Adrian Hayes

September 1st, 2018

This past week has been quite the fucking rollercoaster. I mean first I got shot down by Quinn and then I tried to hook up with my sister's boyfriend, Josh. Plus I was starting school in a few days which made me even more stressed. All of the stress was making my head pound at this point. I tried to ease it by using Quinn's money to buy a dvd player. I thought maybe actually watching something would help me get over being rejected twice. But the only films I could borrow off of CJ were "Friday" and "Boyz N The Hood". I mean what other choice did I have? Other than literally doing anything else. I ended up laying on the couch, wearing a pair of grey sweatpants with my black Slipknot hoodie, watching the credits roll for "Boyz N The Hood".

I already did my exercises for the day and even went for a jog. I found that running helped clear my mind of distractions, especially when some of my urges kicked back in. Riley was right about the urges, the urge to relapse, it truly never went away. But for the meantime, hopefully jogging and calisthenics can keep my mind straight. I should've waited for Riley to get back, but I already took a shower. I would never admit it aloud, but I actually did enjoy her company. Showering without her felt.....lonely.

I heard the front door open and saw that Riley came back from the store with her hands full of groceries. I trusted her with grocery shopping just this once because I didn't feel like leaving the house. My eyes followed her as she kicked the front door closed before placing the groceries on the kitchen counter. It was weird getting used to seeing her wearing her normal clothes. I mean we both had to wear the same boring uniforms back in rehab. It was different to see her sense of fashion outside of that place. I never took her for one of those, oversized hoodie, type of girls. I mean she was wearing a light grey hoodie that was definitely two sizes too big. I couldn't see underneath it because it drooped down a bit over her waist but I'm assuming she was wearing short shorts underneath it. I mean it looked good, it certainly matched her.....wait a minute.

I sat up and scoffed. "Are those my shoes you're wearing?!"

"Sure are." She smiled striking a pose. "Don't they look good on me?"

"Take em off!" I shouted across the room.

"Oh come on Adrian. You didn't even know we were the same size. Which means you can borrow my shoes if you want." She said.

"Your shoes consist of Shell-Top's and Air Jordan's." I hopped off the couch and walked over to the kitchen. "Why would I ever want to wear those?"

"Yikes! Somebody woke up on the wrong side of the bed." She said.

"Can you take off my shoes please?!" I pleaded.

"Fine. If I'm being honest I didn't even know you had low top shoes." She said taking my white converses off her feet before tossing them in the living room.

"You do realize I wear shorts too right?"

"I didn't know that either." She said before starting to put the groceries away in fridge.

"Have you seen my legs Riley." I pulled up my sweatpants to show her. "What's the point of all those lunges if I don't get to show them off some way?"

"I just thought you only showed them off when you were naked." Riley said looking at me with a smug grin.

I grabbed some of the groceries and started helping her putting them away in the cabinets. "Well that's another way but.....that's irrelevant right now."

"Oh that's right....you're sort of not seeing anyone right now." She said.

"Yes Riley!" I slammed one of the cabinets. "I'm single! I get it!"

"Hey hey don't feel too bad." She said closing the fridge. "I've been single for a while now, even before rehab. It gets easier."

"I literally went from a three year relationship to a four year one." I leaned against the kitchen counter and crossed my arms. "That's seven fucking years that I was with someone. For some reason being single was the last thing on my mind these past few months. That was until......."

"Quinn?" She asked.

"Yeah." I nodded. "Ever since last week I can't stop thinking about what he said."

"What did he say?" She asked walking over to me.

"That him and I wouldn't work. He basically just shot me down. I mean I get he wants to be friends but....I was hoping we could've been more."

"Now don't get offended. But do you think that you actually miss Quinn....or just his cock." She said in a mere whisper.

"Riley!" I shouted making us both jump.

"What?!!" She asked.

"What did I say about that word?"

"That's what you're thinking about? Did you not just here what I just said?" She asked.

"Yes dammit!" I shouted before hitting the side of the counter. "But I didn't just miss the sex I had with Quinn, I missed him."

"But you did miss the sex?" She asked.

"Well yeah of course I did." I slid down the counter until I sat down on the floor. "But I'd like to think that I'm more than just some horny bitch trying to fuck her ex-boyfriend."

"Don't let it get you down. Can't get mad at yourself for wanting some dick every now and then." She said kneeling down in front of me.

