A/N: I have no idea where this came from but I hope you enjoy!! Sorry it's a bit cheesy. 

He always looks so adorable when he sleeps, you think to yourself. You were laying in bed with your want-to-be boyfriend and admired him as he looked like a sweet boy dreaming of ponies, even though you knew quite well that Jace was a madman and was probably dreaming of murdering old ladies. Damn, he was even darkening your thoughts. You resisted the urge to kiss him not wanting to be sappy or seemingly desperate, although you were. You carefully sat up and then wildly started jumping on your knees while carefully (roughly) nudging (shoving) him awake. Instead of him yelling hilarious surprised statements, he wrapped his arms around the pillow and dug his face into it groaning about how tired he was. 

"Jonathan," you cooed. "I wanna go to the park today!" His groaning stopped and he looked at you with his tired golden eyes. 

"Are you serious?" He asked huskily. You nodded your head and smiled excitedly. 

"Go on your own." He dug his face into his pillow again and left you a bit surprised. 

"Wow." You say, as if talking to yourself. "Maybe I should've accepted Sebastian's invitation to the carnival today..." At that Jace turned his head to you quickly and had that gleam in his eyes. 

"He what?" He asked, his voice always got uneven when he was angry. 

"Sebastian asked me to the carnival they're having  downtown today," you explain. "It's not like I had anything to do today..." More like it's not like you've made any moves to ask me out yet and I'm not going to chase after you forever, even if I'm in love with you. 

"Oh, why don't you just go with him." It wasn't a question, and he sounded very pissed off and on guard. 

"Because I prefer to be with you." God, why did you always sound so mean when you explain things? It was meant to sound reassuring and sweet, not like you were trying to pick a fight. 

"Really? Then why did you say you should've gone with him?" Jace sat up on the bed and had a demanding expression. You just crossed the line, and it was painted out in front of you. 

"Oh my God, seriously!?" You could feel the anxiety and angry pit in your stomach, please don't push me away. "Maybe because I'm sick of being your plaything and I actually want to date and have a happy ending!" A silence cut through the argument and you felt the sky on your shoulders waiting for a reaction. 

"Fine." Crack.  You felt as if two hands just started squeezing your heart. "I thought you actually wanted to be with me  because you've never said otherwise! Go, just go to the carnival with your new boyfriend." 

"Yes, Jonathan, I did want to be with you! You're who I always want to be with. But how can I live thinking that I'm stupid and in love with you while I'm just something you can mess around with!?" You felt heat rise to your cheeks and tears sting your eyes. You wish you could rewind back to when you were watching the most beautiful boy in the world dream in front of you. 

"I don't think you're stupid." He said, his voice slightly quiet. "And I'm not just messing around with you Y/N, but how was I supposed to know?" 

"Because you're the closest person I've ever been to in my life and I thought it was obvious that I was in love with you." You closed your eyes and felt the tears you were trying to hold back slip down your cheeks. This was it, the final straw, after this Jace would want nothing to do with you. You were unimportant and nothing to the world again, typical. 

"I'm in love with you too." Everything stopped. Your heart lost its pattern, you felt like breathing took hours to do. Even the dust in the room stopped dancing in the sunlight. "I thought if you wanted to be with me, you would have told me." Of course it was your fault, wasn't it always? You looked down at your hands and felt the bed move, he was leaving you. 

"Y/N?" You didn't have time to look up because Jace had his lips on yours and his bare arms wrapped around you. You were important, and you were something to Jace, your world.