A.N// couldn't sleep, so i wrote this lol @ my life. hope you like
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Kate's POV

Friday

When I woke up, I got ready for school like normal. Luke ended up staying at my house for the rest of the week, only leaving for school, band practice, or if he had to go home when he needed more clothes.

He drove me to school instead of Calum, and for every class we didn't have together, we would secret text each other the entire time. I felt like things were finally able going back to normal, and life was playing out well.

Wednesday was when I got a text from my dad.

Da(vi)d
I talked to me boss and explained to him that you'll be home alone for the entirety of my trip, and he said the company will pay for you to fly out here and stay with me until the job is done. This is only if you want to though. Please respond as soon as you decide.

I wasn't sure if I wanted to take him up on his offer, so I didn't respond. Things were finally back on track with Luke, and I didn't want to jeopardize anything by leaving for weeks on end.

I thought about the offer everyday since I'd gotten it though because although I wanted to spend more time with my mom and dad, I wanted to do it in the comfort of our own hometown, or when they weren't working every hour of everyday.

I stopped on that quickly though to focus on the upcoming date I had with Luke later. He woke up about thirty minutes after me to get ready for school. He took a shower, same as I, and he got dressed in under ten minutes.

He came downstairs and ate breakfast with me, which was just some random fruit I chopped up and put in a small bowl. We made light conversation until we were done with our food.

"So, are you excited for our date tonight?" he asked.

"Yeah, I guess," I responded shrugging.

"You guess?" He raised his eyebrow, and I laughed at him.

"Of course I'm excited for our date Luke," I said smiling. By this time, we were both done with out fruit salads, so he leaned in and left a lingering kiss on my lips.

"I am too, more than you could imagine," he responded when he came up. Like every other time I've ever been around, talked to, or even kissed Luke, the butterflies in my stomach went absolutely crazy.

An alarm went off on my phone, signaling that if we didn't leave now, we'd be late to school. I got up and headed towards the door, and Luke followed. He grabbed his keys from the rack, and we headed outside to his car.

He opened my door for me and went around to get in himself. We pulled off minutes later.

Once we got to school, we headed straight for our lockers to get or books. Luke walked me to my first class, kissing my temple before he left.

"I'll see you later, okay?" I nodded, and he walked to his class.

During the next class we had together, he sat beside me and kept his hand on my thigh. The same thing happened during lunch. After that we didn't have anymore classes together, so I just texted him until we met up again at the end of the day.
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I was at my locker putting all of my books away when he came up beside me.

"Ready to go yet?" he asked as I was putting in the last book. I shut the door and faced him.

"Yup, all good to go," I said. We walked towards the front of the school building, and Luke wrapped his arm around my waist. We walked outside and got in the car. He drove to my house, and just like all week, the hand he wasn't using to steer the wheel was rested comfortably on my thigh. The entire ride we were silent, but it was a nice silence.

As soon as we got to my house, I was about to get out, but Luke stayed still. I looked over at him with a confused expression.

"You're not coming in?" I asked. He shook his head in response.

"Nope, I'm going to my house to get ready. I'll be back at around seven though," he explained.

"Okay." I kissed him on the cheek before getting out of the car and heading up the driveway to my front door. I was at my door, about it unlock it, when Luke's car window rolled down.

"Bye, Kate! I lo-I'll see you later!" he called. I waved before unlocking the door and walking into my house. I sighed deeply and went upstairs to find something to wear.

I didn't know where Luke was taking me for our date, so I decided to go with a dressy-but-casual look. I pulled out a black skirt that hit right above my knees, a white camisole, and a floral cardigan. I accented that with a pair of silver flats.

I went over to my vanity to do my hair. I straitened it quickly, and I added two lace braids going to the back of my head. I pinned them in place, and I left my room to brush my teeth in the bathroom. Even though I'd brushed them this morning, it never hurt anyone to brush more than twice a day.