I cracked a smile. "See how much better that word sounds?"

"Not as good as cock." She said with a smirk.

I rolled my eyes. "You're fucking ridiculous Riley."

"Why does the word 'cock' bother you so much? How about 'cunt'? Does that bother you too?" She asked.

"No 'cunt' is fine." I cringed before standing back up. "It's just cock sounds so fucking nasty when you put it like that."

"But 'cunt' doesn't bother you?" She asked.

"I mean no not really. 'Pussy' doesn't bother me either. Maybe 'vagina' but just a little bit."

"Vagina?" She asked running her palm over her face. "Are you serious?"

"I mean it's the same with 'penis'. Like what are you twelve? Why would someone use that word?"

"Adrian I'm sorry but....you're the ridiculous one." She said laughing at me.

"Am not."

"Are too!" She said.

I tilted my head and scoffed. "Well now I see why you've stayed single for so long."

"Oh yeah? And why's that?" She asked mirroring my posture.

"Because you're fucking crazy."

"Hmmm....that's what you think?" She asked.

I smirked at her. "It's what I know."

"Well I'll have you know that just because I've been single for a long time does not mean that I haven't been with someone in a long time." She said.

"Well I mean we were in rehab for like a three months, so that's still a long time."

"And you think I didn't hook up with anyone in rehab?" She asked.

My eyes widened and my heart jumped a bit. "What?"

"You may have been content with crying over your life falling apart. But I wasn't." She said.

"Who?" I leaned forward and grabbed her arm. "Riley who?"

"What are you a fucking owl now?" She asked pulling away.

"Who Riley?!"

"A few people. Nobody you would know. I had my fair share of cocks." She said before a huge smile grew on her face.

I realized she was fucking with me and so I shoved her back. "You're fucking ridiculous!"

"Oh man you should've seen your face!" She said before holding her stomach in laughter.

I tried hard to not smile. "That's not funny!"

"Adrian come on. I'm wild, but hooking up with people in rehab? Yeah no thank you." She said before taking a hair tie off her wrist.

"Do you remember the last person you were with?"

"Hmmm.....no. I never got her name." She said tying her hair up in a messy bun.

I squinted at her. "Her?"

"Yeah the last person I was with was a girl." She said.

I tried to hide my shocked expression. "Oh."

"What?" She asked.

"Nothing it's just......"

"You thought I was straight?" She asked.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I mean yeah."

"Really?" She asked scrunching her face up a bit.

"Yes Riley I thought you liked just guys."

"Why?" She asked.

"You've never once talked about being with a girl."

"I haven't?" She asked.

"Not once."

"Huh....I thought it was obvious I swing both ways. I mean why else did you think I watched you undress all those times back in rehab?" She asked.

"You what?!" I shouted.

"I mean I thought you knew." She smiled.

I scoffed and threw my hands up. "How would I know if someone is watching?"

"I mean you watched me all the time." She said.

"Because you're attractive Riley!" I checked her out from head to toe. "Of course I watched you."

"And you're not?" She asked.

My face dropped and I sighed. "Not anymore. Not to who matters."

"Adrian you're being silly. I'm sure Quinn didn't reject you because of what you look like." She said leaning forward and placing her hand on my cheek.

"It felt like that." I shook my head a bit. "I don't know maybe it's just my insecurities playing tricks on me."

"Adrian, you have nothing to be insecure about. You're beautiful." She said leaning closer into me.

"That's easy for you to say." I smiled at her. "You're the one who walks around this place naked."

"Maybe because I enjoy who's watching me." She said lifting her other hand to my other cheek. "Maybe because I like being watched."

There was a look in her eyes that I hadn't seen since being with Tristan. A look of passion, a look of lust. We were friends, we couldn't seriously be a thing. I knew Riley had other ideas thought, the way she was leaning into me. She was going to kiss me. Every part of me was screaming to fight her, but a small part wanted to kiss her first. It had been so long since I was with another person. My body was practically craving to be with someone else. It couldn't be Riley, no I couldn't. However, if she kissed me....I wouldn't be able to stop myself.

"Riley."

"What?" She asked.

"Don't."

"Don't what?" She asked moving even closer to me.

I placed my hands on her waist to keep her at bay. "Or else."

"Or else what?" She asked.

