Two weeks have gone by and I think I am getting used to the idea of being with child. Don't judge me but Ryan doesn't know yet. He was worried about my being sick but I told him I'd seen a doctor and I am being treated, a lie. I cannot believe I was angry at him for lying to him and I have been lying to him for four weeks now. Four whole weeks. I get up off bed and go to the bathroom, I really need to tell Ry. I take a quick shower and walk back to the room, Ryan is awake.

"Morning sleepyhead" I greet

"Morning kitten" he kisses my forehead.

"Can we talk, I have something to tell you?" I say.

"Can it wait, I have a meeting to get to?" he asks walking into the bathroom.

"No, I need to tell you now" I say following him to the bathroom.

"Okay, what is it?"

"Well, I -" I get cut off by his and my phone ringing. He has a call, my alarm goes off.

"Sorry, love but I have to rush off" he says after picking the call and rushes to the bathroom. I tried. I change my outfit and get ready for work. I officially started going to work permanently last week. I try to take it easy but it is not. The stress from work has been a excuse I use to explain why I feel sick.

I wear a high-waist corporate pant, a turtle-neck top and blazer all in black. I wear my black heels and leave the room. Ryan and I say goodbye outside and drive separate ways.

"What is happening today?" I ask my assistant beside me. She gives me the quick rundown. Being the CEO of a Technological Enterprise is not one of play. I have so many meetings today and I think I need to take things easy. I tell the driver to slow down so I don't chug in the car.

***

I get back from and Ry tells me we are having dinner with our family.

"Do we have to go?" I ask as I drag myself up the stairs.

"Yes we do, kitten" he answers, arms around my waist.

I quickly change to a black gown with a low back and a sweetheart neckline. I cannot wait to have pregnancy breast. I smile at my reflection. I put on my make-up and join Ry in the living room.

"You look beautiful, Kitten" he says pecking my cheeks.

"And you look handsome" I compliment. He always looks good in a suit.

The drive to my parents house is quiet, the only noise is the music emitting from the radio. Our parents are very close, they met at a childbirth class when my mum was pregnant with me and Ry's mum with Raina. They have remained friends since then.

"Welcome" Sandra, my mom's house manager greets.

"Thanks, where are they?" I ask as she takes my coat.

"Dining" she answers. Ryan and I walk hand in hand as we walk into the dining area.

"You guys are here" Clara, Ryan's mum greets hugging me.

"Hi" I greet returning the hug.

"Hello" Matt, his dad takes his turn to hug me. "There is something different about you" he adds holding me at arms length and looking me up and down. "I cannot place my finger at it".

"Maybe it is being out of school" My dad says kissing my forehead.

"Hi dad"

"Hi love"

"I am also here" Ry says and everyone laughs.

"Come sit" Clara says guiding me to my seat.

The dinner went well and I am happy I didn't reveal my secret by throwing up what I ate. I did mix and match some of my food like adding the a bit of chicken in my dessert ice cream but clearly nobody noticed. I excuse my self to the powder room.

"You did such a good job" I say placing my hand on my belly. "Mummy is proud of you". I look at my self, I am a mummy.

I walk back to the dining and I see they had moved to the living area, Ry and I's parent are dancing slowly to a music. I join Ry and we look at our parents. They have been married for so long and still love each other, would this be the same for Ry and I? even when he realizes I have been lying to him for a while now? As if to answer me, Ry places his hand on my Leg and squeezes it, I look up at him and he is looking at me, my heterochromia eyes reflect in his green orbs.

"Want to dance?" he asks and I nod. We join our parents and dance the evening away.

***

9 Weeks - Cherry

The group and I are going to the beach resort this weekend and I am excited. I quickly pack everything I need for the beach; my pregnancy-okayed sunscreen, sunglasses, beach towel, regular towel, a book, and so on, I also pack other things I would need for a week away. I lay in bed trying to will the headache and nasal congestion I am feeling away. I registered for my prenatal care today and had a transvaginal ultrasound, I take a look at my growing baby's picture and keep it with the one I have from week six. I am happy the group planned this resort weekend this week because who knows, next week I might actually start looking pregnant. This beach trip is to make up for the trip we were planning on going before Raina's wedding.

It's the next day and Ryan drives us to the resort, we meet up the rest of the group and quickly check in. It is evening when we all settle in, we sit outside by a fire and just eat and talk. I am happy that just because we graduated doesn't mean anything changed between us. All our parents retired leaving us in charge of the companies. Ryan and Raina are in charge of different parts of the company and do not have to answer to each other just meet occasionally to talk shop.

It's our second day at the resort and I feel energized which is rare since I got pregnant. Today we decide to go bike riding and Ice cream date, maybe that is why I feel energized. We rent our bikes and compete among each other who would reach point A from point B and I win every time.

