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You walked as fast as you could into the Great Hall, trying to avoid yourself from being spotted by the narcissistic new professor. You knew you had to face him once the dinner started, but at least you will be with the other professors instead of alone with him.

"Y/N, wait for me!"

You mentally facepalmed when you heard his voice. You pretended not to hear him as you made a beeline to the teachers table.

"Hi, Severus!"

You let out a high-pitched squeal, taking Professor Snape by surprise. He raised his eyebrows when you panted heavily, sitting next to him.

"Were you... Running?"

He asked, frowning as you nervously laughed. You nodded violently and hoped that now Lockhart would leave you alone but you were absolutely wrong.

"Y/N, why weren't you waiting for me?"

Lockhart said, sitting beside you with a smirk on his face. You winced and hated the fact that you were sitting next to the man that you despised, Gilderoy Lockhart.

"Forgive me, Lockhart. I was in a rush."

You tried to be polite, giving him a fake smile. You had been avoiding him for days now. Everytime he saw you, he would flirt with you and acted as if you were into him. The problem was you were not interested in him at all.

"I've told you to call me Gilderoy, love."

Your eyes widen at the nickname and you threw a glance at Severus. Your eyes were begging him to help you and he knew you were very uncomfortable with the author.

"I believe it is inappropriate for you to call her with such names if she is not interested with you, Lockhart."

Severus pointed out, a glare was sent towards Gilderoy's direction. You let out a breath of relief, happy that Severus was trying to help you out. Unfortunately, it did not end there.

"And how did you know that Y/N is not interested, Snape?"

Lockhart spat at the dark-haired professor. Severus was starting to get really annoyed and you knew the situation was getting worse.

"I know she is not interested with someone like you, Lockhart."

"What is that supposed to mean?"

The tension in the air was getting thick and you were sitting in the middle of two angry men. Not to mention, they were angry with each other because of you. Hence, without thinking, you did the thing that you never thought you would do.

Before Severus could reply Lockhart's words with his remarks, you pulled Severus in for a kiss. You kissed him. Severus was surprised but it happened too fast when you pulled away to grin at Lockhart, whose eyes widen and jaw dropped.

"I'm in love with Severus. He's my lover. So yes, I'm not interested in you."

You lied proudly. Well, actually it was true that you were in love with him but it was a lie that he was your lover. And now you just realised the consequences of your kiss.

Your face turned red when you gazed at Severus, who was still shocked. The other professors seem to see what happened and so were the students. The students started to whisper to each other about your relationship with Severus and you knew you were going to have a hard time teaching your classes tomorrow.

"Well, I never thought that you would fall for him."

Lockhart broke the silence, but then Minerva came and hit him at the back of his head but smiled at you and Severus.

"This is a great news. You should've told us sooner though."

Minerva teased, and you felt heat rushed to your face. You wished the floor would open up and swallowed you down as you looked at Severus. He had an emotionless look in his eyes, and somehow you were terrified.

"Excuse me, I need some air."

Your voice came out as a whisper and you quickly stood up. You did not care if all eyes were on you, you just wanted to get as far as you could from your friend, Severus who you just called as your lover.

As you walked out of the Great Hall, you took a deep breath and made sure that no one was there to see you. Tears brimmed in the corner of your eyes and you could cry anytime now.

You were embarrassed. You loved Severus and now he hated you. He must hated you now because you just announced to everyone that you were dating him and it was a lie. A stupid lie that you wished was a truth.

"You just can't say that and then disappear, Y/N."

Your breath was hitched when you heard his voice. He was right, you could not disappear now. You wished you could.

"Severus, I'm sorry."

Your voice cracked, fear engulfed you as he walked towards you until your back was pressed against the wall. He looked you in the eyes and you knew he was mad.

"You can't say that you're in love with me and then just apologise. Apologising won't fix anything. People are talking about us."

He gritted his teeth and now you saw disappoinment in his gaze. Your friend was disappointed in you. You took so much time trying to build your friendship with him and now you ruined in with your bare hands.

"I— I'm sorry. I panicked, Severus. I didn't know what to do. He keeps coming at me—"

"It's none of my business!"

You flinched when his harsh tone got into your ears. You were a nuisance to him now. It was all your fault. Why couldn't you handle your problems on your own?

"I know, Sev. But I thought you care about me..."

You managed to get the words out, a tear rolled down your cheek as you realised Severus could never love you back. He did not even care about you.