"Or else I won't be able to stop myself."

"Good." She said as a grin formed on her lips.

She leaned forward and pressed her lips against mine. I tried my best to push her away but my arms wouldn't respond. I was in autopilot now, my body was doing whatever it wanted. Her tongue prodded against my lips before forcing its way into my mouth. That was the move that made me force her back. I caught my breath only for her to be right back on my lips.

I pushed her away again. "Riley I'm ser-"

Her hand covered my mouth which muffled my voice. Instead of moving her hand, my body opted to just remain still. Riley leaned forward and pressed her forehead against mine.

"Don't think about it being me, you can imagine it being Quinn if you'd like."

I tried to say something but it was muffled by her hand. The honest truth was that I could easily overpower Riley and put an end to this right now. But every part of me was stopping me from doing so. My body wanted Riley, even if I preferred not to. But Riley was my friend, this would just make everything complicated. Before I could even finish my thoughts I felt Riley's other hand travel past the waistband of my sweatpants. I reacted by quickly grabbing her wrist to stop her movements. Her and I locked eyes for a moment. Something about the look she had in her eyes was hypnotizing. For some reason I let go of her wrist. I didn't want to but it was like I wasn't in control of my own body anymore. Her hand came to the waistband of my boxers and slowly crept underneath them. I shivered a bit just from the feeling of her hand touching my skin down there. That's when I heard her let out a giggle which caused me to look at her again.

"Now I see why you got upset about me having hair down here. I don't think I've had this little of hair since I was thirteen." She whispered right into my ear before placing a kiss on my neck.

Again I tried to respond but her hand was still covering my mouth. Before I could even think about anything else her other hand finally made contact with the wetness that had been pooling in my boxers. I gasped and placed my hand on her wrist to try to yank it away, but I couldn't. I was too weak to fight her off now. She had me right where she wanted me, I was putty in her hands. Her lips moved back to my neck as she started to place light feathery kissing up and down my neck. I fought back a moan as she started rubbing her hand against my pussy underneath my boxers. I completely let go of her wrist, I was ready to just collapse under her touch.

The worst part about all of this was that she was being dominant over me. I felt like such a fucking bitch right now. I was always the dominant one when I was with a girl. Now I was just letting Riley do whatever she wanted to me.....and it was making me so fucking wet. I put my arm around her and pulled her closer to me. I let my hand travel under her hoodie to feel the skin of her back. My other hand discovered that she indeed was wearing a pair of short shorts under that damn hoodie. I went to move my hand underneath them but she immediately stuck two fingers inside of me which stopped me dead in my tracks.

My hips jerked towards hers as I pulled her even closer. My moans were being muffled by her hand as she thrusted her fingers back inside me. She had moved her lips to my collarbone as she added another finger inside of me. I felt myself reaching my orgasm faster than I expected. Maybe it had to do with the year of build up. It didn't matter anyway because just when I was actually getting close, Riley pulled her fingers out of me.

As much as I wanted to push her away from me for stopping, she had other plans. Her hand finally left my mouth and just as I was going to speak her mouth latched on to mine again.

"Fuck me! She was good at whatever kind of fucking game she was playing."

The next thing I knew she pulled away from my lips just to pull my hoodie over my head. I hadn't wore anything underneath it which seemed to get a smile out of Riley. I was gonna try and make a stupid joke but when I opened my mouth she shoved her fingers into it. It didn't take me long to realize that these were the same fingers she was thrusting into me just moments ago. I couldn't even fight it off, I mean I wanted to just bite down hard on her fingers. But before I could get mad I felt her mouth travel down to my breasts. I moaned against her fingers as she started sucking lightly on one of my nipples. I moved my hands to the back of her head to hold her there.

"Fuck why did she have to be so good at that?"

I felt my mouth start to suck on the fingers she had in my mouth. I could taste myself on her fingers, that only turned me on even more. Right as I started actually enjoying myself I felt her pull away from my chest. Her fingers also left my mouth which left me feeling....empty. All this fucking teasing she was doing was genuinely starting to sexually frustrate me. I fought off the urge to tackle her to the ground and instead just watched she pulled her hoodie over head. My mouth began to water as she unclasped her bra and pulled it off of her shoulders. I had seen Riley's breasts before but seeing them now felt different. I was speechless as I watched her drop to her knees in front of me.

