young! severus snape x reader (x young! lucius malfoy)
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"How was your day?"

You asked, plopping down on the couch next to your best friend who was looking glum. Severus groaned and shook his head violently.

"The worst."

You frowned at his answer and put your hand on his shoulder, his eyes slowly landed on you.

"I'm so sorry to hear that. Wanna tell me about it?"

Severus nodded and you smiled at him, urging him to go on and tell you about his day. You had a bad day too. Since morning, you were dying to go back the common room to see Severus and tell him all about it. But now you could not care less about yourself, your focus was on Severus.

You just wanted to make him feel better. 

However, you wondered if you could do that when all he did was talk about Lily all the time. Your heart ached but you still smiled, unable to break your friend's heart even if he was breaking yours.

You knew Severus was in love with her. There was nothing you could do about it. You wished you could because you were in love with him. Your heart swelled in joy every time he was with you, but knowing that he only saw you as a friend, you decided to bury your feelings deep within your fragile heart.

But you had to admit that sometimes it hurts. It stung when he talked so highly of her as if you had never existed. It pained you to know that Severus was jealous of Potter who had Lily's heart.

And there you were, pretending as if you were not hurt at all by his doings.

"Enough about me. What about your day?"

Severus sighed, he seemed to notice that you were not too keen on listening to him. You loved his voice, but sometimes you wished it wasn't Lily's name that he spoke so often.

"My day? Oh, it was good."

You answered, faking a smile that your friend was oblivious enough not to notice that it was not genuine.

Sometimes you cursed yourself for being a fool, waiting for someone who would never love you back. Why were you pining over Severus Snape like he was the only person left on this world?

You came from a prestigious pureblood family. Yes, you were kind and humble to everyone but still, your family reputation got you keeping your head up and every step of your way must be graceful and pleasing.

Many boys fancied you, hoping that they could be your suitor. They thought that you were beautiful, intelligent and gentle— What a wonderful lover you would be. And yet, you only had your eyes on Severus. How stupid were you to fall in love with somebody who did not even look at you as more than a friend.

"Severus, do you really love Lily?"

You asked, as Severus was still talking. You had no idea what he talked about. Your mind was tired, and you needed a break. Your friend was surprised but then he nodded.

"Yes, I do."

"Do you love me?"

Severus frowned, but he nodded.

"You're my friend, Y/N. Of course I love you."

You chewed on your bottom lip and swallowed. There you were, a friend, nothing would happen between you and him. But still, you dared to ask him.

"What if you have to choose? Between me and her?"

"Y/N, don't make me choose—"

"Why? Because you'll choose her?"

You whispered, your heart was thumping against your chest. You hoped he realised who was by his side all the time, supporting him through his ups and downs. You were always there, even when she was not.

"Yes, I'll choose her."

At his painful words, tears boiled in your eyes and there was a lump in your throat. You quickly stood up and excused yourself before you could cry in front of him.

"Y/N!"

You did not mind him as you continued to walk away from him, tears streamed down your face. The pain was too much and you had enough. You knew you could not have him as your friend anymore, it would kill you.

Hence, you did what you have to do. You distanced yourself as much as possible. You did not sit next to him anymore. You tried your best to stay in your room so you would not bump into him in the common room.

That night, as your other friends told you that Severus was asleep (they also helped you because they hated to see you hurt), you sat in the common room alone.

The silence of the night comforted you, forgetting the fact that you used to get comfortable there with Severus. But now, you were alone. And heartbroken.

You were reading when you felt somebody sat next to you on the couch. You frowned when you realised that Lucius Malfoy was there with you.

"Are you alright?"

He asked softly, and you nodded. You never talked to him before. He was a few years older than you, and you never had courage to start a conversation with him.

"Are you sure? You look sad."

You frowned when you could see that Lucius was concerned about you.

"I'm sorry, Malfoy but I never talked to you before and I don't think I'm comfortable to share my problems with you."

You said, and Lucius nodded.

"Please call me Lucius and I understand what you're saying. Just know that I'm here if you need someone to talk to. I hate seeing you sad, I'm used to seeing you being so happy all the time."

Now you realised, that Lucius Malfoy noticed you just like other boys did. Clearly, you were so in love with Severus that you did not care about anybody else.

"You notice me?"

"Of course. You're a L/N, it's hard not to notice you. Not to mention, you're smart and beautiful."

You chuckled and looked away from him. Oh, how you wished those compliments came from Severus, the one that you loved.

You did not care as others adored you, or even worshipped you, all you cared about was Severus Snape because you loved him. Was it too much to ask? Apparently yes, it was too much of you to ask for Severus' attention and love.

Your days went by quickly as you kept avoiding Severus at all costs. It was hard, but somehow it was easier now that Lucius kept checking on you to see if you were alright.

You thought that it was not necessary for him to do that but then you realised, Lucius cared about you. Something that you never got from Severus.

You did not even realised that you were back to your happy self, when your classmates mentioned it. You were smiling and laughing just as you did before Severus broke your heart. Guess you owed it to Lucius who always tried to lift your spirits every day.

But that day, something happened.

As you were walking back to your common room, Severus took your arm and stopped you from walking away from him. You glared at him and he frowned.

"Why are you avoiding me?"

After so long, then only he realised that you were far away from his reach. You scoffed and crossed your arms against your chest.

"You know why."

"Is it because I'm in love with Lily and not you?"

He asked, as if he was mocking your feelings. Tears blurred your vision and your heart was shattered at his words. When you thought that Severus could not hurt you even worse, he just did it.

"I can't help it. I love her."

He continued, and you felt angry. You were so angry that you could punch him on his face.

"Please, Y/N. That can't be the only reason you don't want to be friends with me. What did I do wrong?"

You shook your head weakly, your hands dropping to your sides. You looked back and realised that you abandoned your own life for his, ignoring people who love you with all of their hearts because of him.

You shrugged off other people's compliments because you were waiting for his. You rejected every boy that came to you and left them with broken hearts because you wanted Severus and not them. You hid away your pain while you were healing his wounds, knowing that he would only get hurt once again.

You did everything for him and in the end, you were hurt.

"You fell in love with the wrong person."

You whispered, smiling sadly at Severus, who owned your heart and soul. Then you could see that Lucius was walking over to you with his friends, a bright smile was on his face.

You had lost so many moments in your life just so that you could have some moments with Severus. It had to stop now.

"And I fell in love with the wrong person too. I made a mistake by loving you."

You spat, venom was dripping from your voice. You might be gentle and soft-hearted, but you were not weak. Severus, of all people should know that.

"I hope you're happy with her."

With that being said, you went to Lucius with a genuine smile. Severus was left there, unable to move as his mind was thinking what he just lost. Somebody who was so precious to him.

But he had Lily, so he did not need you, right?

Severus had never been so wrong in his life.

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you dumb bitch, severus yea we love a dumb bitch

well, i'm thinking to make a part two to this. perhaps when they're adults and severus meet her but she is married or something. would you like it?

thank you for reading!

11th December 2020