all we do is chill and watch stupid horror movies, I want nights where we go and hang out at the park, or do something really stupid like roller skating. I want you to be the person I wake up next to in the morning and go to cuddle up with at night. I want........."

"Sounds to me like you want-"

"Something more." I finished.

"Well damn that's........." He trailed off.

"That's?"

"That's dope." He said with a chuckle.

I raised an eyebrow. "Dope?"

"Yeah. It's dope." He repeated whilst chuckling to himself again.

I sat up and throw my hands up. "You have all the words in the English language and you choose dope?"

"Would you like me to say something else?" He asked.

I placed my other hand on his chest and shook my head. "It doesn't matter, just answer my question. Do you want this? Do you really want this?"

"Adrian......do you think you actually want this? Or do you just enjoy the idea being in a relationship?" He asked.

I felt both of my eyes widened a bit. "Well that's......surprisingly deep coming from you."

"I'm not dumb Adrian." He said sucking his teeth. "I'm down for a relationship, hell I actually want one......but I need to know if you actually want one?"

"I know what I want CJ. I want something real, whether that's with you......or someone else. I just need to be able to move on from my past."

"I'm not gonna lie it's been a while for me. I might be a little rusty, but I'm sure you can help me with that." He said patting me on the ass.

"I'm rusty too." I giggled. "It's been like three months for me dammit."

"Plus hearing that accent calling me daddy......I could get used to that." He said with smug grin.

I leaned closer to him and planted a kiss on his cheek. "Don't hold your breath, from my all accounts my accent is nearly gone."

"I still hear it. Especially when you call me daddy." He said.

I rolled my eyes. "I hardly use that word in bed."

"I must be lucky then." He sneered.

I licked my lips. "Very lucky."

"So......how do we make this official?" He asked.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know, I guess it just is now."

"That's lame, we gotta do something to make it official." He said.

I let my eyes wander down to his boxers before looking back up at him. "Well......I got another round left in me."

"That'll do." He said before sitting up.

"I'm totally counting this as my exercise for the day." I smiled.

His arms wrapped around me like a warm blanket. I gasped at how warm it got before leaning in and catching his lips in mine. It was crazy to think how much could happen in one day. I had woken up having dreamt about having sex with Quinn, before waking up having Riley's head in between my legs. Then I walked in on my neighbor passed out on his living room floor, whilst getting invited to dinner by his sister. Then I met a new friend in Lukas at school, all before heading home to surprisingly have the best sex of my life with CJ. It was definitely a helluva day, the cherry on top was CJ offering to be my boyfriend.

I definitely needed a way out of crushing over Quinn everyday. And as fun as being with Riley was, it was clear she was moving on from me. Even if she still wanted to hook up tonight, it probably would've been our last time. I'm sure her and TJ had the same crazy night that CJ and I had. Why else would she still not be home this late? I hope they were happy together, I wasn't that jealous anymore. I had my own man that I could call mine. His name was Chris Justice, the most unexpected man of my life. We both had our lost opportunities at love, I think that's why we gravitated towards eachother. It was if the universe knew we were both hung up on someone else. No longer, now in this universe, we were each others.