My heart started to beat faster as her hands went to work on drawstring on my sweatpants. I gasped as she yanked them down before pulling my boxers down to my ankles. That's when I watched as she looked back up at me with those big blue eyes of hers. Almost as if to get approval before continuing. At this point all this build up was fucking killing me. So for the first time I took control of my own body and used to it place my hand behind her head. I saw a slight smirk form on Riley's lips as I pulled her head closer to crotch. I braced myself as her head inched closer and closer to my.....pussy.

"Yeah actually now that I think about that word does sound weird."

I shouldn't of gotten distracted, because before I knew it Riley's mouth was latched on to my pussy like a fucking leech.

"Oh fuck!" I moaned as my other hand went to the back of her head.

It had been so long I almost forgot what it felt like to be eaten out by another girl. Riley's tongue was fucking perfect, she's definitely done this before. My knees felt like they were gonna give out as Riley's tongue brushed against my clit. My hands had completely gotten tangled in her hair at this point. I was pulling her her head so close to me, I hope I was hurting her. Her tongue brushed against my clit again which made my hips jerk into her. I threw my head back as she moved her hands to my thighs to hold me still while her tongue worked its magic. Her tongue was moving in all sorts of different directions inside me. I had never been eaten out like this before, it was too much. Fuck! It was way too much. My breathing was becoming erratic as she started sucking on my clit.

"Riley! Wait a seco-" I breathed out before a another moan formed in my mouth.

I couldn't hold myself back anymore and Riley knew it. She used her arms to maneuver one of my thighs over one of her shoulders. The angle her tongue was hitting my clit at was enough to send me over the edge. But Riley was hell bent on torturing me until then. Because before I knew it she thrusted three of her fingers into me while her mouth was still latched on to my clit. I was coming undone so fast that my damn knees gave out on me. Riley held me in place however and even increased her pace.

"Riley! I'm....I'm...." I cried out before succumbing to my orgasm.

I was holding on to Riley's hair so hard that I thought I was gonna rip a chunk out. I grinding my hips against her mouth as I rode out my orgasm. After a few more pumps of her fingers, Riley eventually pulled her fingers out of me. I looked down at her and watched as she trailed a few kisses up my inner thigh before standing up. I was too busy on trying to catch my breath to notice that she was putting her clothes back on. I eventually calmed down from the mind boggling orgasm I just had. I looked around and saw Riley putting her bra back on. I reached down and pulled my boxers and sweatpants back up to my waist.

I looked around for my hoodie before finding it thrown on the kitchen counter. I picked it up and threw it on before looking back at Riley who had just put her hoodie back on as well. Her and I locked eyes for a moment before she went to walk back in the living room. I immediately stepped in front of her and placed my hand in front of her. She just rolled her eyes before trying to walk around me. That pissed me off. I grabbed her by the waist before slamming her against the wall. Her breath hitched for a moment but from what I could tell, she was unfazed by my actions.

I held her against the wall with a firm grip before staring into her eyes. "What the hell just happened?"

"What do you mean?" She asked tilting her head.

"Don't fuck with me Riley!" I shouted. "Why did you do that?"

"Simple. Because you wanted me to." She said.

"I did not!" I shouted.

"You didn't stop me." She said.

I was going to raise my voice again, but she was right. "I....I didn't."

"So what are you upset about?" She asked.

I shook my head before letting her go. "It's just....what is this then?"

"It's nothing Adrian. I mean we're still just friends. You just needed a good fuck and well...I gave it to you." She said with a smirk.

I pointed at her and scolded her "You....don't do that again."

"Ok if you say so." She said shrugging. "But I just want you to know something."

"What?"

"You taste....." She said before sucking on the three fingers she had inside of me. "Sweet."

I waved her off before stumbling into the living room. "Get the hell away from me."

"Damn. You're even walking like you just got fucked. How good was that orgasm? Because from my perspective it looked amazing." She asked following me.

"Leave me alone Riley!" I shouted before collapsing on to the couch.

"Oh come on don't be mad Adrian. I gave you what you wanted." She said.

"You don't know shit about what I want!" I snapped rolling over on to my stomach.

"Sure I do. You want a real relationship with someone you can love." She said before crawling on to my back. "I'm not that someone Adrian. But what I can be is your temporary release valve."

I turned my head to glance back at her. "Get off of me Riley!"

