It is a beauteous evening, calm and free,
The holy time is quiet as a Nun
Breathless with adoration; the broad sun
Is sinking down in its tranquility;
The gentleness of heaven broods over the Sea. She smiled as she fed a small peigon some grains and then kept a bowl of water for her , the low chirps of birds could be heard as she tighten the shawl around her gazing at the dusky view in the sky she hears some laughter of small children playing in the lane , some are cycling while some are busy in gossiping about their teachers who had given them pile of homework as their winter holidays have started she laugh and turned around to see the work lying on her table she sighed maybe students have holidays but poor their teachers they have to check their test papers which happened before their schools gets closed . Malir is a good district and atleast she feels it she sighed she is not used to live life like this she had always live under great power and a posh and expensive life till now 25 years of her life and she don't know what actually middle class life used to but now when she started to live like this she could not help but wonder how people managed to live happily even after dealing so many problems in their day to day life the electricity bill, the regular power cut off house rent she huffed she had managed to get a diary and write all those things to remind herself to pay these bills on time so she can have easy lifestyle rather to have face difficulty.

Truly she had lived in the posh area of the Karachi district bahira and after that she doesn't know what actual life looks till she started to get life lessons on daily basis when she used to get sad how their khirad baji had used to ask her mom to get her salary a little early so she can manage her children fees she used to wonder how she managed all things in some thousands of rupees but when she lived here she know they can manage and even lived happily after all she had been managing this from last two months. Some incidents make you more stronger and some break you for life may be this incident had broken her but she cannot broke herself as she is not alone in this life battle a lone tear escape her eye as she moved towards the calender which is hanging on the wall and took the marker and cut the date and caress her belly.

" 6 weeks murtasim ., " she whispered as she took hold of her last ultrasound report of her baby and caress it
" our baby is 6 weeks old ..." she whispered as she took hold of the chair and gulped down water from the bottle laying on the table.
Her life is not bed of roses from the moment she knew as she had come the worst and bitter truth of her life , her parents are not her actual parents and her actual biological father had abandoned her as he feels her murderer of his wife she smiled bitterly no one understand her pain all made mockery of it as they think marriage is the ultimate solution of every problem forcing from her foster parents to getting abandon on night at their footsteps she cannot forget this all till her last breathe but as she nourished a life within her , her bitterness faded a little and she sometimes fondly remembered her parents who loved her like their own even she is not theirs who took her all wishes on their head and fulfill all her demands she loved them enough to get the most painful wound by them only the pain caused by her actual father is not being that big as she didnt consider him anything so why she will be angry towards him ...still she choose now enough to forgive them for their deeds atleast when she herself is going to bring a new life in this world she missed them and above all she missed the father of this baby whom they managed to bring in this world did he used to remember her like she did in her every breathe .

"I missed you murtasim .." but suddenly she reminded why she left him she had loved him enough to leave him for his happiness he loved haya they had a relationship its just she is too blind too notice that they both are binded by her marriage and when she will go all problems will be solved she did leave him she left at midnight even after she had severe pain in all her body , when she is ready to collapse on floor at any second still she choose his happiness now he will be happy she will be happy as she always said
Jab tak main khud usse nhi chorungi tab tak ye rishta khatam nhi hoga haya

She broke this for his happiness may be she get nothing in return but his happiness he will be happy to know that now he didn't have to pretend more to love her how passionate they are looking when he hugged her but is this all is a lie when he pulled her and hugged her with his hands when he caress her face and kissed her is this all lie when he had sowed a life in her even after abandoning her love she is questioning this from last two months to herself but nothing helps all she got more thoughts and her head feel dizzy no she had to forget all these things and focus on her baby only she smiled and sit down on the chair to check the papers and after sometime even when she feels to vomit cook some food

First trimester is very hard her head feel dizzy mostly and she gets too tired easily only some citrus things are the good support for her as she grabbed some imlie from the box she giggled and lick her fingers. Cooking smell make herfeel like puking every time but still she had to manage this she cannot keep her baby hungry

" aww meri jaan ., tumhe saari cheeze apne baba ki hi kyu pasand hai i will make butter chicken tomorrow promise ., par abhi ye paratha aur bhindi khaa lete hai please main bohot thak gyi hoon abhi nhi ban payega aur kuch ..." looks like her baby is listening to her as she didnt feel like puking out again from this meal and while Boiling her milk she listened a knock on the house door turning off the knob she took her shawl and opened the gate

" aap ...iss waqt .." she asked the man who is probably in her mid twenties similar age of her a little younger than her husband

" ji bass aakhiri tareekh thi maheene ki Ammi ne kaha tha ki aaj hi rent le aaon.."

" ji aaiye sorry mere dimag se nikal gaya abhi laati hoon ..." He entered and sits on the wodden chair laying outside the one bhk room

" ye lijiye farukh vo actually geyser main kuch problem aarahi thi agar aap kissi plumber ko kehke theek karwa denge to behtar hoga ..." she asked the landlord
" acha aapne pehle kyu nhi bataya main kal hi kissiko bhejta hoon ,meerab koi pareshani ho to aap bata dijiye amaa pooch rahi thi aapki tabiyat kaisi hai ..."

" sab khairiyat se hai ..kuch pareshani hai aap dono ne pehle hi bohot ehsaan kiye hai mujhpe ..." she gave a small smile
" eshan kaisa aap samjdhar hai padhi likhi hai isliye aapko kaam dilwaya aama ne aur meerab pls sharminda na kare aap ye chain please wapas le le Amma bhi yahi chahti hsi ..."

