Requested by @PASTELHAN
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(Y/n) has been watching tv for the past four hours, changing the channel every few seconds. The
hospital never has any channels that are interesting to watch, except for the cooking channel which she watches everyday at 1pm.

"Helloooooo", her best friend Mingyu walked in carrying a bouquet of flowers.

"You need to stop wasting your money on flowers that the nurses end up throwing away", she said, setting the remote aside.

"But you like flowers. I wanted to cheer you up since you've been having a bad week. How are you feeling now?", he asked.

"I still feel like crap but not as much. I'm sorry I yelled at you yesterday. I just wanted to be alone. But I should've handled that a bit better", she smiled apologetically at him.

Sitting forward, he grabbed her hand and softly squeezed, assuring her that it was okay.

"You're allowed to yell. I mean, you're sick. Who the hell would wanna be sick?", he asked.

"You know you can use the word 'cancer'. It's not like I'm gonna die just from hearing the word. Then again, it's gonna kill me", she said, looking down at her lap.

"You're not gonna die. You're a strong person. And you have me to get through it. You're gonna be fine", Mingyu held her hand once again.

Even though she didn't believe what he said, she nodded so he won't get upset. Looking over at the small table next to the hospital bed, she grabbed the piece of paper that she had written on two days ago and stared at it.

"What's that?", Mingyu asked, wanting to peek.

"Nothing", she quickly covered up the paper by folding it.

"You're keeping secrets now? From your best friend? I'm heartbroken", he placed his right hand on his chest and showed a hurt expression.

She chuckled and folded the paper in fours.

"It's..it's stupid", she said, shaking her head.

While she wasn't looking, he managed to get the paper from her hands.

"Hey! Give that back!", she got off of the bed and tried grabbing the paper but he held it over her.

"A bucket list?", he looked down at her, confused.

"Yes, a bucket list. Now give it back", she held out her hand but he began to read it.

"Rescue an animal. Get over fear of horses. Buy wi- Wait. Why would you need to buy wigs? You look fine", Mingyu said.

"I don't have hair. I miss having hair. I miss feeling hair. I don't look attractive bald", she said.

"What are you talking about? You have a beautiful head. It's so shiny. I can see my reflection", he said.

She rolled her eyes and punched him on the chest. He let out a cute 'ow' while pouting. When he continued reading, she panicked and reached out to grab the paper but he pulled away.

"Enjoy first kiss?", he raised an eyebrow.

(Y/n) blushed and took the paper away from him.

"I told you it was stupid", she mumbled.

"It's not stupid. But I'd like to inform you that you won't enjoy your first kiss if you don't go out and meet people. You only know me..and my friends but they're off limits", he said.

"Why? Are you planning to have them all to yourself?", she smirked and sat back down on the bed.

He let out a sarcastic laugh. (Y/n) smiled and stared down at the bucket list in her hands.

"50. How am I supposed to do all 50? It's impossible. I don't even know why I made this stupid list", she crumpled up the paper and threw it away.

"Hey, it's not stupid", Mingyu stood up and grabbed the paper from the trash.

"I'll help you. The doctor said you're able to come home tomorrow. We'll start when you come home. We can do..", he looked at the list and pointed a finger in the air.

"Learn how to swim. We have a pool. I can teach you how to swim", he smiled.

"Um..but-"