"Now I know this is hard for you to adjust to, having sex with someone your not in a relationship with. But it's fairly normal." She said before pinning my head to the couch.

"Fucking get off of me!" I shouted in frustration.

"Just face it Adrian!" She shouted in my ear. "With Quinn leaving you high and dry, and with your ex-girlfriend being out of the picture completely."

"Face it, you need someone to hold on to at night....or else you'll lose your mind." She said right into my ear before leaving a kiss on it.

I took a deep breath. "Can you just get off of me?"

"Not until you admit it." She said.

"Admit what?"

"That you get lonely at night, same as me. That you want someone to sleep in your bed with you and someone to help relieve all of your built up sexual frustration." She said.

"I......Riley come on." I let out before she pulled my head back by my hair.

"Admit it!" She snapped. "I know it's true."

"We can't. We live together Riley."

"Which is why we can. Come on Adrian what do you say?" She asked letting go of my hair and instead running her fingers through it. "No strings, no labels, just.....us."

"So....fuck buddies basically?"

"I like the term, friends with benefits. But yeah fuck buddies works." She said.

I sighed and nodded my head the best I could. "Ok."

"Just admit you want this as much as I do. I want you to be happy Adrian." She said before giving me enough space to roll over on to my back.

"I......I do want this." I moved my hands to her hips and ran them up under her hoodie. "On one condition."

"I'm all ears." She said.

I rolled us over and pressed my forehead against hers. "Don't ever....and I mean EVER....leave me with my pants down like that again."

"Deal." She said before kissing me.

I pulled away and ran my hand along her cheek. "Oh and also one more thing. Let's get this clear, I'm the top.....you're the bottom. Get it?"

"Hmmm....I sort of liked having my way with you." She said.

"Riley....take it or leave it."

"How about this, I'll let you be the 'top'. But....I still get to eat you out. What do you say?" She asked.

"Alright but on my terms." I smiled and leaned in closer. "Not spontaneously in the middle of our goddamn kitchen."

"I'm fine with that." She said smiling.

I ran my hand along her face before pressing it against her chest. "You know I almost forgot what this was like."

"What?" She asked.

"Having someone."

"You do know what 'no strings' means right?" She asked.

"I know!" I sighed and closed my eyes. "Just....just let me pretend for a moment that I don't."

I leaned in and locked my lips with hers. This felt different all of a sudden. This wasn't like getting eaten out in the middle of the kitchen. This was almost like I was with someone I cared about. I mean I did care about Riley, just not in the way that a girl cares for her girlfriend. I cared about Riley in that way that friends care for eachother. I'm almost certain she felt the same way. But now that I wasn't pinned against the kitchen counter with a hand over my mouth, I could finally appreciate Riley's body against mine.

Her skin was soft and warm against mine. She also smelled amazing, like.....vanilla and jasmine. Her lips were also so soft and plump against mine. Shit! This was actually kind of nice with me actual being in control this time. I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I was enjoying myself more than I should've. I moved my lips to her neck and lightly sucked on it. I could give two fucks if I left a hickey on her neck. She should've known better than to have her way with me like that in the kitchen.

I thought she would get upset when I started sucking harder on her neck, but instead it seemed to turn her on more. I heard her moan out my name as her legs wrapped around me. I also felt her hips starting to move against mine as I let my hand travel downwards in between us. Fuck this was so much better with me on top. Maybe I was selfish, but the only person I've ever been submissive to was Quinn.

Maybe it was because he was a guy or maybe it was just demeanor that made me go out of my comfort zone. Wait why am I still thinking about him? He doesn't think of me like that anymore. There was no point in dwelling on the past anymore. If I didn't then I'd just be a hypocrite for getting mad at him for the exact same thing. Fuck him, right now was about me and Riley. I finally pulled away from her neck to see the purple mark that I had left behind. Shit! I hope she wouldn't be mad me.

Riley didn't even seem to be paying attention to that. In fact her focus was on my hand that had stopped at the waistband of her shorts. She placed her hand on top of mine and moved it underneath her shorts. To my surprise she wasn't wearing any underwear, then again she was still rocking something else.

"I thought we talked about this." I cringed running my fingers along her slit.

"About what?" She asked.

I looked down at her crotch and then back up at her. "Really?"

