i see a puff of cigarette smoke

let me absorb it in my lungs

stab your dagger through the mirror

you can't trust my bitten tongues

sit in the shatters of what was

let the glass cut your knees

i can't ignore the past, it made me

we can't hold onto fallen leaves

you ask me why i'm afraid

i don't expect you to understand

because for you, i removed my mask

the one i painted in wonderland

but without the rose-gold cheeks

i'm now faced with someone real

and i've never seen her in my life

i don't know what or how to feel

and now that i lost my precious crown

i'm left without a place to start

because as soon as i see her in the mirror

i fight the urge to tear her apart