A.N// omg i'm 15 now...*cue stressed out by tøp and confetti* anyway, enough about me, i made this for you so enjoy!!
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Luke's POV

As I drove further away from Kate's house and closer to the airport, the nervous butterflies in the pit of my stomach continued to grow. Anxiousness started to consume every single one of my thoughts, making my mind run a thousand miles a minute and my hands shake involuntarily against the steering wheel.

I didn't know why I was so nervous in the first place. I already knew my brothers' thoughts on Kate. They loved her like she was their sister. I was the same, or so I thought.

My love for Kate had always been platonic up until I was about fifteen, that's when I started to feel a little different. It seemed like she got more beautiful with everyday that passed by, and I couldn't help the heat that rushed to my cheeks when she looked at me or tingling that shot down my spine every time she said my name.

I kissed her for the first time when I was fifteen, and the feeling it gave me scared the life out of my living soul. I ran away from it, partly because I didn't know what that feeing was, but I was also scared.

I didn't feel like I could tell anybody because my mom would set fire to my ass for kissing before twenty. I thought my friends would make fun of me, and my brothers would obviously be no help. I somehow knew they would be all mushy about me liking someone, and I wasn't going to put myself through all the teasing and subtle hint drops around Kate. No thank you.

I just chose to ignore it, and at this point I have to admit that it wasn't the best choice that I've ever made, but it worked for me. I ignored those feelings until I couldn't ignore them anymore, and when they hit even stronger is when I distanced myself from her.

That's when she and Calum became the best of friends, and for a second, I thought their relationship was stronger than ours had ever been. For some reason, I always had a feeling that she would choose him over me, and that scared me even more.

When we made the deal about the lessons is when I felt some relief, but I still felt bad. It seemed like the only way I could secure 'us', the only way I could make up for all the time we lost when I was trying to figure out my heart with my head. That plan had holes in it to begin with, and it definitely didn't work out the way I wanted it to.

She still found a guy, who wasn't me, and she started hanging out with him while I was giving her those lessons. Also, the entire things was based off of us not having any feelings towards each other and I was stupid enough to come up with it knowing that my pull to her got stronger with every day that passed.

I was lucky enough for them to end things with him after roughly two and a half months, but there was still this underlying guilt in me about what I was hiding from her. I knew I should've told her before, but as our relationship progressed, I didn't think it mattered that much. Now, I'm starting to think otherwise.

I'd thought about telling her a few times, but ultimately deciding against it, saving the secret for later. I didn't think it would change anything, but I felt like she needed to know.

All of my thoughts seemed to calm me down for most of the drive, that is, until I mindlessly pulled into the entrance of the airport. I saw my parents walking in while I was trying to find a place to park, signaling that I was right on time.

Once I found a spot, I parked the car, turned it off and got out. It took about two minutes to get inside since I'd parked so far back. To be fair, it was pretty crowded so I only had a few spaces to choose from.

I found my parents after a couple minutes of walking deeper into the airport. I assumed they were headed towards the terminal Ben and Jack were meant to be picked up at.

I convinced myself that everything was going to be fine and that I should just stop overthinking it. That didn't seem to work though because I could feel the blood pumping behind my ears, thoughts swimming inside my head of all of the worst possible case scenarios.

I caught up to my parents before my adrenaline rush could get too out of hand.

"Hey," I said, walking up next to my mum.

"You're right on time, Luke," she told me.

"Do you know if they've landed yet?"

"No, I don't think they have. Jack said he would call when they did," she informed me. That was great for me because the closer we got to the terminal, the faster my anxiousness started to return. I needed to be calmed down, and it had to be before they came or else they would know almost immediately that something was up.

"Oh okay," I responded flatly. After a couple more minutes of walking, I spoke again. "I need to use the restroom. I'll be right back."

"Alright, we'll be in terminal seven whenever you're done," my dad said. I nodded in response before taking a detour to the nearest secluded area.

I didn't actually need to go the the restroom, I needed to call her. I knew that she would be the only person able to calm me down in the moment, and for a split second, I wished I'd brought her here with me. I quickly shut the thought down though because that wasn't a good idea if our plan was to wait to tell them.

Once I found an open space, off to the side from all of the business, I took out my phone out of my pocket. I quickly dialed Kate's cell number, and I pressed the phone to my ear. Eight rings went by before I got her voicemail.

Sighing in frustration, I called back. The line rung and rung, and I received voicemail once again. That's when I started to panic. It was almost like I couldn't stay in one spot. I tried sitting, but my leg started bouncing up and down. When I stood, it seemed like I couldn't stop pacing.

