Jack's pov: it's been a long week...I hope nobody comes over...my life is a living mess...I self harm and I don't eat. I collapsed after not eating.

In America
Mark's pov: what's up with Jack, he's not upbeat in his videos anymore. I'm going to Ireland to see what's up. I arrive in Ireland 10 hours later. I get to Jack's apartment and I knock on the door.

Jack's pov: I'm just lying on the floor with my shirt off, I rub my eyes and get to the door. My voice is shaky, I said, Hello, who's there?

Mark's pov: I'm standing at the door and I said, Sean, it's Mark, can I come in?

Jack's pov: did he just call me Sean? I open the door and he wasn't lying, it's Mark, he's standing there. I go to slam the door shut but he stops me. He said, Sean, you know I care about you, right? My voice was still shaky but I managed to say, right.

Mark's pov: his voice was very shaky, it's like he hasn't been eating. I ask, have you been eating Sean? He said, I've been eating every so often. I scream in my head, THAT ISN'T ENOUGH! I get so frustrated that I head to the bathroom and lock the door, I look around and the sight I see makes my heart stop. I've known Sean for years and I've never seen him like this...I wonder what made him this way on top of that he hasn't been eating, he's maybe 65 pounds at the most. I find myself collapsing, hours go by without me knowing, in my dreams I see Sean, he's looking at me and he's blushing. He turns his head. I go up to him, and I said, smile Sean, you deserve to be happy. He smiles and my heart races, I love that smile. I wake up to pounding on the bathroom door.

Jack's pov: I pound on the bathroom door because I heard a loud bang. I faintly said, Mark, are you okay? He heard me and said, yeah, my head is throbbing but I'm okay. I asked, could you open up the door? He said, yeah. He opens up the door and I run into his arms. He stumbles back but he wraps his arms around me. For once in my life I felt safe, I've always wanted this feeling.

Mark's pov: I had my arms wrapped around Sean, I needed to find out the truth even if it broke my heart, I said, Sean, what were those bloody razors about? His voice was shaking and he said, I've been self harming, it started six months ago when my girlfriend cheated on me with this guy named Jesse. I fell into depression but it wasn't as bad as it now, I stopped eating six months ago and my life has been a living nightmare since. I said, Sean, you need to eat or you'll die. He said, let me die, it's not like anyone loves me. I thought, there's someone Sean, I can promise you that.

Jack's pov: I can't believe I told Mark everything. I'm kinda glad I did because he listened to me. I felt happy, something I haven't felt in ages. I wanted to thank Mark for making me happy and for listened to me so I did. He smiled at me and he said, it's no problem Sean, I'm always glad to help. I am extremely hungry but I can't tell Mark that, I wonder if I'll die. I hope I do because all my life will ever be is a living nightmare. I hope things get better before I do die, Mark hears me about to collapse and he catches me. He carries me to the couch and covers me with a blanket. I feel myself blushing, why am I blushing? While I'm sleeping these words run through my head, ugly, stupid, fat, worthless. I swing up from the couch and cry. I managed to yell, IM SORRY, PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!!! Mark comes in the room and he said, what's wrong Sean? I said, the voices Mark they won't leave me alone. He said, it's going to be okay. I'll always be here for you. I said, thank you Mark, I appreciate it. I blushed a little, I wondered, am I in love with Mark? I must be because I keep blushing