" ji nhi ye ek hu cheez thi jo main aapko badle sakti thi uss waqt ye main wapas nhi le sakti ...,"

" please le le isse  abb to aapne pichle mahine ka rent bhi de diya iss baar phir abb iska koi matlab nhi Banta .." He pleads to take it back but she didnt budge and he left after sometime
Meerab locked the gate and sighed remembering that fateful night

She had sit in the bus for Karachi but a conductor had come to asked for ticket but she didn't have any money to pay for it but as he is asking her to get down from the bus an old lady who is sitting beside her pay on her behalf.
She express her gratitude towards her but as she asked where she wants to go she don't have any answer she don't want to go to her parents house not because due to their own issue but if by chance murtasim came looking for her then hr will find her and he hadto pretend more so she shook her head telling that she don't know where she will go the lady gasped

"Pagal ho raat ko aise phir rahii hoon , jamana kaisa hai kaha jaogi ., shaadi hui hai .." lady asked she unwillingly nods her head not able to lie her
" shohar kaha hai jhagda Hua hoga aajkal ke tum log Jara jhagda Hua nhi aur chod diya ghar chalo mere saath aaj raat mere ghar reh Lena aur phir kal wapas apne shohar ko bulake chale jana ..." she advised

" nhi nhi , aap chinta naa kare main dekh lungi mujhe kahi nhi jana ..."
" baache jamana acha nhi Mano meri baat masla to har Miya biwi ke beech hota hai suljhaya jaa sakta hai aaj raat mere ghar rehlo kal subah chali jana ..." she knows the lady is telling truth the world is not safe to wander in night like this so she agreed even though she doesn't know her but still seeing her generosity she nods her head and ready to live with her at night
They had moved to malir in her lane where she lived with her only son who is out of town for some work and she passed the night there in Morning the lady asked to called her husband but she refused finding no option feeling her pressure she told lie that he had given her talaaq and she had no one to stay though it broke her but in actuality the situation is like this only they had ended their relation on their own, the old lady sympathies with her and asked where she will go as they sat she told that one house is left for rent in their lane which comes under their name and they are searching for a girl if she wants to live there she can live as sees this opportunity to forget her previous life she nods her head the house is small one with furniture lying there its good , as she had seen the lady gave her some clothes of her niece who is just like her and helped her to fill the home with some grocery this is getting overboard for her and she gave the chain in return as her tocon in their favor the lady though refused even when his son came back on next day they met and he asked that if shewants to join as a teacher in their nearby school as the previous teacher is getting married and wants to leave and his friend is an honored man who is principal of school and she will not have any problem .while this she shifted permanently there .

After taking her vitamin tablet she pulled the cover on her body and closed her eyes

Hyderabad 10:30 p.m

" iske liye nhi paise de rahs hoon tum sabko ki meri meerab ka Pata nhi batla paa rahe hoo tum log do mahine ...." He growled angrily " do mahine hone aaye hai kab kab milegi khabar mujhe .."

All gets scared as their khan is like a wounded lion from past months and if he would not get his wife beside him soon some murder will surely happen in upcoming days

The commissioner runs as he gulped seeing him pacing angrily in the porch area as he sees some of his worker and some more men are standing there bowing their head as the black shawl is wrapped on his black kurta he is not looking less then a lion who will be the death of all if they didn't find out about his wife soon .

" khan humne saare Karachi ke areas dekhe aapne jo unke baba ka address diya tha aas pass ki saari photage check kari , lekin bibi ka kahi Pata nhi lag paa raha hai..."

The khan turned as he stared at his eyes who are nothing but blazing fire which are too soaked in agony and anger that he will burn down this whole world , as his Steps forward the gun in his hands , the fingers on trigger he knows if what a hell is look like made khan angry and he will show that to you this is what is happening from the last two months to all of them he gulped

" tumme se kissiko apni jaan pyaari nhi haina .., Abdullah Mir aagr meri biwi agle 7 din main mere saamne nhi aayi kasam khudka ki agla sooraj koi nhi dekhega ..." He warned as he puts his revolver back and took hold of his phone and they knew that this is not a lame threat but a actual good warning to save their life by getting his wife as soon as possible but looks like she gets disappeared in air they all are looking for her he himself had looked at every corner of Hyderabad but cannot find her and checked all the posh area where she can be found but she is not anywhere.

" Karachi ka Chappa Chappa chano mujhe meerab chahiye ., he shouted

" khan sab jagah dekh liye Maine apne officer ko issi kaam pe lagaya Hua har hospital dekh liya lekin bibi kahi nhi hai bass malir , federal b aur jauhar bache hai vo theek thak jagah hi nhi waha bibi nhi ho sakti hai..."

" federal b aur jauhar ki chaan been karo malir main khud dekhunga ..Bashir kya Hua top detective ho ek ladki ko nhi dhoondh paa rahe hoon ..hmm.." He took hold of his collar
" Maine sari jagah chaan li khaan bibi khi nhi mil rahi hai .."
This same sentence he is listening from everyone from past days and now someone will surely if anyone again going to utter or repeate this his patience is loosing from killing all of them his meerab is missing he didn't see her or feel her presence from months and they cannot able to find her only .

He moved inside as his chacha sahab and his mother are sitting and discussing something without paying any heed he left for his home his uncle tries to stop him but did he care , locking the door he gripped the bed holder and Remember all their memories.

He had hurted his meerab she had left him due to his own shortcomings but is his mistake is this big that she had left him all alone with their memories making him feel difficult even to breathe he only knows how he is surviving in these months without her the day which supposed to be their reunion day and a blissful had turned into nightmare for them as he opened the gallery of his phone he open her picture which she silently took as she watered her plants in their lawn some tears left as he dropped on the sofa

" kaha ho meri jaan .., wapas aajao main Mar jaunga tumhare bina .."