A.N// i'm not up to anything except late christmas shopping, and i have a surprise for you guys, but you have to wait a couple more days ;-)
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Kate's POV

As soon as I got home from the park, I went straight to my room. My parents were in the living area watching a movie, and they invited me, but I politely declined.

I didn't know what I'd just done, and with every second that went by, I regretted what I said to Luke. I didn't want space. I craved his touch, but he was probably going to respect what I said and leave me alone for a while.

I switched out my clothes for some pajamas, which basically only contained a pair of shorts and a loose-fitting shirt. I walked across my room to the drawer where I kept Luke's random clothing articles, and I took one of his shirts out.

I hadn't washed that particular one, so it still smelled like him. I slipped it on, and I trudged back over to my bed. I flopped onto it and pulled a blanket over me. I fell into a light sleep, my thoughts preventing it from pulling me all the way under.
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Friday

I woke up to my annoying alarm and got ready for school. The day was just like normal, except for Luke was being pretty distant, and he didn't really say much at all. He only spoke when he was spoken to, and he never even smiled.

He looked thinner than he ever had before, his hair was messy, and he wore sweat pants to school for the rest of the week. He also had dark circles under his eyes, and he looked like the life had been sucked out of him.

That happened everyday that week, but on Friday, he seemed noticeably happier. He came to lunch with a smile on his face, and he left with one. Calum even looked to be in a better mood. It was weird.

In between classes, I would see him walking through the halls with this girl. She was really pretty too. She had blonde hair, blue-green eyes, and the perfect tan. She was short, but she wasn't as short as I was.

Every time she would say something, he would smile or laugh, and that faintly tugged at my heart. I tried to ignore it, but it wasn't really working. I decided to focus on my classes instead. I put all of my effort into not thinking about Luke with that girl, but by my final class, I let all of my worries out to Ashton.

Luckily, Ashton was there to send me some motivational words, and they made me feel a little better. Our teacher, Mrs. Valcin, gave us a free day, so Ashton and I spent the whole block talking about it.

"So, what did she look like?" He asked. I described her to him, and he nodded along. "Hey, that's how I'd describe you," he announced. My eyebrows scrunched together.

"Really?"

"Yeah, if she looks like you described her, that's just like you. If I'm being honest, I think he's trying to fill a void," Ashton deemed. I didn't know exactly what he meant, so I asked him to explain. "Since you told him to give you some space on Monday, he'd been down ever since until today. All of a sudden he sees this girl, and she looks just like you. You make him happy, so she automatically makes him happy, just by the way she looks. He doesn't really have to know her either. He using her to fill a void you left in his heart, Kate."

"Why would he have a void in his heart? We're just friends," I said.

"Well, when you have a best friend, they usually have a special place in your heart. When something happens, or if you guys have a fight, it leaves both with a metaphorical hole in their heart, and that hole can only be filled by that person. It's the same with love, I guess. In Luke case, though, he's filling his hole with a Kate look-alike," Ashton explained.

"Why would he do that?" I questioned, still a little confused.

"He doesn't know any better. He's never been as crazy about someone as he's been about you."

We sat in silence for a moment. I was just trying to take it all in, and Ashton was probably trying to find a way to explain some other things to me.

"Back to what we were talking about the other day, you lost your virginity to Luke?" Ashton asked.

"Yeah, I did."

"And, that's the only time you've ever had sex?"

"Nope," I confessed. His eyes widened, and his jaw dropped.

"Wait, what? How many times have you...you know?"

"Ashton!" I exclaimed. His hands rose up in surrender, but I decided that I was going to answer anyway. "I've had sex twice. If you were wondering, both times were with Luke," I said shying away. My cheeks started to warm up, but thankfully, Ashton didn't really notice.

"Why?"

"The first time, I asked him, and the second time...it just sort of happened," I explained.

"How did it sort of happen?"

"I don't know. It was just in the moment I guess."

"Wait, was that the night before Luke missed band practice?" Ashton asked. He sat straight up in his chair, and I nodded. "Kate!" He scolded.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know you guys were going to have band practice the next day," I said defending myself.

"It's fine," he responded chuckling. The bell rang, and we both stood up so we could exit the classroom. "Would you like a ride home?"

"Yeah, sure. Thanks Ash," I said. We walked out of the classroom, down the hallways, and outside. Once we got to his car, we opened our doors and got it, driving off a few minutes later.

Halfway to my house, Ashton invited me to a party, and he told me that he'd be back later to get me. He also mention that Luke would be there. I agreed because parties were kind of fun, and I didn't really care if Luke would be there or not.

When we got to my house, I thanked Ashton for the ride, and I unlocked my door and entered my house. I was greeted by my mom.

"Welcome home, Kate. How was school today?"

"It was fine. Ashton gave me a ride home. Also, he invited me to a party later tonight. Can I go?" I elaborated.

"Sure, why not? You dad and I are going to dinner tonight, so it's only fair. Have fun!" She returned. I smiled and made my way up the stairs and to my room.

I decided to take a nap so I would have some energy for the upcoming party. I laid down on my bed and let sleep slowly overtake me.
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When I woke up, I went to the bathroom to make myself look more presentable. I brushed my teeth and my hair. I reapplied my mascara, and by that time, Ashton called to tell me that he was waiting outside.

I went back into my room, and I took my phone off the charger. I grabbed a small over-the-shoulder purse, and I put it in there. I also got a light cardigan out of my closet before heading downstairs and out of my front door.