When I got back to my room, I applied minimal makeup. I went for a basic mascara and eyeliner. I didn't typically wear makeup much, only for special enough occasions.

Once I was done getting ready, which took me a total of two and a half hours, I sat on my bed and played games on my phone to wait until Luke came back to pick me up. Fifteen minutes later, I heard the front door being unlocked, which could only mean one thing.

I resumed playing stuff on my phone trying to beat a level in a brain game I was playing before I went down so we could leave. Just as I was about to complete the level, I heard muffled talking downstairs. so I got up to go see what it was.

I tip-toed quietly down the stairs and through the kitchen, where I stood in the doorway. Luke didn't notice me. He was talking softly, almost like he didn't want anyone to hear. He was in the middle of a sentence, but I only caught the end of it.

"...I love you," he said in a serious tone. My heart stopped. What? Who was he talking to because it certainly wasn't me. I stood there for a few more seconds, just to see if he meant it in a different context or if he didn't mean it in the first place. All the while, heart was slowly breaking into two, and it hurt was worse than any physical pain I could ever endure. "Yeah?" he asked the person he was talking to. "Alright, bye."

There was a bright smile etched into his face, but I couldn't bare to look at him anymore. I stared and stared at him until he finally noticed I was standing in the doorway. I held a straight face, but my non-fazed façade was slowly washing away, making a frown appear.

When Luke finally realized that I heard what he said, his eyes widened. Tears started to blur my vision, but I held them back. I would not allow myself to cry in front of him. I couldn't. That was all I seemed to do though, cry about boys.

"Kate, I-I'm-" he stuttered, but I cut him off before he could try.

"Who were you talking to?" I questioned.

"Caitlyn," he answered. His head dropped so he was looking down at his lap.

"Is this a joke?" I asked out loud. He shook his head slowly, and I threw my hands in the air out of frustration. "I knew it. How could I have been so blind?" I turned and speed walked out of the family area, and I heard footsteps following closely behind me. When I got to the door, Luke grabbed my wrist and spun me around to face him.

"Please, just let me explain," he begged. I yanked my arm from his grasp, and I folded them across my chest, impatiently waiting for a response. A few minutes went by, and he didn't say anything, so I turned back around and opened the door, more than ready to leave.

"Bye, Luke," I said walking away.

"Kate, I-I-" he started. I stopped in my tracks.

"You what?" I questioned. He froze again, and my anger started the boil over from the silence. His mouth opened for a moment, like he was going to speak, but he closed it again. A few more minutes of this silence went by. I stared into his eyes, awaiting an answer and giving him a couple more minutes for an explanation. He still said nothing. With every second that went by, my heart slowly ripped more and more. It was the worst pain I'd ever felt. "Listen to me Luke," I started. "Don't call or text me unless you have a legit reason for all of your bullshit," I spat. I could see him visibly flinch, but I didn't care.

I sped down the driveway, and I ran away from my house, not wanting to even be near Luke any longer. I felt so stupid.

I couldn't believe I made the same mistake twice, and it was hitting me even harder the second time. By now, the tears had been let loose and were uncontrollably streaming down my face. It felt like someone was pressing down on my chest and wouldn't let up. I couldn't physically stand up, so I sat down on the nearest curb to just let it all out.

I was so tired of crying because that seemed to be the only thing I ever did anymore. It made me feel weak, and I wanted so badly to be strong.

I tried wiping the tears, but like always, it didn't work. I pulled out my phone to call someone to get me. I dialed Calum's number, and he picked up on the second ring.

"Hey, what's up?"

"C-Cal?" I called out, confirming that it was him.

"Kate, what's wrong?" he asked in a worried tone.

"I-Me and Luke were about to go on a date, but we just had a fight, and I left. N-Now, I'm sat on a curb about four block from my house. C-Can you please come and pick me up?" I asked. I voice was shaky, and it gave every time I tried to start a new sentence, but Calum understood.