"I do not know how buy you are cheating" Lucas says pouting.

"My kitten is just that good" Ryan says and I kiss him. I always win bike races even when we were all young. I guess it is a natural talent. I hope my baby has the same talent.

After riding for a few more hours exploring the small town we were in, we stop by a ice cream parlor, the cutest I have ever seen. We sit by a booth and eat our ice cream, it tastes just right. It's twilight period outside and we all decide to go bowling, I didn't join in because I do not know the repercussions of it on a pregnant woman. We get back to the resort and have dinner.

"Let's play charades" Ava suggests looking at me, we are both queens at charades.

"No" Lucas says.

"I'm in" I say.

"Of course you are, you two never loose" Larson says and we laugh high fiving.

"I'd play charades" Ryan says looking at me.

After a game, Ryan and I win, Ava and Lucas come a close second, they would have won if Lucas hadn't mistaken the sign of movie for that of blending, I do not know how he did that. We played truth or dare after and again Lucas is dared to go into the freezing water.

"I don't think today is Lucas's day" I say as Lucas comes back soaking wet and we all laugh. Ava gives him a towel.

"I just have to agree" Raina says as Lucas shivers in front of the fire.

"How about we all sit by the beach, it is our last night here" Ryan suggests and we all agree. I quickly get a coat from inside, they had all gone to the beach.

Traitors left me behind.

"Hi" I hear someone say behind me. I jump as the person places his hand on my waist. "Don't be scared, I just want to show you a good time" the guy says sneering. The perfume he is wearing assaults my nose and makes me want to throw up.

"No" I say and walk away.

"Wait" he says placing a hand on my shoulder. I take the hand and twist it to his back.

"I said, No" I tell him and let him go, he falls to the floor groaning. The smell coming from him is too much to handle, my baby rebels, I run to a trash can and throw up.

"You crazy lady". I hear the creep say. I turn around and see him cradling his arm and walking towards me. I feel someone grab me and pull me away.

"She said no" Ryan says and punches the guy, I clearly hear his nose crack. The creep drops to the floor again not knowing whether to hold his nose or his arm.

"Are you okay?" Ryan asks holding me at arm's length and inspecting me.

"I am fine, let's go" I say smiling.

"Are you sure?" he asks looking at me.

I place my hand on his cheeks reassuringly, "I am fine".

Its the last day at the beach and today we are getting massages. Ryan suggested we give each other massages instead of getting one from a stranger. I think he doesn't want anyone near me after the incident of yesterday on the beach. We change into the robes provided by the resort. Ryan lathers my back with oil and massages my shoulder blades, spine and lower back, he is doing such a good job for a non-professional. I moan as he kneads my shoulders melting the stress away.

"Stop that" he says.

"What?" I ask raising an eyebrow.

"Stop moaning" he says and I smirk.

"I should stop doing this..." I say innocently and start moaning again.

"You are killing me, Mae" he says and I laugh. I make sure to be quiet till he finishes. It's my turn.

Ry lays on his chest and I oil is back and start massaging. When I am done, I tell him to lay on his back. I position myself across his torso.

"What are you doing?" he asks as I sit on him.

"Massaging my husband" I say casually. He places one hand on my butt and the other is under his head.

"I'm ready" he says and I proceed to massage his chest keeping eye contact with him.

"I love you" he says not breaking eye contact.

"I love you too".

We check out of the hotel after our massages and breakfast and go home.

***

10 Weeks - Strawberry

I look at my reflection in the mirror in my closet and thank goodness I don't look pregnant yet. I pick a form-fitting midcalf length dress, yellow in color and pair it with my black heels. I rub my belly, my baby is officially a fetus now not an embryo

You are growing so quick

My breast have gotten bigger and I love it, Ryan does too even though he doesn't know why. I told him it is because the female body is a mystery and he said that this is the kind of mystery he likes. I remember shaking my head at him and laughing.

Today, he and I are having a date. I look at myself again and join him downstairs.

"How do I look?" I ask him when I step into my room.

"Hmm" he says and puts his hand on his chin.

"I am ugly" I say and start crying. Stupid hormones.

"No, you look beautiful" he say sand holds me.

"But you don't like it and you don't like me anymore" I say still crying.

"No, I still love you" he says. I leave his side and go back to the closet. "Mae, I am sorry, I didn't mean to upset you" he says knocking the door. I change into a lime green dress instead and walk out.

"So, how to I look?" I ask twirling and smiling. Nobody would know I was crying a few minutes ago except maybe Ryan as he is looking at me like I grew two heads.

"Ry, how do I look?" I ask again.

"Perfect" he says still looking confused.

"Thanks" I say and kiss him.

"What just happened?" he asked.

"What?" I ask.

"You were just crying" he says still staring at me.

"I wasn't. Let's go" I say carrying my purse and leaving the room.