Ashton greeted me when I say down, and we drove to the location of the party. Once we got there, I followed Ashton to the kitchen area. He grabbed both of us a red cup and put a random drink in it. He passed one to me, and I gladly accepted it.

He led me to a room with couches and a ping pong table, and we both sat down. I took small sips of my drink every now and then, trying to savor it, as I do at every party I attend. We sat doing nothing for a while before Ashton stood up.

"I just heard that Michael and Calum are here. Do you want to come with me, or do you want to stay here?" He asked over the loud music that was playing. I thought about it for a second before answering.

"I'm fine here."

"Okay, bye. Call me if you need anything," he said. He walked off, and I took another sip of my drink. The music died down, and all of a sudden, a slow started playing.

I jumped up from my seat to go find Luke. It was always our tradition to slow dance at parties. If we weren't with each other already, we would go find each other. Even if I was mad at him, I didn't think it would hurt to slow dance and keep the cycle going.

I scurried to the dance floor and pushed pass some bodies until I saw him. He wasn't alone. He was with the girl I'd seen him with at school earlier. Her head was on his shoulder, and they were rocking from side to side. I felt the air get thick.

I turned around and ran. I had to get out of there before I broke down. I went in the kitchen and grabbed an empty cup, and I filled it with some vodka. I chugged it down and refilled it, chugging the second glass down as well. I refilled it once more, but I didn't drink it right away.

I started to feel dizzy, so I gripped onto the counter for support. Once the room stopped spinning, I let go of the counter and walked towards the dance floor again. I didn't notice that I was crying until I felt a tear hit the top of my lip. I lowered my head, gripping my cup tightly.

Right as I was about to enter the room the dance floor was located in, I bumped into someone. My drink spilled all over my top, and I felt like crying more.

"Shit, sorry," I mumbled.

"No worries, beautiful," the voice assured. He tilted my chin up and examined my face. I didn't recognize his face, and that was partly the alcohol and partly my tears blurring my vision. "Are you crying? Why are you crying?" He asked. I frantically wiped the tears from my eyes and face.

"I'm fine," I said not so confidently. He looked down at my shirt and noticed the mess I made. He grabbed my hand.

"Come on. Let's go and get you cleaned up," he announced before I could ask any questions. He lead me up some stairs and into a room. In that room was a door that led to a bathroom. "Sit," he instructed.

I took a seat on the counter next to the sink, and he grabbed a towel from a cupboard. He left for a second, and when he returned, he had a plain black shirt in his hands. He passed me the shirt and told me to take off mine and replace it with the one he gave me.

I did as I was told, and took the shirt from me and turned on the sink faucet. He put the towel under to water to wet it, and he dabbed my shirt with the wet cloth. Once he was done, he turned off the sink and got a fresh towel.

He tilted my chin up for the second time that night, and I still didn't recognize him. Although, he looked like someone I knew.

"Don't cry, beautiful. You're too pretty to cry," he soothed. He used the fresh towel to wipe my tears. I don't know what made me, but within the split second, my lips were attached to his.

I don't know what made me, but I couldn't stop. I didn't know if it was the fact that I saw Luke with that girl or the fact that I haven't had this in a while. Soon, the kiss was deepened, and our bodies were pressed against each other's. He picked me up, and we headed towards the bed. We never broke the kiss.
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Luke's POV

After the slow song ended, Caitlyn and I went to another room so we could sit. We decided on a room with a ping pong table and several couches. We sat on one of the couches closer to the door of the room. She snuggled her head into my shoulder, and I relaxed.

I knew that I was using her in place of Kate, but I couldn't help it. I missed Kate, and Caitlyn looked just like her. She was kind of mean though. Kate was nice and forgiving, which is why I wanted to give her the space she asked for.

I loved Kate, and I was in love with her. I wasn't ashamed to admit it to myself anymore. That's why I never kissed Caitlyn. I physically couldn't, but she was there when Kate wasn't.

When Kate told me she wanted space, I broke down. I didn't know what I was going to. I couldn't sleep, and I no longer had the urge to eat. My skin became pale because I didn't go outside, and I'd gotten thinner over the course of three days. My life was a wreck, to say the least.

I met Caitlyn on my way home on Thursday afternoon, and she was rude, but she looked just like Kate, so I could help but to keep talking to her. She let me take her to dinner, and I started to not look like a zombie.

I brought her to the party because I had no one else to go with. When that slow song came on, I was prodded to go find Kate, but I didn't know if she wanted to see me, so I didn't. Instead, I slow dance with Caitlyn, and it was very awkward.

She rested her head on my chest, and it just didn't feel right, but I held her anyway.

We were sitting on the couch, comfortably watching some people play beer pong, and I had to use the bathroom, so I stood up.

"Where are you going?" she asked.

"I have to use the bathroom. I'll be right back," I announced. She nodded, and I left the room filled with drunken people. I hadn't had a drink that entire night, and that surprised me. I guess I just wasn't in the mood.

I didn't know my way around the house the party was being held in, but I assumed the bathroom would be upstairs. I headed that way, and I opened every door I saw. Neither of them were a bathroom. The next door I opened gave me the shock of a lifetime.

If I were drunk, I could easily be mistaking the picture in front of me, but I wasn't. I stood frozen in the doorway, not believing my eyes. The two people making out on the bed were topless.

Katherine was one of them, and when the guy turned around, I saw that it was Thomas.
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A.N// please put down your pitchforks!! don't hate me!

i'm it had to go down like this, but what can i say

i don't really have much to say, so...

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