"Oh thaaatttt." She said looking at her crotch as well.

"I thought I told you to shave that."

"You didn't tell me anything. You merely suggested it." She said looking back at me.

I brushed my finger against her clit. "Well now I'm telling you."

"Oooh I like this Adrian. You oughta let her come out more often." She said.

"Oh Riley....you have no idea." I whispered before pressing my lips against hers.

I immediately pushed my tongue into her mouth as my finger brushed agaisnt her clit again. Our tongues battled for dominance, but Riley should've known better. She may have caught me off guard in the kitchen, but when I'm in control, I stay in control. Oh I was gonna get her back for what she did to me in the kitchen, even if it took me all evening. Before I could even think about doing anything else, there was a sudden knock at the door.

I pulled away from Riley. "Fuck."

"Who could that be?" She asked as we both looked at the door.

I got off of her and walked over to the front door. "I don't know, I'll get it."

"I'm gonna hop in the shower, I expect you to join me when you're done dealing with who ever that is." Riley said before hopping off the couch and heading towards the bathroom.

"Don't expect anything." I sneered.

I turned and opened the front door to see a man standing right in front of it. He looked just a bit older than I was but the beard he had could've fooled me. He had on a pair of glasses, barley hiding the two black olives he had for eyes. I noticed he was holding something in his hands, an envelope.

"Hello." He said looking down at the envelope. "Are you Adrian...Hayes?"

"Who's asking?"

"Oh apologies ma'am. My name is Arthur." He said holding his hand out.

"Arthur huh?" I reached out and shook his hand. "Well what can I do you for?"

"Oh I found this in my mail." He said handing me the envelope. "I assumed it was just a mistake considering it's addressed to you."

"Well thank you."

"You're welcome. I live just across from you so if you need anything.....just knock." He said before walking away.

I closed my door with my eyes still locked on to the envelope. It looked like a letter considering it was stamped but it didn't have a return address on the back. It did however have my name written across the front of it. I walked into the living and sat down on the couch before ripping the envelope open. I pulled the piece of paper out of it and unfolded it to see that it was indeed a letter.....from Tristan. I instantly crumbled it in my hands just out of frustration. I hadn't heard a word from her in over a year and now she thinks she can just send me a fucking letter.

"How the hell did she even find my address? Fuck!"

My parents probably told her. A part of me wanted to open the letter again and read it. The other part of me wanted to throw it across the room and never look at it again. I should atleast see what the fuck she had to say after all this time. Maybe she still cared. No fuck that! She should've never abandoned me in the first place if she actually cared about my feelings. I stood up and walked into the kitchen and threw the piece of paper into the trashcan. I've moved on from Tristan, I need to keep it that way. Reading that letter would've only brought back old memories...and the pain that went with them.

My heart had been beating so fast ever since I read her name off the letter. I needed to take the edge off. If this was two years in the past, I'd be looking for a spoon and a lighter. But I'm sober now, so I went for the next best thing instead of drugs. I left the kitchen and started my stripping myself of my clothes in the hallway. By the time I made it to the bathroom I was as naked as the day I was born. The only item of clothing that remained on was my necklace, I didn't bother taking it off. I opened the door and was met with the steam of the shower that was running. I looked at the silhouette of Riley behind the curtain and thought of only one thing.

"Fuck Tristan." I muttered under my breath before pulling the shower curtain back.

"Took your time did ya?" Riley asked.

I didn't even respond to her, I just stepped into the shower and immediately pressed her up against the wall. My hand found it's way around her throat as my mouth pressed against hers. I was angry right now and I was gonna take it all out on Riley. I'd probably apologize if she hadn't done what she did earlier. This was my payback now. The warm water crashing down on both of us only added to the intensity that was happening in between my legs. I pulled away only a slight bit just to look at Riley for a moment. She didn't seemed that fazed from anything I just did.

I was only getting started. I turned her around and pinned her against the wall again. My grip on her throat only grew tighter as my other hand founds it way in between her legs again. However this time we wouldn't be interrupted. Without warning I plunged two of my fingers knuckle deep into her pussy. The moan that left her mouth only encouraged me the pull them out only to thrust them back in. I figured my mouth could've been doing something so I went back to kissing the corner of her mouth. Riley's moans only grew louder as I kept thrusting my fingers inside her. I felt a slight smile grow on my face as I heard let out an unexpected yelp.