"Uh, okay." I heard shuffling in the background, which could only mean the he was moving around. "I'll be there in five."
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Luke's POV

Once I got to Kate's house, I used the key her mom had made for me to let myself in. I made my way to the family room to wait for her, but about halfway there was when my phone rang. I looked at my phone to see the caller to be Caitlyn. I had called her a few times on my way here, but she didn't answer any of them. I quickly accepted the call, pressing the phone to my ear.

"Caitlyn," I breathed. "I'm so nervous."

"What? Don't be. You've known Kate for like all of your life," she said.

"I know, but I've never taken her on a date," I whispered. I sat down on the largest couch when I finally entered the room.

"It's just a date. You'll be fine."

"This isn't just any date, Caitlyn. I'm going to tell her how I feel on this date. I'm going to finally tell her that I'm so in love with her that it hurts sometimes. I'm going to be laying my heart out on the line," I said quickly but quietly.

"You're serious?" she questioned. I could see her raising her eyebrows in my head because she always did that when she was confirming something she thought someone was joking around about.

"I'm serious." I played with the loose fringes from the hole at the knee in my jeans out of pure nervousness. "So how should I do it?"

"I don't know. Do it however you want."

"Should I say I love you, I love you, or I love you?" I questioned smiling.

"All three, Luke," she huffed out of annoyance. It was so funny when she was mad. She just got really pissed at the world for some reason, and it was just fun messing with her.

"Yeah?"

"Yes."

"Alright, bye," I said ending the called. I sat quietly for a few seconds before I started looking around he room. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a figure standing in the doorway of the room. I quickly turned around, and my eyes widened at the sight. Kate.

I wasn't sure how long she'd been standing there, but I didn't want her to know what I said. It would seem so bad from my end, especially since she could only hear my side of the conversation.

"Kate, I-I'm-" I tripped over my words, but I was cut off before I could explain myself.

"Who were you talking to?" asked sternly.

"Caitlyn," I replied. I dropped my head out of shame, even thought I technically didn't do anything wrong.

"Is this a joke?" she questioned out loud, her attention focused on the ceiling. I shook my head slowly, being honest, but she was beyond angry. Her hands flew up in the air. "I knew it. How could I have been so blind?" She walked away quickly, and I got up to follow after her.

Even though I wanted to tell her how I felt when we were on the date, I had a feeling that the plans were changing. It was now or never. When she got to the door, I grabbed her by the wrist and spun her around so she was facing me.

"Please, just let me explain," I pleaded. She yanked her arm away from me and folded them across her chest. My brain was running a thousand miles a minute with everything I wanted to say, but my mouth wouldn't open. Minutes flew by. After I didn't answer, she turned back around and opened the door.

"Bye, Luke," she said walking away.

"Kate, I-I-" I started. I was yet again cut off.

"You what?" she snapped. I opened my mouth, willing for the words to come out, but nothing happened. More minutes passed. My body physically wouldn't let me say it even though I wanted to so badly. Her eyes were staring straight into mine, and the more minutes that went by, the more hurt she seemed to appear. "Listen to me Luke," she started once I didn't say anything. "Don't call or text me unless you have a legit reason for all of your bullshit," she spat. I was taken aback by her words and her harsh tone. I flinched a little out of hurt, but I'm sure she didn't care at the moment. She was pissed.

She turn and walked down the driveway pretty quickly, and she ran down the sidewalk, away from her house. Away from me.

I went back into her house and sat on the stool in the kitchen.

"Fuck, what have I done?" I asked myself. I sat trying to process all of the things that just happened, and I realized just how pointless this whole thing was.

If I would've told her from the beginning how I was feeling, maybe we wouldn't be in this mess now. I thought I was being pretty obvious, but I guess she wasn't catching on like I thought she would.

I wanted to tell her, I really did, but the words seemed to get trapped in my throat every time I tried to speak about it. That fact wasn't helping the situation at hand, and it was incredibly frustrating.