"You can't back out. I mean, it's not like we can complete 'graduate high school' right at this time. You need two more months. And I feel like 'going on a trip to Paris' can be like a reward to completing high school. We have a lot planned. I'm gonna make sure you complete everything on this list", he patted her hand before taking or his phone.

~~~

The nurse pushed (y/n) on the wheelchair, meeting Mingyu outside of the hospital. She wasn't weak. It was a hospital rule almost everyone has to follow after being released.

(Y/n) smiled widely as she saw Mingyu waiting for her outside. She fixed her beanie and thanked the nurse. He helped her up onto her feet and opened the passenger side of the car door for her.

"Thanks", she said before entering, putting the seatbelt on.

Once Mingyu put the car on drive, she asked what were they gonna be doing today.

"Swimming lessons. But before we do that, are you hungry? Because there might be a cheeseburger with a side of fries and a chocolate fudge milkshake waiting for you", he said.

"Soonyoung is working today? I didn't know that. If you're saying that then that means Soonyoung told you it was alright if you didn't pay him. You have to pay him Mingyu. I don't like getting things for free...sometimes", she said.

He chuckled and continued driving. Soonyoung has been working at his father's restaurant for almost a year and ever since they found out about her sickness, he's been making his special chocolate fudge milkshake for her.

Mingyu drove into the parking lot of the restaurant and parked near the entrance so she wouldn't have to walk too far. She held onto his arm, not because she needed help but because she feels comfortable knowing Mingyu is there. He opened the entrance door, letting her in first.

"Hey! I was expecting you to come later. I don't have her food ready but it can be done in the next 15 minutes if you don't mind", Soonyoung smiled as soon as he saw them.

He seated them in a booth near the window. (Y/n) picked out a drink that she has never picked before, surprised Mingyu and Soonyoung.

"Strawberry blast?", Mingyu asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Number five on the list. 'Try something new'. Seriously if you're gonna help me, you have to memorize the list", (y/n) chuckled.

"List? What list?", Soonyoung asked.

"She has this bucket list that she wants to complete. Apparently she thinks she doesn't have enough time but I keep telling her that she's gonna get through this", Mingyu said.

"Is there anything I can help with?", Soonyoung asked.

"I don't think s-"

"Are you single?", (y/n) asked, squinting her eyes while looking at him.

He began stuttering and blushing.

"(Y/n), what did I say about my friends being off limits?", Mingyu shook his head.

"I wasn't-..Read number 30", she handed him the list.

He carefully read number 30 and slightly blushed.

"That's...very inappropriate", he said.

"What?", she grabbed the list from his hands.

As she read number 30, her face became red.

"T-That's not what I wrote! I swear!", she said.

"You know, you're missing another person in order for that to happen. I hope you weren't thinking me", Mingyu smirked.

"Don't be ridiculous. Anyways, I didn't write this. Ana must have seen it and changed it. She's the only nurse who makes it fun at the hospital. I guess she tried to do a little prank or something. Do you have a pen?", she asked Soonyoung.

He handed her a pen so she can cross it out and write what she originally wrote. Mingyu leaned forward to look and now understood what she meant.

"You're gonna play matchmaker?", he chuckled.

"Hey, Soonyoung hasn't had a girlfriend yet and I wanna know if he's interested in dating someone. I was thinking maybe Ana. She's his age. So? What do you think?", she turned to look at Soonyoung.

He looked confused. He didn't know what to say because he never thought about dating anyone.

"I need to go check on the food", Soonyoung laughed awkwardly and walked away.

"You're not gonna make any friends like that", Mingyu said.

"Shut up. Now are we gonna plan what and when we're gonna have time to do these? You're always working", she said, referring to the list.

"I'm taking time off. My boss knows about me helping you so..", he said.

"You can't do that. I didn't say to not go at all. You're already having trouble paying rent. I wish I can help. Ah! Maybe I can add something to the list that can help you! Hmm...car wash? I've never done that before", she said.

"I'm fine. You don't need to do that. Oh, are you gonna need any..um..bathing suits for your swimming lesson. I know you've lost weight. Maybe you need a new one", he said.

"I can just use some shorts and a shirt", she said.

After eating and enjoying the delicious chocolate milkshake that Soonyoung made, Mingyu drove her back home. He didn't want to rush her straight to the pool. He had to make sure she knew everything before getting into the water.

(Y/n) stood in front of the pool, staring at the small waves that the wind creates. She has only been in the water once and that was when she was six years old. Standing in the water, not swimming.

