It was late at night, but couldn't sleep, Lissa had long gone by now. However, every time I closed my eyes all I could see was that blonde haired male Strigoi that kidnapped my Mom. I remember the way the last look my mom gave me before she was taken from me, the memory still haunting my dreams. I hoped that Dimitri would come by soon, not wanting to alone with my terrible memories of that night.

Looking up at my clock upon my bare looking walls, I noticed it is only two forty five pm, the chances of Dimitri passing by were slim. Sighing, I threw back the covers of my bedding, I decided to go for a walk - if I get caught, I can use my Mom as the perfect excuse and was the reason I needed some air anyways.

Quickly, I slipped on my thick coat and a pair comfort sneakers before heading out the door. Soundlessly, I sneaked past the sleeping matron, who was sleeping in her chair behind her desk. 'Some night security guard, she is.'I thought to myself.

I was seconds away from heading inside the kitchen door, when I heard an angelic sounding voice sigh. I immediately knew who they were.

"Why can't you just stay in your room like everyone else?"Dimitri asked as I turned around. I noticed him standing there in his PJ bottoms and wife beater; damn he looked sexy.

"I couldn't sleep, every time I closed my eyes I... Well, you know..."I said sheepishly, I didn't realize how weird it sounded to me to be afraid of that until I spoke out loud. He gave a sympathetic look, one filled with a mixture of compassion and sorrow for me.

"Roza, you know you should come to my room or have gotten the matron to come get me. I know lately I haven't had much free time, but if you were having trouble you can always come see me no matter what,"Dimitri said.

"Well, I'm here now,"I said, grinning like a mad fool at his exasperated expression.

"Yes, I suppose so. Well, come on I'll walk you back to your room."Dimitri said with a wink.

Dimitri surprised me once we reached my dorm room as he followed me inside, locking the door. I walked over and sat down on my bed, Dimitri reached out and held me close in his arms for a brief few moments. When Dimitri leaned back slightly, concern was plastered across his face.

"How are you really? - And don't give me that 'I'm fine' crap, I know you're not fine,"said Dimitri.

I sighed.

"I just don't know how to process all these emotions I'm feeling. I was just starting to form a real relationship with my mother, and then this happens,"I said.

Dimitri nodded in understanding, but didn't anything. I knew Dimitri had to leave soon because he was duty again, but I didn't mind as I had plenty to do before tomorrow. Once Dimitri left in alone in my dorm room, I formed a plan and I tended on sticking with it too.

First of all I finished up on my paperwork, once that was done. I started packing some essentials I would need, and ensured my papers were in order in my bag. Lastly, I made my way down to the guest house. I knocked frantically on the door, Adrian swung open the door after the fifth or sixth knocks.

"Little Dhampir, what can I do for you?"Adrian asked, clearly surprised.

"I need your help."I stated.

"What can I do for you?"Adrian asked.

"I need some money so I go kill my Mom to free her soul - and before you say anything, please understand that my Mom would do the same for me,"I said.

"Okay,"Adrian said.

"Okay?"I asked.

"Yeah, give me five minutes."

I stood there stunned, I didn't suspect him to give in so easily to my request. Adrian was now on his phone making arrangements for me, then went back inside his room to collect a pile of hundred dollar bills.

"Okay, when you get to town, go straight to the bank and show them your ID, they'll make sure everything is set up. You'll have unlimited funds. However, I have only one condition, that I can check up on you whenever I feel like it in your dreams. That's it, I won't ask where you are or anything else, I just want to know that your safe."Adrian said.

I agreed and hugged him, thanking him and said goodbye. I decided earlier on that I wasn't going to tell anyone else or say goodbye to them. However, I was going to leave a note behind for Lissa and Dimitri at the front office as I knew they would try to stop me, if they knew the truth. In my letter I would explain my reasoning and that I was planning on returning was I've freed my Mom souls - hopefully.

The rest of the day went by as normal, but I called an early night, blaming my lack of sleep from the night before. So, I woke up extremely early - the office secretary wasn't even in her office, to even to withdraw and leave. As I rounded the corner to the main office I stopped in my tracks.

"Shit!"I mumbled.

Dimitri stood leaning against the wall of the office with his arms crossed. I was so busted by my Russian God boyfriend - well, sort of boyfriend.