After a few more minutes of sitting around, I go up to go after her. I could let her slip away again, not that easily. I could draw her back if I tried hard enough, and hopefully my best was good enough for her.

I hurriedly ran out of the house, grabbing my car keys and my set of keys to the house on the way out. I quickly got in my car, driving off as soon as I turned it on.

I rode past her house on the right until the end of the street, but I found nothing. I went the other way, but I didn't think she would be there, since she lived in a neighborhood with a roundabout at the end.

I parked my car on her street, right outside of her house, and I got my phone out to call her.

I dialed the number I've known by heart since I was about fourteen as fast as my fingers would take me. I got no answer. I tried again, and this time, it went straight to voicemail. I tried a third time, but there was still no answer, only the sound of her programmed voice telling me to leave a message.

I threw my head back, beyond angry with my own decisions that were wrecking havoc on my love life. Why couldn't I ever just be happy. I wanted to cry, but I knew I had to keep myself together if I was going go through with this.

With my phone still in my hand, I unlocked it to text her.

Luke
Kate, please come back. I have something I need to tell you, and I can't keep it in any longer.

I waited a solid five minutes, but I still didn't get a response.

Luke
It's not what you think...I can explain. Please, I'm just so afraid of losing you. I don't want to lose you. I'm so sorry, babe.

After waiting another ten minutes without a text back, I finally just gave up. I was running out of energy to waste on this entire ordeal, but I knew I still wanted her in my life.

She wasn't a waste of time. I didn't regret any of the last couple months except one thing: making that deal. That was probably the worst thing I've ever done, and the second was letting her slip away the first time.

I wanted her in my life. I needed her.
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Kate's POV

Calum arrived in five minutes just like he said he would. He didn't live too far away, so I knew it wouldn't take long. He pulled up alongside the curb and I stood up quickly.

He got out, and came around to meet me, engulfing me in a warm hug. I was fighting the urge to start crying again, and for once in my life, it worked.

I hugged Calum back, and a few minutes later, we both pulled away and got into his car. He drove off, making our way to his house.

We were almost there when my phone started ringing. A picture of Luke flashed across my screen along with his name. I immediately decline the call and shut my phone off.

"Who was it?" Calum asked, looking at me momentarily before focusing his attention back on the road.

"Luke," I sighed. The rest of the car ride was silent. I wasn't in the mood to talk, and Calum wasn't asking any questions.

When we got to his house, we both got out of the car and went inside. I was met by the smell of Joy making dinner. We walked through the kitchen to get to Calum's room, but we were stopped by Joy greeting us.

"Hello, Kate. How are you? I haven't seen you in ages," she asked.

"I-I'm alright," I responded. She studied my face for a moment before speaking again.

"Is there something wrong?"

"Uh, I just had an argument with a friend. It's no big deal," I explained.

"No big deal?" I nodded. "But you've been crying. Are you sure you're okay?" I nodded again.

"I'm sure I'll get over it soon," I said forcing out a smile. She sent me a warm one back, and Calum and I proceeded to his room.

"Cal," Joy called. He turned around waiting for her to speak. "Dinner will be ready in an hour or so if you guys are hungry." He nodded, and we left the kitchen, going straight to his room.

Once we got there, I sat on his bed, and he sat next to me. We spent a few minutes in silence before he spoke.

"What'd you guys fight about to make you so upset?"

"He told Caitlyn that he loved her, and not just playfully. It was in a serious tone. He couldn't even give me a reasonable explanation," I huffed.

"What the fuck? Why would he do that?" he questioned.

"Like I know! He wouldn't even tell me."

I rested my head on Calum's shoulder, which was surprisingly comfortable.

"I'm sure there's a reasonable explanation, Kate. I don't think he would do something like that," Calum stated. The room fell into another silence for at least a few minutes before it was broken again.

