Dear Zayn,

I found your letter today. It was tucked under your pillow. I finally got around to making the bed today, you’ve been gone for two weeks, the house is a mess. My therapist sucks and the other boys don’t understand. I’m glad for liam though, hes the one that forces me to get out of bed.

God Zayn, life without you fucking sucks I don’t even want to live anymore. The boys are making me see a therapist now, and he wouldn’t approve of me writing this letter but fuck it right? It’s the only way I know how to talk to you. The dude fucking sucks, I hate him, he put me on these pills to make me happier but what the hell will pills do? I’m tired Zayn.

When are you coming back to me. When am I going to see you again? Can we cuddle tonight?

I’m sorry about the tears splattering this paper. I can’t think right now. My brains getting fuzzy.

Im going to miss liam and harry and Louis. Do you miss them sometimes?

I forget why im writing a letter right now zayn do you remember? Maybe this is my goodbye letter.

I took a whole bottle of advil. My hand is shaky, I can’t stand, I can’t wait to see you zayn.

I’m glad that the worst two weeks of my life are almost over. Do you think I made a mistake?

What if no one finds me here on the bathroom floor. Have I made a mistake Zayn? No.

No of course not, I get to see you soon. I’m really happy right now Zayn, I see stars? Do you see the stars zayn? I’m in the stars hopefully you’re near.

I’m getting tired Zayn.

Goodbye Zayn, love niall.

Do you see the stars yet

Im almost there