🚨 not yet, but soon 🚨

Hoseok and Yoongi walked along together on the way to Hoseok's apartment. The younger was trying to lead his bike alongside them, so Yoongi rested his hand on top of his boyfriend's hand since he couldn't hold it properly.

As they walked, Hoseok felt the adrenaline leftover from the shower still pumping through him. But without warning, it morphed into apprehension. This would be their official first time together. Of course, Hoseok had had his fair share of partners and past relationships - he was twenty-five years old.

But this felt different.

For the first time in a long time, he was nervous and genuinely wanted everything to be perfect. He'd texted Taehyung before they left the studio that he needed the apartment empty, so at least that was taken care of. But was his bedroom clean? How could he not remember if he'd put away his laundry?

He felt Yoongi's hand squeeze his own on the handlebars of his bike and his thoughts continued. Would they be on each other right out the gate? Did he need to play music? Did he need to light candles? Would Taehyung be hiding in his closet?

Hoseok locked his bike in the courtyard of the building and unlocked the front door. They climbed the stairs and the younger led Yoongi into the apartment and slid off his shoes.

The air was suddenly heavy.

Hoseok didn't know what to do with his hands, which were subtly (he hoped) shaking. He'd built all of this up in his mind and now here they were in his empty apartment. He was terrified. He knew he needed to communicate this but wasn't sure how. Yoongi appreciates when I'm upfront, so...

"Okay, I know that like... twenty minutes ago I had your dick in my mouth, but I'm kind of freaking the fuck out right now."

Yoongi looked into his eyes for a full two seconds before they both burst into laughter.

"It's fine, babe. If you want to just watch a movie or listen to music we can do that instead. Your pace."

Every tense muscle in his body relaxed at the words. "Thanks, Yoongi."

They went into Hoseok's room and he connected his phone to the bluetooth speakers. 

He handed the phone to Yoongi as they both sat on the bed and waited for him to choose some music. Of course, Yoongi just pressed shuffle being confronted with so much to choose from.

🔀

5SOS's Youngblood came on. [a/n this was just on in my sister's car... ughhh i hate that it gets stuck in my head... seyuwami, seyuwami 😂]

Hoseok taught a routine to this song last year with his beginner class and he showed Yoongi some of the moves, laughing about how his students hated him for it.

They listened for the first minute and a half or so until Hoseok could no longer contain himself. Soon he began dramatically lip-syncing complete with standing on the bed. He knew he was a dork, but he didn't care.

Yoongi had rolled down to the floor laughing at this point, waving his arms in the air to play along that his boyfriend was on a stage.

🔀

Next was Tupac's California Love.

Hoseok continued to throw his one-man concert when he noticed Yoongi rapping along on the floor.

He jumped down and grabbed a couple of markers from his desk to serve as microphones and soon the whole situation devolved into full-scale buffoonery as both of them jumped on and off the bed, going all out in their performance. [are you imagining this? are youuu?]

🔀

[a/n  let me know if you find that my little soundtrack distracts/detracts 😊]

https://youtu.be/xXFdnHiGwos

The song changed to Billie Eilish's come out and play. 

Hoseok's internal oof at the sudden change in energy in the room was almost audible.

"This makes me sleepy" Yoongi smiled.

They both sat back on the bed, side by side. Hoseok situated himself so he could lean his head on his boyfriend's shoulder.

The older closed his eyes and wondered how spending time with Hoseok could feel like fireworks and a warm blanket all at once. How he could have such bittersweet feelings: he was happiest around his boyfriend, but he was also terrified that Hoseok would figure out how worthless he was. 

Logically, he understood that this was his anxiety talking, but that didn't stop him from savoring each day with Hoseok as if it were his last.

He tapped his hand around blindly on the bed until he found his target. The younger unfurled his hand allowing Yoongi to interlace their fingers. He became acutely aware of their pulses. His own was going at a frantic pace as usual around his boyfriend, but Hoseok's was steady. He wondered if Hoseok felt the difference.