"It just hurts so bad, Calum," I cried. I wasn't afraid of letting my emotions show around Calum. I knew he would never judge me. He was the best friend I could ever ask for.

"It's going to be okay. Everything's going to be okay," he tried comforting me. He wrapped his arms around me, holding on tight.

"It doesn't feel like it." The tears falling from my eyes were uncontrollable at this point, and all I wanted to do was curl up into a ball and sleep.

"It may not right now, but I swear everything will be right soon."

I looked up at him, and I stared for the longest time. I inched in little by little, and after a few seconds, our lips were pressed together.

I stayed still, same as he, but with all of the event that happened today, I made the first move. I cupped his cheeks, and he slid his tongue through my already parted lips. His lips were so soft, it was like a dream.

Not long after, I straddled his waist and managed to get his shirt off. My fingers fiddled with the hairs on the nape of his neck as we continued to make out.

Seconds later, I was also out of my shirt, and things were starting to get a bit more heated. Calum flipped us over so that he was on top and in control. His lips made their way across my neck and collar bone, but I was sure he wasn't going to leave any marks.

When he was about to come back to my lips, he stopped suddenly.

"What the fuck did we just do?" he asked breathlessly. I didn't respond, I just stared at him with a blank expression. "Kate, we can't do this. This," he said waving between he and I "can't happen. You're so in love with him. I know you are, so don't try and deny it. We can't go about it this way, it's not fair," he said frantically.

Still, I stared, expression blank and eyes fixed on absolute nothingness.

"I understand. I'm sorry," I apologized.

"It's fine. We just can't let this happen again, okay?" I nodded, and he got up to put his shirt back on. I did the same.

I started to think about the text my dad sent me a few days ago, and with every second that passed, the offer became more inviting.

I'd messed up so much within the last couple weeks, and all I needed was some time away from everyone.

Calum left the room, and I turned my phone back on. Once it was unlocked, a few messages and missed calls popped up. They were all from Luke.

Lukey <3
Kate, please come back. I have something I need to tell you, and I can't keep it in any longer.

Lukey <3
It's not what you think...I can explain. Please, I'm just so afraid of losing you. I don't want to lose you. I'm so sorry, babe.

I decided to ignore him. I didn't care anymore anyway, especially if he told me he would explain but then didn't. I wasn't about to go in circles with him anymore.

I found my dad's name, and I sent him a quick message.

Kate
What about school?

He answered minutes later.

Da(vi)d
I'm glad you answered my text finally, but your teachers have emailed me your work for the next two weeks, and you'll complete it here and turn it in when we get back. It's all been planned out, I just need to know if you want to come or not.

Kate
When's the flight?

Da(vi)d
It's scheduled for tomorrow afternoon.

Kate
Okay, I'm in.

I felt a wave of relief wash over me when I pressed send. I knew it was a bad thing to run from your problems, but I just wanted some thinking time alone. I wanted to process everything that's happened.

Calum returned, and he looked at me, probably trying to calculate my level of distress.

"Can you take me home tomorrow morning and drive me to the airport after that?" I asked suddenly.

He raised his eyebrows. "Why?"

"I'm going to America with my dad for two weeks while he's on business. I really miss him, and he said the company would pay for my ticket there since he and my mom would be away for so long," I explained, but Calum stood unmoving.

"Okay...what about Luke?" he questioned.

"I don't know right now, Calum. I just want to get out of here and away from everyone for a while. I need a little bit of time to think this all out because I've really screwed up," I rushed.

He was about to speak, but a yell throughout the house cut him off.

"You guys, dinner is ready," Joy called. I stood up from Calum's bed and walked past him, leaving him standing in the middle of his room trying to process what I just said..
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A.N// well this is officially the longest chapter i've ever written

i literally did not sleep last night AT ALL so i'm dead rn but yeah it's all good

please don't hate me for this chapter, i warned you >:-)

what is life...idek

k that's it bye ily all
-cam <3