"I am in love with you. I wasn't lying."

You whispered, unable to stop the emotions that were flooding from the tears.

"I wasn't thinking and I'm sorry. I should've known you could never love me."

Your heart was broken. Someone as great as Severus Snape would never fall for someone like you. You should've known your place instead of embarrassing yourself.

Severus did not say anything and your heart ache at the thought of your friend hating you. You started to walk away, after muttering apologies to the Potions Master who was silent.

You did not know that his heart was broken at the thought of you believing that he was not in love with you.

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You could not fall asleep.

As much as you wanted sleep to take over your mind, you could not. You found yourself walking outside alone, breathing in the night. The moonlight showed you your path and somehow you wished you had Severus by your side.

Severus was a good friend. He always accompanied you during your night walks, him being worried if something bad might happen to you. A smile emblazoned your face as you realised Severus was always looking out for you.

Perhaps he was just being a good friend. But he made you fall in love with him. You were devastated to know that your love was unrequited. Now you were alone.

"I still can't believe that you choose him."

You turned around, facing none other than Gilderoy Lockhart himself. You pressed your lips into a thin line and backed away from him. Suddenly, you realised that you left your wand in your room and you felt threatened by his presence.

"What do you want?"

"I think I made myself clear, my dear. I want you."

He reached out to touch yours face but you were quick enough to slap his hand. He was not too happy about it.

"I apologise but I don't want you. I hope you understand—"

Your voice was caught in your throat when Lockhart squeezed your shoulders, looking you in the eyes.

"I understand that you want me, but you're afraid that Severus will know. This will be our secret, Y/N."

He whispered, leaning in to kiss you. You dodged and tried to run but he grabbed you. It was no use of pushing him away as he was much stronger than you. Your screams were loud and you were sure somebody must have heard you.

"Stop it or I'll kill you!"

You yelled at his face but he did not care at all. Pushing you against the wall, he put a hand over your mouth and smirked. You hated his smirk. You hated him.

"How dare you lay a hand on my lover?"

The voice was cold, angry and it sent shivers ran down your spine. You looked up and saw Severus who had rage in his eyes. Lockhart was just trying to reach for his wand but then he was screaming in pain on the ground.

You did not know what Severus did but you could not care less. You ran into his arms and cried. He wrapped his arms around you protectively, whispering that you were safe with him. He carried you to the bedroom and let you calm down.

"I should've come sooner."

He whispered, as he tried to check for any injuries on you. You looked at him and his eyes softened once they landed on you.

"Thank you, Severus. I know I made you hate me but you still help—"

"I do not hate you."

He said, hurt that you would ever think he hated you. He took your hands in his and kissed your knuckles lovingly, taking you by surprise.

"You were angry, I thought you hate me."

Severus's heart was aching when he realised he was hurting your feelings by his actions.

"I thought you only said you love me because of Lockhart. Then everybody knows and I do not want them to talk about something that isn't true."

He explained, pulling you into his chest. You snuggled closer into his arms, feeling safe and loved.

"I love you, Y/N."

He whispered, caressing your face softly. You smiled and your heart was leaping in your chest.

"I was angry because I felt as if you were toying with my feelings. It hurts when I thought you used me to get away from Lockhart. It hurts when I thought you kissed me but you didn't mean it."

He continued, tears flooded his eyes as he looked at you.

"How could someone like you love someone like me, Y/N?"

It broke your heart when you realised his insecurities. You shook your head weakly and smiled at him genuinely. You smiled a lot, but you heart soared whenever you smiled at him. You pulled him closer to you if that was possible, until you felt his hot breath on your face.

"I love you, Severus. I said it now, and I'll say it again until the day I die."

You whispered against his lips. And he kissed you. He kissed you once, and he kissed you again. You felt as if you could never had enough of him. You kissed him back passionately, harder and deeper that you both did not want to let each other go.

His arms were all over your body as you showered his face with kisses, and he whispered how much he loved you. He was there with you, and you were there with him.

"You're my lover now. There's no running from it, Severus."

You giggled, kissing him again. He chuckled against your lips and nodded.

"Yes, and we'll be hearing lots of questions from the students tomorrow."

He reminded you, and you groaned in annoyance. Of course, the students would ask you more questions that they would ever ask him. You were their favourite professor after all.

"We'll worry about that tomorrow now I just want to kiss you."

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17th November 2020