Mingyu went in first. He dipped his head into the water and brushed his hair back as he stood back up. The shallow end wasn't that bad. She took steps down and shivered, feeling how cold the water is.

"Are you sure this is fine for me? I'm not gonna die am I?", she asked.

"I've talked to the doctors and they said it was fine. Just as long as you don't overwork yourself. Let me know when you feel tired and we'll stop. Now, first thing your gonna learn is how to float", he said.

(Y/n) and Mingyu were in the water for two hours. Eventually she figured out how swimming works. She still struggles a bit so practicing a few more times will help.

A month passes. (Y/n) has completed almost half of the things on her bucket list. There are a few that need to be done at a specific day and time.

(Y/n) has been staring at herself in the mirror for almost an hour. Her head was what kept bothering her. Mingyu passed by her room and noticed her standing, blanking out.

"Are you okay?", he asked, entering her room.

"..I need a wig", she said.

"Why?", he asked.

"I feel like without hair, my head is huge. I mean..how am I supposed to complete everything on that list if no one is gonna want to be with a bald person?", she mumbled.

He knew what she was talking about. Walking behind her, he looked at her from the mirror and smiled.

"Let's go", he said.

"What?", she turned around and faced him.

"You said you want a wig. Let's go buy you one", he said as he held her hand, pulling her out the door.

There was a wig shop nearby which was now useful to her. Before, she would only pass by it and not even think about it.

There were a few that made her look fake, which is what she kept thinking. There was a black shoulder-length wig that made her look like she just came out of a spy movie. All she needed were black clothes that covered her from head to toe.

The brown colored wig that stopped above her elbows didn't even look normal to her. She was starting to give up. Tears began to form and tried to hide it but Mingyu was quick enough to notice.

"What's wrong? You don't like it?", he asked.

"I've tried on more than ten wigs and none of them look good on me. How am I supposed to look pretty if I'm bald and I don't even have the same skin color anymore. I already look dead. I don't even know what's the point", she rolled her eyes and walked out of the store.

Mingyu went after her and grabbed her wrist to turn her around. More than a few tears have spilled from her eyes, staining her shirt.

"You're not dead and you're not gonna die. You don't need a wig to look beautiful. You don't need hair to look beautiful. But if you're not comfortable or happy, then buy a wig. You have to have patience though. There are a lot more stores with different wigs. We won't stop until you find one that you feel comfortable in. Okay?", he softly smiled while holding her hands.

She nodded and went back in with Mingyu.

She tried on other wigs that did not cut out. Mingyu on the other hand loved trying out the wigs. There was one that made him look like a cute mermaid..minus the tail. Although he wouldn't look bad as a mermaid.

"Hey, how about this one?", Mingyu showed her a wig that looked like the hair she used to have.

It was the same color and length. The texture is a bit different but that's not what's important. He carefully placed it on her head and waited for her response.

She looked at herself in the mirror and was reminded of being 16. A full head of thick hair caught everyone's attention, asking if she had extensions on. But all of it came from her scalp.

This wig is for her. Putting on a smile, she looked at Mingyu and nodded. So he bought the wig for her. And he might have bought himself a wig as well, not because he was interested in it. He just didn't want her to feel alone.

When they arrived home, (y/n) decided to check something else off her list.

"Are you sure you're ready?", Mingyu asked.

"Yes. I can do it", she said.

She sat down on the couch and covered herself with a blanket. He gave her the remote to the tv and was about to walk down the hallway into his room.

"If you get scared, let me know. I'll come and fight the monsters that try to eat you", he joked.

"I won't get scared..idiot", she stuttered.

He chuckled and turned off the light.

When he was out of sight, she turned on the movie and got comfortable. Never in her life has she seen a horror movie by herself in the dark. And what's worse is that the movie is about paranormal activity.

Twenty minutes into the movie, she had the blanket over her head, slightly peeking so that the only thing in her sight was the television instead of the darkness around her.

There were doors opening, object moving by themselves. Glancing over at the dark hallway, she can imagine something watching her. A scream in the movie startled her, making her call out for Mingyu. He quickly ran out of his room, surprisingly wearing the wig he bought.