Then I remembered how she pulled my hair earlier. So I released my grip of her throat just to yank her head back by her hair. My mouth traveled down to her neck and started working on another hickey. I wasn't gonna let her have all the fun. I pressed my against hers and focused on grinding my hips against her ass. I felt Riley's hand move in between her legs and on top of mine.

"Fuck! She was so fucking hot right now."

I felt myself going crazy again. The sounds of her sweet moans was driving my insane. I felt myself approaching another orgasm as I grinded myself against her ass harder. I added another finger into her and starting moving my fingers faster. I pulled my mouth off of her neck to see another purple mark left behind. The smile on my face only grew bigger at the sight. I let go of her hair and just focused on getting us both to our climax.

I started placing light kisses up and down her neck while my other hand squeezed one of her breasts. That apparently sent her over the edge as I felt her clamp around my fingers as her whole body seemed to just shake. I reached my peak soon after as I pressed my body against her even more. After a few more pumps of my fingers and a couple of kiss on her shoulder, I finally pulled away from her completely. My fingers were absolutely soaked, and not from the shower.

When Riley turned around I lifted my hand up and slowly pressed my fingers against her lips. She simply obliged and welcomed my fingers inside of her mouth. I felt her licking and sucking them clean before I pulled them out to replace them with my mouth. Not a lot of words needed to be spoken that night. We both knew what we got ourselves into with this whole "no strings" deal. It was best for both of us, we got to blow off some steam without the complications of a one night stand or a relationship. I for one needed this, with all that was going on between Quinn and now Tristan.

I slowly pulled my fingers from her mouth, trailing them down her neck. I felt  her soft skin resting against the pads of my fingers. Something about her was giving me familiar feelings of the past. I remember being in this same position with Tristan many times. The only difference was my arms didn't look this clean. I could see it now, lowering my eyes to my arm, I could see the old scars against my veins. The closer I looked the more I could see the holes that were once present against the inside of my forearm. My eyelids felt heavy, I could see the the veins in my arm almost bulging out.

I felt my heartbeat start to rise as the scars seemed to reopen. The familiar amber color of heroin began to leak from the holes in my arm. I jumped back and nearly fell out of the shower. I ran my hand across my arm a few times trying to wipe it away. I felt the oxygen in the room growing thinner, my lungs struggling to breath. I hunched over and felt my back collide with the shower wall.  I looked down at both of my arms and saw my veins throbbing against my skin. The warm feeling of heroin dripping down my wrists was all too familiar. I felt my mind spinning back out of control like it used to. I felt a trip slowly starting to warp reality around me. The room itself began to bleed color all around me. My hyperventilating was causing my heart rate to skyrocket. My heart was pounding against my chest hard, like it was trying to escape my chest.

"Adrian!"

I looked up at Riley's concerned face directly in front of me. So close I could feel her breath against my skin. I looked around and saw the room returning to normal. I looked down at my arms and saw the scars sealed back up. My veins were no longer bulging against my skin. In fact, I could hardly see my veins at all. My heart was still racing, but my breathing slowed down. I looked back up at Riley and raised a hand to my face. I felt small droplets beneath my eyes. I couldn't tell if it was the water from the shower or I was actually crying.

"Are you ok?" Riley asked.

I slowly nodded my head, I knew I was lying. Something wasn't right with my head, it was starting to change reality around me. It wasn't the first time it had done it, definitely the first time in years. I was on the verge of having a full on panic attack. If it wasn't for Riley, I would've fell over the edge and gone crazy. I leaned forward and captured her lips in my own. The soft feeling of her plump lips definitely helped calm me down. I moved my hands to her waist and pressed her against the wall again. I pulled away, glancing down at my arms to make sure they weren't acting up again. I felt Riley lips against the crook of my neck, making my arch my neck in pleasure.

During the worst times of my addiction, sex seemed to be the only thing that helped me fend off another needle. Tristan often made jokes about sex being more addicting than drugs. She had clearly never tried black tar heroin. But that was the old me, I was clean now. There would be no going back to that life, not if I wanted to live. Sex just had to be good enough for me not to go back. I was doing so well ever since I became sober. I'd do anything not look at another needle again. Atleast for now I had a distraction, even if Riley was far more than that to me. She had a point though, without this....I'd lose my mind for sure.