"Here's your tea", Jeonghan said, handing me the cup of hot tea.

"Thanks", I said and placed the cup on the small table.

I've been sitting on the balcony for a while now. The weather was perfect and the moment felt a bit strange but right. I was, for once, comfortable and happy. I don't know why. Maybe because it's my first time spending Thanksgiving with Seungcheol.

"How's your stomach feeling?", he asked.

"Shhhh", I pressed one finger on my lips.

Jeonghan looked back to see if anyone was around. When he sat down back on the chair, he turned to me and handed me a blanket that was hanging from his chair.

I softly smiled at him and wrapped the blanket around me. A few weeks ago I found out I was pregnant. I haven't told Seungcheol obviously but Jeonghan found out when he saw me puking in the toilet.

"When are you going to tell him?", he asked.

"I don't know. I'm a little worried. I remember you guys had an interview with some entertainment channel and they asked you guys when you're gonna get married and have kids. Seungcheol answered differently than the rest of you", I said, taking a sip from my tea.

"I think he'll change his mind once he finds out. I bet he'll love the idea of you two becoming parents", he said.

"I-I don't wanna talk about it anymore. Seungcheol and the guys will be here any second", I said.

Not too long after, the guys came out and sat down on the rest of the chairs. Mingyu set up the fire and handed everyone a bag of marshmallows. Seungcheol wrapped his arm around me and even though I'm not showing yet, I made sure to cover my stomach with the blanket.

"So, are we still up for going to my parents cabin for Thanksgiving?", Hansol asked, placing a leg over his knee as he leaned back.

"You know it! I call dibs on the pool table!", Seungkwan said, raising a hand.

"You don't even know how to play. You lost like five times last time", Hoshi laughed.

"You guy's cheated that's why. Anyways, (y/n) you're still going, right? I need my wing woman to help me with that girl I saw the other day", Seungkwan said.

"Of course she is. Right babe?", Seungcheol faced me, causing the guys to look at me as well.

"Uhh..I..actually have to talk to you about something", I whispered to Seungcheol.

"Ooooh secrets. Make sure to speak louder so I could hear", Seungkwan said, leaning forward.

Hansol slapped the back of Seungkwan's head. Seungcheol grabbed my hand and led me inside the house. After he closed the balcony door, he turned towards me and I noticed he looked concerned.

"What's wrong?", he asked.

"Um..I..don't really know how to tell you this because I'm not sure if you're gonna get mad. But I don't wanna ruin our time together-"

"Is this about spending Thanksgiving at Hansol's parents house? Do you not wanna go there? Because we can go somewhere else if you want", Seungcheol said, softly placing his hands on my shoulders.

"No it's not that. I know you really want to go-"

"So you don't wanna go? Is that why you think I'll get mad? It's okay if you don't wanna go. We'll spend our Thanksgiving some other time. I promise it'll be the best Thanksgiving ever, okay?", he softly smiled at me.

"....yeah. That's fine", I said, trying to smile so he won't suspect anything.

He intertwined our hands together and walked back out to the balcony where the guys were waiting for us.

"So Seungcheol, how does it feel?", Jeonghan asked him.

"How does what feel?", Seungcheol asked him.

Jeonghan looked at me and I lightly shook my head. He understood that I didn't tell him yet so he awkwardly laughed and changed the subject.

"So who's gonna be cooking?", Jeonghan asked.

Seungcheol and I sat back down on the chairs and listened to the others talk. I leaned my head against his shoulder and sighed.

A few minutes later, Seungcheol got a call from their manager. He stepped back inside the house and took a while. While he was inside the house and the guys were talking about Thanksgiving Day, Jeonghan sat down next to me.

"What happened?", he whispered.

"I was gonna tell him but I was afraid. I don't want to lose him, Jeonghan", I said.

"So what are you gonna do? Not tell him? He'll find out sooner or later", he said.

"I'll tell him. I just have to find a way", I said.

I took another sip of the tea and felt it go down my throat.

"Guys! You're not gonna believe it! I got the part!", Seungcheol yelled excitedly as he ran back outside.

"No way! I knew you were gonna get it! You owe me $20", Hansol said, pointing at Hoshi.

"So I have to leave for the weekend but I'll be back before we head off the the cabin. And (y/n) I promise I'll spend all of my time with you when I come back", Seungcheol said, kissing my cheek as he sat down next to me.

I leaned back and stared at the view in front of me. Jeonghan knee what I was thinking. It's gonna be hard to tell him now.

~~~~~

"Are you okay? You don't look so good."

Seungcheol was already in Chicago and he called me as soon as he landed. He began talking about how big the city is and how cold it is there.

"I'm fine. I just miss you", I said, placing the laptop on my bed.

"I miss you too. Don't worry about me Okay? I'll be back by Sunday and once I get there, I'll take you to that bakery you love so much."

The smile on his face and his excitement for getting the part in the movie he auditioned for made it more difficult for me to tell him about the pregnancy. Should I just tell him?

~~~~~

"You can't just leave. He has a right to know", Jeonghan said.

"I have no choice. I don't want to burden him. He has a lot happening in his life and I don't want to get in the way of that. Did you see the way he reacted when he heard he got the part? I don't want to ruin any more chances for him", I said, putting my clothes in suitcases.

"He loves you-"

"And I love him. That's why I'm doing this. He'll understand", I said.

"No he won't. If you leave, I'll call him right away and I'll tell him", he said.

"Go ahead. I'll be gone by the time he gets here anyways. Just tell him I love him. I gotta go. The cab is waiting for me", I grabbed my suitcases and walked out of the house.