"I think I am loosing my mind" I hear Ryan whisper behind me.

We are in the car on our way to the restaurant. Ryan places his hands on mine and I feel a flutter in my stomach, my other hand automatically goes to my stomach, the fluttering has stopped but the smile on my face remains. I squeeze Ry's hand. I am happy that even if he doesn't know, Ryan is here for a big milestone.

"What is wrong?" Ryan asks seeing my hand on my belly.

"I am fine" I say and look out the window still smiling. Our baby is growing so fast and still the father doesn't know. Am I a monster?

We get seated quickly at the restaurant and order. The waiter could not stop staring at my boobs, they are getting bigger and I am loving it. Ryan coughs to draw the waiters attention from my breast to him.

"I am the one ordering not her breast" Ryan says. The waiters face reds up in embarrassment.

While eating desert, I look at Ryan and blurt out, "Are we ready for kids". I groan inwardly, why did I say that. Ryan just stares at me like I have to heads.

"Where did that come from?" he asks. I do not know, Ryan.

"I am just curious" I say with a shrug and put food in my mouth. He places his hand on mine and I look at it, this is not going to end well.

"I don't think we are ready yet, we are going to have kids someday but maybe not now. Do you agree?". I stuff my mouth with food and just nod. Well, that didn't go well. How am I supposed to tell him now? Would he even be happy about the child? I can't give up like this.

"I do think we are ready" I say swallowing my food. "Would it not be great to have our own flesh and blood running around, a testament to our love? You do love kids and I think you'd be a great dad" I add.

"I want a kid too, Mae and I can't imagine having one with someone else. You would be an amazing mother, Mae but not now" he says. I take a deep breath and face my meal avoiding to look Ry's in the eyes 'cause I might end up crying.

How do I tell him now, would he reject me and our child, would he actually divorce me now? I need to figure this out because I am going to be showing any day now. I didn't say anything else till the end of dinner about the child. I try to lighten up mu mood so I don't give myself away or dampen Ryan's mood. He planned this wonderful date and I am going to enjoy it.

"What is on your mind?" Ryan asks placing his hand on mine, holding me.

"I am just stressed out and a little tired" I say, it is not entirely a lie. I just didn't tell him why I am stressed out.

"You have been working a lot lately" he says. How else am I supposed to keep myself busy when there is something growing in me and I am lying about it. "You need to take it easy so you don't burn yourself out" he adds.

"I know, I would take it easy" I add trying not to touch my belly.

***

I open my eyes and see myself in the hospital, London is standing over me holding my charts. There are other doctors with her, a nurse is making sure the drip is working.

What is happening? Why am I here?

Oh my gosh, is my baby fine?

I place my hand over my stomach, Please be fine. I look around me and see my bag on a chair in the room.

"London" I whisper. She looks at me and her face breaks into a smile.

"Thank goodness you are fine" she says.

"What happened?" I ask.

"Well, you fainted at work". I fainted. "It seems you haven't been taking it easy and you are stressed out. You have to be careful with your blood pressure" she adds. I try to sit up but she stops me, "You have to rest till you finish your drip, then I would discharge you". A thought nudges at the back of my head.

"How is my baby?" I ask scared.

"It is fine" I take in a deep breath of relief. Another thought springs to mind, Ryan.

"Did you call Ryan?" I ask slowly. This is not how he should find out.

"I did" She starts and my heart rate increases, the monitor beside me beeping. "Relax Mae, I didn't tell him about the baby" she adds and I visibly relax. "Talking about the baby, I have put you in for a ultrasound next week". I nod. I would want Ryan to be there, it is time to tell him.

"Mae!" Ryan calls as he enters the room. Okay, not now. Later, I promise.

"I am fine" I say trying to calm him down.

"Like heck you are. You are in the hospital Mae, the hospital" he says sitting beside me. I try to sit up again but he holds me down. Can they just let me sit up.

"I am fine, I promise, It is just stress" I say.

"Is that true?" he asks London.

"Yes, maybe she needs a trip. Something to take her off work for a while" London suggests.

"We are doing that" Ryan says agreeing with her.

"You are not serious" I say laughing.

"Dead serious Mae. You are at the hospital, that is how serious I am" He says.

"Fine, let us go to Ireland, we haven't been to the castle yet" I say getting onboard the trip train. His face brightens up.

"Perfect, we leave next week".

I know I am supposed to have ultrasound but I don't want to until Ryan knows, we should be together on that day.

***
Bags packed, all dressed and ready for the airport. I enter the closet to make sure I got everything and I know something is wrong when I first hear my phone ping alerting me of a message and then it rings. Ryan answers but I do not hear him say anything.

Please don't be London.

I walk out the closet to ask what's up. He drops my phone and stares at me. It takes one question to send my heart to a beating frenzy.

"You are pregnant?".

Okay, It's London.