so this is inconvenient

i wrote this at 3 am when i wanted to rage-quit life.

i read it again and edited out some fuck words.

let me say first that i am endlessly thankful that so many people have been reading my story. i never thought that people would be interested tbh.

i've been able to joke around with you guys in the comments and relate to you guys over things in my plot (both emo and uplifting and even just pretty wording).

and i think i found some friends (i dunno, it might be in my head as i tend to adopt people)

i've gotten so many kind words about my writing and what you guys got from it that it's honestly made me cry a lot to "hear" (read) such nice things about myself.

however

i need to take a break.

it's hard to explain without getting into exactly what's going on in my life. but it's almost comforting because in a way you already know some of what's going on with me from reading my story.

i am all over the (virtual) pages.

Yoongi panics & is depressed, i panic and am depressed

Hoseok is positive for others and gives every last drop to those he loves, same

Jungkook is lonely and making bad decisions, i am lonely (and have made bad decisions recently, fuck)

Taehyung is a sexual deviant, i am --- shutting up 🤭🤭😂

anyway

i'm having a hard time right now with school and work and just being.

it almost physically pains me because i enjoy writing this story so much, but i need to take a break and maybe just be a reader for a while as i decompress.

so i'll be here. and as always, please continue to message me for anything: if you need to talk or if you want to watch ridiculous videos with me (i recommend BTS does the Cha Cha Slide - pure gold. wait, really. can someone message me and watch with me at some point because i guarantee you it will make both of our days).

i'm really sorry.

💜