Hoseok stared at their hands, intertwined together on his lap. He studied the shape of their hands together. Yoongi's hands were a little bigger than his own. They fit him like his favorite sweater - slightly oversized and the best at keeping him warm. He concluded, to himself, that this was where his hands belonged.

He interrupted the quiet with a soft chuckle, looking over at his boyfriend, "Thanks for acting like an idiot with me. Usually, I have to be an idiot alone."

Yoongi sat against the headboard leaning his head back with his eyes still closed, listening to the music. "You're not an idiot. You're the best."

Hoseok's gaze fell from the older's closed eyes and dark eyelashes to his lips that were always relaxed into a permanent pout, then down to his jawline. He leaned over and pressed a quick peck onto Yoongi's chin. At the touch, Yoongi tilted his head closer and hovered near Hoseok's face, waiting for him to close the gap.

The kiss began softly. At first. 

But as Yoongi's hand unconsciously dragged along his thigh, Hoseok initiated more intensity, realizing how much he fucking wanted this. 

He climbed onto the older's lap and they continued to communicate with their bodies alone.

🚨get🚨ready🚨y'all🚨

🔀 Collide

https://youtu.be/OUnjfKZ8Bvc

He buried his hands into Yoongi's hair, his fingers twisting in the soft, black strands, as the older trailed his tongue down his neck. He let out a soft whimper as Yoongi reversed his direction, dragging his bottom lip and releasing his hot breath on the line of wet skin.

Yoongi swept his hands down Hoseok's body, slipping them into the younger's back pockets, rocking and grinding his boyfriend down harder into his lap. Hoseok moaned out into his mouth, moving his hips to the rise and fall of the beat of the song and pressing himself onto Yoongi's erection which strained against his jeans.

Yoongi pulled back, just taking in the show for a moment. "How do you want to do this? What do you need, babe?" he whispered.

Hoseok barely waited for the question to be asked. "I want you inside me." His whole body was humming with anticipation as he slipped his hands under the hem of Yoongi's shirt.

♫ although i'm not perfect, i feel perfect in your eyes ♫

They took turns silently touching articles of clothing, waiting for nods of permission before slipping them off, covering the newly exposed territory with kisses and licks. [a/n i'm, like, fanning myself with a university letter, y'all]

♫ come and crash down to me, 'cause i want us to collide ♫

Yoongi gently pushed Hoseok onto his back and the younger followed his boyfriend with his eyes as his lips attended to his body. Hoseok felt the hums within him grow steadily into silent screams as goosebumps decorating every place touched by the other's lips. The kisses continued but when they reached his erection Yoongi paused, compelled to wait for permission and hoping he wasn't ruining the mood with his habit.

"Please don't stop." Hoseok breathed, and Yoongi took it from there, taking as much of his length as he could and using his hand to pump the rest. He began slowly then increased his pace, working his tongue like he had a deadline.

The sounds pouring from Hoseok's mouth were enough to fill him with the urge to take him right then, but Yoongi put his own need on hold. He'd made a policy with himself since they first started discussing sex that when Hoseok granted him control, he would always satisfy him before himself.

"B-baby, I'm so close." Hoseok sputtered.

Yoongi rested Hoseok's thighs onto his shoulders, feeling the younger locking his ankles together on his shoulder blades before bending his knees to pull him in closer. Yoongi took in the entire length and hummed, providing the vibration to push Hoseok over the edge. He reveled in the gasps he earned from his boyfriend as his body tensed and the younger released into the back of his throat.

Yoongi swallowed and kissed his way back up to Hoseok's lips. They shared a slow kiss before the younger pulled away.

"Should I turn off the music?" Hoseok mumbled, in the back of his mind worrying about something ridiculous popping up on shuffle at some crucial point in their activities. [take it off now, girl, just take it off 🙃]

"I don't really notice it," Yoongi said flatly. It was true. He was entirely focused on Hoseok.

[a/n]

i split the chapter into two because otherwise, it'll be really long

take a breather

or not