By this time, I'd called her at least six times already. My palms were starting to sweat, and I could feel how damp my hair was as I took the beanie off and ran a hand through it. I decided to call once more before I started to properly freak out.

I dialed her number for the last time and was lucky enough to have her pick up on the first ring. I sighed in relief, all of my racing thoughts coming to a stop with just the sound of her voice on the other side of the call.

"Luke? What's wrong?" she questioned immediately. She must've saw all of her missed calls from me.

"Hey," I breathed deeply. I was still feeling a little uneasy, my breathing labored as I tried to calm myself down. "I just...um, I just needed to hear your voice. I was starting to worry because you weren't answering," I replied honestly.

"Oh, sorry. I just got out of the shower. Are you okay?"

"Kind of. We're waiting for Ben and Jack to land and all that, well, my mum and dad are. I was starting to freak out, so I excused myself for a bit. I told them I was going to the bathroom." I was using two hands to hold onto my phone because that's just how bad my hands were shaking.

I wasn't nervous about seeing my brothers, they were just my brothers after all. I was nervous about their opinion of Kate and I being together. I desperately wanted them to accept the relationship, and I was hoping they didn't find it weird because we'd treated one another like we were siblings for the longest time.

It would hurt a little if they didn't think we were good together because I didn't plan on ever being away from Kate. I believed that she was it for me, and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

"Is there anything I can do to help?" Her voice full of worry through the receiver. I shook my head, even though she couldn't see me.

"I don't know. Maybe you could stay on the phone, just until I calm down some?" I proposed. I finally took a seat in a nearby chair, and I put my beanie back on. I could only imagine how atrocious my hair looked after all of that sweating and frantic pulling.

"Sure, babe," she agreed, warmness spreading through my body at the subtle pet name she called me. Kate used it rarely, only on some occasions. She mostly called me by my name and left all of the pet name calling to me. When she did use it though, I wasn't complaining, and she knew just when the right time was and how to say it.

"God, I'm nervous," I said to her, making her giggle.

"Luke, don't be. It's just Ben and Jack. They're the same as they were when they came home six months ago. It'll be just fine." I sighed for the hundredth time today. This was really stressing me out.

"I know, but we weren't a thing six months ago. I'm just afraid of their reaction. I just want it to be a good one," I practically whined. I stood from the chair I was sat in once again, and I just paced in circles, my anxiety levels rising by the second.

"Don't focus on that right now. Just enjoy the first few moments you have with them once you see them again, and we'll start worrying about their opinion when it comes time to tell them. Promise me?" she consoled. I know she was trying her best, and it was only right for me to take her advice and just calm down, especially for the sake of me enjoying myself.

"I promise," I agreed, making my way back to the main part of the airport. I remembered my dad saying something about terminal seven, so I headed there.

"Deep breaths, Luke."

I started doing as she said, taking deep breaths the closer I got to terminal seven. The room seemed to return to its normal size, not the closed off trap I was feeling a few minutes ago.

"I love you, Kate," I stated, sighing afterwards. I honestly didn't know what I'd do without her. I seemed to be a hundred times more calm now than I was a few minutes ago, and it was all thanks to her. Maybe I should've listened and taken up on her offer to relax me before I left. Now that I think about it, we probably could've made it quick.

I looked up, and I could see my parents sitting down where I assumed terminal seven was located, so I walked in that direction.

"I love you too." I could hear shuffling on her end, which meant she was probably moving around. "If you're not hanging out with them tomorrow, we can do something maybe?" Even though I couldn't see her, I knew she was smiling, and I knew exactly what she meant.

I had to remind myself that I was in public before I let my hormones take complete control of me. Although I was full on blushing, I could easily come up with an excuse as to why.

"Yeah, I'll let you know. I think my mum's making lunch, and you're probably invited so I guess those are the plans," I explained. I was only about a hundred feet from where my parents were now, and that meant it was time to wrap up the call.

"Okay, I'll see you tomorrow."

"Tonight," I countered. Waiting until tomorrow to see her would probably drive me crazy. I needed to see her tonight, and not necessarily to have sex, but just to see her face.

"What?" she asked, most likely confused.

"I'm stopping by yours on my way home." By now, I made it to my parents, and it looked like they were still waiting.

"Oh, alright. I'll see you in a little while then. I love you," she said softly.

"I love you. Bye," I responded. I took the phone away from my ear and ended the call before taking a seat next to my parents.

"Ben texted me about a minute ago saying they just landed, so they should be out any second now," my mum told me. I nodded, and she rose an eyebrow at me. I knew there was no way I could hide anything from her because she could read me like an open book. "What's the matter?"