She was scared at first but when she noticed him wearing the wig, she laughed.

"What? You can wear a wig. Does that mean I can't?", he said.

He sat down next to her, removing the wig from his head and setting it aside. She snuggled herself against him and continued watching the movie. Mingyu caressed her head, causing her eyes to close. She shook her head and tried to watch the movie.

"You should sleep if you're tired", he said.

"No. I'm gonna finish watching this movie. It doesn't matter if I'm not alone anymore", she said.

About ten minutes later, (y/n) was asleep on Mingyu's chest. He tried so hard not to move so he wouldn't wake her. Even though he wasn't comfortable since his back was hurting, he'd rather not risk moving and waking her up since he knows she has trouble falling asleep so he stayed the way he was.

The next day, Mingyu planned something for the both of them. Though he wanted it to be a surprise so he put a blindfold on her.

They've been driving for almost an hour. (Y/n) was starting to get impatient.

"Are we there yet?", she asked.

"Almost. Just five more minutes and we'll be there", he said.

"Can I take off the blindfold now?", she asked.

"No. We're almost there", he said.

Once he parked the car, he helped her out and lead her towards the sand. They were at a beach with hardly any people around. She can hear Mingyu talking to a man.

"Okay. You can take it off now", he said.

When she did, she yelled and hid behind Mingyu.

"Why the f-..I told you I'm afraid of horses. Why would you do this to me?", she whine as she stared at the horse in front of them.

"It's on the list. 'Get rid of fear of horses'. I rented this horse so you can face your fear. We're going horseback riding", he said.

"But....what if I end up falling?", she asked.

"Then I'll fall with you...I mean..because since we're gonna be on the same horse", he awkwardly laughed, rubbing the back of his neck while his cheeks turned pink.

"Right...but..what if it's a demon horse planning my death?", she said.

Mingyu stared at her, questioning on the reality of their friendship.

"Come on. Want me to go in front or-"

"I'll just hold onto you", she said.

She hesitated getting close to the horse but once she felt how soft it's coat is. He helped her up before sitting in front of her. Right when the horse began moving, she quickly wrapped her arms around him, shutting her eyes. Mingyu glanced from over his shoulder and smiled, cheeks turning pink once again.

About an hour later, they went back to the car. (Y/n) was about to get in but Mingyu stopped her by placing his arm on the door.

"What?", she asked.

"What's left on your list?", he asked.

She took out the list from her pocket and blushed as her eyes stopped on number 14. There were only three left.

"Um...just graduation and a trip to Paris", she mumbled.

"Hm? Wait a minute. I thought you said there were fifty. We've only done 47", he said.

She put away the list in her back pocket and awkwardly laughed.

"Yeah so did I. I must have read it wrong. Anyways, we should get going", she quickly said in one breath, putting her hand on the handle of the car door.

Mingyu's hand prevented her from opening it. His body was close to hers. Usually when he does something like hug or poke her won't bother but the stare he's giving her is making goosebumps appear on her skin.

"Is there something on my face?", she asked.

"Yes. It's called beauty", he said.

She laughed at his cheesiness which isn't uncommon. He wasn't laughing.

"I'm serious", he said.

She stopped laughing and would look away. His hands held hers, going up until they landed on her cheeks, making her gasp. When she noticed his eyes glancing down at her lips, she panicked and punched his chest.

"Ouch! What was that for??", he asked, holding onto his chest.

"S-Sorry..", she said.

He softly chuckled at her shyness and held her hands. Her eyes were looking anywhere but at him.

Before she could do anything, he quickly kissed her cheek and checked her reaction. Face turning bright red. Finally after having a hard time for him getting her to look at him, she did and that's when he leaned forward and placed his lips on hers. It was soft.

(Y/n) couldn't believe that her first kiss was with Mingyu, her best friend. Is he even a best friend now? Is he something more?

"Number 14. Right?", he asked, lightly smirking.

Maybe not.

"..right", she said.

He opened the car door for her. During the entire ride home, she stayed silent, staring out the window to make time go by.

When they arrived home, (y/n) went straight to her room. Mingyu wondered why she was so quiet so he went to her room and knocked on the door. She was on her bed, staring up at the ceiling.

"Are you okay?", he asked.

"Yeah. I'm just tired", she said.

"Really? Next time we won't be out that long. Are you hungry?", he asked.

"No. I'm just gonna take a nap", she said.

"Okay. Tomorrow we're gonna go shopping to see what you're gonna wear for graduation. Four more weeks. Anyways, rest up", he smiled before closing the door.

