Kakashi pov :

Its been a few days since ryuushi had been gone on her mission. I'm also on my mission right now. It's only now that I realise how much she could affect me...

All that's in my brain right now is thinking how I could get her back to talking to me without hurting her in my free time. I even got a little distracted that I didn't notice a kunai was coming for me. Tenzou (aka yamato) had deflected it away for me " daijobu? You seem distracted. "

Kakashi: gomen. Arigato.

Tenzou: what's with you? senpai

Kakashi: just some things on my mind.

Tenzou: I see. Sigh... Actually me too.

Kakashi: eh? Why?

Tenzou: my new taichou is kinda mean and hard to get close to.

Kakashi: is that so?

Tenzou: yea... All she does is give orders and doesn't really talk to us. She is younger than us which makes me kinda feel bad.

Kakashi: eh? You don't have to. You're really great too.

Tenzou: luckily she agreed to let go of me and come help you.

Kakashi: hahaha. Is she that bad?

Tenzou: well she's just quiet really. She seemed kinda sad when I mentioned your name though. Kakashi senpai did you hurt her?

Kakashi: eh??? I don't know if I even know her.

Tenzou: ehto.... I think her name is... Ma...zaki? Yu...ni? Something like that.

Kakashi: mazari... Ryuushi?

Tenzou: yea!! That!!! Kakashi senpai. You really hurt her?

Kakashi: did she... Show that painful of an expression?

Tenzou: Kakashi senpai...
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We were done with the mission and returned to the village.

Tenzou: taichou?

I looked to her mask. I wanted it so much to be off.... When did I fall in love so hard?

Ryuushi: there's a mission two days later. I need you. Get some rest. I don't want a restless ninja.

Tenzou: hai.

She turned to walk away but I grabbed her wrist " Ryuushi. "

" let go kakashi-san. " she turns around " unless you have an order for me. " I reach for her mask. She shrugs me off and backsteps " what are you trying to do? " she has become so cold to me after a few weeks... Is it even possible now to go close to her? It took me so long to realise it...

Kakashi: gomen. How are you now?

Ryuushi: nothing much and none of your business.

She left after saying that.
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I walked pass her house and realise something that night... How I was able to subconsciously ignore the fact how important she is to me. Her house was so near mine. I would subconsciously think about her and than push her to the back of my mind. I was relieved knowing she was safe in that house. I was happy... That... I was part of her life.

I never realised... She is that important...

I walked up and knocked onto the door. The door opened. Ryuushi... Her face...

The moment she saw it was me,she closed it. I put my hand at the gap, she tries to push my hand out of the gap " go away!!" I wanted to see her face... She tried pulling the door close and it got my hand. She opened the door immediately " are you crazy?!! " She took my hand and healed it.

I cup her head and put her head to my chest " Ryuushi aishteru. "

Ryuushi: what... *push * go away.

Kakashi: ryuushi...

Ryuushi: I said... Sensei suki wa yada...

Kakashi: not as your sensei.

Ryuushi: how would I know if you're not lying.

Kakashi: gomene... I've hurt you.

" than prove it!!! Prove... That you're just not saying it!!.... Kiss me!!! " she demanded. This little idiot. I pulled down my mask kissed her lips " there. "

Ryuushi pov:

What... Not real... Not real... My cheeks blushed red. I've never thought this could happen. I cover my face with my hands and ran into my house. Suddenly arms wrapped my waist and turns me around... Sensei's face.... So close...

Kakashi: you wanted me as a lover than you are ready to accept me as a man?

Kakashi pov :

What am I saying...

She kissed me on the lips giving me a little shock " than promise me you won't see me as a little girl. " I hugged her and lifted her up carrying her butt " ryuu ryuu... "

" sensei... " she leaned her face to mine.

Kakashi: still saying that?

Ryuushi: its just a habit... Kakashi.

She buried her face in my shoulder " Kakashi... "

Kakashi: am I smelly? I'll go take a shower.

She shakes her head " kakashi's smell... Neh... Can you sleep here with me tonight? "

I blush a little " well... " She looked into my eyes " please... "

Kakashi: sigh... Alright.

I snuggled it next to her. Its as if by natural she snuggles next to me near my body and tangles her legs with mine. My heart thumps faster... I put my arms around her and hug her in.

Ryuushi: Kakashi... Suki...

Kakashi: ryuushi suki.

Ryuushi: papa used to say I would find a man who would snuggle me in like he would with me. I'm so happy.

Kakashi: your papa? Your papa used to snuggle like that with you?

She didn't answer, she just buried her face in my chest. I stroked her hair " I won't be mad. Or go away. "

Ryuushi: um...

Kakashi: so you knew... Your papa was projecting... His love for your mama to you.

She nods again " um... " she looks to me in the eyes " but... I didn't want papa to be sad. And than... After papa died... No one loved me anymore. " I kissed her forehead " I see... So you wanted someone to love you. Than why push me away? "

She started crying... " what if... You were to die like mama and papa? It would be painful... Painful... " she pushed me away and got off the bed and into the toilet.

" hey!! Ryuushi!! " she wouldn't open the door. I had to knock it down because I knew how stubborn she was. She was sitting in one corner " go away... " I hugged her " its ok. "

So that's why she didn't want to make connections. That's why she hated people looking her as a child. That's why in thinking she grew up so fast. She just didn't want to get hurt again. She was afraid to get near me for the same reason.

" Kakashi... Really? " she looked to me with watery eyes. I just hugged her and she squeezed me back.