"What are you talking about?" The was no point trying to hide my emotions, but I didn't want to give anything away until I knew exactly what she meant.

"You're all red in the face, and you can't sit still. Are you okay?" Mum reiterated. I just nodded, not trusting my voice. "You know you can tell me what's going on right?"

"Yeah..."

"Then, tell me what's wrong," she prodded. She always found someway to get the truth out of me. That's why I was praying that she never asked me anything about sex because I was already super transparent as it was.

"I'm just nervous," I confessed, deeply sighing afterwards.

"To see your brothers?"

"Yeah."

"How come?" she questioned, trying her best to get to the bottom of the situation. I just shrugged, I didn't want to tell her the real reason, but she would find out sooner or later so there was no point.

"Because they don't know that-" I was cut off by my dad standing. I turned around and looked toward the direction he was focused, and I could see both of my brothers walking to where we were, suitcases rolling behind them.

I stood, along with my mum and dad, welcoming as they made their way over to us. A smile took over my face as the guys I hadn't seen in half a year came closer and closer.

Jack came straight me me, and Ben went to my parents.

"Luke! How've you been?" he asked excitedly. I'd grown a little since the last time we saw each other, so I was a few inches taller than him now.

"Good, I've been good. What about you how's school?"

"Eh, you know how I feel about school, but my grades are decent. That's all that matters," he replied lightheartedly, making me chuckle.

"Yeah, I know. What about Ben?"

"We all know he's a goody two shoes, always trying to one up me with his straight A's, but it's fine. I know that's just how he is," Jack said, making me laugh even more, but nod as well because I knew it was true.

"Well, I'm glad to have you guys back for a few weeks," I told him honestly.

A smile spread across his face and he pulled me into a hug. "Aw," he gushed, just like I knew he would. He pulled away but kept his hands on my shoulders, scanning me from head to toe. "You've gotten taller," he pointed out.

"Yeah, just a little." He pulled me back in for a hug and tried to lift me off of the ground. I panicked at first, but composed myself as he spun me and set me back in my feet.

"We're going to have so much fun," he said, waving Ben over. "Look at how tall Luke is now."

"Woah, mate you're like a tower. Since when?" Ben questioned.

"Over the last few months I guess." He squinted while looking at my face, like he was inspected me or something. My anxiety started to kick in for like the tenth time tonight, but I had to remind myself to take deep breaths and try not to freak out.

"There's something different about you, but I can't quite put my finger on it," he said slowly. Heat rushed to my cheeks while Jack joined in on his observing.

"Yeah," Jack agreed, but I shook my head, shutting down any assumptions before they even started to form inside their heads.

After a couple more minutes of taking, Jack slowly retracted from our little group to go say hi to Mum and Dad while I carried in a short conversation with my oldest older brother. Once everyone was done with their greetings and short catch ups, we were about ready to leave.

Mum grabbed her camera from off of the seat she was sitting in and hailed a random person walking by in the airport.

"Hey, excuse me," Mum called to the thin girl. She looked to be around fourteen, but the glasses she was wearing, made her look highly intelligent. She had a camera hanging a round her neck, so I assumed she knew what she was doing.

The girl turned around, large eyes alert as she responded to my mum's call.

"Yes?"

"If it's not a bother, would you take a group picture of us with my camera? I'd do it myself, but I'd like to be included in the photo," she requested. The girl nodded with a smile, holding her hand out for Mum to give her the camera.

She passed it over to her, and the girl turned it on. My mum set us up how she wanted us to be standing. As soon as we were ready she gave the girl a thumbs up.

"Okay, I'm taking it in three, two, one," she announced, the flash going off a second later. She took a couple more after that, and she looked quite professional doing it.

When she was finished, she handed the camera back to my mum, and my mum looked at all the pictures carefully.

"These are all very lovely. Thank you so much," she praised the girl, making her smile and bow like she just finished a crowd pleasing show.

"It was no problem," the young girl said in return. She waved to us as she walked away, a smile covering her face due to the high praising she got for the quality pictures she took of us.

"Alright, boys," Mum started, drawing attention from the four of us. "I think we should get going, and we can have a movie night when we get home, just to catch up a little," she proposed. We all cheered in agreement, but my heart wasn't completely there. It was going to be harder to wait than I thought.

"What are we going to watch?" Ben asked.

"That's up to you and Jack. You guys can pick," she said, walking back towards the entrance of the airport so we could prepare for departure. "That's when we get home though. You guys out your luggage in Dad and I's car, and you can ride with Luke."