~~~

About a week later, (y/n) went to the hospital for her appointment. It was just a check up but she was still nervous. Mingyu ended up working so Soonyoung went with her. He and Ana went out on a date a few days ago and it ended successfully. They won't say they like each other but (y/n) knew.

Mingyu was in his car, driving to see (y/n) at the hospital. His boss let him out early so he decided to buy a bouquet of flowers for her. While at a red light, he took out his phone and dialed her number. She didn't answer so he left a voicemail.

"Hey (y/n), guess who it is...ya boi-..that was stupid. Anyways, I'm on my way to see you. I was let out early and for a good reason. You know, knowing each other for years and taking care of what we need, it made us feel good. This bucket list that you created made me realize that I want to accomplish a lot of things with you. It's kinda weird thinking about it but even weirder saying it out loud. I had to repeat it a bunch of times to me make realize that I'd do anything for you...because I love you. I'm pumped up with adrenaline just from keeping it in but I can't any longer. I love you (y/n). And when I get there, I'm gonna ask you to go to dinner with me and I expect you to say yes. Anyways, I should go. I'm about to start driving. Later", he hung up but accidentally dropped his phone.

"Crap", he said.

He noticed the light was still red so he reached down and tried grabbing his phone.

~~~

"Well, I have some extremely good news for you. You're in complete remission. Not surprised though since you're one of the most strongest patients I've helped. Ana here will explain the rest", her doctor smiled and walked out.

"Wow, finally after two years. How are you gonna celebrate?", Ana asked.

"Chocolate fudge milkshake. I already know what she wants", Soonyoung cockily fixed the collar of his shirt with a smirk on his face.

Ana rolled her eyes and continued talking to (y/n). Soonyoung turned his attention to the tv that had been changed to the news.

"...brakes were broken which the driver had trouble coming to a stop, ending up colliding with a black Honda Civic. The force of the crash was too intense that both drivers were in critical condition. They were sent to the hospital..."

Soonyoung quickly changed the channel and asked if he can speak to Ana privately outside of the room.

"Oooooo secret lovers", (y/n) smirked while wiggling her eyebrows.

When they were out of the room, Soonyoung asked if she can check if Mingyu ended up in that hospital. He asked for her to not say anything to (y/n). When he returned into the room, (y/n) smiled and walked into the bathroom to change back into her clothes.

(Y/n) wanted to call Mingyu so she took out her phone from her purse and raised her eyebrows as she saw a missed call and a voicemail from him.

"..because I love you....I love you (y/n)..."

Her face was bright red and she was smiling like an idiot.

"The voicemail...he told me he loves me...Mingyu loves me", she said to Soonyoung who looked worried.

"I have to call him back", she said, excitedly dialing his number.

"Um.. (y/n)-"

"Do you think he meant it? I mean, why would he say it if he didn't? Especially in a voicemail. Once you say something on that, there's no way to take it back. Unless you steal their phone and erase the message", she said.

The call went straight to voicemail.

"Hmm...strange", she said, looking at her phone.

About a few minutes later, Ana came back but was waiting near the door. While (y/n) was on her phone, Soonyoung walked towards Ana who looks like she'd been crying.

(Y/n) had now looked up from her phone and wondered why Ana was sad. She can see her shaking her head, causing Soonyoung to brush his hair back. When he looked at her, he sighed and sat down in front of her.

"(Y/n)-"

"Did she break up with you or something? Because I can go talk to her if you want", she said.

"No (y/n). There something that I have to tell you", he said.

"Can you tell me later? I wanna go tell Mingyu the good news", she smiled.

Poor Soonyoung didn't know how to tell the poor girl the bad news. She was so happy and excited and once he tell her what happened, she won't be feeling that anymore.

"Something happened (y/n). There was an accident. A truck ended up crashing into the back of Mingyu's car and it caused for both him and the other driver to be taken to the hospital. The injuries were too severe. He didn't make it", Soonyoung said, holding her hand.

(Y/n)'s smile disappeared. She didn't understand. She just received good news. Why did this have to happen?

"He's not dead. He's working", she said.

"No. (Y/n)-"

"Look I can even call him again. He'll answer", she said, dialing his number again but went straight to voicemail.

"Maybe he's just busy with work. Maybe his phone is off..or-"

Soonyoung placed his hand over her phone, telling her to stop. She started crying, feeling the pain in her chest. He wrapped his arms around her and tried to comfort her.

~~Three Weeks Later~~

Graduation Day

(Y/n) walked on stage and received her diploma. Everyone else threw their caps in the air but she didn't. Because on her cap is a picture of her and Mingyu.

After the ceremony was over, people took pictures and said farewell to their friends. (Y/n) had no one to talk to. She sat on the empty bleachers, staring ahead of her.

"Hey."

She turned to her right and watched Soonyoung sit down next to her.

"How've you been? We haven't talked in days", he said.

"I've been okay", she said.

"Congrats on graduating. Are you going to college?", he asked.

"I don't know. I don't know what I wanna do", she said.

Sighing, he took out an envelope from his pocket and handed it to her.

"What's this?", she asked.

"Just open it", he said.

When she did, she took out $5,000 and a plane ticket.

"Mingyu prepared it weeks ago. He was telling me he was gonna give it to you on your graduation day", he said.

A plane ticket to Paris.

"I gotta get going. I just wanted to give you this before I head off. I'll see you soon?", he asked, standing up.

She nodded. He began to walk away but stopped and looked back.

"I'm glad you're not wearing your wig. You look better without it", he softly smiled before leaving.

(Y/n) stared down at the ticket and money. It's the only thing missing to complete her bucket list. Taking one deep breath, she stood up and headed home, packing up her things into her suitcase.

She sat down on the seat next to the window. Never been on a plane so she was a bit scared but one thing Mingyu taught her was to never be afraid unless it was necessary. So she sucked it up and prepared her mind for when the plane took off, staring a new page in her story.