My head snapped up at the mention of my name, and I swear my eyes were pleading with her to make different transportation arrangements. She just shook her head and gave me a 'whatever I say goes' kind of look. I huffed in agreement and trudged my way out of the airport.

Dad took their luggage when we went our separate ways, and Ben and Jack followed closely behind me on the way to my car. Once we got there, I unlocked it and we all got in. I waited for everyone's seatbelts to be buckled before I started the car and drove out of the parking lot.
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Most of the car ride was filled with laughing and singing along to music and I felt like we had picked up right where we left off. It wasn't as awkward as I pictured it, and I was grateful for that.

We were about ten minutes from home when I took a detour to Kate's house. I wasn't about to cancel my plans of stopping by just because my brothers were now in the car with me. I still needed to see her, but now more than before.

This raised questions though, and I mentally cursed myself for being so codependent.

"Hey, where are we going?" Jack asked from beside me. We'd made Ben sit in the back, that was the power of the younger siblings.

"I'm stopping by Kate's house before we go home. I left my charger there and my phone is about to die," I lied. Well, only half of it was a lie. My phone was on its last few percentages, but my charger was plugged up in my room next to my bed.

"Oh, Kate's house?" I nodded keeping my eyes focused on the road. "I haven't seen her in so long."

"It's only been like six months," I laughed. He only got to see her once when they visited the last time though. I guess he would be seeing more of her now that we were together, but he didn't know that yet.

"I know, but I only saw her like once the last time I was here."

"Yeah, I remember," I told him, a little bite in my voice.

"Wait," Ben interrupted. "Why's your charger at her house? You must've been there recently?" he questioned. I could see him raising an eyebrow at me through my rearview mirror.

"I was, after school actually," I clarified. His eyes widened, and I could see all of the speculations forming behind his eyes. He was just as easy to read as I was. "Ashton, Calum, Michael and I were hanging out there before we had to come get you guys. That's why," I fibbed again. This seemed to keep him at bay for the time being.

A few minutes later we arrived at her house. I put the car in park and got out quickly, telling my brothers that I'd be right back. I scanned the driveway, one of her parents cars missing, meaning they were either out or one of them was away. I guess I would find out when I got inside.

I realized that I left my copy of her key in the car, so I just rang the doorbell. I was doing a pretty good job of keeping myself calm, but I was slowly losing it.

My breath was nearly stolen from me when she finally opened the door. She was smiling and subtly biting her lip. The only clothing covering her body was a sports bra and spandex pants. Her hair, which was usually pulled back if he was working out, was hanging down and framing her face.

It seemed like the words were stuck in my throat as I just stood there gaping at her. She giggled before I snapped out of it.

"Hey," I spoke first.

"Luke, why are you being so awkward?" she asked, laughing even harder.

"Sorry," I apologized. I didn't know why I was apologizing. "I can't help it sometimes. I'm just a smol bean," I said, making her laugh even more.

"You did not just say that," she laughed, tears forming in the corners of her eyes.

"Indeed I did."

She calmed herself down a few seconds later, and her playful demeanor quickly changed to one of desire. Her eyes turned a few shades darker and she grabbed fistfuls of my shirt in either side and pulled me to her, closing the front door with her foot.

As soon as it shut, she let go of my shirt and cupped my cheeks in her hands. My lips parted from her touch. She pulled me down ever so slowly, not wanting to rush it, but I'd already been in here for about five minutes. Ben and Jack were probably going to question me when I got back, but at this moment I really didn't care.

Her lips finally met mine and it was like time slowed even further, but the my pulse quickened, and it felt like I could explode. Kate was teasing with the amount of tongue she decided to use, smirking against my mouth. I tried so hard to deepen the kiss, not being able to get enough of her, but she was holding her ground, keeping the tongue use very low.

My hands we balled up by my sides, my frustration levels going down with every second her lips were on mine. I was starting relax, my hands subconsciously resting on her waist.

All of my thoughts seemed to be shut off as I was just thinking about her. I was about to pull away, not because I was done, but to kiss her in other places. That obviously wasn't in her plans though because she held my face where it was and pushed her tongue past my lips, finally giving me the relief I'd come here looking for.

I moaned in response, not even caring how loud I was being. She started walking backwards, taking me with her.

"Jump," I requested, my mouth still covering hers. She obliged and wrapped her legs loosely around my lower torso. I walked up so that her back was against the wall.

This reminded me of one of the first lessons I gave her. She was shy with all of the intimate stuff, but I got her to open to me after a few weeks of constant lessons. I was fortunate enough to be wearing sweatpants because they could at least conceal my hard on a little bit. I was still pretty sure she could feel it against her though especially with only the thin fabric covering her.

I just needed for my brothers not to notice when I got back to the car. My brothers...

I was too lost in the moment to stop, so I just removed my mouth from hers and attached it to the skin on her neck. I wanted to heat up the moment just a little more before it came to a halt. I gently nipped on a few random spots, being extra careful to not leave any marks.

Whines surfaced and quietly left her lips, which were swollen from all the kissing we'd just did. Her hands ran through my hair, something she knew drove me insane. My beanie fell to the ground, but I didn't care. I pressed a few more kisses to her neck while making my way to her ear.

"You're so lucky this thing," I started, popping one of the thick straps against her soft skin. She moaned a little louder this time and tightened her legs around my waist. "Is complicated or else I'd be peeling it off of you right now," I whispered, my lips resting against her skin.

"I'll help you," she offered, shallow breaths leaving her mouth.

"Baby, I wish I could, but my brothers are outside in the car. They've been waiting, and it's been almost fifteen minutes," I told her, still kissing her neck gently. I used my nose to nudge her cheek so I could have better access. She sighed, but I didn't know what it meant.

"It's okay, maybe later?"

"Definitely," I agreed, pulling away to peck her on the lips and letting her down. She smiled at me before resting her head against my chest, encasing herself in my arms.

"I wanna go say hi," she said, suddenly cheering up.

"Yeah, okay." She pulled away and ran upstairs. I followed behind her and took a seat on her bed once we got in her room. She grabbed a loose fitting shirt and threw that on along with some running shoes to go over her socks. Just as we were about to leave, I got her attention. "Kate, let me borrow your charger for a second, I told Ben and Jack that we were coming here because I left it."

"It's over there," she said pointing to her nightstand. I went over there and grabbed it out of the wall, putting it in my pocket.

Kate turned off the lights in her room and we made our way outside so she could say hello.

"Oh my god, we thought you fell in a hole," Jack announced, rolling down his window. Kate was walking behind me, so they couldn't see her.

"Sorry," I apologized. Kate stepped from behind me and Jack's eyes widened.

"Kate! Oh my god!" he basically screamed. He opened his door quickly and engulfed her in a hug, one that swept her off of her feet, making her giggle. Ben got out of the car too.

"Hi guys," she greeted. "How are you?"

"Pretty good," Ben responded first.

"Me too. And yourself?" Jack asked. He always had a way with the girls, but Kate was safe because their relationship was strictly platonic.

"Yeah, I've been good too," she replied. "I just came out to say hi."

"Really?" Jack questioned, and she nodded. "Well, we're just just going home and having movie night. You should come with us. I don't think mum and dad would mind?" He invited her, turning to Ben and I to make sure it was okay.

"Yeah, that would be fun," Ben agreed.

"I don't think that's the best idea," I said, looking at Kate. She completely understood what I was doing.

"Aw, Luke don't be a party pooper," Jack teased me. I huffed but gave in.

"Fine." I went around to my side and got in, Kate sitting in the seat behind me. I didn't want to make a big deal of her sitting in the passenger seat because it was cause attention, so I let Jack keep his seat.

"What took you so long in there?" Ben asked. I mentally cursed his brain for remembering that, and I sighed before answering. Only, Kate cut me off.

"I couldn't find where I put his charger because I misplaced it while cleaning up. It took such a long time to find it even though it was in one of the most obvious place," she explained, laughing lightly to herself. They both nodded along, her explanation pretty believable.

I adjusted my rearview mirror so I could see her. She winked at me, and a smile overtook my face. Kate was the best friend anyone could ever ask for, and I just so happened to be madly in love with her.
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A.N// hey hey hey!!! sorry about the complications earlier i accidentally posted the chapter when i wasn't done with it lol sorry, but it's here now so let's celebrate!!

OMG CAN WE TALK ABOUT GIRLS TALK BOYS...let that sink in for a second...AND THE FACT THEY PLAYED IT LIVE AND LUKE WAS ON THE PIANO OMFG KILL ME NOW

also LUKE IS OFFICIALLY 20 "if you hear that it's the sound of all the crying fan girls and my heart shattering against the concrete floor"

and IM OFFICIALLY 15!! thank you for all of the birthday wishes i got on snapchat and all that i love you guys so much!!

MY SLFL SHOW IS IN EXACTLY A WEEK OMGG if you're going to slfl atlanta hmu, i wanna meet some of you!!

what do you think luke's secret is?? ooo sketchy

the next chapter should be soon because the next few are gonna be interesting haha

i'll talk to you guys later, let me know your thoughts about:

THIS BOOK

GIRLS TALK BOYS

alright, that's it ily all BYEE
-cam <3